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Kirsten Pagacz. Leaving the OCD Circus
PRAISE FOR LEAVING THE OCD CIRCUS
CONTENTS
FOREWORD
INTRODUCTION
1. A BUDDING RELATIONSHIP
The New Stranger and the Invitation
1975: Nine Years Old (OCD Arrives)
Longfellow Park 1974: Eight Years Old (Pre-OCD)
Orange Tiger Lilies
Our Secret Friendship Grows (The Games)—1975: Nine Years Old
Cleaner Is Better for Sergeant and Me (OCD Is Morphing)
Schlage Opens the Way—1977: Eleven Years Old
Sixth Grade Summer
Sergeant Style
Boobs
Temporary Euphoria
2. OCD LIKE A BRUSH FIRE
High School (Checker Maximus!) OCD: 1980–1984
Cord Check Time
Cleaning Time
Dating Time
Crank It Up a Notch
Distracting Myself
“Get Loose of the Noose!”
Therapy Time
DISREGARDED
3. STORM OF A CHAOTIC MIND
Congratulations, You've Arrived at Loser Land
Let It Snow
The Zipper—1987: Twenty-One Years Old
Love of Retro
Dancing Penguin
Pray for Neutral
Serial Killer
Real Fear versus OCD Fear Can Be Perplexing
Larva
Please Repeat That Please Repeat That
Leap of Faith
SICK POND
Drive Radical Sabbatical—1993
Lilac Village
Here's Where OCD Can Get Dicey (It Gets Dicey Everywhere but Here's a Biggie)
But Here's the OCD Snageroo
The Pusher and the Puller
Kindness . . . a Lap of Cream for the Soul
Eat Some Ice Cream and Have Some Fun
4. BUILDING TOWARD A CRESCENDO
Yoga and the Killing Bible
1997: Thirty-One Years Old My List of Can't Dos (Just the Ones I Can Remember)
LITTLE MISS PARTICULAR
Bright Pink Piece of Paper
China Cups Crash
5. GETTING TO KNOW YOU
Angel on NPR
I've Been Fucking Robbed (and the Big Reveal)
I've Been Fucking Robbed
Is There a Cure?
Spying and Exposure
Spying and Exposure
Giving Monkey the Middle Finger
Monkey Is at the Door. Are You Going to Answer It?
Monkey Is at the Door. Are You Going to Answer It?
El Supremo Thinking—1998: Thirty-Two Years Old
A Special Blend of Wedding Jitters
ALL TANGLED UP, NOT THIS TIME, MONKEY
A Special Blend of Wedding Jitters
6. DANCING SHOES
The One-Two Punch
What Is Going on in My Brain?
Parasailing with the Sharks
Let's Dig a Little Deeper
Monkey or ________________ Kung Fu; It's Not OCD, It's YCD = Yes Can Do!
What You Need to Know about Your Dance Partner
How Many of These OCD Traits Are Familiar to You?
What Monkey or__________Wants
Your OCD Kung Fu Dance Moves
Your OCD Kung Fu Dance Moves
One Night the Phone Rang
7. FINDING NUTRIENTS
A Bigger Picture
Bloom
Rocket Fuel
Tune In to the Imagination Station
Who's This Now?
Perception and the Power to Choose
One Simple Dandelion
A Front Row Seat
Anxiety Sandwich
Like in Making a Movie, Take Ten Thousand and Two!
Up for Wellness!
The Egg Story
Digging Deeper: It Starts with a Dream
Origami
Pale Purple Hue
One Hot Plate of Custom-Made OCD Coming Right Up
The Final Threat
Yes
LOVE—it's here that you will dance out of your constriction
8. MY LIFE WITH CHIMPSAY
Dorsal Fin
Yoga
Where the Wave Meets the Sand
9. HABITS OF HAPPINESS
Something Bigger Than Myself
Retro-a-go-go! Today
Supple Noodle (Plus They Make for a Much Better Soup!)
Behind the Waterfall
In the Pocket
Park Amidst the Palms
Traveling to India
Unlikely Hero
Mosaic
Where I Am Today
Distracting Messages
Chimpsay and His Messaging Center
Is It All Peaches and Cream?
Final Thoughts from Your Friend, Kirsten Weirdsten
Common Compulsions. WASHING AND CLEANING
CHECKING
REPEATING
MENTAL COMPULSIONS
OTHER COMPULSIONS
Common Obsessions in OCD. CONTAMINATION
LOSING CONTROL
HARM
OBSESSIONS RELATED TO PERFECTIONISM
UNWANTED SEXUAL THOUGHTS
RELIGIOUS OBSESSIONS (SCRUPULOSITY)
OTHER OBSESSIONS
Your OCD Kung Fu Dance Moves
ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
FURTHER RESOURCES
RESOURCES FROM THE INTERNATIONAL OCD FOUNDATION (IOCDF)
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
TO OUR READERS
