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Travels With My Daughter
The Laytons, Cedric Smith and Rosy & Andrew Gibb
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Although terminally nauseous and unable to eat, I couldn’t stop throwing up, my distended belly clenched in spasms of pain from the violent retching. Everything hurt. My aching teeth projected thin needles of pain into my eye sockets and my cheekbones were like rods burning holes into my brain. Shimon searched for a doctor or nurse, fearing the worst. He couldn’t even find a first aid kit, or anyone who spoke English. In desperation he carried me onto the tiny, forbidden, first class deck where at least I could breathe fresh air instead of the stench below. For almost five days I lay on that deck writhing in pain, my stomach contracted in a tight fist punching me from within, battering my womb, as the ship pitched and heaved. I thought I was dying and didn’t much care. But through it all, Ronit held on, determined to be born.
In a strategically placed mirror, hanging somewhere above the operating table I was lying on, legs forced wide apart by metal stirrups, I watched her being born. Shimon wasn’t allowed in the delivery room and I felt abandoned and alone. Ironically, although I was the centre of attention, I was virtually ignored by the efficient medical staff brusque with preparations and crisp utterances like “dilation,” “uterus,” “diaphragm,” “placenta,” as though none of these related to me. It was disorientating having to look up toward the mirror to see something happening down inside myself while glaring lights distorted my vision and brutal, spasmodic thrusts contorted my womb. Engrossed in mastering a body in chaos and satisfying the demands of a doctor I couldn’t even see, I was suddenly aware of a gentle cajoling voice nuzzling my ear and a hand soothing my forehead. I looked up into the pained eyes of a young intern bending over me, coaxing me into taking whiffs of gas to ease the pain. I pressed my hand into his with the intensity of a new lover, but refused the gas — losing consciousness was even more frightening than giving birth. Heaving and panting I strained to eject the foreign presence trapped in my womb, while the doctor’s voice urged me to keep pushing and the intern’s fingers gripped mine, offering the only comfort.
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