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Candida Lawrence. Fear Itself
Fear Itself
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
1932. BERKELEY, CALIFORNIA
1935. ECHO LAKE, THE SIERRAS
1945. OAK RIDGE, TENNESSEE
1945–46, WINTER. DAYTON, OHIO
SPRING 1946. CHAGRIN FALLS, OHIO. LOS ALAMOS, NEW MEXICO
1949. BERKELEY, CALIFORNIA
1950-53. PRINCETON, NEW JERSEY
1953–55. MUNICH, GERMANY
2000. MILL VALLEY, CALIFORNIA
1956. LONDON AND BOW BRICKHILL
1956. PRINCETON AND BERKELEY
1957–58. MANHATTAN, BERKELEY
1958–60. MANHATTAN AND. MIDDLETOWN, CONNECTICUT
1966. VENTURA, CALIFORNIA
SUMMER 1991. NEVADA
2002. MENDOCINO, CALIFORNIA
2002. MILL VALLEY, CALIFORNIA—HOME
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Fear Itself
“What’s leegence?” He wasn’t quick to answer, and I moved on, “What’s a republic?”
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I sit up and take my green package of spearmint gum out of my jeans pocket with the brass rivets (why?) and stare at it. There’s an outer wrap and inside are five pieces of gum, each wrapped in green paper with lettering on it, and inside is the gum enfolded in tin-foil. This gum has come to me by boat (the delivery boy is real cute) from the store at the end of the lake. Molly writes an order each day and the next day he delivers everything in person. He has to carry the grocery box up the hill to our cabin. In Berkeley, I can buy spearmint lots of places, and once I asked a visitor to the house if you could buy this same gum in Paris. Yep. This inventing, packaging, selling, traveling of gum is much more amazing to me than the occasional fossil lizard print I find in granite up here above the cabin. The lizard doesn’t have a clue about becoming a fossil, but some human mind wants to be able to get spearmint to my mountain cabin in the summertime. I mean, this all started in one person’s head. He (it’s surely a man) knew that people like to chew, and he invented a substance that wouldn’t stick to your teeth or poison you if you swallowed it; then another person made a machine that formed it into thin rectangular shapes and wrapped paper around them; then someone else figured out how to roll it, fly it, float it all over the world into stores and homes. Amazing.
All these thoughts about people (men) all over the world inventing and manufacturing and selling are giving me a headache and I lie down again. I feel there should be Someone in control, to guide all this busy-ness, and it seems mighty strange that we’re all alone in the universe, the only creatures inventing gum, and it’s all an accident, as Daddy has said. He’s cheerful about the idea of accident. But sometimes he gets gloomy and tells me that human beings also thought up property and God and nations and invented weapons to kill each other when they fight about these things. He was an ambulance driver in the First World War but he doesn’t like to talk about it. Molly says he picked up bloody arms and legs and bodies for two years and was gassed. Someone invented gas.
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