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I slammed the car door with my usual gusto as I got out of it on our drive. Not because I wanted to make any sort of statement, but because it was the only way to be sure of it actually shutting. My poor little Fiesta was 12 years old now, but despite its little ‘idiosyncracies’ (well, that was how I liked to think of them) I was still resistant to Mike’s endless tutting and head-shaking, and banging on about how I should really look for something newer.

The noise brought Kieron to the door anyway. ‘Ah, Mum,’ he said, looking shifty, ‘just so you know, we got a half day today so I’ve brought Si home to work with me on some music. Which is important. Because it’s stuff we’re doing for college. So I don’t suppose you would put on some earmuffs or something, would you?’

‘Earmuffs?’ I asked him.

‘Yeah,’ he said, looking at me as if I was ridiculously slow on the uptake. ‘You know, so you can’t, like, hear us?’

Lovely, I thought, wondering quite why Kieron thought I’d be able to whip up a pair of earmuffs out of nothing. As far as I could remember, I had never owned a pair of earmuffs in my life – a lack that wasn’t lost on me given that I’d spent most of the day lightly chilled, like the ready-meals in the local branch of Tesco.

‘It’s that bad, is it?’ I asked him, dropping my satchel onto the hall floor for the moment, to sit among the small gathering of abandoned trainers. It was certainly odds-on that it might be. Kieron was taking a media studies course at college and had recently developed an obsession with ‘mixing beats’, whatever that was. All I knew was that it had involved Mike spending a ridiculous amount of money on some turntables and a mixing desk, and then lots of noise. That was definitely the only word to describe what was floating down the stairs to me right now. Well, to be fair, that one word was a bit of a generalisation. ‘Strangled cat mixed with several hundred fingers being scraped down a blackboard all at once’ was quite a good description too.

Si, aka Simon, was on the same course. He and Kieron had been friends since they’d both started high school, so I’d known him for years, but now I saw rather more of him than I ever did before; amazing how a pair of turntables (wash my mouth out – I must remember that they are ‘decks’) could totally take over a pair of teenage boys’ lives. Not to mention turning me into my mother. Much as I was horrified to realise it was happening, my new catch phrase seemed to be ‘Turn that down!’

I bit my lip to stop myself from saying it this time. ‘Not a chance, kiddo,’ I said instead as I slipped off my jacket. ‘Tell you what – how about you and Si put on your headphones and listen to your “tunes” through those. How’s that for an idea? I need to get dinner ready, don’t I?’

‘Mother,’ Keiron said, shaking his head in disdain. ‘You are so old school! Fine, then,’ he added, in a voice heavy with resignation. ‘We’ll try to be quiet, then.’ He then turned tail and began heading back up the stairs. But not before adding that, where dinner was concerned, just pizza for him and Si would be fine. ‘Upstairs, yeah? So we can crack on with our work,’ he explained, without so much as the tiniest pinch of irony.

What was it they said was a great leveller? Time? Death? Education? I wasn’t sure, but as I hung my jacket over the newel post, I decided ‘going home’ was probably right up there in the top ten of things that kept your feet on the ground, if not your chakras re-aligned. Evidence of recent occupation was strewn around my living room, where some living had evidently been done. My perfectly placed scatter cushions were now strewn across the sofa any old how, the TV, though muted, was playing some music station and as I looked through to my kitchen and dining area, I could see that I had the joy of a sink full of washing up that hadn’t been there when I’d left it.

What planet had I been on when I looked forward to the time when my kids were older, confident that the working day might just mean exactly that? That I wouldn’t then have to come home and start work all over again? As yet, there’d not only been no sign of that happening – it seemed to be getting even worse. Because not only was I expected to feed my own husband and offspring – these days there was more often than not someone else wanting feeding; or who just happened to be around when it was dinner time.

As a family, we’d swelled our ranks as well. Our daughter Riley was now going steady with her boyfriend David, so much so that they were currently saving up to buy a house. Which was wonderful, because he was a lovely lad, and a great foil for our feisty daughter, but with every bit of spare cash being directed towards their savings, their days of living the high life, gadding about, going out and eating in restaurants had been replaced with the more cost-effective and time-honoured tradition of either eating at our house or his parents’.

I didn’t mind all the extra work this entailed. I really didn’t. Well, I didn’t mind 99 per cent of the time, anyway; it didn’t go down well with my more rigorously twenty-first-century dwelling colleagues but I loved looking after my little family. But every day, for about five minutes, when I was feeling that enervating just-home-from-work tiredness, I wished I didn’t get home before Mike and Riley, so that it could be me walking in to the smell of something nice cooking, rather than them.

Sadly, I had no access to that universe currently, and as I wouldn’t be letting Kieron loose in the kitchen any time soon (pizza was nice, but not every day for all eternity) I rolled up my sleeves up and cracked on. And as I did so, I wondered about Kiara and what sort of home she’d be returning to tonight. I couldn’t seem to help it. I had so little to go on, and what I had was hardly earth-shattering, but there was something about that girl that had really got under my skin.

I’d not had a chance to catch up with Julia Styles after school the previous day so the following morning I set my alarm early and, having remembered to take a cardigan in case the radiators were still iffy, the first thing I did when I got into work was to pay her a visit.

‘You’ll never guess what,’ she said, almost the second I stepped into her office.

I grinned. ‘Try me. Erm … no, hang on. Let me see. They’ve decided to cancel the inspection because they already know how brilliant we are.’

She shook her head. ‘You wish. No, Thomas Robinson.’

‘Thomas who?’ I said.

‘Doesn’t ring a bell?’

‘No, it doesn’t,’ I admitted. ‘No, wait. Hang on. Maybe it does. It’s definitely ringing something.’ I made a show of tipping my head from side to side to check.

‘It should do,’ Julia said, beckoning to the chair beside her desk. ‘He’s the lad who banged his head in the hall yesterday after that to-do with Kiara Bentley.’

‘Of course,’ I said, the penny dropping. ‘How’s he doing?’

‘Fine, by all accounts,’ she said. She pulled a file towards her as I sat down. ‘Apparently looked much worse than it was – often the case with heads, isn’t it? Bleed like the devil. They steri-stripped it apparently. No concussion or anything. So that’s good.’ She smiled. ‘Though not from Donald’s point of view. Three hours he was down there – the mum couldn’t be found, apparently, and there was no alternative contact in his file. He’s a new lad,’ she added, by way of explanation. ‘Only been here a fortnight or so, bless him. Something of a baptism of fire!’

Certainly something of a reminder that silly, lewd behaviour was not the way to win friends and influence people – particularly girls. Though it was obviously good to know the wound was only minor. ‘Anyway, what about him?’ I asked, remembering Julia’s opening comment.

‘This’ll make you smile,’ she said. ‘He’s one of the lads you’re down to have joining the Unit. I only just realised. Only part time for the moment. To see how it goes. According to what Donald put here, he needs a bit of “socialising”.’

I smiled. Socialising could encompass all sorts of things, though from the evidence of the previous days it sounded fairly cut and dried; he needed to learn how to behave himself. He’d gone slightly feral, his file said, the family having been steadily making their way north from London over the last couple of months, staying with friends and relatives and moving around a lot, in order to escape the abusive ex who was apparently still trying to track them down.

For Thomas and his four older sisters this had meant nothing in the way of schooling, and having spent so much time away from structure and routine, he was badly in need of some boundaries and order in his life.

‘He’s been marked out as being a little “wild”,’ Julia clarified, ‘as you’ll have already noticed yourself. Wild and a little bit too streetwise for his age.’

‘Not to mention keen to make his mark,’ I said, remembering what Kiara had told me. Because I didn’t doubt all his nonsense had been much more about impressing his new friends than real sexual intention.

‘You said it,’ Julia agreed. ‘And now, given their confrontation yesterday, I’m wondering if we should have a bit of a rethink. He was only due to be with you for half the week in any case, but perhaps we should hold off? Kelly tells me you’ve suggested Kiara stay with you for a few days. Is that right?’

I nodded. ‘Yes, that’s one of the things I wanted to talk to you about. I just feel there’s more to know, and, since she seems happy to spend a little time with me – well, you know me. I’m determined to find out what it is. You know, something else occurred to me last night as well. She really is a loner, isn’t she? I was just wondering why she’d have been sitting with that group of boys in the first place. Where were her girlfriends? Does she even have a regular group of friends? A lot of her stress might be because she’s feeling isolated, mightn’t it?’

‘Like I said, she’s always been a quiet one,’ Julia said. ‘Doesn’t mix much at all. And that’s fine, Casey. Of course it is. I trust your instincts totally. And it’s not like you’re over-run right now. But I’m not sure throwing those two together is going to be a terrifically good idea, are you? I mean, I know they’re in the same tutor group anyway so they’ll be back together for registration and so on in the fullness of time, but in the short term it’s hardly going to make for harmony in the classroom, is it?’

‘No,’ I said, ‘Probably not. But it’s a bridge we can cross when we get to it, isn’t it? Once he’s back in school.’

‘He already is,’ she said. ‘I saw him arriving earlier. He’s sitting in your very own breakfast club even as we speak, no doubt. Can’t seem to keep him away!’

Setting up the breakfast club had been one of the first initiatives I’d thrown myself into when I joined the school. It tended to be a mixture of the proverbial ‘latchkey kids’ and those whose parents left for work too early to get them up for school and make breakfast; some of these kids could just as easily get ready and eat breakfast at home but would rather have the company of friends than be alone in an empty house. I completely got that, and whatever the reasons for them attending, it made me happy to know that at least these kids could start the day after a feast of a meal. This was all thanks to the rather generous budget we had been allocated, as often was the case with new initiatives. It enabled us to provide the kids with cereals, fruit, juices, toast, peanut butter, etc. for a nourishing and balanced breakfast.

‘Really?’ I said to Julia now. ‘He’s already back? Wouldn’t the hospital have advised him to stay at home and rest for a few days?’

Julia shrugged. ‘They could well have. But it clearly hasn’t happened, has it? I think his mum has some sort of temporary job, which means Thomas goes to school. As far as I know, they don’t have anyone local who can support them as yet. My guess is that as he’s been given a clean bill of health down in A and E, it’s more a case of “go in and if you feel ill tell a teacher” than “stay home with me and I’ll mop your fevered brow”, don’t you?’

I agreed she was probably right. ‘But I’m happy to take him in anyway. No time like the present for the two of them to patch things up, is there? As I say, they’ll both be back in the same tutor group before you know it, after all. And you know me – I’ll find a way to use it to my advantage. Sex ed. Being kind. Name calling and so on. No, it’s fine. So who else do I have as well?’

Julia quickly ran through the other names and a little bit about them. The girl, Chloe, did turn out to be the one Kelly had told me about, and the other boy was a year seven lad called Jonathan, who had been living with a foster family for the past six months. He was apparently angry and disruptive and on a behaviour-modification programme with his foster mum; having to earn ‘mummy dollars’ for good behaviour, in order to have currency to spend on treats, such as TV and computer time, and having friends round.

His was a sad case; abandoned by his mother when he was just a toddler, Jonathan had been left in the care of a father who had significant learning difficulties. He’d entered the care system, aged 11, when a neighbour had found him scavenging in their dustbin in search of food.

‘This one apparently needs a bit of socialising too, Casey,’ Julia told me. ‘Looks young for his age – a bit like butter wouldn’t melt – but has a very world-weary, angry, unhappy head on his shoulders; the consensus seems to be that, despite the great work his foster mum’s doing with him, his behaviour is steadily getting worse. You’re going to have your hands full with him, by all accounts.’

I was going to have my hands full, period, I reckoned. But that was fine. That was just the way I liked it.

The next thing I had to do was telephone Kiara’s mother and let her know her daughter would be spending a few days with me. This was standard practice: it was obviously important to keep parents in the loop and, hopefully, to keep them on side. It wasn’t always possible, because some kids came from difficult, complex backgrounds, but where there was a parent or guardian at home who wanted the best for their child, then it made sense for us to work as a team. And most of the time that was what we achieved. Initial reactions could be varied, however. Some parents were grateful for the extra support, but some were not; either suspicious of our motives, or concerned about their child being labelled, or just plain defensive about the whole thing, and angry that we were trying to ‘interfere’.

I wasn’t sure whether Kiara would have mentioned the incident the previous day or not, but I decided it was worth mentioning it to her mother, if only because her response might give me a further insight into how things were at home, and perhaps shed light on Kiara’s evident fatigue. This would also provide the reason given for having her with me; not much in itself but, along with the hair-pulling habit, it was reason enough, and I hoped I’d be able to get her on side.

Before I made the call, however, I would need to clear it with Gary Clark. After grabbing my second caffeine fix of the day, and armed with the usual wodge of mail and memos from my pigeonhole, I set off down the unusually quiet staff corridor to his office, only passing Barry, the caretaker, and a heating engineer. I smiled as I saw the new sign on Gary’s door. It was a smart black placard, embossed in gold with the words Child Protection Officer, and he was as proud of it as he might have been to have a star on Hollywood Boulevard. In a school, the little things were sometimes the big things.

‘Very official,’ I said, grinning as I opened the door and nodded to it. ‘Do I need to start calling you sir or something now?’

‘Lord Clark will do just fine, Casey,’ Gary said, laughing as he pulled out a chair for me. ‘And I see you’ve already got a coffee. At the very least, we should celebrate with a choccy biscuit, don’t you think?’

I shook my head. ‘You know what it’s like with addictions, Gary. I try not to start too early in the day. I only need five minutes of your time this morning anyway. Just to let you know what I’m doing with Kiara Bentley.’

I quickly ran through my thoughts, and let him know I wanted to spend a little time working with her. ‘So I was thinking I’d try to get hold of her mum this morning. Fill her in – assuming Kiara hasn’t already told her, that is – and see if she can enlighten me at all.’

‘That would be helpful, certainly,’ Gary said. ‘Though if memory serves, she wasn’t particularly forthcoming last time. And she doesn’t strike me as a terribly maternal mum. Still, it’s obviously important to touch base with her. Let me know how it goes. Now, are you sure you won’t be tempted by a chocolate biscuit?’

I fled the room before I caved in and changed my mind.

I went to my own room to make the call to Kiara’s mother. The quiet area of the staff-room would do ordinarily, but at this time of day it was like Piccadilly Circus, filling up with teachers with their own busy agendas; last-minute calls to make, coffees to be gulped down, things to be photocopied, gossip to be shared. I was also keen to be ‘in situ’ when my new kids arrived, as it felt important to be there to welcome them and set them at their ease.

It’s impossible to get much of a sense of a person via a phone call, but one thing was clear. She was prickly. ‘She’s on her way,’ she snapped immediately when I told her who I was and where I was calling from, and didn’t sound that convinced even when I explained that I wasn’t calling to chastise her for sending Kiara in late, because I didn’t even know she was going to be.

Though a glance at my watch confirmed that she would be. ‘I run the behaviour unit,’ I clarified. Which seemed to inflame Kiara’s mother further.

‘The what?’ she wanted to know. ‘Why does she have to go in there? There’s nothing wrong with her behaviour. And if you’re calling about that lad she gave what-for to, serve him bloody well right, as well. Little sh …’ She stopped and regrouped. ‘Little sod. And what about her exams and stuff? Won’t it affect her school work if she’s taken out of lessons?’

I assured Mrs Bentley that any important work would be sent through to me and that I would personally make sure it got done. I also explained that for a few days I’d be working closely with Kiara, getting to know her better and, in doing so, perhaps getting to the root of why she was so apparently tired and stressed in school.

‘How is she at home?’ I asked. ‘I’m told there were similar concerns about her last year. How has she been at home? Does she seem stressed to you?’

‘Not particularly,’ she said. ‘I mean, she’s not the most relaxed of kids at the best of times, is she?’ She sighed heavily. ‘Look, the school already know the sort of hours I work. I do my best, alright? We’re not all living in fairy land, you know. Life can be hard at times. That’s how it works in the real world. I do my best, like I said.’

‘I know, Mrs Bentley. I completely understand that. It must be hard, trying to make ends meet, have to be both mum and dad …’

A humourless laugh crackled down the line. ‘Oh, pur-lease don’t get me started on him,’ she said. ‘That bloody waster. Turns up out of the blue like a bad penny, and it’s all “daddy” this and “daddy” that. I don’t know why she bothers with him, I really don’t.’

‘Her dad?’ I asked, surprised. ‘I hadn’t realised he was still on the scene. So she still sees him then?’

‘Is back on the scene. After being AWOL for eight years. She’s seeing him most weekends. He’s flavour of the month, he is, currently.’ She sniffed. ‘Look, it’s not ideal, but it’s not for me to stop her seeing him if she wants to, is it? And with me working nights at the care home twice a week, well, at least I know where she is, don’t I? Idiot that he is. Stupid pillock treats her like a bloody five-year-old.’

I wasn’t quite sure what to make of that but didn’t know how to frame a question that would provide an answer. I left it.

‘So this is through the courts, is it?’ I said instead, remembering what Julia had said about their divorce having been acrimonious.

‘Oh no,’ she said, ‘we didn’t bother with any of that. He buggered off soon as, and good bloody riddance.’

‘So there was no contact?’

‘Not for a long time. Not since she was about five. He was just so bloody unreliable that in the end I stopped taking her; it was too upsetting for her. Not till he moved back to the area a couple of months back and wanted to know if he could start seeing her again. And, like I say, it’s not for me to deprive her of her father, is it? Not now she’s the age she is. Typical daughter. Dotes on him. Easy that, though, isn’t it? He’s not the one having to scrape together a living, is he? Or discipline her, or buy her uniform or make her tidy her room or any of that. So it’s all “daddy” this and “daddy” that. Like he can do no bloody wrong …’

I stepped in while she paused to gather breath.

‘Well, that’s all really useful information,’ I said quickly. ‘Perhaps it’s the changes that have led to her feeling a little strung out.’ Not to mention the obvious bad feeling between her parents, I thought, but didn’t say. It was so obvious, too – kids were always badly affected by warring parents – but to say so to this woman I’d not yet even met would be to cross a line I didn’t feel I should cross at this stage. I didn’t have all the facts, after all.

But I was quite keen to add to the ones I already had. ‘Which was why I thought it might be helpful,’ I added, ‘if I could chat to you together at some point as well.’