Читать книгу WALK BY FAITH & NOT BY SIGHT - Chiara Yvonda Lafrance - Страница 2

At, the age of 16 years old. I've found out that I was pregnant. I've didn't know what to do, or what to expect. I've always kept my head up high. Learned how to become the best mother that I was taught to be. A lot of people had talked about me. Tried to bring me down. Thought that they was going to bring a lot of negatively into my life and around me. I stopped that so fast. You has to always remember that God will never give you something that you can't handle. When I've had my first child. She brought so much love, joy, happiness into my life. Every where I've went , she went. She was one spoil brat. Even though I was an young mother. I've taken care of her. She didn't have to want for nothing. At 9months,she was walking. At the age of 1 years old, she was pot-ty- trained. I was liked who came back into this child. She acts very old fashion. I've had so many people who had helped me with her. Some young girls feels that when they has an child. They states that sometimes it feels like their baby be like an baby doll. Well to me she was very real. Especially, when that crying starts, lord. I just thank God for blessing me with an real gifted child, beautiful, anointing, very amazing. At the age of 19 years old. I've gotten pregnant again. I've found out that this time. I was having an healthy boy. Doing the time that I've founded out that I was pregnant. I've used to love to hang out with my so-called friends. I was like now what I'm going to do with another child. I've just started hanging out having my so-called fun. I wasn't ready for an second child. So, I've had to get myself together cause, reality had hit me. I've decided to stop hanging out. It was time to become an mother for the second time. I was about to have two kids. Who was going to need all the love an support that I was supposed to give to them. As, being their mother. When I was pregnant with my son .I was so miserable. Everyday, I was praying that I went into labor. My body used to be in so much pain. I used to stay very tired. I was so happy after I had him. Having two young babies at an early age, It was very hard. I've never felt sorry for myself. It was something that I had to deal with, and that I was going to deal with. I've applied pressure on myself, step up more. To become an greater mother than what I was to my kids. My son wasn't as spoiled as my daughter. He was one greedy lil boy. He had gotten so big ,where I've couldn't even carry him at times. He was very handsome, still is. I remember when I was trying to train him. I was like no-way. His dad had to do it. Pot- ty-training an boy is very hard. He started walking very early, but pot --ty training no. I've always putted it in my mind that I wasn't going to fail myself. No matter how tough the situations gets. My kids came into my life an kept me going. They made me out the woman who God placed me in their lives to be. They kept me smiling, gave me more strength. They showed me that I'm stronger than what I was. They are the reason why I've kept pushing for greatness and better. At the age of 24. I was pregnant with my 3rd child. This lil girl kept me in so much pain. I've thought that I was having another lil boy. Then when I've went to go and have my ultrasound done. They said that I was having another lil girl. I've almost fainted. Doing the time that I was pregnant with her. Her father had went to jail. I've never placed anything in my mind that I was going to have to depend on an man. I've placed it in my mind that girl you has this. It might seems a lil rough. It might be times where things might seems rocky. God, has you cover, you got this. When I've had her she was so beautiful. Looking just like an baby doll, head full of hair. As time passed, she had gotten so spoiled. Nobody didn't wanted to watch her. Something about her, I've knew that she was going to be an hand full. Soon as she hears music, she would start dancing. I was like where is she's learning this from. As, she has gotten bigger she was always the type of child. Where she would get in her own lil space and plays by her self. She never used to want to paly with girls, always boys. She started acting rough just like those boys. I used to be like you can't do what those boys are doing. You has to keep in mind that you are and lil girl. So, make sure that you act like one, ok. My last bundle of joy my baby boy. During this time in my life. I was going through a lot in my relationship with his father. I've didn't known that I was expecting him. When I've found out that I was pregnant. I was in the state of mind full of depression, hurt. I've cried so much doing my pregnancy. It was to the point where when I've had him. All he did was cry .I couldn't even put him down for nothing . When he was born, i was like y' all gave me the wrong baby. The nurse was like let me check your arm band again and make sure. She, was like yes this is your son. My baby was born so pail looking, good hair, looked just like an Mexican- baby. But, as time passed his features started changing. I used to always keep him right under my wing. He brought that love, happiness, that hope, faith, strength back into my life. He started walking after he made an year old. But, talking, he was almost two years old. I've had to take him to the doctor. I've thought that he had an speech problem or something. He loves to dance, but still and lil cry baby. He's very smart intelligent. My son always says mom God brought me into your life for an reason. I've asked him what is your reason why you think that God has sent you in my life. My son said mom for hope. Without hope their is no faith. Faith that's something that you didn't have. This brought tears into my eyes.When and child knows that you was giving up. This really made me start pushing more. My son prays every night for us. One thing he always says that, mom you are and good mother. You takes cares of us. He's our lil prayer warrior. I thank God every day for all of my blessings. I thank God for allowing me to remain strong, positive and humble. Without God, I don't know where I would be. Being an single mother, it's not easy. Having children at and very young age wasn't easy. God helped me to be able to provide, protect and to be the best mother that I knew that I can be. I've taken care of my kids by myself. It was many times that I've felt like I've wanted to just give up. It was times where I've felt like just throwing in the towel. I've made ways out of no way for my kids. Now I'm an grand-mother. I have so much love around me, and steady coming into my life. This just keeps me pushing towards my goals, dreams. Nobody's life perfects. If Jesus went through it all for us. You knows that we will also. You has to hold on to God's unchanging hands.