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Conflicts: the unsuccessful battle for life

I was there alone, there was no one around.

It was when in a quick spark of sunlight that hit my face, I soon woke up, and in a burst of speed my eyes were soon opened and saw.

I was there, I'm here, well, good and doing well.

It had been three nights now that I hadn't slept well.

Maybe someone's fault!

Between rainy and cold days, and others of extreme heat and scorching sun, I was always wandering in my silent thoughts. I wandered through my sweetest daydreams.

I looked around and they didn't recognize me in anyone, in anything. Everything was dark and suspicious to me, for I was what I am, singular and healthy as an ox.

I started swinging my legs for time to pass faster and without drama.

As soon as I didn't calm down with that, I soon began a long and arduous count, first by the fingers of the hands and then by objects that I saw nearby.

With that, I ended up in an almost infinite mental count, if it weren't for the noise of the wind hitting the windows against each other and very hard against the wall, I would never have stopped counting and counting.

The environment and its temperature that were hot, so abruptly from one time to another quickly changed, and soon cooled down with the cold and biting wind.

The fan on the floor was weak and very noisy.

Its noise sounded like a car trying to start when the engine cuts out, and at other times it sounded like a helicopter taking to the air.

But that's good, it makes me sleepy…

I stopped the counts I was doing.

I interrupted my restlessness and movements of legs and hands, both tense and expressing concerns, perhaps fears or apprehensions.

Maybe I didn't even think about the future?! I can't say for sure.

I need to fix this dripping faucet!

But then I do this after…

But first, I'll take a shower, maybe.

I closed the windows quickly and lowered the latch.

I was alone!

I checked if everything was fine and in order.

Nothing could get out of my control. Not before my eyes and perceptions.

Everything had to be in order and nothing out of control!

I looked around again and there was no one, there was nothing. I was alone!

The cat left the house…

He saw me and left the house! I didn't understand why…

This isn't the first time this has happened.

To that rascal!

I forgot to buy the feed, and I have to put water for him…

On a shelf the sun began to be hidden by hazy clouds with the strength of the winds.

There were many winds, they even seemed to howl like a dog, or perhaps hissing like kettles on a hot stove. Winds I know and don't know.

Faucet broken, cat without food, winds outside. But my bath is essential and paramount!

That chair also needs a good repair.

Suddenly, with all these worries at the same time, I became agitated, anxious…

My heart started beating hard, very fast.

I was worried about something, but I don't know or could say why and with what.

Someone is calling me, excuse me please!

__ Hello Mr Roberval!

__ What do you want, Mr. Roberval??

__ I need you to remove your car from the grass in my backyard .! Please.!

__ OK sorry! I'll do it right away , Mr. Roberval.

__ All good! Ok then, and Thanks Jenisvaldo .

__ You're welcome, Mr. Roberval!…

__ Thanks again Jenisvaldo , so I'm going.

__ Alright Mr. Roberval, see you later!!

This Mr. Roberval it's a kick in the testicles. Just because I stopped the car on the sidewalk of his house, he always creates an excuse to get into trouble with me.

Boy, did you know I know a lot of people? A lot of people!!!

I have many friends and acquaintances…

Yes! I have many friends…

A lot of people like me.

Many people really like me!

Good! I'm going to sit here in this armchair and think…

And Think a little.

Through the window panes I saw someone passing by.

I don't know who it is, or who it was!

I'm hearing voices talking in a low voice, and there's even laughter. I am curious and attentive to what these voices say or said. You can't tell what they're talking about!

I can't quite understand what they say. It pisses me off! It pisses me off…

I think it was Mr Roberval! Or someone else with him.

Maybe it was my girl. She's stressing me out!

I broke up with her, I couldn't stand living with her anymore, we didn't agree on anything…

Me, a 38 year old man, am I going to do what a woman wants?

They are the ones who have to do what I want.

That's why I don't stay with anyone anymore, and I even got married three times.

I got married between quotes, since none of these relationships lasted more than three years.

The three relationships were too troublesome.

All Very neurotic, full of manias… hysterics!

Gertrude was crazy! She didn't know how to cook or wash clothes properly.

And she was talking about getting married, see if you can?! How sad, not to laugh at the situation…

Poor me who fell into the siren's song and lived an unhappy life with her. The relationship didn't last long! Two years of gall, pure gall. Glad it's over…

Lindalva didn't know how to speak properly. And on top of that, he was tongue-tied.

She is Also problematic and full of quirks. She in and One neurotic, compulsive and obsessive.

Matilde was extremely vain. And paranoid about cleanliness!

Everything should be clean and in order.

Besides, she came from a totally complicated family!

I went crazy three times.

A fool! A fool…

Crazy three times…

One moment please, the phone is ringing…

I will answer! It must be one of those three annoying people, or others.

__ Hello!

__ Hello, Lindalva, is it you?!

__ I was just talking about you. Or rather, thinking! Both..

__ No! No! It's not about that. No big deal, just talking about you!

_ _ It's about those subjects from college and work…

__ Lindalva, I know how it is…

__ Lindalva, listen to me, listen to me, I know these things well…

__ Yes, you can do it your way, but do it my way and it will work. Lindalva, I know and know what I'm telling you.

__ Lindalva, listen! Listen, Lindalva, Lindalva! Listening..

__ Don't do it like that, not like that…

__ Lindalva, Lindalva! Lindal …

__ Okay, it's up to you. But take my advice, you'll be fine!

__ You don't have to worry about me, it's okay…

__ Lindalva, everything is going well! Lindalva, Lindalva, Lindal …

__ I have no problem. After all, did you call about this matter, about me or about other things?

__ Lindalva do not worry, I also like you. Despite everything, friendships remain…

__ No Lindalva, I'm not ignorant or rude! I'm honest! Realist…

__ Well, why did you call then? To know about me and if I'm okay?

__ Dude, I got married three times and had a lot of women. I am doing great!

__ You don't have to look like my mother…

__ All right, Lindalva! Okay, Lindalva! OK! OK! Thank you for your concern, everything will be fine. It's already getting!

__ God in control…

__ Goodbye Lindalva!!! Goodbye, Lindalva, Goodbye, Bye, Bye, Bye!!!

Cow!

Today I don't have a very good head, I'm not very well…

A cow that is Lindalva…

She is a dog! She is a damn!!!

She is damn!

A low, immoral, contemptible woman!

This Lindalva is worthless!

That bitch cheated on me. I think!

Cow! A cow!

She used to touch my biceps and triceps, and now she doesn't touch or hold anymore…

I also think the same about Gertrude and Matilde…

Everything bitch! A bunch of cows!

Three cows!

This Lindalva woman still calls me to find out how I'm doing? It's been a while since me and her broke up, but she keeps calling me, I don't know how much longer…

In fact, she wants to probe me. To Probe how I am! To Probe my life!

I've been through situations like this. I know that kind of woman!!

Boy, Gertrude and I ended our relationship about six years ago…

I think that's it! I don't remember the order of the facts and factors, it doesn't matter.

Matilde maybe three years…

And Lindalva is six months old, I think…

Maybe five months. Or at least four!

I don't even remember!

I don't want to remember…

Cow!

Unfaithful, immoral and cretin!!! She is a dog..

In fact, everything got complicated whenever I told her to do things as I said, because I know, I knew, I know and I have many experiences.

But she wanted to do things her way!

Just like the other three…

There are a lot of women like that, who only do what they want…

I think it's full of people like that!!!

Everything had to be exactly her way and not mine!

Boy, there are a lot of books that say that the man is in charge, that the man is the leader, that the man is the head, that the man is the provider, that the man is the one who gives the orders, and not the women. And not women or just any woman!

See if that can?! Then it keeps calling me…

She must be sorry! Then she says she's worried about me.

Cruz creed!!! God forbid…

Worried, worried, I know…

I know how to do it my way!

Cow! Depraved, immoral!!!

Cows!

Three cows!

They wanted to boss me around…

They wanted to give me orders, see if you can!

Matilde also betrayed me…

Daughter of a mare!

Damn, another immoral and cretin!

She said I was prepotent, arrogant and sexist!

I follow my instincts, I follow biology and reality…

I'm male, I'm a man, it's me and that's it, accept me like this or not!

She wanted to demand attention from me, but she didn't pay attention…

No! This I was wrong, I cannot say this, after all she was very attentive, affectionate and helpful.

But only this…

That's all, that's all…

The rest didn't do anything right…

She didn't know how to do anything!

Everything I said she did her way!

No, I'm not talking about Lindalva, but about Matilde.

Gertrude god forbid her!!!

Boy, sometimes I even changed and still change her name, instead of saying Matilde I said and say Matilda …

She stays was P*#*with me, she was very angry.

But it's another Cow!

Immoral and cretinous!

She didn't know how to fry an egg properly! And wanted to keep correcting myself…

Not even making a steak…

See if you can?

Venomous woman!

I don't know either, but that's a woman's job! For a woman to do…

The woman has to do it.

I learned like this. That's in the story! Play on google!

The woman must serve the man!

That one, that one, that one…

Damn!

Those wretches!

Three bastards…

Swap myself for other things out there or whatever…

I'm strong, handsome, young, macho!!!

See if you can!?

Betrayed!

She is a dog, devil! Immoral! Hell…

Rascals, rascals, that's it…

Well, back to our topic…

The hot ground began to cool.

The trees move back and forth, side to side, left and right, but they haven't toppled. They did not break and did not fall.

You know, I was nervous, bad, very bad! First Roberval, and now Lindalva…

Out of nowhere I started to feel a little bad…

I got nervous, I got tense!

I broke out in a sweat as cold as a refrigerator, hot on the inside of its engines and cold on the outside.

These people want to kill me! It looks like this…

They will not destroy me! How do you say it? A thousand by your side, two thousand by yours.. I don't know, that's right there!!!

They want to see my skull, dance on my grave! But they won't!!!

I'm going to turn off that fan that just spins without so much force. And it's getting cold…

And I go get something to feed myself, but there's not much here, just a few spiders and ants that run through the kitchen cupboards.

I turned on the faucet, and this water that comes out yellowish? I even threw the glass in the sink with my mouth dry and my stomach churning.

Wow, I taste like gall in my mouth, what a rage!

Was it Lindalva's fault?! Or Mr. Roberval?!

Or is it Gertrude and Matilde's fault too? Maybe three. Or the four?!