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I woke up early, which is unusual for me. I rushed to the magazine where I often do freelance work, eager to discuss my weekend with one of the editors in chief. He also tracked the growth of Islamist extremist groups on the Net. Twenty-four hours earlier, I’d forwarded him the video of Bilel showing off the contents of his car. He was stunned by how easily contact had been established. He agreed that this was a unique opportunity. Information obtained in this investigation could provide a singular perspective on digital jihadism. However, he reminded me that pursuing this could be dangerous. Urging caution, he also assigned me a photographer, André, one of my best friends and also a freelancer. We’d worked together for years, and we made a good team. I would agree to Bilel’s request to meet over Skype, and André would take pictures. After me, André would be the second witness to Bilel and Mélodie’s relationship.

It suddenly struck me as strange to be playing one of two protagonists in a fabricated story, with both of us dealing in half-truths. I had never done something like this before, and it was troubling. So far, Bilel had been an evil genie I could consult whenever the need arose. Now I found myself implicated in the story. I would have to satisfy his need for domination, but for the time being, I was preoccupied with a single, urgent detail: how to become Mélodie. I needed to look ten years younger, find a veil, and somehow slip into the skin of a very young woman. Another editor, a former reporter who would also be supervising my investigation, lent me a hijab* and a black dress—a kind of djellaba. Bilel wouldn’t speak with Mélodie if she didn’t hide the majority of her body. He was thirty-eight, and his attitude toward women was not the same as that of a young, newly recruited jihadist.

I was glad to wear the veil. The idea of a terrorist becoming familiar with my face didn’t thrill me, especially not when the man in question could return to France, his home country, at any moment.

André arrived at my apartment that night around six o’clock. It was one hour later in Syria. That gave us about sixty minutes to prepare before Bilel “got home from fighting” and contacted Mélodie. We looked for the best angle from which to take pictures of the computer screen and keep me as indistinct as possible. We had strict orders to prioritize André’s and my safety above all else. While André made adjustments in the living room, I pulled on Mélodie’s somber clothing over my jeans and sweater. The floor-length black djellaba featured a small satin knot at the waist and was surprisingly fitted. I took a picture with my phone of the long train covering my Converse sneakers. I really looked like I was twenty years old. When I returned to the living room, André burst out laughing. “It’s supposed to cover more of your forehead,” he said, mocking me as he snapped a picture. He helped me readjust the hijab, which should cover every strand of hair and only show the oval of the face. I’ve worn burqas before, while working on other stories. I’ve never found them suffocating, as some women describe. People tend to regard you as oppressed when you wear a burqa, but the piece of clothing itself has never bothered me. The hijab, however, was a new experience. It reminded me of the horrible hoodlike knitted caps my parents forced on me as a child. It made my skin itch as it had when I was five years old, and my face looked like a puckered fish. André’s hysterical laughter didn’t help things.

I removed my rings, assuming Bilel wouldn’t appreciate such frivolousness. Besides, if I wanted to become Mélodie, I had to remove all distinctive signs of myself. She wouldn’t wear flashy rings. I also covered the small tattoo on my wrist with foundation. I had meant to buy nail polish remover to erase the bright red from my fingernails. I’d forgotten. Oh well. If Bilel said anything, I’d make up some excuse.

The hour was approaching. Perceiving my feelings of impatience, excitement, doubt, and fear, André tried to calm my nerves by talking about something else. To be clear, I wasn’t afraid of the terrorist I was about to meet; I’d Skyped with others like him before. Rather, I sensed I was about to learn a lot, and I was afraid Mélodie wouldn’t be able to handle it. As soon as I turned on my computer, I saw that Abu Bilel was already logged on to Facebook and waiting for Mélodie.

“Are you there?” he asked impatiently.

“Are we meeting on Skype?”

“Mélodie?”

“Hello? LOL.”

“Mélodie???” . . . “Sorry: salaam alaikum . . . You there???”