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The Stages of Grief:

Denial

Anger

Bargaining

Depression

Acceptance

I cannot let go, cannot

follow the protocol, refuse

closure, refuse to doubt you

are about to slip back through

a loophole, undo the tricked-out

trickery of the spring your heart shut

down in the willful green of the thick

coming grass. I rage at you now as I did

not rage then. How could you

have left me to the futile pink

of the Red Bud preening

like a buffoon through the glass

of our bedroom window? Look:

I stand ready to make a deal.

Take what you need, then call it quits

with eternity. I know you grieve, too.

I will never ask another indulgence

from whatever it is we end by

calling upon in extremis. But you do

not, will not, did not, come back

for all this time I pass confounding

assumptions, eluding the rules

for healthy adjustment and getting on

with the rest of it I still cannot accept.

—CAROL TUFTS