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ОглавлениеTHEY DEFIED THE HOUR, Lydia thought. Because as they stepped outside the hotel surely the moon should be hanging in a dark sky.
It was just breakfast, she told herself as his hand took her elbow and guided her across the busy street.
Yet it felt like a date.
Her first.
But it wasn’t a romantic Italian evening, for the sun shone brightly and Rome was at its busy rush hour best.
Yet he made it so.
The restaurant he steered her to had a roped-off section and the tables were clearly reserved, yet the greeter unclipped the rope and they breezed through as if they were expected guests.
‘Did you have a reservation?’ Lydia asked, more than a little confused as they took their seats.
‘No.’
‘Then...’ Lydia stopped, for she had answered her own question—the best seats were permanently reserved for the likes of him. He had a confident air that demanded, without words, only the best.
Coffee was brought and sparkling water was poured. They were handed the heavy menus, but as the waiter started to explain the choices he waved him away.
Lydia was grateful that he had, for there was a real need for the two of them to be left alone.
He was an absolute stranger.
A black-eyed stranger who had led and she had followed.
‘I don’t know your name,’ Lydia said, and found she was worried a little that it might disappoint.
‘Raul.’
It didn’t.
He rolled the R just a little, and then she found herself repeating it, ‘Rau—el...’ Though it did not roll easily from her tongue.
She waited for his surname.
It didn’t come.
‘I’m Lydia.’
‘I had worked that out.’ He glanced down at the menu. He never wasted time with small talk, unless it suited him. ‘What would you like?’
She should be hungry. Lydia hadn’t eaten since the plane, and even then she had just toyed with her meal.
She had been sick with nerves last night, but now, though still nervous, the feeling was pleasant.
‘I’d like...’ Lydia peered at the menu.
Really she ought to eat something, given that breakfast was the reason she was here.
But then she blushed while reading the menu, because food was the furthest thing from her mind.
‘It’s in Italian,’ Lydia said, and could immediately have kicked herself, for it was such a stupid thing to say—and so rude to assume it should be otherwise.
But he did not chide her, and he did not score a point by stating that Italy was, in fact, where they were.
He just waited patiently as she stumbled her way through the selections till she came upon something she knew. But she frowned. ‘Tiramisu for breakfast?’
‘Sounds good.’
Perhaps he hadn’t heard the question in her voice, because Lydia had assumed it was served only as a dessert, but Raul was right—it sounded good.
The waiter complimented their choice as he took their orders, and very soon she tasted bliss.
‘Oh...’ It was light and not too sweet, and the liquor made it decadent. It really had been an accidental perfect choice.
‘Nice,’ Raul said, and watched her hurriedly swallow and clear her mouth before speaking.
‘Yes.’ Lydia nodded. ‘Very.’
‘I wasn’t asking a question.’
Just observing.
He looked at her mouth, and Lydia wondered if she had a crumb on her lip, but she resisted putting out her tongue to check.
And then he looked at her mouth, and the pressure within built as still she resisted that simple oral manoeuvre. Instead she pulled her bottom lip into her mouth and ran her tongue over it there.
No crumb.
Her eyes met his and she frowned at his impertinence as they asked a question—Are you imagining what I think you are?
Of course she said no such thing, and his features were impassive, but those black eyes offered his response.
Yes, Lydia, I am.
Had she had her purse with her, Lydia might well have called for the bill and fled, because she felt as if she were going insane. She looked around. Almost certain that the spectacle she was creating would have the world on pause and watching.
Yet the waiters were waiting, the patrons were chatting, the commuters were commuting and the word was just carrying on, oblivious to the fire smouldering unchecked in this roped-off section.
And so too must Raul be—oblivious, that was. For his voice was even and his question polite. ‘How are you finding Rome?’
Lydia was about to nod and say how wonderful it was, or give some other pat response, but she put down her spoon, let go of the end of her tether and simply stated the truth.
The real reason she was in Rome.
‘I’m determined to love it this time.’
* * *
‘Okay...’ Raul said. His stance was relaxed and he leant back in the seat, seemingly nonchalant, but in his mind he was searching for an angle—how to get her to speak of Bastiano without too direct a question.
Lydia was terribly formal—very English and uptight. One wrong move, Raul knew, and he would be the recipient of a downed napkin and he’d have to watch her stalk off back to the hotel.
She was so incredibly sexy, though.
A woman who would make you earn that reward.
Lydia did not flirt, he noted.
Not a fraction.
No playing with her hair, no leaning forward, no secret smiles and no innuendo.
Really, the way she was sitting so upright in the chair, he could be at a breakfast meeting with Allegra, his PA.
Except Raul was aroused.
He was here to garner information, Raul reminded himself, and took his mind back to their conversation.
Or tried to.
‘How long are you here for?’
‘Till Sunday,’ Lydia answered. ‘Two nights. How about you?’
‘I’m here for business.’
Raul should not be taking this time now. He had a very packed day. First he would meet with Alim and his team. Then, if time allowed, he would drop in unexpectedly on the other hotel he owned in Rome.
But he always made Bastiano his business.
‘When do you leave?’ she asked.
‘When business is done.’ Raul’s jet was in fact booked for six this evening, but he did not share his itinerary with anyone outside his close circle. ‘So, you’ve been to Rome before?’
‘Yes, I came to Italy on a school trip and had a rather miserable time. I don’t think my mood then did the place justice.’
‘Where did you go?’
‘Rome, Florence and Venice.’
‘Which was your favourite?’
Lydia thought for a moment. ‘Venice.’
‘And your least favourite?’
Oh, that was easy—Lydia didn’t have to think to answer that, even if he didn’t understand her response. ‘Venice.’
He did understand.
So much so that Raul again forgot that he was trying to steer the conversation. Even though Bastiano was the reason Raul was there, for now he left Raul’s mind.
He thought of Venice—the city he loved and now called home.
Not that he told her that.
Raul gave away nothing.
Then suddenly he did.
For as she looked over she was rewarded with the slow reveal of his smile.
And his smile was a true and very rare gift.
She saw those full dark lips stretch and the white of his teeth, but the real beauty was in eyes that stared so deeply into hers she felt there was nowhere to hide.
And nor did she want to.
‘Venice,’ Raul said, in that deep, measured voice, ‘can be the loneliest place in the world.’
‘Yes,’ Lydia admitted. ‘It was.’
It was as if she was seventeen again, walking alongside the Grand Canal alone and wanting to be in love with the city.
To be in love.
Of course nearly every schoolgirl on a trip to Italy secretly hoped for a little romance.
But on that day—on that terribly lonely day—Lydia would have been happy with a friend.
One true friend.
Raul was right. Lydia had felt utterly alone then, and for the most part she had felt the same since.
She was looking at him, but not really, and then his voice brought her back.
‘And you forgive her because how could you not?’
‘Her?’ Lydia checked, her mind still on friendships that had failed.
‘Venice.’
‘I wasn’t there long enough to forgive her,’ Lydia admitted.
‘What happened?’
‘Just being a teenager...’
She could easily dismiss it as that, but it had been more. Oh, she didn’t want to tell him that her father had just died and left behind him utter chaos, for while it might explain her unhappiness then, it wasn’t the entire truth—it had been more than that.
‘Schoolgirls can be such bitches.’
‘I don’t think it is exclusive to that age bracket.’
‘No!’ Lydia actually laughed at his observation because, yes, those girls were now women and probably still much the same.
She glanced at her phone, which had remained silent.
Arabella hadn’t responded to her text.
Neither had she responded to Lydia’s last message.
And suddenly Lydia was back in Italy, hurting again.
‘What happened in Venice?’
Raul chose his moment to ask. He knew how to steer conversations, and yet he actually found himself wanting to know.
‘We went to Murano...to a glass factory.’ She shook her head and, as she had then, felt pained to reveal the truth.
It felt like a betrayal.
Money should never be discussed outside the home.
‘And...?’ Raul gently pushed.
Why lie? Lydia thought.
She would never see him again.
It wasn’t such a big deal.
Surely?
‘My father had died the year before.’
He didn’t say he was sorry—did not offer the automatic response to that statement.
It was oddly freeing.
Everyone had been so sorry.
If there’s anything I can do... The words had been tossed around like black confetti at his funeral.
Yet they had done nothing!
When it was clear the money had gone, so had they.
‘I’d told Arabella, my best friend, that my mother was struggling financially.’ Lydia was sweating, and that wasn’t flattering. She wanted to call the waiter to move the shade umbrella but knew she could be sitting in ice and the result would be the same.
It wasn’t sexy sweat.
Lydia wasn’t turned on now.
She felt sick.
‘I told Arabella that we might lose the castle.’
She offered more explanation.
‘The castle was in my mother’s family, but my father ran it. I thought he had run it well, but on his death I found out that my parents had been going under.’
Raul offered no comment, just let her speak.
‘He took his own life.’
She’d never said it out loud before.
Had never been allowed to say it.
‘I’m sorry you had to go through that.’
And because he hadn’t said sorry before, now—when he did—she felt he meant it.
‘I still can’t believe he left me.’
‘To deal with the fallout?’
He completed her sentence, even though Lydia thought she already had. She thought about it for a moment and nodded.
‘Things really were dire. My mother kept selling things off, to pay for my school fees. The trip to Italy was a compulsory one. I got a part-time job—saved up some spending money. Of course it didn’t come close to what my friends had. They were hitting all the boutiques and Arabella kept asking why I wasn’t buying anything. In the end I told her how bad things were. I swore her to secrecy.’
He gave a soft, mirthless laugh—one that told her he understood.
And then they were silent.
In that moment they met.
Not at a breakfast table in Rome but in a bleak, desolate space a world away from there.
They met and he reached across and took her hand, and together they walked it through.
‘At the factory, after a demonstration, everyone was buying things. I held back, of course. There was a table with damaged glassware and Belinda, another friend, held up a three-legged horse and suggested it was something that I might be able to afford. I realised then that Arabella had told everyone.’
She could still feel the betrayal.
Could still remember looking over to her best friend as everyone had laughed.
Arabella hadn’t so much as blushed at being caught.
‘She suggested that they all have a whip-round for me.’
‘So you walked off?’ Raul asked, impatient to know and understand her some more.
‘Oh, no!’ Lydia shook her head and then sighed. ‘I used up all my spending money, and the money I’d been given for my birthday, and bought a vase that I certainly couldn’t afford.’
It was that response in herself she had hated the most.
‘How shallow is that?’
‘People have been known to drown in shallow waters.’
‘Well, it’s certainly not easy to swim in them! Anyway, I didn’t see them much after that...’
‘You left school?’
‘I went to the local comprehensive for my final year. Far more sensible...but hell.’
Everything—not just the fact that she was a new girl for the last year, but every little thing, from her accent to her handwriting—had ensured she didn’t fit in from the very first day.
Raul knew it would have been hell.
He could imagine his schoolmates if an Italian version of Lydia had shown up in his old schoolyard. Raul could guess all she would have gone through.
‘I was a joke to them, of course.’
He squeezed her hand and it was the kindest touch, so contrary to that time.
‘Too posh to handle?’ Raul said, and she nodded, almost smiled.
But then the smile changed.
Lydia never cried.
Ever.
Not even when her father had died.
So why start now?
Lydia pulled her hand back.
She was done with introspection—done with musings.
They hurt too much.
Lydia was somewhat appalled at how much she had told him.
‘Raul, why am I here?’
‘Because...’ Raul shrugged, but when that did not appease her he elaborated. ‘Maurice was getting in the way.’
Lydia found herself laughing, and it surprised her that she could.
A second ago she had felt like crying.
It was nice being with him.
Not soothing.
Just liberating.
She had told another person some of the truth and he had remained.
‘Maurice is my stepfather,’ she explained.
‘Good,’ Raul said, but she missed the innuendo.
‘Not really.’
Lydia didn’t respond to his flirting as others usually did, so he adopted a more businesslike tone. The rest they could do later—he wanted information now.
‘Maurice wants you to be at some dinner tonight?’
Lydia nodded. ‘He’s got an important meeting with a potential investor and he wants me there.’
‘Why?’
Lydia gave a dismissive shake of her head.
She certainly wasn’t going to discuss that!
‘I probably shan’t go,’ Lydia said, instead of explaining things. ‘I’m supposed to be catching up with a friend—or rather,’ she added, remembering all he had heard, ‘an acquaintance.’
‘Who?’
‘Arabella.’ She was embarrassed to admit it after all she had told him. ‘She works in Rome now.’
‘I thought you fell out?’
‘That was all a very long time ago,’ Lydia said, but she didn’t actually like the point he had raised.
They hadn’t fallen out.
The incident had been buried—like everything else.
She conversed with Arabella only through social media and the odd text. It had been years since they had been face-to-face, and Lydia wasn’t sure she was relishing the prospect of seeing her, so, rather than admit that, she went back to his original question—why Maurice wanted her to be there tonight.
‘The family castle is now a wedding venue.’
‘Do you work there?’
Lydia nodded.
‘Doing what?’
‘I deal with the bookings and organise the catering...’ She gave a tight smile, because what she did for a living was so far away from her dreams. When her father had been alive she had loved the visitors that came to the castle. He would take them through it and pass on its rich history and Lydia would learn something new every time.
‘And you still live at home?’
‘Yes.’
She didn’t add that there was no choice. The business was failing so badly that they couldn’t afford much outside help, and she didn’t get a wage as such.
‘Bastiano—this man we’re supposed to meet tonight—has had a lot of success converting old buildings... He has several luxury retreats and my mother and Maurice are hoping to go that route with the castle. Still, it would take a massive cash injection...’
‘Castles need more than an injection—they require a permanent infusion,’ Raul corrected.
All old buildings did.
It galled him that Bastiano had been able to turn the convent into a successful business venture. On paper it should never have worked, and yet somehow he had ensured that it had.
‘Quite,’ Lydia agreed. ‘But more than money we need his wisdom...’ She misinterpreted the slight narrowing of Raul’s eyes as confusion. ‘A lot of these types of venture fail—somehow Bastiano’s succeed.’
‘So why would this successful businessman be interested in your castle?’
Lydia found she was holding her breath. His question was just a little bit insulting. After all, the castle was splendid indeed, and Raul could have no idea what a disaster in business Maurice had turned out to be.
‘I’m sure Bastiano recognises its potential.’
‘And he wants you there tonight so he can hear your vision for the castle?’
Lydia gave a small shake of her head. The truth was that she was actually opposed to the idea of turning it into a retreat—not that her objections held much weight.
‘Then why do you need to go?’
‘I’ve been invited.’
‘Lydia, I have had more business meetings than I’ve had dinners.’ Raul spoke when she did not. ‘But I can’t ever remember asking anyone—ever—to bring along their daughter, or rather their stepdaughter.’
She blushed.
Those creamy cheeks turned an unflattering red.
Lydia knew it—she could feel the fire, not just on her skin but building inside her at the inappropriateness he was alluding to.
‘Excuse me?’ she snapped.
‘Why?’ Raul said. ‘What did you do?’
‘I mean you’re rude to insinuate that there might be something else going on!’
‘I know that’s what you meant.’
He remained annoyingly calm, and more annoyingly he didn’t back down.
‘And I’m not insinuating anything—I’m telling you that unless you hold the deeds to the castle, or are to be a major player in the renovations, or some such, there is no reason for this Bastiano to insist on your company tonight. ‘
‘He isn’t insisting.’
‘Good.’ Raul shrugged. ‘Then don’t go.’
‘I don’t have any excuse not to.’
‘You don’t need one.’
It was Lydia who gave a shrug now.
A tense one.
She was still cross at his insinuation.
Or rather she was cross that Raul might be right—that he could see what she had spent weeks frantically trying not to.
‘Lydia, can I tell you something?’
She didn’t answer.
‘Some free advice.’
‘Why would I take advice from a stranger?’
‘I’m no longer a stranger.’
He wasn’t. She had told him more than she had told many people who were in her day-to-day life.
‘Can I?’ Raul checked.
She liked it that he did not give advice unrequested, and when she met his eyes they were patient and awaiting her answer.
‘Yes.’
‘You can walk away from anyone you choose to, and you don’t have to come up with a reason.’
‘I know that.’
She had walked off from breakfast with Maurice, after all.
It wasn’t enough, though—Lydia knew that. And though Raul’s words made perfect sense, they just did not apply to her world.
‘So why don’t you tell your stepfather that you can’t make it tonight because you’re catching up with a friend?’
‘I already have.’
‘But you don’t like Arabella,’ Raul pointed out. ‘So why don’t you meet me instead?’
She laughed a black laugh. ‘You’re not a friend.’
He wasn’t.
‘No,’ he answered honestly. ‘I’m not.’
She was about to take a sip of her coffee when he added something else.
‘I could be for tonight, though.’
‘I don’t think so.’ Lydia gave a small laugh, not really getting what he had just said—or rather not really thinking he meant it.
‘Do you have many friends?’ she asked, replacing her cup. Perhaps her question was a little invasive, but she’d told him rather a lot and was curious to know about him.
‘Some.’
‘Close friends?’ Lydia pushed.
‘No one whose birthday I need to remember.’
‘No one?’
He shook his head.
‘I guess it saves shopping for presents.’
‘Not really.’
Raul decided to take things to another level and tell her how things could be. In sex, at least, he was up front.
‘I like to give a present the morning after.’
Lydia got what he meant this time.
She didn’t blush. If anything Lydia felt a shiver, as if the sun had slipped behind a cloud.
It hadn’t.
He was dark, he was dangerous, and he was as sexy as hell. Absolutely she was out of her depth.
‘I’m here to sightsee, Raul.’
‘Then you need an expert.’
Lydia stared coolly back at this man who was certainly that. She wondered at his reaction if she told him just how inexperienced she was—that in fact he would be her first.
Not that it was going to happen!
But what a first, Lydia thought.
She went to reach for water but decided against it, unsure she could manage the simple feat when the air thrummed with an energy that was foreign to her.
He was potent, and Lydia was tempted in a way she had never been.
She glanced down to his hand, and that was beautiful too—olive-skinned and long-fingered with very neat nails. And it was happening again, because now she imagined them inside her.
Oh!
She was sitting at breakfast, imagining those very fingers in the filthiest of thoughts, and she dared not look up at him for she felt he could read her mind.
‘So what are your plans for today?’ Raul asked.
His voice seemed to be coming from a distance, and yet he was so prominent in her mind.
She could take his hand, Lydia was certain, and be led to his bed.
Oh, what was happening to her?
‘I told you—sightseeing, and then I’m shopping for a dress.’
‘I wish I could be there to see that.’
‘I thought men didn’t like shopping.’
‘I don’t, usually.’
His eyes flicked to the row of buttons at the front of her dress and then to the thick nipples that ached, just ached for his touch, for his mouth. And then they moved back to her face.
‘I have to go,’ Raul told her, and she sat still as he stood. With good reason: her legs simply refused to move. Standing would be difficult...walking back over to the hotel would prove a completely impossible feat.
Please go, Lydia thought, because she felt drunk on lust and was trying not to let him see.
He summoned the waiter, and though he spoke in Italian he spoke slowly enough that she could just make out what was being said.
Hold this table for tonight at six.
And then he turned to where she sat, now with her back to him, and lowered his head. For a moment she thought he was going to kiss her.
He did not.
His breath was warm on her cheek and his scent was like a delicious invasion. His glossy black hair was so close that she fought not to reach out and feel it, fought not to turn and lick his face.
And then he spoke.
‘Hold that thought till six.’
Lydia blinked and tried to pretend that she still felt normal, that this was simply breakfast and she was somehow in control.
‘I already told you—I can’t make it tonight.’
Then he offered but one word.
‘Choose.’
