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4: More Moonlight

Between two equally enticing meals 1

an idiot might starve before he chose.

A lamb between two wolves would also doubt

which way to turn, or hound between two does. 4

I hungered after what my guide might say

if asked why Heaven’s justice seemed unkind,

but can a man God made doubt God is good? 7

I feared to ask that question choking me,

but Beatrice, who understood my mind

replied at once, “What ties your tongue is this: 10

how can good vows and wills deserve the less

if broken by another’s wickedness?

Your other doubt is astrological. 13

Plato wrote after death all souls return

to planets ruling them. Did moons decree

these nuns’ inconstancy? Both these doubts need 16

an answer. I will take the second first.

It is most poisonous, so listen hard.

No seraphim that is most one with God – 19

not Abraham, Moses or Samuel –

neither John Baptist or Evangelist –

22 not even Mary in the highest Heaven

is separated from the two you’ve met

although they chose to greet you in this sphere.

25 All share alike in the eternal bliss

according to their soul’s capacity.

To indicate the nature of life here

28 I am compelled to talk to you as if

Heavenly Paradise has social ranks

like those on earth. This is not so, but I

31 can only make the highest things more clear

by speaking of them in the words you know,

although they may mislead. God’s Scriptures say

34 He sees, acts, speaks with eyes, hands, mouth because

only thus men and women can conceive

One seeing with all light, whose deeds are days,

37 whose voices teach in all that can be heard:

thunder and waves, birdsong and whispered speech.

Plato says after death all souls return

40 to stars they left at birth, meaning perhaps

natural forces shape our characters

to some extent. If so this partial truth

43 has misled worshippers of sun and moon,

Venus and Mars, who treat these stars as gods.

Your other doubt can do no mischief here

46 or lose the smallest droplet of my love.

That in your eyes justice seems cruelty

is not a sign of heresy, but faith.

By all who know that Jesus Christ is God, 49

doubts can be logically overcome.

Doubt should make faith more sure. The facts are these.

No force can make a flame burn upside down 52

or alter any wholly pure good will,

though force may twist them sideways or depress.

To show that torture could not change his mind 55

Saint Lawrence chose to roast upon a grill

and Mucius compelled his hand to burn.

Rare are heroic virtues of that kind. 58

When stronger forces make good nuns break vows

and leave their cloisters, they are not to blame,

yet must feel shame if the strong force withdraws 61

and she does not return because the rape

has cracked her spirit, left her in the wrong.

If that is understood your doubts are solved. 64

Here is a greater doubt you can’t resolve

without my aid. I told you Piccarda

is at the source of truth, so cannot lie. 67

She said that Constance, forced to be a queen

and breed an emperor, stayed nun at heart.

This means she did not linger in the wrong 70

by choosing to conform with what was forced.

Why was this so? Some sin against their will,

thinking to save themselves from something worse. 73

Alcmaeon slew his mother to escape

his father’s curse. Perverse good will enforced

76 is a Hell brew, but brother, know Constance

suffered by violence, but she forced none.

Only goodness came from her suffering,

79 so absolute Good Will took no offence

but the reverse, as Piccarda told you,

and also in these other words do I.”

82 Such were the ripples of that holy stream

whose source was the clear fountain of all truth.

They quenched and satisfied my thirsty soul.

85 I told her, “You who the First Lover loves,

whose speech raises my thinking nearer His

I now see intellects can never rest

88 until at last the One Truth shines on them

and further truth beyond cannot exist.

Doubt is a sturdy tree rooted in truth.

91 Nature demands we fly from branch to branch,

from height to height up to the topmost twig.

Only when that is reached can active mind

94 rest like contented bird inside its nest.

Were that not so then all desire is vain.

Lady, these facts lead to a new request.

97 Could all who fail to act as they have vowed

provide what God requires? Redeem themselves

through other acts of generosity?”

100 The eyes of Beatrice now sparkled bright

with the new interest that lifted me

so far above normality that I

103 could hardly bear the sight of so much love.