River of Love

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Aimée Medina Carr. River of Love

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1. Prologue. Great Blue Heron. The measure of Love is to Love without measure. –St. Augustine

2. Red Cañon River People. The only time you should ever look back. is to see how far you’ve come –Anonymous

3. Blessed Day. Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all the others. –Cicero

4. Little Mama Cha Cha. A single rose can be my garden a single friend my world. –Leo Buscaglia

5. Bonfire. Love is the fire that breathes life into matter and unifies the elements. –Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

6. The Gonads. Love is a fruit in season at all times and within the reach of every hand. –Mother Teresa

7. Baptism by Boulder. We shall be changed in a moment, in the twinkling of an eye. –Corinthians 1:15

8. Soul Train. Dance till the stars come. down from the rafters! –W.H. Auden

9. Trust The River. Leave the past to God’s mercy, the present to God’s Love, and. the future to God’s providence. Then you will be free –St. Augustine

10. God’s Garden. Love is repaid by Love alone. –St. John of the Cross

11. Nobody Rides for Free

12. Something Extraordinary. I find ecstasy in living; the mere. sense of living is joy enough –Emily Dickinson

13. Womb to Tomb. Let the farthest, oldest, most ancient ancestors speak to us! And let us be listeners at last, humans finally, able to hear. –Listeners at Last by Rainer Maria Rilke

14. Love is Color Blind. Love begets Love. Love knows no rules —Virgil

15. Happy Place. If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun. –Katharine Hepburn

16. Queen Alma’s Pearls. Lord, take me where you want me to go; let me meet who you want me to meet. Tell me what you want me to say; And keep me out of your way –Father Mychal Judge OFM

17. Go-to Girl. Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one’s courage. –Anaïs Nin

18. Blaze Skyward

19. Eyes of Heaven

20. Be the Star. And then the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was greater than the risk it took to blossom. –Anaïs Nin

21. Lotta Love. If I got rid of all my demons, I’d lose my angels. –Tennessee Williams

22. Pocha Princess. A Mexicana is a very strong woman— mujeres muy mujeres –Chavela Vargas

23. A Seat at the Table. Diversity is being invited to the party. Inclusion is being asked to dance. –Vernā Myers

24. Stick to Your Guns. You can’t test courage cautiously. –Annie Dillard

25. Chicano Power. what didn’t you do to bury me. but you forgot I was a seed –Konstantinos Dimtriadis

26. Sacred Spaces. Do not plunder the Mystery with concepts –Zen Masters

27. Murder in the Cathedral. Some find their paradise others come to harm. –Amelia by Joni Mitchell

28. Into the New Future. A woman’s place is in the House—House of Representatives. –Bella Savitsky Abzug

29. Fortunate Son. Who won your war?!!! –Wooden Ships by Crosby, Stills, Nash & Young

30. Draggin’ The Gut

31. Rae and Jen. Love is friendship with erotic moments –Antonio Gala

32. Raining Rocks. Come to me Take my hand. Look into your heart There I’ll be. Roses shall divine Holy mother. Mother of gold Mother with stories. Told and retold She felt our tears. Heard our sighs And turned to gold. Before our eyes She rose into the light –Mother Rose by Patti Smith

33. Vaqueros Riding Club

34. Cosmic Coyotes. Shawnodese, the Spirit Keeper of the South, whose animal and Spirit manifestation is Coyote. This is the time of late childhood and early adulthood. These are times of rapid growth- on many levels. Coyote is the Teacher, guiding us through many lessons during this time. She has to trick us into learning what we need, but would rather lead us. The animal, coyote, is a wonderful mother, teaching her offspring what they need to live in harmony with their environment, and so with Shawnodese, include the Spiritual lessons/gifts of Growth, Trust, and Love. –From the Sun Bear Medicine Wheel

35. The Profit Peacemaker. Indians believe that something lives as long as the last person who remembers it. My people have come to trust memory over history. Memory, like fire, is radiant and immutable while history serves those who seek to control it and douse its flame to destroy the dangerous fire of truth. Beware of these men for they are dangerous and unwise. Their false history is written in the blood of those who might remember and seek the truth. –Floyd Red Crow Westerman

36. Memories, Dreams, Reflections. I know there is another way to live. When I find it, the angels will cry out in rapture, each cell of my body will be a rose, a star. –Morgan Farley

37. Clean Getaway. Falling in Love is not a choice—to stay in Love is. –Anonymous

38. Santo Niño. If the only prayer we ever say in our lives is “Thank You,” that will be enough. –Meister Eckhart

39. Tunnel Drive. The one who gives would never remember. The one who receives would never forget –Jewish Proverb

40. Pésame. Mother said, “Go and give. sympathy—condolence. comfort the grieving” Never imagined, pésame would be. given to me. Tears flow… ache of abandonment. seared in the memory and bones. The seventeen-year-old psyche. doesn’t understand. what she did or didn’t do. The pain fresh embedded deep. in Forever’s Bedrock. How to let go? Buried truths burst forth. Blast it with Freedom. Resurrect—like the Child. of pure Love

41. Manitou Falls. Only those who will risk going too far. can possibly find out how far one can go –T.S. Eliot

42. Get Back on the Horse. There is no remedy for Love, but to Love more. –Henry David Thoreau

43. Crash and Burn. What cannot be said. Will be wept –Sappho

44. Star Watcher. River Dance. Migrating to Manitoubiting wind on cheeksglittering snow crunchedsqueaky underfoot. Dance to the wind’s melodyrippling rush of The River trill of the songbird. Moment of presence You flow in me like a riverbedreceiving and letting go at the same time. Joyful at what was… what isnurture what will beGrace forms a void—then fills it. River of Holy Mysteryexist as it is hands and hearts wide open. Love—Ever PresentLove—Evermore

45. Diamond Among the Rocks. Altar de mis Amores Preciosos. Between the rational spaces of the brain. they camp out like demanding children—mewing “Look at me!” Resigned. Stuffed down. Pushed away. Hiding underground waiting for eons. Time doesn’t obey our commands. Tenderhearted memories conjure up. and mold into flesh and bone. Connect and communicate. Soar like Eagles. Years trailing backward—forward. Words fetched you back, fountain of tears wept. hearts cracked wide open, poked and prodded. Mine the garden of sorrow. Past ~ Present ~ Future. The Holy Trinity of Regret. If Only’s. What If’s. Could’ve Been’s. Nostalgia’s False God’s. refuse to be inconsequential

46. Leap. Old Love, leave me alone, Old Love, just go on home. It’s just an illusion. caused by how I used to feel. and it makes me so angry. I know now that I’ll never learn –Old Love by Eric Clapton

47. Doppelgängers. In youth we learn; in age we understand –Marie Ebner-Eschenbach

48. Chavela Finds Clarity. Let us not look back in anger. or forward in fear. but around in awareness –James Thurber

49. River of Love Reunion. Pleasure is found first in anticipation, later in memory. –Gustave Flaubert

50. Hearth of the Divine. Gratitude is happiness, doubled by wonder. –C.K. Chesterton

51. Love is Short–Forgetting is Long. Never cut what you can untie –Robert Frost

52. Love is My Religion. Love is my religion— I could die for that— I could die for you. My. Creed is Love and you. are its only tenet –John Keats

1. Acknowledgments

2. About the Author

3. About the Publisher

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Oh, I wish I had a river

I could skate away on

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“Now, happily married and with a family, I couldn’t connect the dots till looking backward. A dark gravity field of a wounded past held me hostage for decades. My focus was on the daily routine, afraid of the rich, mysterious inner world. What held me back; fear of failure and insecurity? Neediness and security overruled my deepest desires. La cola mueve al perro—the tail wagging the dog.

Recently, on a golden Indian summer afternoon while on a visit to Red Cañon I went for a run on the trail of the crystalline Arkansas River. Daydreaming along the wide riverbank, I reviewed the jigsaw jumble of my life. Jackpot! It was as if someone had ripped off the ceiling and showed me the sky. Not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck. Simply, some Love is ill-timed. I let go of what wasn’t meant to be including the negative storyline that defined me. My nightmare twenties made me who I am. Messy mistakes are portals of discovery. I bloomed from the wound that once bled.

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