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Chapter 11

Adam sees me first.

‘Jesus!’ he says. It must be the blood and the roses.

Nicole stays in the darkened hallway.

‘Nic, get me some TCP!’ he shouts. I don’t think TCP is quite the thing here, but I don’t want to hurt Adam’s feelings.

Nicole stays where she is.

‘Nic, come on, he’s hurt!’ Adam calls out again. He hovers over me. I can smell wine on his breath. He is deliciously Merlot-y. I wonder if he can smell the Elderflower. It will blend in with the TCP if Nicole ever fetches it. She is still inert against the wall.

‘Fine, fine, I’ll get it. Jesus!’ he says again, as he walks away and jogs upstairs. I sit looking at Nicole. She looks back at me. We stay like that for a moment, and then she breaks the gaze. Loser, I think, as she joins Adam upstairs. Adam and I used to play that game for hours, just staring at each other. He always blinked first. What a couple they must make.

I hear whispers from upstairs, but can’t make out what is being said. Then a door slams. Adam jogs back downstairs again, holding TCP, cotton wool and Sellotape.

‘Sorry about Nic,’ he says, unscrewing the TCP lid. ‘She’s been funny all afternoon.’

I watch him dab the antiseptic on the wool, like they do with chloroform, in the films. It’s like old times. When we were younger, when I moved in with him and his parents, after the death of my own, he’d help me with cuts and grazes, when no one was watching. Making everything better.

‘First the shower, then smashing into our home,’ Adam says. ‘It’s not on, Dan. I should call the police.’

He gently wipes my bloodied wrist with cotton wool. It stings. I clench my hand slightly. Adam looks at me. The sapphire eyes dazzle. I press my tongue into my bottom teeth to suppress the pain.

‘I’m sorry,’ I say. ‘But it’s the method, you know? Like with the lobster?’

He shakes his head. He doesn’t know. But he will, when I’m famous.

‘Don’t call the police,’ I say. ‘I won’t hurt you. You know that.’

‘What about Nic?’ he asks.

‘I won’t hurt her either,’ I say. And it’s true, because if anyone hurts her, it will be Luke.

Adam gets out a fresh piece of cotton wool and starts unravelling the Sellotape.

‘That’s not what I meant. I meant, what will Nicole think? This kind of thing frightens her.’

‘I brought this rose for her,’ I say. ‘That’s why I’m here. To apologise again, for the misunderstanding.’

Adam looks at the rose. It has blood on the thorns and its petals are soggy.

‘Thanks,’ he says. ‘I’m sure she’ll be … delighted.’ He laughs a little. I laugh too. I can feel us both relax. ‘Here, hold this,’ says Adam, gesturing to the cotton-wool pad.

I hold the pad over my wrist, as Adam carefully winds the Sellotape round and round my wrist. With each turn around my wrist, I try to manoeuvre my hand so that his knuckles will graze my arm.

‘Keep still,’ he says.

The blood is seeping through the cotton wool, staining it.

‘You should go to A & E, really,’ he says.

‘What, and wait half the night for them to just do the same dressing? No thanks.’

‘The waiting times aren’t that bad,’ says Adam. ‘They saw me pretty swiftly after … you know.’

‘How do you know? You’d passed out.’

He looks at me, frowning slightly. ‘Right. I’d passed out.’

‘I’d best be getting home, I guess,’ I say when Adam has finished bandaging.

‘You’re kidding, right?’ he says. ‘Crash here for tonight, take a sofa.’

‘What if I get blood on Nicole’s sofas?’

‘They’re not Nicole’s sofas.’

That’s right, they’re not. Adam bought the sofas when he and Helen married. Just after he bought the house – or rather, she did. Outright. It’s a wonder he keeps working, or doesn’t upgrade the house. He could probably afford Bishop’s Avenue now (aka M/Billionaires’ Row), with his bonus and a decent mortgage. I asked him once, why he didn’t. He cast his eyes down and said, ‘Because it keeps Helen alive for me in a small way, staying here.’ I wished I hadn’t asked.

I strip down to my boxers and curl up on the sofa under the throw that Adam gives me. So many memories, here. I’d invite him to join me, but I doubt he’d like it. And I doubt very much that Nicole would, either.

Not that she can value the marriage bed very much, though. Because when I wake up in the middle of the night, she is standing in the doorway. Watching me. And frowning.