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Helena was watching me curiously through the amber blaze of the campfire, the shadow of the flames dancing upwards to lick her face. The other members of the group had continued with their reminiscing of Derek’s rock-and-roll days, happy to move the subject away from my question about where we were. Excited chatter had resumed but I remained on the outside, though I was not alone. Finally, I lifted my eyes from the ash floor and allowed them to meet Helena’s.

She waited for a silence to fall between the group before asking, ‘What do you do for a living, Sandy?’

‘Oooh, yes,’ Joan said excitedly, warming her hands around her tea cup. ‘Do tell us.’

I had everyone’s attention and so I considered my options. Why lie?

‘I run an agency,’ I began and then stopped.

‘What kind of an agency?’ Bernard asked.

‘A modelling agency, is it?’ Joan asked in hushed tones. ‘With long legs like yours I’ll bet it is.’ Her tea cup rested in her hands not far below her lips, her baby finger was erect and standing tall like a dog on the hunt.

‘Joan, she said she runs the agency, not is a member of one.’ Bernard shook his head and his chin wobbled.

‘Actually, it’s a missing persons agency.’

There was a silence as they searched my face and when they all looked at each other, they erupted in laughter. All except Helena.

‘Oh, Sandy, that was a good one.’ Bernard wiped the corners of his eyes with his handkerchief. ‘What kind of agency is it really?’

‘Acting.’ Helena jumped in before I had a chance to answer.

‘How do you know?’ Bernard asked her, rather in a huff that she knew something before him. ‘You’re the one who asked the question in the first place.’

‘She told me while you were all laughing.’ She waved her hand dismissively.

‘An acting agency.’ Joan looked at me with wide eyes. ‘How wonderful. We put on some excellent plays in Finbar’s Hall,’ Joan explained. ‘Do you remember that?’ She looked around at her friends. ‘Julius Caesar, Romeo and Juliet to name but two of Shakespeare’s finest works. Bernard was—’

Bernard coughed loudly.

‘Oh, I’m sorry.’ Joan blushed. ‘Bernard is a fantastic actor. He played quite a convincing Bottom in A Midsummer Night’s Dream. No doubt you would love him to be in your agency.’

And they fell into their usual chatter of swapping old stories. Helena made her way round the fire and sat next to me.

‘I must say, you excel in your occupation,’ Helena chuckled.

‘Why did you do that?’ I referred to her interjection.

‘Oh, you don’t want to tell them that, especially Joan with her voice so hushed she feels the need to tell everybody everything just to make sure she’s heard,’ she teased, but watched her friend fondly. ‘If anyone finds out you run a missing persons agency you’ll be swamped with questions. Everyone will think you’ll have come to bring us all home.’ I wasn’t sure whether she was joking or asking me a question. Either way, she didn’t laugh and I didn’t answer.

‘Who else is there to tell around here?’ I stared into the silent black woods. I hadn’t come across any others for two days.

Helena looked at me curiously again. ‘Sandy, there are others, you know.’

Apart from Ewoks, I found it hard to believe anybody else inhabited the dark and silent surroundings.

‘You know our story, don’t you?’ Helena kept her voice low so that the others couldn’t hear.

I nodded, took a deep breath and recited, ‘“Five students are missing after disappearing during a school camping trip in Roundwood, County Wicklow. Sixteen-year-olds Derek Cummings, Helena Dickens, Marcus Flynn, Joan Hatchard and Bernard Lynch from St Kevin’s Boarding School for Girls and Boys in Blackrock were due to visit Glendalough but were missing from their tents that morning.”’

Helena was gazing at me with such childlike intent and tear-filled eyes I felt a duty to recite the newspaper article word-perfect, tone-perfect. I wanted to express the feeling in the country during that initial week, on behalf of the country; I wanted to convey accurately the outpour of love and support complete strangers had displayed towards the missing five students. I felt I owed it to all those people who prayed for their return. I felt Helena deserved to hear it.

‘“The Gardaí today said that they were following leads although they couldn’t confirm ruling out foul play. They ask for anyone with any information to contact the Roundwood or Blackrock Gardaí. The students of St Kevin’s have all gathered to pray for their fellow students and locals have been placing flowers near the scene.”’

I was silent.

‘What’s wrong with your eyes, Helena?’ Bernard asked worriedly.

‘Oh,’ Helena sniffed, ‘it’s nothing. Just a spark from the fire jumped into my eye, that’s all.’ She dabbed her eyes with the corner of her pashmina.

‘Oh dear,’ Joan said, moving over and peering in her eye. ‘No, it looks fine to me, just red and watery. It probably just stings a bit.’

‘I’m fine, thanks,’ Helena dismissed them all, embarrassed by their care, and the others continued chatting amongst themselves.

‘With acting like that you could join my agency,’ I smiled.

Helena laughed and fell silent again. I felt I should say something.

‘They never gave up looking for you, you know.’

Her mouth let out a tiny sound. A sound that was beyond her control to stop, a sound that had worked its way up straight from her heart.

‘Your father championed every new Garda Commissioner and Minister for Justice that took office. He knocked on every door and searched between every blade of grass to find you. He made sure they searched the entire area with a fine-tooth comb. As for your mother, your amazing mother …’

Helena smiled at the mention of her mother.

‘She set up an organisation to help counsel families suffering the effects of missing loved ones, named Porch Light, as many families of the missing leave their front lights on as a beacon, hoping that someday their loved ones will return. She was tireless in her charity work, setting up bases all around the country. Your parents never, ever gave up. Your mother still hasn’t.’

‘She’s alive?’ Her eyes widened and filled once again.

‘Your father – I’m sorry – passed away some years ago.’ I allowed her to process the information before moving on. ‘Your mother is still actively involved with Porch Light. I attended their annual lunch last year and had the pleasure of meeting her and telling her how wonderful I thought she was.’ I looked down at my hands and cleared my throat, the role of messenger not always proving easy. ‘She told me to continue with my efforts as she wished I could find her beloved daughter for her.’

Helena’s voice was barely a whisper. ‘Tell me about her.’

And so I forgot about my own worries and settled down by the warmth of the campfire to do just that.

‘I never wanted to go on the camping trip.’ Helena was exhilarated and full of emotion after I had filled her with knowledge of her mother. ‘I pleaded with them not to make me go.’

I knew all this but I listened intently, fascinated to hear the story I knew so well from one of its main characters. It was like seeing my favourite book come alive on stage.

‘I’d wanted to go home that weekend. There was a boy …’ She laughed and looked at me. ‘Isn’t it always about a boy?’

I couldn’t relate but smiled all the same.

‘A new boy had moved into the house next door to us. Samuel James was his name, the most beautiful creature alive.’ Her eyes were bright, as though the fire’s sparks had leaped in and set her pupils alight. ‘I met him that summer and fell in love, and we had the most wonderful time together. Sinful.’ She raised her eyebrows and I smiled. ‘I’d been back at school for two months and I missed him dreadfully. I begged and pleaded with my parents to let me go home but to no avail. They were punishing me,’ she said with a sad smile. ‘I’d been caught cheating in my history exam in the same week I’d been caught smoking behind the gymnasium. Unacceptable, even by my standards.’ She looked around the group. ‘And so I was stuck going away with this lot as though separating me from my best friends would suddenly make me an angel. All the same, it turned out to be a punishment I don’t think I entirely deserved.’

‘Of course not,’ I empathised. ‘How did you get here?’

Helena sighed. ‘Marcus and I made arrangements early in the evening to meet up when everyone had gone to sleep. He was the only one who had a packet of cigarettes so the other two boys went with him and, well, Joan,’ Helena looked at her friend on the other side of the campfire with fondness, ‘she was afraid to stay in the tent by herself so she came too. We moved away from the camp so our teachers wouldn’t see the cigarettes alight or smell the smoke. We didn’t walk that far at all, just a few minutes or so, but we found ourselves here,’ she shrugged. ‘I can’t really explain it any other way.’

‘That must have been terrifying for you all.’

‘No more than it was for you.’ She looked at me. ‘And at least we had each other. I couldn’t imagine going through it all alone.’

She wanted me to talk but I wouldn’t. It wasn’t in my nature to open up. Not unless it was with Gregory.

‘You can’t even have been born when we went missing. How do you know so much?’

‘Let’s just say I was an inquisitive child.’

‘Inquisitive indeed.’ She studied me again and I looked away, finding her glare intrusive. ‘Do you know what has happened to everybody’s family here?’ She nodded at the rest of the group.

‘Yes.’ I looked around them all, seeing their parents’ faces in each of them. ‘I made it my life’s work to know. I followed up on all of you every year, wanting to see if anyone came home.’

‘Well, thank you for helping me feel one step closer to it now.’

A silence fell between us, Helena no doubt lost in her memories of home.

Eventually, she spoke again. ‘My grandmother was a proud woman, Sandy. She married my grandfather when she was eighteen years old and they had six children. Her younger sister, who they could never seem to marry off, embarked on a mysterious affair with a man she would never name and to everybody’s shock, gave birth to a baby boy,’ she chuckled. ‘That my grandfather’s face was written all over that child was not lost on my grandmother, nor were the shillings that disappeared from their savings just as the new clothes appeared on the child. Of course, those things are entirely coincidental,’ she said in a singsong voice, stretching her legs out in front of her. ‘There are a great many brown-haired, blue-eyed men in the country and the fact my grandfather had a fondness for drinking would explain the dents in their savings.’ Her eyes twinkled at me.

I looked at Helena in confusion. ‘I’m sorry, Helena, I’m not sure why you’re telling me this.’

She laughed. ‘That you have ended up here with us could be one of life’s great coincidences.’

I nodded.

‘But my grandmother didn’t believe in coincidences. And neither do I. You’re here for a reason, Sandy.’