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As⁵ I have written before, inside us, in our memory, we find all of our past. Let us try to imagine that we find ourselves in an archive full of shelving, full of dusty documents. This image has a certain effect on us, but also makes us curious. In the beginning, perhaps we do not have the faintest idea of what we must do, what and where to look.

Too many things!

Disorganised!

Covered in dust!

We certainly know a term: dust⁶. Here is what we must do: dust off our memory, that is: bring back light and significance to those histories that we have lived and that have made us what we are. To do this, we start from now and little by little we turn back.

There you are!

The second habit to develop!

EVERY DAY MAKE “AN EXAMINATION OF YOUR CONSCIENCE” OR “SELF-ANALYSE THE DAY”!

The development of this habit is fundamental to keeping our memory in order, without suspended or unresolved things. From today on, we must do it regularly, right during the evening relaxation, before going to sleep

How do you do it?

In a simple way!

During our relaxation remember everything we have experienced during the day. Put everything in order, the positive and the negative things. We are thankful for the positive things, for the negative things we ask for forgiveness, with the prospect of improving ourselves by doing a program of work. For example: this week we commit ourselves to working on our patience - in our tone of voice, or in listening - and so on. This regards the present. There still remains our past that is disordered and needs to be sorted out. We see that the things in our work plan become clear:

 let’s keep the present in order,

 let’s dust off the past.

I know a proverb:

TIME HEALS THE WOUNDS!

On the one hand yes: you need time, like everyone on earth, but on the other hand: you do not need to believe that time heals the wounds without your cooperation. Every wound must be worked out in a planned and systematic way. We must know what to do.

First step to heal the past!

My past is influenced by my present. The positive and negative things. With the positive things, we do not have problems, in fact they give us pleasure. The things that annoy us most are the negative things and, among the negative things, those that we have ignored, without sorting them out. It is not enough to forget the negative things which have made us suffer, if they are not sorted out, they make us still suffer today and, if we leave them like that, even tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. How do we know this? In stressful situations and during disputes, all our experience returns and takes away our strength.

What does this mean?

That inside of us are like hidden, suffocating illnesses, “under control” - but active. A bit of “fire” is enough and it returns to make us feel bad. To keep them under control, we need energy, so much energy - unsettled things of the past are like vampires that suck out energy. Try to imagine - if there are so many, they “eat” all the energy we have to use to live. We lack energy and we are weak, psychologically and physically. I think we have understood why we must make this effort, to dust off and put our past in order.

To better understand what and why, I will tell you of an example. Sincerely, I do not remember where I read it, but that does not matter. Let’s try to read it looking at ourselves.

Pay attention!

There was a kingdom, very beautiful, but also very particular because full of bandits. They were everywhere. They gave a lot of trouble and created so much unease to the people. They robbed and behaved very badly! The people were complaining. So many times, the king tried to defeat them. But all his attempts were useless.

The thing became unsupportable. The king, with his advisers, was looking for a solution to sort out, once for all, the problem of the bandits. After a long meeting, they decided to request help from cavaliers specialised in these cases

A miracle!

Already after a week of the presence of the cavaliers, the bandits’ activities diminished so much. After a month, the people almost forgot their nasty tenants. Everybody was content, or rather, most content.

They did not know how to thank the heroes.

However! Pay attention!

The brigands by nature are very crafty and also in this case showed the maximum cunning. To not be completely beaten, they hid, saying: “we are hiding and we are pretending that we are no longer here”. When the cavaliers went away, they started up their activities again!

The whole kingdom was convinced that the bandits were no longer there and asked the king to disband the cavaliers, thanking them cordially.

The king - a wise man - replied: “It seems so, but it only seems that the bandits are no longer here. I say to you that they are here, but they are hidden. We have won the first phase of the battle. Now we must follow them and seek them out, until we have exterminated them all. Until we do this, we cannot dismiss the cavaliers.”

Try to reply to me: “how long have the cavaliers remained in the kingdom?”

Don’t you know?

Well then, I propose a game to you!

Write the letters of the alphabet in order. ⁷

___ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___ ___

16 5 18 19 5 13 16 18 5

The second step to heal the past!

To run away from pain is a natural thing. Our negative experiences are painful for us, too painful, well then, we have three possibilities:

1 either we confront them, sorting them out notwithstanding the pain,

2 or we put them off, forgetting them.

3 or we hide them and pretend nothing happened.

Unfortunately, so many of us choose the second or third possibility. Try to imagine: an unresolved problem, a second, a third and so on.

What are you thinking?

What is happening inside you?

We are allowing the “vampires” to grow in us. Still further, we are offering them food to eat and allowing them to consume our very precious energy, which allows us to live. But in this case, our energy is lacking, because we have inside us many, very hungry parasites. They eat and grow, instead we are ever weaker.

Excuse me, do you like vampires?

Aren’t you afraid of them?

I personally don’t like them!

For this reason, I have decided to sort out my memory!

As I have written before, it is not enough to re-order your mind once - it should be a constant effort, every day at the end of the day. It is not enough to forget or hide our past, pretending that everything is OK.

It’s not OK!

The things not sorted out, sooner or later return.

We can make this effort during our relaxation, when we learn the technique. Take a walk in the archive of your memories, starting from today, from the present, and little by little return back to the start of your life, and still deeper, until you meet God our Creator.

The aim?

To put our lives in order!

To confront the past to heal it.

Let’s make ourselves comfortable. The show is starting, a “film” I would say very interesting, very intimate and personal, where we, at the same moment, are protagonists and spectators.

What does that mean?

That we are fully and emotionally involved!

Every scene can arouse in us different emotions and feelings: of joy, peace, security, sadness, pain, fear, shame, hate, vendetta, love - it depends on what the scenes represent for us. The painful scenes arouse in us negative emotions and the pleasant scenes arouse in us positive emotions.

Certainly!

You’re right.

We can run away, but flight does not resolve our problems, because the “demons” of the past will follow us. They will not leave us in peace, we cannot run away from them because they are inside us, in our memories. They go where I go. I cannot run away from myself. I want peace, I must confront them without fear. In reality, they cannot do us any harm. The harm has already been done. Inside us, the pain really exists, but it is not only a bad memory, it is a real wound that “bleeds” and does not stop doing it until it is healed.

Remember!

We are here for this!

To be healed!

What does being healed mean?

Forgetting? Being cleaned of the painful moments and leaving the pleasant ones? Eliminating them? Doing a “reset”?

If only!

No! We cannot do that!

Because we cannot change our past. What we have done, or what others have done to us, it is done and that’s it! It can be that we remember it up until the end of our days.

However! However! However!

Without pain and without negative emotions!

Make peace again with our past!

Looking it in the face without fear!

Do you hear?

What a relief!

What joy!

What peace!

WE ARE WELL HEALED!

I am sure that it will happen just like that and we can already enjoy our triumph. Do you remember?

Let’s look at the end!

Let’s enjoy the elation of the prize!

Let’s enjoy the elation of winning!

The glorious end gives us the strength to follow the road to healing and convalescence. It doesn’t matter to us the time and difficulties we have to confront.

You’re right! You’re right.

Enough chattering!

We must act!

Good, good - I like your interest!

You know! A good sign!

The third step to heal the past!

As I have already written, we are the protagonists and spectators of the “films of our lives”, fully involved, that is: emotionally. All that has passed before our eyes arouses emotions in us. This is inevitable – it’s right that way - we must be aware that feeling like that in front of the scenes of our lives is a most normal thing. Don’t worry, be calm!

Well then, what shall we do?

I would say, it is better to defuse the tension. Remember that this is a journey in healing, that means that we will feel better – ever better. During relaxation, we look at our life. Certainly, at the start we will have a bit of chaos. The scenes will pass disorderly; don’t worry, stay calm, without getting agitated. Let them pass as they will and try to stay outside as much as possible. Remember that what you see is water under the bridge - ugly or beautiful. We cannot change it, so we must accept it as it is.