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FED UP!

To take a look inside her mind, was to literally take a giant leap down into her deepest darkest places. Along with, having a seat on the lap of her inner most desires. A place where not many had ever been able to touch before. For not many had ever gone there before. Trish had never allowed anyone to know her deepest places. So afraid that she would be judged harshly even for her thoughts alone. So revealing those desires was not something that she wanted to do nor something that she wanted anyone to know. For Trish is such a private person. However, she was not hard to reach usually, but, when it came to the things that she really wanted to shower herself with, or even the more, to be showered with, she had to go inside her self to shower them all by herself. Such a beautiful person should have never had to feel that way. A desirable woman, simply delicious to look at and enjoy inside and out. All of the things that one could ever imagine doing with her, could be, but because she wanted those things from her man, no one else had much of a chance to show her any differently.

Neglected, but waiting on the one person that she loved to notice her daily, was becoming a never ending battle. One that she was drawing near tired of losing. But who could blame her? Didn't she deserve better than what she was getting from him? Her night in shining armor--Was he really? Or was he simply taking up a space that could have been, would have been and should have been, taken up by someone else? That someone more deserving of her infallible affections and desires to enjoy the same things that her man had to give. If only to bestow upon her his love, but he so chose not to. Why should the life she shared and so loved, be so hard to do as the days grew long and her heart grew weary? Her youth drying up as she tried to make an already failed relationship work. How much longer would she have to wait on the man that she thought was her Mr. everything? But he was really not everything, to her.

Silently crying out for the love and attention that would never come to her no matter how long she waited for it or wanted it. The it was proving to be just that, a long hard wait. It seemed as though she was a target for the insensitive men that always seemed to take her and her love for granted. And it was only a matter of time before the desire and the wait would mean absolutely nothing to her.

Trish had not wanted much in life in the way of fancy things all she wanted was for someone to love her as deeply and as unconditionally as she would love him. She thought that she had that in Benny. But she would find out sooner than she would have thought that she was trying to wait out total nothingness. Her dreams, her thoughts for a more intimate relationship with her own husband was farther from her than she could have ever have imagined. She gave him her all, but in return, pain was all he seemed to have to offer her. Not physically abusive, but it is usually not the physical things that had affected her and that had the most effect on Trish. However, it was the emotional stressors that when set off, it would take an army to stop her. Her patience had been pushed to the max. It would only take not much more to push Trish even further off that edge than Benny could have imagined. He had gone too far and Trish was at the end of her rope.

So, being the nice, patient and caring, never stepping out on her man kind of wife, just did not seem as important to her anymore. She vowed vengeance in the worse ways imaginable, short of killing him of course. No, killing him would be too good for what he had put her through. The ultimate betrayal would be for her to take the same steps outside of their marriage that he had taken so many times before. However, he was already looking for that to happen. Benny never taking into account that one day Trish would flip and move to the measure of payback that would rock his little cheating ass world like never before.

Benny was so disrespectful. And Trish knew that he really did not care that she had gotten fed up with his mess. He was busy doing him. So he would never think that his wife would ever do to him the things that he had been doing to her from day one of their relationship.

Trish had been on the Internet chatting with a few guys here and there just to pass the time so that she would not feel so lonely while her husband was out pursuing other women during his whore hunts. She really did not want to view the women as whores, really, because it was not their fault that Benny would not tell them that he was a married man from the start of his adulterous relationships. It would not be until he was done with them and wanted to move on to his next eager victim that he would release that information. He usually would us the information as the deal breaker for anything that he had said to them during the empty pillow talk that he would share just to keep their heads until that final day. Benny was easily bored and when he became bored with any situation he would quickly make the necessary changes.

His ability to make changes when things would no longer appeal to his interest, was how he rolled. That was one of the reasons he was such a successful business man. He did not like to be bored by any situation and always looked for higher ground to tread on in order to change upward his situations. This characteristic within him, created the monster lawyer/businessman that he had become. And surely he fully embraced that monster that he had become. Only a monster of a man could do to his wife what he had done and continued doing.

Although Trish was taken care of financially through her family's businesses (her inheritance) and also had her own business ventures, she was set for the rest of her life with or without him, so really he did not matter. She could stand on her own, but she seemed to be stuck like a helpless fly in his spider web of lies and deceit and could not set herself free from him. He was eating at her little by little and this angered her so much till she was about to burst.

Hell she was about to burst in more than one way. He had not touched or made love to her for months, and she was so tired of touching herself. It was time for a change within that situation. A highly sexual and healthy ass woman could only take so much. That was it. One business trip too many and it was time for change.

Watching other women have babies by her husband and his denying them was just a bit too much for Trish to digest. "No more," she thought to herself. "No more!". Trish finally decided to continue to be pursued and to pursue a relationship outside of her marriage. Trish had no idea that she would be in for the ride of her life.

However, Trish was so ready for that trip. She was so tired of the messiness that others called marriage, that she in her own mind, was stuck in but wanted so desperately to get out of. But after being stuck for so long, she just did not know how. So although she was fed up, she needed a way out. She just did not know, that way out, was going to be a rough, but yet, most pleasurable one. That is until disaster hits in more ways than one.