At any moment we will find ourselves in a different path. Sometimes we lose our love ones and sometimes a friend. I am a widow and I am recently learning how to cope with my new journey. Love is all around us but finding that one person to love doesn't always come easy and once we are happy an event can take that person away forever. My love continues on and I continue to live on. Either way, I am honoring my husband's service in the Army and we should honor all those that die and have passed on.
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Elsa Arroyo. The Tears and Love Everlasting:
The Beginning of My Journey
The Army and The Alcohol Incident
The Suicide, The Army, and The Memorial
The Funeral
In Memory of Derek Bennett
My Unwanted Days
Attempting to Date Again
The Treatment
Life After Crisis Intervention
Continuation of Journal Entries and Derek’s Death
Mommy, I want Daddy Here!
Healing my Heart and Dealing with Emotions
Receiving the Death Certificate
Facing Thanksgiving and the Day after
My Relationships with Men
Moving On
Cleaning out the Closet
Facing the Days before Christmas and Christmas Day
After Christmas and Approaching the New Year
Learning Acceptance
Finding Closure
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The beginning.
There’s a song from the motion picture The Fountain called “Together We Will Live Forever” by Clint Mansell. Whenever I listen to it, the song calms my thoughts, and this is what I see.
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He would tell me that people would look at him differently and make assumptions about him. I felt hurt that his unit had done this to him. How could something so sensitive get out like that? Why was his privacy invaded so much? I just did not understand that and was very upset at his unit’s behavior.
Knowing all of this, we still did not receive any kind of support or check-up from anyone in the unit. It felt like the crime and his guilt was already determined, with no room for innocence. Derek was being treated as guilty until proven innocent. Is this the way the Army handled things? I have seen it before, and that wass exactly how it feels. And the Army wonders why there are so many suicides. Where was the support? Why was no one fighting for Derek? No action was taken; no one bothered with it. It is truly sad and breaks my heart to write this down but deep down inside, I truly believe that whatever did happen was an accident, not intentional. It was unfair how people were treating Derek and judging him based solely upon the rumors spreading throughout the unit.
