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“The king is dead.”

Those four words, cold as marble and sharp as flint, were uttered by the thin, cruel lips of Edward Seymour, the king’s privy councillor and my brother’s uncle. In this way I learned of my father’s death. The date was the thirty-first of January, anno Domini 1547.

My father, dead! I knew that he had been ill, yet the news still came as a terrible shock. It seemed impossible that the great King Henry would no longer stride like a giant through the kingdom and through my life. I was not close to him, and I had spent little time with him in the years of my growing up. Nevertheless, he had been an enormous presence in my life. Now, suddenly, my father was gone. I would have neither his protection nor his occasional bursts of affection. I was alone, and – I confess it – I was afraid.

But I had no time to dwell on my own tumultuous feelings. My brother burst into tears at the news and threw himself sobbing into my arms. Named Edward in honour of this uncle, he was nine years old, a beautiful boy, delicate as a wren’s egg. I held him, and my own tears fell upon his thick curls. I was thirteen, poised on the brink of womanhood, but at that moment I felt like a child myself. My brother and I were orphans, and now he was king. I can scarcely imagine his terror.

“When did my father die?” I asked Seymour, struggling to still the tremor in my voice.

“On the morning of the twenty-eighth.”

“Three days past?” I asked sharply. “Why am I told only now?”

“There were decisions to be made,” Seymour replied in a cold voice. “For three days no one but members of the privy council was informed of the king’s death.”

I glared at him. I did not trust Seymour, even then. Decisions concerning what? I wanted to ask boldly, but I did not, for I saw that my questions angered him.

Seymour was the brother of young Edward’s mother, Jane Seymour, who had died soon after giving birth to my brother. Seymour had made himself so much part of our family that he’d carried me in Edward’s christening procession. Now he was the most powerful of the privy councillors. Seymour had his own reasons for keeping the death of the king of England a secret. I guessed that it was to make sure of his own power over the new king.

Instead of demanding an explanation, I asked merely, “Has my sister, Mary, been informed?”

“She has,” he snapped. “Madam, your questions could delay our arrival in London. Kindly summon your servants. We must leave at once.”

“You have waited three days to tell us of our father’s death,” I retorted. “Now, if you please, have the kindness to allow me a little time to console my brother, the king.” Without waiting for a reply, I knelt beside the sobbing, quivering boy. Only when he was somewhat soothed and my own feelings calmed did I call for Kat Ashley to prepare for our journey.

“LORD HAVE MERCY!” Kat cried out when I told her the news. She put on a great show of wailing and blubbering that I only half believed. Kat had been my governess and dearest confidante since I was three years old. We knew each other very well, and I sensed that although she deemed it proper to grieve for the death of the monarch, she could not forgive my father for his treatment of my mother and for the many times he seemed to have forgotten me. While Kat continued her lamentations, I summoned the maids of the chamber to begin laying out the black mourning garments I would need.

Eventually – not quickly enough for Seymour, but in good time – our belongings were packed into panniers carried by horses, and our mounts prepared. Frost crunched beneath the horses’ hooves as we plodded along rutted roadways. For once Kat was mostly silent, and I was finally able to give myself over to my grief.

I hadn’t seen my father for two years, since last he called me to court to celebrate the dawning of the new year. That was how he was – sometimes I was in the king’s favour, sometimes not. It had been this way all my life. For a time he hadn’t even acknowledged me as his daughter, long ago declaring both my sister, Mary, and me bastards. (Mary is the child of his first wife, I of his second, and Edward of his third.) Yet, only weeks before his death, I learned that he had restored us to the succession, putting us in line for the throne after Edward and whatever children my father’s only son would produce. My sister and I were still bastards, but we were the king’s heirs. I stood a long way from the throne, however, and it did not once occur to me that day as I rode towards London that I might one day become queen.

IT WAS LATE afternoon, and the torches were already lit when we reached London. We were chilled to the bone and aching with weariness. But we could not rest. We had to hasten at once to Whitehall Palace, where my father’s body lay in state in the chapel. His enormous coffin was surrounded by dozens of mourners and as many flickering candles. As I entered the chapel, I gave a start and nearly cried out, for beside the coffin stood a wax effigy of the king, dressed in magnificent jewelled robes. The extremely lifelike figure didn’t resemble my pain-wracked father as I last saw him. It was made to portray the king in his vigorous youth. I had never seen him like this. My earliest memories were of a man who was already turned fat and ungainly. I was unprepared for the feelings of loss and yearning that swept through me for the awesomely powerful man I had never known.

Near the coffin sat Queen Catherine, my father’s sixth wife, pale but composed. It would be wrong to describe her as beautiful, for Catherine, at thirty-four, was past her bloom. But she had a kindness in her eyes and a generous mouth that, on less sombre occasions, smiled easily. I thought how lonely she would now be without my father. She had been so attentive to him in his last months, when he was feeble and in pain. He had been a demanding husband, yet she was sure to feel his absence keenly.

By her side sat one of our cousins, Lady Jane Grey, gently stroking the queen’s hand. As we entered, Jane jumped to her feet, and she and Edward rushed weeping into each other’s arms. I stood silently by, observing the scene. I, too, felt like weeping, but I would never reveal my feelings so easily.

After Edward received Queen Catherine’s embrace, it was my turn. I stepped forward and knelt before her, and when she raised me up I kissed her with true affection. As I did so I noticed the man who hovered near her chair with an air of solicitude. He gazed at me, and I couldn’t help gazing back frankly. Two years previously, when I was last at court, I had met Tom Seymour, brother of Edward Seymour and another of my little brother’s uncles. I’d paid little attention to him then – I was but a child of eleven. But now thirteen and aware of such things, I was quite conscious of his eyes lingering upon me.

Tom Seymour was tall, at least six feet, although not so tall as my father, with a slender, athletic build. His dark hair fell over his brow, and his beard was red and abundant. His brown eyes generally glowed with merriment, although at times they seemed to smoulder with less pleasant emotions. I thought him very handsome.

After gazing at me for a long moment, he bowed and greeted me cordially, expressing his deep sympathy. But almost immediately he turned to my brother with an outpouring of affection. Edward had been weeping more or less steadily since Seymour brought us the news. Now he suddenly brightened and fairly leaped into Tom’s arms. Tom swept up the frail boy in an embrace that nearly engulfed him.

At that moment Edward Seymour stepped forward. “Set him down at once,” he ordered Tom in a tone that brooked no refusal. “This is the king of England, you fool! Not some idle toy for your pleasure!”

The two Seymours stared at each other while my brother clung to Tom like a cub to its dam. Then, very gently, Tom set the young king on his feet again and knelt before him. “Your Majesty,” Tom said reverently. Edward Seymour cast his brother a scornful look and turned away.

What interested me even more than the anger that flashed between the two men was something in the eyes of Queen Catherine. She gazed at Tom Seymour with an expression that could mean only one thing: she loves him.

At once I wondered, How long has she loved him? My father has been dead for less than a week! This realisation troubled me; I cared for Queen Catherine, and I could not bear to think of her as a disloyal wife. My mind raced on: And what of Tom Seymour? Does he love the queen?

I WAS KNEELING in prayer by my father’s coffin when my sister, Mary, arrived. Her entrance created a considerable stir. Unless we were called to court, we rarely saw each other, although we lived only half a day’s journey apart and often exchanged politely formal letters.

I was surprised at how she looked. She would be thirty-one in a few days, but she appeared much older. Her skin was blanched, her face pinched, her once red-gold hair now faded and thin. She seemed shrunken inside her mourning clothes, and yet she glittered from head to foot with diamonds and pearls. In her love of jewels, at least, she resembled our father! We greeted each other as daughters of the king, as the occasion demanded, and wept in each other’s arms. Yet there was no warmth in our embrace. We were not enemies then, but neither were we friends. For my part I felt no more than if I had been embracing a near stranger.

As Mary and I stood by our father’s bier, I recalled the summer our father had wed Catherine. After the marriage ceremony at Hampton Court in July of 1543, Mary and I, and Edward, had accompanied the bridal couple on a honeymoon progress through the countryside. Each summer my father made a royal progress to let himself be seen by his subjects, stopping for a week or a fortnight with noble families along the way and amusing himself each day with hunting. The purpose of this progress was to display his new wife as well as to hunt for deer.

No one paid me much attention that summer except Catherine, who was quite gracious to me. I was grateful for her kindness, for as a nine-year-old girl I did not like to be ignored. Wherever we went, little Edward, curly haired and adorable heir to the throne, was of course the object of much cooing and petting. But it was my sister, Mary, who received enthusiastic greetings from the crowds that turned out to hail us as we rode through hamlets and villages. This seemed to annoy my father, who took to teasing Mary about finding her a husband.

“Twenty-seven and still a virgin!” he would roar. “Perhaps I know of a German prince who would have you as his wife!” Then later it would be the French dauphin, or some Danish count. He teased her as one might taunt a dog with a bone.

“As my lord wishes,” Mary would reply in her deep, almost manly voice, taking care not to show her hurt or embarrassment.

Mary might have hidden her true feelings from our father, but I caught a glimpse of them one day when we stopped to rest by the side of a stream. Our servants rushed about, setting up planks on trestles beneath the branches of a large oak. While our meal was being laid out, I saw Mary wander off alone along the banks of the stream. My father’s leg was paining him, as it often did, and Catherine was busy tending to his needs. Edward had fallen asleep on the couch brought for him. Partly out of boredom and partly, I suppose, out of jealousy that she was the favoured sister – my father didn’t even bother to tease me – I decided to follow Mary and to spy on her. What I thought I would witness I cannot say.

After a time her footsteps slowed, then stopped. She flung herself down on the grassy bank and burst into tears. I watched from behind a tree as she sobbed as though her heart were breaking. Part of me wanted to flee back to the royal company, where perhaps I might now receive some of my father’s attention. But Mary’s grief touched something within me, and after a time I stepped out from my hiding place. I didn’t know what to say, and so I simply stood where she might notice me.

When Mary realised that she was not alone, she stifled a startled cry. “Yes?” she asked irritably. “What is it, Elizabeth?”

“You seem so sad,” I said.

Mary gazed at me thoughtfully. “I am twenty-seven years old. I have neither husband nor child, nor any hope of one. It is a terrible thing to live without love, Elizabeth.”

“I love you, dearest sister,” I murmured, and I moved to lay my hand softly upon her cheek.

“You!” she said harshly, pulling back, and I stepped away in surprise. “You!”

Stung, I turned and ran back to join the others. The board was laid with a meal of meat pasties and fish pudding and ale, but I had no appetite. Soon Mary joined us, her eyes puffed and reddened. My father noticed nothing, but I saw the new queen observing Mary carefully. Feeling rebuffed, I avoided Mary as much as I could for the rest of our journey. It was not difficult to do, for she seemed to avoid me as well.

When the royal progress ended at the close of summer, each of us returned to our homes. Mary went to her manor house at Hunsdon in Hertfordshire, north of London. Edward was taken to his palace at Ashridge and I to Hatfield Palace, also in Hertfordshire, accompanied by our various tutors and governesses. The king and queen returned to my father’s favourite palace at Greenwich, on the River Thames, east of London. For a time I missed them, until I got caught up again in my studies and thought less and less of my family.

Since then I had seen little of the new couple or of Mary, except when we all were invited to court for Yuletide and New Year’s, again at Easter, and once more at Whitsuntide. On those occasions I was careful not to approach Mary closely, no matter how genial she may have appeared. But now, at my father’s funeral, I had no choice. I wondered what my sister’s thoughts were as we stood side by side, her fingers entwined with mine.