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JACK AWOKE AT 3:15 A.M. with a hard-on. He’d been dreaming about Kylie. Kissing Kylie. Stroking Kylie. Rolling in the sheets with Kylie. He’d never had a woman get under his skin so fast. She wasn’t even his type. Not that he hadn’t sampled a variety of women, but he had a definite weakness for fair-haired women in distress. Something he’d discovered when he’d gone to a marriage counselor with Amanda. A fascination rooted in childhood. When he was twelve, he saw Alfred Hitchcock’s Vertigo and fell in love with Kim Novak, or rather the character she portrayed in the film. He not only lusted after her, he wanted to rescue her. Since then, he’d always gravitated toward curvy, classic beauties. Most of them blond. All of them needy.

Kylie had a petite, athletic build. She had dark, quirky features and a modest sense of style—usually. She ran a business and looked after her mom and grandma. She didn’t need a man, although he was surprised no man had snatched her up. Unless the men of Eden were scared off by her competence and stubborn streak. She’d proved herself a handful today. He couldn’t say what fired him up most—her contrary spirit, her shapely legs, the striped boxer shorts or that sassy mouth. Horny and pissed, he’d backed her against the wall.

He’d wanted to shake her.

He’d wanted to kiss her.

Neither action seemed prudent.

So he’d lectured. Home security. Motorcycle safety. He’d pissed her off. He didn’t feel bad about that. She’d pissed him off when she’d climbed that ladder. Something told him they’d knock heads again. Fine. If they kept pissing each other off, maybe the attraction would fizzle. The “kid” barrier was history. The face that intrigued him, the body that tempted him, belonged to a thirty-two-year-old woman.

Except she’s still Spenser’s sister. She’s a nice girl and you’re a cynical bastard.

Getting physical with Kylie would be disastrous. He could list a dozen reasons.

Maybe he should list the reasons. Right now. Mentally. Like counting sheep.

It was that or a cold shower.

Christ.

He rolled over and got a face full of fur. Thanks to the vet, at least Shy didn’t smell bad. “What are you doing up here?”

The dog groaned and curled into a tighter ball. At least someone was getting a good night’s sleep.

Jack thought about nudging Shy off his bed, but he didn’t have the heart. She’d probably spent the last month sleeping in the woods or in a random barn or shed. He’d walked her around town today. No one recognized her. He dropped her at the vet for an examination. Aside from being malnourished and flea-bitten, she was healthy. For her gas, Dr. Price had suggested a high-quality pet food. No dairy products or table scraps. Jack had purchased a small bag of the recommended dry food. Enough to last until he found her a home. To Shy’s dismay, she’d been shampooed, deloused and groomed. A flyer featuring her picture now hung on the animal hospital’s bulletin board: Free to a good home.

Jack thought about his niece. He wondered if she liked dogs. Yeah, that would go over well with his prissy, snobby sister.

Shy barked a split second before he heard the sharp knock on the front door. He glanced at his clock as he swung out of bed—3:25 a.m.

He pulled on jeans and a T-shirt. He braced for something bad. People don’t drop by in the middle of the night with good news. He should know. He’d paid many a nocturnal visit while working Homicide.

After motioning Shy to stay, he tucked his Glock in the back of his waistband and navigated the stairs in the dark. He peeked through the living room curtains. What the hell? His sister—the woman who’d been avoiding him for days—stood on the front stoop, balancing a little girl, his niece, on one hip and a bulging backpack on her shoulder.

Alarmed, he switched on a light and opened the door.

“Sorry to wake you,” Jessie snapped before he could ask what’s wrong?

“No problem.” He quickly surmised she hadn’t been in a car accident or house fire. No blood, no bruises, no burns. Maddie looked okay, too. Oddly wide awake for the middle of the night, but fine. He focused back on his sister. She looked frazzled. Pale and fidgety. No makeup. Lopsided ponytail and ill-fitting clothes. This woman didn’t look anything like his confident, pageant queen, fashion-conscious sister. This woman had fled home in the middle of the night in a panic. Had the Cheating Bastard shown up? Called? Harassed her? Scared her? He didn’t want to ask in front of the kid.

“We couldn’t sleep,” Jessie said.

“Our house is sad,” Maddie said in a small voice.

Chest tight, Jack relieved his sister of the weighty backpack. “Come in.”

“Are you my uncle Jack?” Maddie asked as they moved into the sparsely furnished living room.

“Sure am, sweet pea.” He hated that she had to ask. Hated that he’d allowed work and pride to interfere with family.

“Where’s your badge?”

“Upstairs.”

Her eyes twinkled. “Can I see it?”

“Not now, Madeline.” Jessie set her daughter on the couch.

Jack set the backpack on his recliner. He noted the little girl’s pink pajamas, her bunny slippers and the colorful bear clutched to her chest. He recognized that bear. He’d sent her that stuffed animal as a Christmas gift two years earlier. Jessie and Frank had made it clear he was unwelcome in their home, their lives. Naturally, he thought they’d deprived Maddie of the gifts he’d sent over the years. Jessie had intimated as such. It warmed him to learn otherwise.

Throat thick, he smiled even though he knew something was wrong. “Can I get you ladies, anything? Milk and cookies?”

Maddie glanced at her mom, at Jack. “We don’t eat cookies.”

“Why not?”

“Too fattening.”

That was his sister talking. A woman—thanks to years on the pageant circuit—obsessed with body image. No five-year-old should be worrying about her weight unless she was obese, which Maddie wasn’t. She was a skinny little thing with long black hair and big brown eyes.

“Well, I eat cookies,” Jack said, cursing himself for not being a better uncle, or for that matter, a better brother. “And I could use a late-night snack.”

He wondered if Jessie ever snacked. Hell, he wondered if she ate, period. He’d have to refrain from force-feeding her an entire bag of Fig Newtons. She looked rail thin in her baggy jeans and shapeless shirt. She’d always been thin, but this was troubling.

He smoothed a hand over Maddie’s silky hair. “I need your mom’s help in the kitchen. We won’t be long. Do you want to lie down?”

“Can’t sleep.” Maddie hugged the bear tighter—a chubby teddy he’d stuffed himself at one of those Build-A-Bear stores. Patches looked worn and loved, and suddenly he didn’t feel like the worst uncle in the world, just a lame one.

“Do you have a DVD player?” Jessie asked.

He nodded.

She unzipped the front pocket of the cartoon backpack they’d brought. “Here.” She passed him a DVD. A Disney flick.

Jack put the disk in his player and fired up the movie without comment. He wanted Jessie in the kitchen. He wanted answers.

“Who’s that?” asked Maddie.

Jack turned and saw the pointy-eared mutt sitting at the bottom of the stairs. So much for following orders. “That’s Shy.”

Mother and daughter spoke at the same time.

“Does she bite?”

“Is she yours?”

“No and no. We’ll be right back,” he said to Maddie, while motioning Jessie to follow.

Once inside the kitchen, he spoke frankly. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing I can’t fix. But I can’t do it tonight.” She tucked her hands under her armpits and paced. “I feel like I’m coming out of my skin. I hate this.”

So did Jack. Until he knew what was wrong, he couldn’t fix it. If he pressed too hard, too fast, she might bolt. Considering they’d been estranged for years, Jessie being here like this was a breakthrough. He didn’t want to screw it up. “How about some hot tea?”

“How about something stronger?”

Given his recent battle with booze, he hadn’t stocked the house with hard liquor. “All I’ve got is beer.”

“I’ll take it.”

As far as he knew, she never drank anything other than wine spritzers. Damn, he itched to press. What’s wrong? Instead he got her a beer and poured a glass of milk for his niece.

Jessie paced and chugged. “I wouldn’t be here if I had any other choice.”

“That’s flattering,” he said while loading a plate with cookies.

“Look. I know we’ve never been on great terms. As kids or adults,” she said in a tight, brittle voice. “But I…we…Madeline and me…need a place to spend the night.”

He should have said okay. Plain and simple. But there was nothing simple about their relationship. And he’d be damned if he’d let her freeze him out in his own house. “Why? Did Frank show up? Does he want to move back in?”

“No.”

“Did he call? Threaten you?”

“I haven’t talked to Frank in two weeks.”

“He calls to speak with his daughter, right?”

She didn’t answer.

Jack looked over his shoulder. “You’re kidding.”

She wouldn’t meet his gaze. “Frank never wanted…Madeline was…”

An accident? Unexpected? So what? Just when he thought his opinion of his brother-in-law couldn’t sink any lower. “You can stay here as long as you like, Jessie.”

“I don’t like it at all,” she said, still pacing, still drinking. “But I can’t impose on friends and I can’t afford the Orchard House.”

Jack blew over the personal jab and focused on the financial. “Are you telling me that fu—” He glanced toward the sound of cartoon voices and cheery music. “That Frank’s not supporting you?”

“I don’t want his money. I don’t want anything to do with him or anything that belonged to him—including the house. We’ll be fine. Madeline and me. I just want…I need to make my own way. And I will. Starting tomorrow. I mean, later today.”

Jack worked his jaw. She’d shut him out of her life for years. Avoided him like the plague since he’d returned home. He couldn’t help himself. He had to push. “What happened between fuck-off and showing up on my doorstep, Jessie? It had to be damned bad for you to come to me, in the middle of the night, no less.”

“I don’t want to talk about it. I…I can’t.”

He noted the crack in her voice, the trembling of her hands. “Okay.”

“Please don’t grill me.”

“Fine.”

“Or think you have to save me.”

“You want to make it on your own.”

She stopped in her tracks. “You don’t think I can?”

“Didn’t say that.”

“Just because I didn’t finish college or devote my life to some noble cause…” She trailed off and looked for a place to ditch the beer. She looked embarrassed, upset and exhausted.

“Why don’t we revisit this discussion after some shuteye?” Jack relieved her of the empty bottle, then grabbed the milk and cookies. “You keep Maddie company while I change my sheets.”

“I wish you wouldn’t call her that. Nicknames are…I don’t know.”

“Humanizing?”

“Undignified.”

“Jessie is undignified?”

“My name is Jessica. Jessica Lynn.”

“Sounds stuffy,” said Jack.

“To you, maybe. But it’s my given name and I’m proud of it.”

“Okay.”

“So you’ll call me Jessica? And Madeline, Madeline?”

“Probably not.”

She blew out a frustrated breath. “Why do you have to be so headstrong?”

He looked at her and smiled. “Runs in the family.”

She opened her mouth, closed it. After a thoughtful pause, she changed the subject. “Why do you have to change your sheets?”

“No furniture in the other two bedrooms yet,” he explained. “You and Maddie take my bed. I’ll take the couch.” Before she could argue, he slipped into the living room. His niece was fast asleep. So was Shy. They were curled up side by side—one hand, one paw on the stuffed bear.

Jessie groaned. “I hope she doesn’t get attached to that dog.”

Jack hoped the exact opposite.