Читать книгу Монолог - А.К. - Страница 1

It nearly was a midnight,

I couldn’t close my eyes

Kept thinking, fancying, wondering

Of where would I’ve been tonight.

If I listened to myself

If I trusted my own heart

If I wasn’t so afraid to show what I am really like.

If I got out of my bed

If I practiced, practiced more

If I mastered that piano

'Cause I wanted that for sure.

If I plucked up all my courage

If I stopped rely on luck

If I thought «I’ll make it happen»,

Never tortured my own mind.

If I never doubted my gifts

If I followed my own light

If I fell and then got straight up

But I never really tried.

If I wasn’t fearing future

If I took care of myself

If I asked for help I wanted

I would certainly gain strength.

If I closed my ears when people

Tried to talk me to what’s right

If I could decide for myself

Would it lead to happy life?

If I knew I could’ve managed

To stay loyal to myself

And I know I have what’s needed

To make all of the success.

What a life i would have had?

If I listened to myself.

If I got out of my bed.

Wouldn’t that be really great?

It was such a lovely day

I felt calmness in my veins

Begged for it to never change

Mind set free from all the pain.

I was walking through the trees

Chirping birds, my heart at ease

Digging into memories

I have never felt like this.

No one’s there to crash my soul

Feeling loved all by my own

In my hand – a small pine cone

Causing me to smile more.

Blazing sun, I raised my head

Here’s pointless to pretend

And as my cheeks now turned red

Time to finally go back.

Fragile or fractured?

Now hard to tell.

To be a wave

Or to warn and burn like a flame?

To face it all

And no matter what,

Just be brave?

Or run from all,

So no matter what,

Be ashamed?

To fall and fly again

Through the dark?

Or fall and drown in pain

On the ground?

To be alive or to never try?

To never hide,

Or never fight?

Bizarre, that’s right

I’m here, I tried

Shot down, I’m tired

Too steep to climb.

I’m out of sight

I’m running wild