Читать книгу Smoke And Ashes - Danica Winters - Страница 8
ОглавлениеA few days earlier
The note had been simple. Two little words. Two haunting, terrifying and humbling words. Words that had the power to rip out Heather’s heart.
I’m leaving.
The paper sat on the kitchen counter where David had left it, a glass of water as a paperweight. The condensation on the glass had dripped down, leaving a ring of water. Like her tears, it was long dried, but it would never disappear.
She fought the urge to turn around and leave the kitchen, lunch be damned for the second day in a row, but the pressures of the day and her nagging hunger drove her forward, past the stained note on their newly installed granite countertops to their perfectly polished stainless-steel fridge.
David had been adamant that they have the finest of everything—the finest appliances, the finest table, all the way down to the silk table runner they’d had specially made and shipped from India. Now, in the lifeless kitchen, the bloodred runner made the entire room seem like a picture out of a home decor magazine, but nothing like a home.
None of it had ever really mattered, not when all she was left with was an empty kitchen and anger in her gut.
Opening the fridge, she was met with its cold, stale air. The only contents were a single bottle of Perrier and a half-eaten piece of week-old cheesecake. God, she loved cheesecake. The way it melted on the tongue, leaving behind the luxurious texture of butter. David hated for her to have it, complaining it made her gain weight.
She grabbed the plate and folded back the plastic wrap. David could hate the cake and her all he wanted. He had made it clear he was leaving. If she wanted to eat cake, she could. He wasn’t here to stop her.
Grabbing a fork, she stabbed the tines into the cake and lifted it to her mouth. The scent of cream cheese filled her senses, making her mouth water. David would have hated this defiance.
She threw the fork and the uneaten bite into the sink and dropped the cheesecake, plate and all, into the garbage bin. David would come back. He always came back. And when he did, he would know she had gone against his wishes.
She stared down at the garbage. David would notice the plate was missing from the stack of exactly eight.
She had every right to be angry, but she would pay if he thought she had done something to intentionally upset him.
Reaching into the bin, she retrieved the plate and scraped the cheesecake off the edge. She couldn’t disappoint him no matter how much he disappointed her.
She stood at the sink and washed the plate as she stared outside. There had been so much more that she had wanted to do with her life. When she’d been young she had dreamed of helping people, of being a nurse. She smiled as she thought of her old teddy, Mr. Bear, who’d always stood in for a tragic victim of some terrible accident. She would use Band-Aid after Band-Aid fixing his wounds. Now he sat at the top corner of her closet, a reminder of a path not taken.
Because of David, she had given up everything,
There was a knock on the door and she set the plate in the drying rack. Reality was calling. Grabbing David’s note, she stuffed it into her pocket.
There was another knock, this time harder, more urgent.
“Coming.” She made her way out to the living room.
Looking in through the window in the door was her neighbor Kevin. He smiled and his eyes lit up as he saw her. As he moved, his sexy, prematurely graying hair sparkled in the sunshine. Heather tried not to notice the wiggle of excitement she felt at seeing him.
She opened the door. “How’s it going?”
“Great, but I need your help,” Kevin said. “I just got called to work. Do you think you could keep Lindsay for a while?” He pushed his daughter out from behind his legs.
Lindsay clutched the straps of her pink backpack. “Hi, Mrs. Sampson.”
“Hi, sweetheart. Why don’t you come in?” Heather dropped her hand onto the girl’s shoulder and gave it a reassuring squeeze. “I’m glad you’re here. I got a bunch of new craft supplies. There’s a new bracelet designing kit you’ll love. And I needed a friend today.”
“Awesome!” Lindsay beamed.
“Thank you so much, Heather. I don’t know what I’d do without you.” Kevin reached out. “Lindsay, can I get a hug before I go?”
Lindsay threw herself into her father’s arms. Kevin closed his eyes and squeezed her as if no one was watching. “Love you, honey. Be good, okay?”
“Okay, Daddy.” Lindsay let go.
“Don’t forget you have a peanut butter and jelly sandwich in your backpack if you need a snack.”
Lindsay nodded.
Kevin turned to leave and Heather couldn’t help but glance down at his black uniform pants. As he moved, they seemed to hug the muscular shape of his body. Warmth rushed through her.
“Wait,” she called out to him, hoping to see his handsome, slightly mischievous grin one more time. “Where’s Colter?”
He looked back and the grin reappeared, making the heat in her core intensify. “He had baseball this afternoon. He should be done in time for the Millers’ barbecue. You going?”
Weeks ago David had promised they would go, but now, with everything that had happened between them, he would never agree.
“I’m not sure.” Heather forced a tight smile.
“I hope you do. It’d be nice to catch up.” Kevin paused. “I’ll be back to pick her up as soon as I can.”
Heather nodded. “No rush.” She needed all the excuses she could get to keep from having to focus on her life, and a nine-year-old girl and her much-too-handsome father were the perfect distractions.
“Thanks!” Kevin rushed off, heading toward his white truck that was emblazoned with the golden words Fire Inspector.
Heather pasted a smile on her face as she closed the door. Everything would be okay. “You ready for some fun, Lindsay?”
“I need to do my homework. It’s due tomorrow.”
“Homework? You only have a few weeks of school left.”
Lindsay shrugged as she sat down in her regular spot on the couch. She took out her worksheets. “It shouldn’t take long.”
“You need me to go over it with you?” Heather silently wished she could help.
“Nah, I got it. Thanks, though.”
Her hope deflated. “Okay. I’ll be in the kitchen. Let me know if you change your mind. When you’re done we can make those bracelets.”
“Okay,” Lindsay said, sounding preoccupied.
Heather walked back into the lifeless kitchen, picked up her cell phone and unlocked the screen. She tapped in David’s phone number and when the phone rang her stomach twisted with nerves. He would pick up, wouldn’t he?
It rang again.
“Why are you calling?” he answered.
“No ‘hello’?” Heather asked, trying to keep her anger from seeping into her voice. “I thought maybe by now—”
“By now what? That I’d want to come back to the house?” David growled. “Listen, Heather. We can’t keep doing this. Did you get my note?”
Her fingers moved to the letter in her pocket. “I did, but I was hoping—”
“What?” he interrupted. “That I didn’t mean it?”
“David, we can work this out. We just need to go to counseling. I would do it for you.” She pulled the note from her pocket and flattened it on the island.
“If we went to counseling that would imply that there’s something to save. At this point, Heather, just seeing you makes me sick.”
Her knees gave out under the weight of his words and she fell onto a barstool. “I’m sorry, David. I didn’t mean—”
“Sorry doesn’t cut it, Heather. I told you that you weren’t allowed to talk to Andrew anymore. I see the way you look at him. And the way he looks at you. You’re having an affair.” David paused. “Don’t you care how it makes me look that you’re sleeping with another doctor?”
When she’d seen Andrew at the Easter fundraiser for the American Heart Association, he’d been overly friendly—maybe even approaching flirtatious with her—but it had been nothing more than banter. If David hadn’t kept bringing up the incident, she would have forgotten it by now, but David wouldn’t let it go, no matter how much she pleaded.
“I’m not. I never—”
“If you’re not having an affair, then why did I see you talking to him outside the hospital the other day?”
She stared at the wrinkles in his note. “He stopped me. He just wanted to ask about you. I told him you didn’t want me to talk to him, but he wouldn’t listen.”
“Was he trying to find out the next time it was safe to come into our house and screw you?”
Hot, unwelcome tears rolled down her cheeks. “It was nothing like that. He just wanted to know if you’re okay.”
“What did you tell him?”
“Nothing. I didn’t tell him anything.”
“Do you think I’m stupid? That I don’t know when someone’s lying to me?”
“I promise. I never lied. Just come home,” Heather said, her voice like that of a trapped animal. “Tonight’s Brittany’s barbecue. Please, you have to go...”
“First you have an affair, and now you want me to come home? You are nothing, Heather. Why would I want to be seen with a woman like you?”
She crumpled his note in her hand. She wasn’t weak...but it was hard not to be crushed when the world around her was collapsing.
