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Seeing and trying the simple thing we can comprehend anything. Evaluation and attaching labels are the cause of the interfering and helping definitions.

The doubt is in the truth and the Truth is wisdom, the source of the realization of desire, the attainment of happiness. After all, everything that each of us does is only the achievement of happiness by any means, and this is wonderful.

I know one thing – never stop, keep forward for happiness by any means! Happinnes exists, and every second it is ready to envelop us from within with its warmth and joy. We just need to allow ourselves to accept it for a second.

There was a sweet, carefree day for me. I was nine years old. And for the first time I stayed over for an extended activities at my school. As I usually helped my sister take care of her little daughter, who was born with a sick heart.

After school it was fun to play with my friends and we were just missing my favorite toy, a huge teddy bear. All my girlfriends stopped playing waiting for me to be back with it. I ran home filled with ideas, joy, and did not even think about how there was my little niece.

Running into the apartment, everything was strange. There was no teddy bear of mine anywhere.

– Maybe my teddy is in my sister’s room? – I opened the door.

– Here it is! – I thought seeing that something on the bed was covered with a sheet. – Exactly, under the sheet!

But no. It was not my teddy bear. It was a little girl. She was died. I knew exactly what it was.

In that exact moment it seemed I forget forever what joy is, what happiness is. Everything has become darkness. And then I started to believe that everything that had happened on that day with my little niece was because of me. From that moment on, my thoughts were only about one thing: to blame myself and I can’t rejoice. And of course, in my little head there was a new attitude, a new stereotype: my joy and happiness brings death to others. Many years have passed in this state.

Without knowing sadness, we will not recognize joy – the balance that occurs in the small and the large. Everything makes sense.

Be an educator of ourselves to torment, but never lose ourselves.

What have I learned in life without joy and happiness? To be patient and attentive to people, to stop and watch, to be an example for others, to be a soldier, only so that no one will ever suffer. And most importantly – to understand that if a person acted badly, then this is from unconsciousness, he could not otherwise.

We always have a choice. Each has two ships – black and white, joy and suffering.

I decide – Who am I! This is my choice, this is my life, in which I can’t throw out a single line or replace a second.