Some Assembly Required

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Dan Mager. Some Assembly Required

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SOME ASSEMBLY REQUIRED

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I found resourcefully manipulative and creatively dishonest ways of keeping that bobsled on the track past the point where it was beyond my capacity to control it. The grossly disparate parts of my life that I had worked so hard to keep isolated from one another—successful behavioral health professional, committed, loving, responsible husband and parent, and dissembling, practicing addict—increasingly began to collide. Ultimately, the walls that separated them crumbled and fell, leaving my sense of self, my family, and my career buried in an avalanche of rubble.

As the shitstorm blew up, it splattered me with the consequences of my choices and actions and my defenses started to fall apart. The psychological bulwarks that had protected me from too much conscious contact with the reality of my addiction and allowed it to continue came undone. The awareness that I was an addict could no longer be suppressed. It refused to stay put in the designated compartments of my cognitive closet and was now in my face, unleashing a torrent of mental, emotional, and spiritual anguish and demanding acknowledgment.

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