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Chapter One

Expect miracles.

“Maybe it’s nothing.”

Susie Carrigan glared at the man she had chosen to save her from a fate worse than a hard frost on the first buds of spring.

Thirty-year-old Tyler McCabe was more than her best friend and an accomplished large animal vet. He was an astute fellow observer of human nature who could predict a person’s next move with startling accuracy, a fact that made his refusal to see the gravity of her current situation all the more frustrating.

“It’s not ‘nothing,’” she argued.

They were in the hospital barn of Tyler’s Healing Meadow Ranch, located just south of Laramie, Texas. He gave her a sexy, half smile that warmed her from the inside out.

“You can’t know that,” he said, hunkering down to finish his task.

Susie watched Tyler stitch up the flank of a longhorn calf who’d gotten tangled up in barbed wire. As always, his touch was gentle and sure, his sutures precise.

Trying not to think how those same hands would feel on her, if the two of them ever got together again—a fact she knew darn well was as unlikely as it was secretly appealing—Susie leaned back against the stall wall. She folded her arms in front of her. “Believe me, I know this. My parents are through waiting for me and my sibs to settle down and have families of our own. The holidays will be here in a few weeks. They’ve got plans for me, I’m telling you.”

Tyler swabbed antibiotic on the sealed wound, then covered it with a waterproof bandage. “I’d think that the heat would be off the rest of you now that Rebecca and Trevor are married.”

“Precisely the problem,” Susie lamented, her aggravation increasing. She looked at Tyler, studying his six-foot-four frame. Although he had an independent aura that could be a little off-putting at times—and a desire never to marry that matched her own—there wasn’t a finer-looking rancher around, in her opinion. He was strong and solidly muscled, with shoulders that were broad enough to lean on. She knew, because she’d done so, every now and again. He wore his thick reddish-brown hair on the longish side, so it brushed his collar and the tops of his ears; the no-fuss style suited him perfectly. His eyes were a distinct sage green with flecks of gray, his gaze both assessing and intent. He had a habit of shaving only every couple of days. The stubble of red-brown beard that surrounded his lips only served to remind her how passionately and skillfully he could kiss. Add to that a ruggedly handsome face, a McCabe-stubborn jaw that defied anyone to try and mess with him and a smile that was reckless and intuitive enough to make her heart flutter. And best of all, when she found herself in a potentially difficult situation, he always knew what to do or say to make her feel better.

Which was, of course, why she had come to him now.

Susie scuffed the toe of her sturdy engineer’s boots on the cement barn floor. “My parents think their plan to find suitable people for us to date, and hopefully marry, is what spurred Rebecca into going out and finding her perfect mate on her own. Basically, their plan worked! Now they aren’t going to rest until they match up me and Amy and Jeremy, too.”

“Meg and Luke can’t force you to do anything you don’t want to do, Suze.”

Susie flushed at Tyler’s use of the nickname he had given her when they were kids. “That will not stop them from trying.”

Tyler shrugged. “So tell them to back off. You’ll find your own man when you’re good and ready.”

Susie knew what she wanted. In theory, anyway. Whoever he was, the man of her dreams wouldn’t be much different from the man she saw standing in front of her.

Like Tyler, she would want her ideal someone to be taller than she was—not so easy to find for someone of her five-foot-ten inches height—and physically fit. She’d like him to be as comfortable working with his hands as she was with hers, and to enjoy being outdoors. She’d want someone, like Tyler, who had a wealth of experience in his expression, and a twinkle of humor that cropped up in his smile at the least expected times. She’d want him to call her on her bull, and let her call him on his. To make her feel that she could tell him anything. And most importantly, she’d want him to make her feel as if everything would turn out okay.

In a perfect world, that was the man she wanted. Unfortunately, her future wasn’t without potentially daunting liabilities, and in her heart of hearts, she knew it wasn’t fair to any man to ask him to share in those risks. It was bad enough that she had to deal with them, without dragging anyone else into that uncertainty.

“I want you to run interference for me,” Susie told Tyler.

He strode over to wash his hands in one of the sinks located at either end of the aisles between stalls. “By…”

“Going to my parents’ home with me.”

“No.”

Susie’s mouth dropped into an O of surprise. Their eyes met and held.

“I’m not going to help you put off until tomorrow what you should be taking care of today,” he told her firmly.

“Thanks a bunch,” Susie replied sarcastically.

Susie was used to Tyler being right there when she needed him. She wasn’t used to him refusing her anything.

He shrugged and, to her increasing dissatisfaction, held his ground. “You know your parents aren’t going to rest until they say whatever is on their mind. Therefore, you may as well just go on and get it done without me.”

“WE CALLED YOU HERE because we’re worried about you,” Meg Carrigan began as she and Susie’s father continued the preparations for the backyard party that would welcome Rebecca and Trevor home from their two-week honeymoon.

“It’s time you moved on and forgot the past,” Luke Carrigan added.

Susie tried to focus on the beauty of the November afternoon. It was unseasonably warm, with the temperature in the low seventies. The sky was a brilliant Texas-blue. It made a perfect backdrop for the red, gold and orange leaves on the trees.

Susie helped her mother spread burgundy cloth on the row of tables that would hold the buffet. “That’s easy for you to say. You didn’t go through what I did.”

Luke poured bags of ice into large galvanized tubs. “That was twelve years ago.”

And it feels like yesterday, Susie thought, putting bottles of beer and soft drinks in the ice to chill. “I’m fine.”

Her father moved on to setting up the barbecue grill. “If you were, you’d be dating someone.”

Maybe it was because her parents were both in the medical profession, but they had always been a lot more ready to dismiss what Susie had been through than she was. “Maybe,” Susie said calmly, “I’m just meant to go through life alone.”

Luke frowned, taking on the gentle but commanding air of a respected physician. “And maybe you’re not.”

Meg smiled like the understanding nurse she was and wrapped her arm around Susie’s shoulders. “We just want you to give love a chance.”

Susie tensed and stepped away. “I think they wrote a song about that.”

“Susie…” Luke’s voice held a warning tone.

Susie stopped rolling her eyes and sighed. “I suppose you two matchmakers have the man I should be seeing picked out, too.”

“Actually,” Meg allowed, “we have five.”

Susie blinked. “You’re kidding.”

Luke set the dials on his barbecue and began layering the first of several dozen baby back ribs on the grill. “All we are asking is that you allow us to arrange for you to make their acquaintance.”

“Which means,” Meg added, handing her husband a platter of Fredericksburg sausages, “giving them at least thirty minutes of your undivided attention.”

Susie laid out stacks of napkins, paper plates and silverware.” I can see the introductions now. Here’s my daughter, Susie. She’s a landscape architect who runs her own company and she can’t get an evening out to save her life.”

Her parents winced at her revealing choice of phrase.

“More accurately,” Luke corrected, “won’t accept an invitation for an evening out, from what I hear.”

Susie watched her father close the top of his grill over the sizzling meat. “Why lead ’em on if my intentions aren’t in the least bit serious? I’m always available for hanging out and going places with friends.”

Meg sat down to shuck some corn. “It’s not the same thing and you know it.”

“Why is this so important to you?”

Her father now walked around the yard, setting up folding chairs. “We want to know you’re moving on, especially now that the danger is over.”

As far as Susie was concerned, the danger would never be over. “The heartache can still come back.”

“It’s unlikely.” Her father came over to wrap an arm around his daughter.

“Unlikely” was not the same as “impossible,” and Susie wasn’t about to inflict her suffering on anyone else. “Look, Mom, Dad, I know you mean well,” she said, “but I’m happy with my life the way it is.” Her parents had a very happy marriage but she had a thriving business, a career she loved, a cozy house and enough money to do whatever she wanted in her leisure time.

“You could be even more content,” Meg said gently.

Susie studied her parents. Luke had silver running through his sandy-blond hair. Meg covered her silver strands with an auburn rinse that matched her natural hue. Both were fit, trim and remarkably energetic for a couple in their early fifties. They could also be indefatigable when it came to getting what they wanted for their four kids. Susie propped her hands on her hips and exhaled in exasperation. “You’re not going to give up on this, are you?”

Looking very much a couple, they shook their heads. “Not until you give it a try,” Meg admitted.

Given the fact that Thanksgiving was only a couple weeks away, Susie was willing to do whatever necessary to keep the peace for the holidays. She lifted a hand and set her boundaries. “I’m not going husband hunting. I will agree to meet the five guys—on one condition. If it doesn’t work out, if there’s no chemistry or interest on either one of our parts, you two have to back off. Permanently. And swear on all that is Texas that you will never say another word about me settling down, marrying and trying to have a family ever again.”

Her folks nodded, with obvious reluctance.

“How soon can we get this over with?” Susie asked impatiently.

Meg look over at the Congratulations Rebecca and Trevor! banner strung across the front porch. “I think we can arrange for you to meet all five bachelors in the next two weeks.”

“WHAT’S GOING ON BETWEEN you and Susie Carrigan?” Teddy McCabe asked Tyler, several hours later. “You haven’t taken your eyes off her since you arrived.”

Which, unfortunately, had been late, Tyler thought.

Beer in one hand, plate of barbecue in the other, he moved a little farther out in the backyard where the party was being held, and tried not to be so obvious about watching over the feistiest, most vulnerable woman he had ever known.

“Who’s the guy she’s been talking to?” Tyler asked.

It was clear from the range of expressions on Susie’s face that the stranger was one of the guys her parents had hoped to match her up with.

“New doctor at Laramie Community Hospital. Name is Whit Jenkins. Susie’s parents introduced the two of them soon after Whit arrived.”

Tyler could see why Meg and Luke would hope the two would hit it off. Whit Jenkins was thirty-something, decent looking, personable. In the twenty minutes, Susie had been talking to him over by the arbor, her expression had gone from pleasantly irritated—an expression Tyler knew well himself—to wary, to somewhat interested. He could tell by the way she was holding herself that she wasn’t drawn to Whit in the way her parents were probably hoping, but the night was young and the man showed no sign of leaving her side, especially now that Susie’s brother, Jeremy, fellow LCH physician, had joined the conversation.

“Do you know something I don’t?” Teddy continued.

“Meg and Luke are fixing Susie up with five different guys in the next two weeks.”

Teddy lifted a brow in surprise. “She agreed to that?”

Tyler nodded, recalling his phone conversation with Susie after the dreaded summit with her folks. She’d sounded remarkably chipper for someone who had lost the battle to keep any and all matchmaking out of her life, but Tyler wasn’t fooled. Susie might go along with Meg and Luke Carrigan’s wishes to keep the family peace, but she’d be privately gritting her teeth in resentment the whole time.

“So why is it bothering you?” Teddy asked.

Tyler looked at his brother. Teddy, Trevor and he were triplets, but the identical part only went so far as their basic looks. Teddy bred horses on his ranch, the Silverado. Trevor ran cattle on his place, the Wind Creek. Tyler’s Healing Meadow Ranch was a large animal veterinary hospital.

Now the once fiercely independent Trevor was married.

The irrepressible Teddy was openly lamenting not having a wife and family.

Only Tyler knew he was not destined for the altar, now or at any time in the future.

“We both know if Susie turns to anyone, she turns to you.”

“In crisis,” Tyler qualified. What happened when Susie wanted more than that? Would someone like Whit Jenkins step in to claim Susie as his own? And even if Whit did, what did it matter to Tyler?

It wasn’t as if he and Susie shared a romantic love. The affection they felt for each other was much deeper, and just as difficult to define. They’d never officially dated. They had tumbled into bed with each other, at last count, four times. If they both remained single, Tyler did not doubt it would happen again. And be followed, just as swiftly, by indecision and regret.

“The two of you hang out together for fun sometimes.”

Tyler shrugged as he polished off the potato salad and beans on his plate. “In a group. Never alone.”

“Not that hard to change—if you so desire,” Teddy murmured with a probing sidelong glance.

The question was, what did he want?

Tyler put down his plate and walked back out into the crowd to say hello to everyone he had yet to talk with at the party. He and Susie were a hell of a lot more than casual friends, yet they didn’t see each other all that often. They had the ability to talk in shorthand no one else understood, and yet there were times when he didn’t know what she was thinking or feeling or doing to save his life. He was always happy when he saw her. And he thought about her more than he knew he should. The two of them had cried on each other’s shoulders, slept together. And stayed up all night long exchanging confidences. Yet they’d never had a single date in all the time they had known each other.

And up until now, Tyler thought, as Susie finally broke away from Whit Jenkins, that had been okay, too.

Catching Tyler’s glance, Susie smiled and headed toward him.

And as usual, when he was anywhere in her radius, Tyler found he could not keep his eyes off her.

When working as a landscape architect or at the garden center she owned, she wore clothes that were ranch-hand rugged and yet sophisticated, too. Tonight, instead of the usual denim skirt or jeans, she had a soft flowing skirt of turquoise and dusty blue flowers with a ruffled hem and a silk-trimmed V-neck white knit shirt. Her small feet were encased with sturdy brown leather boots that just peeked from beneath the ruffled hem. A simple blue-and-white necklace encircled her throat, matching earrings adorned her ears.

As perfectly as the clothing draped her tall, slender frame, it was nothing compared to the captivating beauty of her face. Shoulder-length honey blond hair caught the evening light and framed her pretty face in a tumble of soft, mussed waves. Insightful amber-brown eyes gleamed beneath thin, elegant brows, the same shade as her hair. Her nose was long and straight; her high cheek-bones well defined; her lips soft, pink and perfectly drawn. Her normally fair skin bore the golden hint of summer sun, and a job that had her outdoors a great deal of the time.

His pulse picked up as her favorite fragrance—a combination of flowers and citrus—engulfed him.

She linked arms with him and drew him close. Smiling up at him, she said, “I need you to come with me. Now.”

“I’M GUESSING WHIT JENKINS was bachelor number one,” Tyler said, as they let themselves out the back gate of the Carrigans’ yard.

Susie cut across the front grass, toward the sidewalk. “Fortunately, yes.”

“Why fortunately?” Tyler asked, telling himself what he felt deep in his gut was definitely not jealousy.

The edges of Susie’s soft lips turned up in a triumphant smile as she waited for Tyler to catch up. “Because as it turns out Whit isn’t the least bit interested in dating me. He’s looking for a more dependent type of woman—someone who’s more interested in staying home than running her own business.”

That had been a stroke of luck. “Then why’d he agree to the meeting?” Tyler asked, unable to help but note how pretty Susie looked in the dusky evening light.

She shrugged. “He’s new in town. Doesn’t know anyone outside the hospital. Or he didn’t, until this evening.”

Tyler followed her over to her bright blue pickup truck. “You think your parents want you to hook up with a doctor?” It made sense, since Luke was a family physician and Meg a registered nurse.

“That’s not why they chose Whit,” Susie said with a frown. She motioned for him to get in the passenger side while she circled the front and climbed behind the wheel.

Curious, Tyler settled beside her.

“Although Whit’s being a physician is part of it,” Susie continued, making no effort to put her keys in the ignition. Which meant they were there to talk, not go anywhere.

Tyler shifted toward her. “I don’t get it.”

Susie shifted toward him. She looked Tyler straight in the eye. “Whit’s an oncologist.”

Tyler felt as if he’d been sucker punched. “Hedging their bets by fixing you up with a cancer specialist?” he asked quietly.

Susie’s cheeks pinkened. She pleated the fabric of her long, flowing skirt between her fingers. “My guess is they thought Whit would understand what I’ve been through, and from that perspective, we’d have a lot in common.”

Tyler tensed. “And do you?”

Susie shrugged. “I think we could be friends.”

Friends sounded a lot better to Tyler than boyfriend and girlfriend. Although why he should care so much stymied him. He and Susie weren’t headed for the altar. He wasn’t headed for it, period. “So where are we off to?” he asked her lightly, willing to do anything to erase the hurt from her amber eyes.

“The hospital.” Susie finally put the keys in the ignition, but delayed actually starting her truck’s engine. “Whit asked me to look in on a patient of his. Which is why I wanted you to tag along. I don’t like the idea of going in there alone.”

Tyler knew Susie avoided hospitals whenever possible.

Her worst memories were set there.

“So…” Susie gave him a look he was hard-pressed to deny. “You want to follow me in your truck? Then when we’re finished we can each go our separate ways?”

Tyler nodded. That was Susie, practical as ever. “I’ll meet up with you in the LCH parking lot,” he promised.

A few minutes later, they were walking through the entrance of Laramie Community hospital. After a short elevator ride, they were stepping out into the hospital’s brand-new oncology wing.

Susie stopped by the desk to tell the nurse she and Tyler were there to visit Emmaline Clark.

“I hope you can cheer her up. She’s been pretty down,” the nurse said.

An understatement, Tyler and Susie soon found out.

The pixie-faced adolescent was seated in bed, an IV hooked up to her arm. Thin and pale, she wore an auburn wig with a fake-looking sheen to it on her head. It was cut in a hairstyle for someone much older.

Her mother and father, an emotionally exhausted-looking couple in their midfifties, were seated in chairs adjacent to the bed. No one was talking. No one was watching the TV mounted overhead, although it was turned to a popular sitcom. There was an air of glum tension that permeated every ounce of air in the room.

Like a beam of sunshine sent down from the heavens, Susie stepped forward with a smile and extended her hand. She introduced herself and Tyler to Bill and Hedda Clark.

“You’re Luke and Meg Carrigan’s daughter,” Hedda said.

Susie nodded. “This is Tyler McCabe, a vet at the Laramie Animal Clinic.”

Tyler noted no interest at all from the patient in the bed.

“If you all want to take a break, Tyler and I can sit with Emmaline for a while,” Susie offered.

The Clarks—who’d obviously been expecting Susie’s visit—exchanged looks, then excused themselves politely.

“I’m not talking to anyone right now,” Emmaline muttered with a pointed look at Susie the moment her parents were out of earshot. “So you may as well leave.”

Susie perched on the window ledge. Despite her earlier trepidation about coming to the hospital, she looked quite calm. “Don’t blame you. I never wanted to talk to anyone when I lost my hair, either.”

Emmaline slowly turned her head toward Susie’s empathetic tone and studied her for a moment. “You don’t look sick.”

“I’m not. At least I don’t think I am,” Susie amended quickly. “Once you’ve had cancer, you never know.”

Emmaline turned her attention to Tyler. “Are you a survivor, too?”

He shook his head, unable to imagine what it must feel like to endure what Susie and Emmaline had.

“I brought Tyler along because he always knew what to say when I was sick.” Susie patted the place next to her and Tyler sat down.

“Illness doesn’t scare him,” Susie continued.

Not now, anyway, Tyler thought. There had been a time…

“Yeah, well, maybe he could give my friends lessons,” Emmaline said angrily. She tore off her awful wig and tossed it at the foot of the bed. It flopped to the floor. She didn’t look as if she much cared what happened to it.

“I take it they’ve deserted you?”

“In spades. Most of them only live about an hour from here, but even before we moved, all but one or two had stopped coming by.” Emmaline’s lower lip trembled. Moisture glittered in her eyes. “They couldn’t even be bothered to call or text message.”

“The tendency when people are sick is to leave them alone so they can rest and get well,” Tyler interjected gently. “Have you tried to contact them?”

Emmaline pouted. “Well…no.”

“Maybe you should,” Tyler said.

And maybe, Susie appeared to think, shooting Tyler a warning look only he could see, Emmaline shouldn’t….

Tyler shrugged and continued anyway, “They could just be waiting to hear you’re up for a visit or two or three.”

“I don’t know.” Emmaline studied the white blanket on her bed.

“I had the same experience with my friends not coming around when I was undergoing chemotherapy,” Susie said.

Emmaline lifted her head and asked Susie, “How old were you when you were diagnosed?”

“Sixteen.”

Sweat beaded on the top of Emmaline’s bald head. “I’m fourteen. I’ve been sick for two years.”

“It sucks,” Susie stated with heartfelt passion.

“Tell me about it.” Emmaline hit the remote, and the TV clicked off. She focused all her attention on Susie. “When did you get well?”

“I had my last chemo when I was eighteen.”

Her long sigh broke the silence in the room. “I hope I don’t have to wait that long,” Emmaline lamented.

Tyler did, too. “So what year are you in school?” he asked.

Emmaline smiled, just a little bit. “I’m a freshman, although I’ve yet to attend a single day of high school here. So far, all my lessons are being done at home.”

A fact that only added to her loneliness, Tyler guessed. “When are you going to get to go to class again?”

Emmaline shrugged. “Maybe around the first of December if I make it through the next few weeks of chemo. Not that I know anyone here. We just moved to Laramie a couple of weeks ago.”

Susie smiled sympathetically. “I’m guessing you’re not liking it much so far?” she said softly.

Emmaline scowled. “The town is a lot smaller than what I’m used to. And our house doesn’t have any trees or shrubs or flowers or anything, not like our last one did.”

“That can be fixed,” Susie said.

Emmaline ground the heel of her foot against the mattress. “My parents both work. They don’t have the time to work on the yard. Probably not the money, either, since we have to pay for everything the medical insurance doesn’t cover.”

“So why don’t you take charge of that?” Susie asked.

Emmaline looked at Susie as if she was nuts.

Tyler understood why. It did seem a ludicrous suggestion.

“What do you expect me to do from a hospital bed?” Emmaline demanded, upset.

Susie spread her hands wide. “Why, make a bargain with me, of course.”

“PRETTY CLEVER OF YOU, getting the kid to agree to help you plan landscaping for the Clarks’ yard,” Tyler said, half an hour later. He shortened his strides to match Susie’s as they walked through the half-empty hospital parking lot. It was nine o’clock, and visiting hours were ending. People were leaving in droves. “Even smarter, getting her parents to agree to let Emmaline help implement the changes, as she is physically able, and work off the cost of the plants at your landscape center.”

Susie accepted Tyler’s praise with a small shrug. “She can work on the design from her hospital bed. The part-time job in my center will help her meet people in the community and give her something to look forward to. And let’s face it,” Susie continued wistfully as the two of them stopped between their pickup trucks, parked side by side. The bright lights overhead caught the highlights in Susie’s hair and made it shimmer. “There’s nothing quite as healing as being one with nature.”

Tyler knew how much Susie loved being outdoors. “Except an understanding look or touch,” Tyler said.

Susie nodded in agreement. A distant look came into her eyes.

“Something on your mind?” Tyler asked.

Susie ducked her head, raked her teeth across her lower lip. “It’s nothing.”

“Tell me.”

Susie studied the painted yellow lines on the pavement, as stubborn and self-reliant as ever.

“We’re not leaving here until you do,” Tyler warned, knowing even if she didn’t that she was beginning to need him in her life once again.

Susie dragged the round toe of her leather engineer’s boot across the blacktop. “If you must know…” she conceded finally, on a reluctant sigh.

Tyler relaxed slightly. “I must.”

She tucked her hands in the flowing folds of her skirt. Eventually, she lifted her head and locked eyes with him. “I’m ticked off at my parents.”

No surprise there. Tyler was, too.

“For the fix-up?” Tyler guessed, wishing there were some way he could ensure that Susie would never be hurt by anything or anyone, past, present or future.

“For making this all about my cancer, once again.”

And then, to Tyler’s surprise, she promptly burst into tears.