Wording a Radiance

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Daniel W. Hardy. Wording a Radiance

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Preface

Part One

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At some level he felt (and always had felt) deeply ‘unloved’: no doubt this was one of the reasons he identified so closely with the marginalized and with the life and work of Samuel T. Coleridge. He had great integrity; he had no time for the games people play (which also had its flip side; he was surprisingly naive and idealistic, reluctant almost, when it came to being political); and he always had just as much (if not more) time for the outsider or underdog as he did for the many high-status people he engaged with. This was perhaps something personal to him, but it also had an element of prophetic dissatisfaction about it (see below, p. 22).

Throughout my childhood, I was often aware of a sense of loneliness and heaviness (sadness?) about him and wondered why he had virtually no close personal relationships or friends. He related intellectually with his colleagues and with those for whom he had pastoral care/responsibility, but it was much more difficult for him to share his own feelings and emotions. In later years he sometimes spoke himself of the difficulties he felt he had in communicating, particularly about himself, and in relating to and trusting others. In many ways he was a deeply private and solitary person, with areas that were quite encapsulated18 and defended within him: he was always responsive, but hardly ever took the initiative, however much you might long for him to (see below, pp. 20, 138 for more on this).

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