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Franco Patrese hadn’t been inside a church for ten years.

Ironic, then, that his first time back was straight into the mothership itself; Saint Paul Cathedral, center of spiritual life for close on a million Pittsburgh Catholics.

The bishop himself had insisted. Gregory Kohler had first gotten to know Franco’s parents when he, as a young priest, had helped officiate at their wedding. He’d taught Franco and his sisters in the days when priests and nuns could still be found inside the classroom, and over the years had become family friend as well as pastor.

Now he’d offered Franco and his sisters the cathedral. You didn’t turn the bishop down, not if you were a good Catholic; and Bianca and Valentina had certainly kept the faith, even if Franco hadn’t. Besides, they needed all the seats they could get. Half of Bloomfield – an area of the city so Italian that the parking meters are painted red, green and white – had come to pay their respects to Franco’s parents.

Alberto and Ilaria Patrese had been killed five days before. Alberto had gone to pass a truck on the freeway at exactly the moment the truck driver had himself pulled out to overtake an eighteen-wheeler. The collision had flipped the Patreses’ car across the central reservation and into the path of three lanes of traffic coming the other way.

They hadn’t had a prayer.

The police had come to Franco first, as he was one of them: a homicide detective, working out of the department’s North Shore headquarters. When two uniformed officers had approached Franco’s desk, he’d known instantly that someone in his family was dead. He recognized the expression on those officers’ faces as clearly as if he’d looked in a mirror. He’d had to break similar news many times. It was the worst part of the job, and by some distance. Nothing rips at people’s lives like the death of a loved one.

Franco had found the immediate aftermath unexpectedly bittersweet. There’d been tears, of course, and shock giving way to spikes of anger and confusion; but there’d also been rolling gales of laughter at the hundreds of family stories polished and embellished down the years. He’d kept himself occupied with death’s legion of petty bureaucracies: police reports, autopsies, certificates, funeral arrangements, contacting relatives long-lost and far-flung. Busy meant less time to think, and less time to think meant more time to be strong, to make sure everyone else was bearing up all right, to deflect even the slightest gaze away from himself.

He was doing it even now, during the funeral service, sat in the front pew with his sisters either side of him and his nephews and niece tucked solemnly between the adults. Determined to be the rock on which the waves of grief could crash themselves out, Franco pulled Valentina close, ruffled the children’s hair, and squeezed Bianca’s hand when her jaw juddered and bounced against the tears.

The last notes of ‘Amazing Grace’ faded, and the congregation sat as Kohler climbed the steps to the pulpit. He was in his sixties, with a mane of hair that would have been the envy of a man half his age. The hands he raised as though in benediction of his flock were large and strong, and they did not shake.

Franco tuned out. He heard the grateful laughter when the bishop said something dry and affectionate, but he was miles away, thinking about the things he wished he’d told his parents while he’d still had the chance, and about the things he was glad he hadn’t told them. They hadn’t known everything about his life, and he had no illusions that they should have done so. He knew they’d loved him, and nothing was more important. But he knew too that loving people meant protecting them.

Somewhere in the distance, Kohler was talking about God, though it was not a God Franco believed in any more. As far as he was concerned, his parents’ death had been blind chance, nothing more. Wrong place, wrong time. Why them? Turn it round: why not them? You were born, you lived, you died. Mercy and justice and compassion weren’t divine traits; they were human ones, and by no means universal. If you didn’t believe that, Franco thought, working homicide would soon change your mind. Religion was just a polite word for superstition, and superstition was just a polite word for fear.

Franco hooked a finger inside his collar and pulled at it. He felt suddenly short of breath, and his skin was clammy.

When Bianca looked at him, her face seemed to swim slightly in his vision before settling. Her eyebrows made a Chinese hat of concern and query.

‘Is it hot in here?’ he whispered.

She shook her head. ‘Not for me.’

Franco’s ribs quivered with the thumping of his heart. He stood on unsteady legs, stepped over Bianca’s feet and walked quickly down the aisle, looking neither left nor right till he was out the huge main door and into the shouty, safe bustle of students from the nearby university ragging each other and putting the world to rights.