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ОглавлениеSTEF’S WELCOME HOME dinner featured a variety of his favorite takeout, including fried shrimp, cold sesame noodles, pulled-pork sandwiches, spicy hot wings, Greek salad, jambalaya and gooey potatoes au gratin. Stef was always hungry and Joy was hypoglycemic, but Shelley looked more than slightly alarmed at the amount of food the Malone family could put away.
“I don’t understand how you can stay so thin,” she said. “It’s inhuman.”
Joy snorted a laugh but managed to cover it with a sip of lemon seltzer.
“Dad used to say I made a pact with the devil.” Stef grinned.
“No, I said you were a devil,” Dad said. “I remember this one time Stef wanted to see if he could do stunts on his Big Wheel trike. But did he make a ramp out of a piece of wood and a brick like a normal kid? Oh no! I’m out raking the lawn and turn around to see my only son rolling down the porch banister on his Big Wheel and launch, soaring through the air with the biggest, toothiest grin on his face, and there I was—rake in hand, ten feet away, nothing I could do—and that smug little brat lands right in the middle of my pile of leaves. Stuff everywhere and not a scratch on him. I nearly had a heart attack.”
Everyone at the table laughed, even though there was a tug of pain as Joy remembered the old house with its homey smells of Murphy Oil Soap, old books and slow-brewed coffee. She could imagine the back porch with its peeling white paint and the taste of real lemonade that Mom would make with slices of rind. That was before everything changed—before Doug, before Shelley, before quitting gymnastics and Dad’s black depression. Before the move. Before the Carousel. Before Indelible Ink.
Stef saw the change in Joy’s face and switched the subject quickly.
“So have you two decided how long you’ll take off?” he asked.
Dad put his hand on Shelley’s. “We’re thinking two weeks.”
Joy stopped chewing her spring roll. “Two weeks what?”
Dad tried avoiding her gaze, but Shelley held his hand firmly. If nothing else, Joy appreciated that his girlfriend didn’t let him dodge his way out of confrontation. Another way that she wasn’t like Mom.
“You didn’t tell her?” Shelley asked.
“I did,” her dad said. “Or at least tried to. She wouldn’t stop typing on her phone.”
Joy swallowed. “Tell me what?”
“Shelley and I are planning to spend some time alone this summer, and I’ll be back at the end of August so we can still have some family time with Stef,” he said. “Any of this sounding familiar?”
Unfortunately, it did. Joy stared back, speechless.
“I had to check the dates with work,” Shelley said, taking on some of the blame. “We really didn’t know anything until yesterday morning.”
Joy swallowed her embarrassment along with a forkful of salad. It wasn’t Shelley’s fault. Joy didn’t blame her for wanting some time alone with her boyfriend. And, on the bright side, maybe now she could have more time with her boyfriend. The knight’s death and Grimson’s mark had affected him a lot. She played with her fork as she collected her thoughts.
“So where are you going?” Joy asked with a conciliatory grin.
“To the shore,” her dad said. “We’ve rented a place and a car and we’ll drive around exploring. No phones, no computers, total radio silence and some lovely peace and quiet.” He took Shelley’s hand. “Shelley’s been researching spots online and I have a tour map from triple A.”
“Did you check out that Dare to Tread book I told you about?” Stef asked. “It’s got a lot of great places that are off the beaten path.”
Joy slammed down her knife and glared at her brother, falling right back into that pit of fear that always burned at the bottom of her stomach: that little-kid hurt of finding out only after the fact that she was the last to know everything.
“Wait a minute. How long has Stef known about this?” she asked.
“We had to schedule things around Stef’s arrival,” Dad soothed. “We wanted him to be home for you before we took off.”
Joy slapped down her napkin. “What? Now I need a babysitter?” she asked. “I’m seventeen years old and have been practically on my own for years!”
“Oh, for Pete’s sakes, Joy—” Dad began.
Stef reached for more potatoes. “I’m not babysitting you, so you can quit acting like a baby.”
“I’m not!”
“You are.”
Dad sighed at Shelley. “Did I mention peace and quiet? Less than twenty-four hours and it’s like they’re nine and twelve all over again.” He speared a cube of feta cheese, then pointed it at each of them. “But here’s the difference—I can legally leave the two of you behind as semiresponsible semiadults without the authorities breathing down my neck. So don’t make me regret taking this time for myself and don’t make me think twice, or so help me, I’ll find a way to ground both of you for the rest of the summer. Do I make myself clear?”
Joy and Stef both chewed in their seats.
“Say, ‘Yes, Dad,’” he commanded.
“Yes, Dad,” they said.
“Good. And be sure to call your mother at least once a week. Now pass the chicken.”
Stef lifted the plate obligingly. “You started it,” he fake-coughed into his elbow.
A smirk pulled on Joy’s lips. She tried fighting it and failed. She wiped her lips.
“Did not,” she whispered behind her napkin.
“Did, too.”
“Dork.”
“Dweeb.”
“Lord help me,” Dad muttered, fighting his own grin as he sawed with his knife.
Shelley breathed a little easier and patted his arm. “I just love a man who takes charge.”
Her dad blushed as he took a bite.
* * *
Nine o’clock. Dad and Shelley had gone to her apartment to finish packing for their trip, Stef was meeting some friends at the movies, and Joy sat alone in the condo. Surfing the web, listening to music, Joy toodled around waiting for the numbers on the clock to read one-zero-zero-zero.
The wall of her room unfurled, and Ink stepped through.
Joy’s heart thumped as she removed her headphones and clicked off-line.
“Hey,” she said. “I wasn’t expecting you ’til ten.”
Ink slipped his razor past the wallet chain at his hip.
“I couldn’t wait,” he said.
“You ‘couldn’t’?”
Ink shook his head solemnly. One dimpled smirk. “No.”
Two steps and his arms came around her. She curled into his chest. He held her close and stroked her hair, breathing a sound of relief. Joy rocked in his arms, content. He was getting better at hugs. She wondered which of the thirty-six versions this one was.
“I am sorry,” he said past her ear. “About before. I am still...”
“Shh,” she said, squeezing him tighter. “It’s okay.”
“It is not,” he whispered into the crook of her shoulder. She could feel his breath there, warm and gentle and sweet. “But it will be.”
“Yes,” Joy said, touching his face so that she could see him. “And you’re here.”
Ink chuckled despite himself. “Oh, I am very, very here.” He lifted her hand from his cheek, cupping the back of her fingers in his. He inspected each of her fingertips: pink and perfect. A mischievous spark lit his fathomless eyes, and his eyebrows formed a question.
Joy’s heart pounded. This was their game, invented at her kitchen table the first time they’d created his hands based on hers, tracing life lines and heart lines and the intricacies of each other’s skin as they slowly started to become one another’s—hers, his, theirs. She remembered that moment and he saw the memory spark. He smiled wider.
Joy slowly lifted his left hand in hers.
He will be learning about everything, watching you. Joy remembered Inq’s words as she cradled the back of his hand, feeling his eyes on her as she brushed the side of her cheek with his knuckles, feeling the whisper of his skin on hers. He slowly did the same, sliding the back of her fingers against his cheek, smiling back at her. Joy brought his hand to her lips, opened her mouth and breathed slowly into his palm. His fingers twitched. His breath caught in surprise. She glanced up at him through his fingertips, a slow smile on her lips.
He brought her hand gently to his mouth and copied her, breath for breath, exhaling slowly into the cup of her palm. She could feel the warmth pool there and run rivers down her back.
Joy shivered. Ink smiled.
Joy brought his hand closer, tilting it back. Watching him watching her as she touched her lips to the soft inside of his wrist. His whole arm flinched. The sensation skittered over his features. Hot pink fireflies danced in his eyes.
“Can you feel this?” she asked, the words tickling his skin.
“Yes,” he said. He bent his head forward and bent her wrist back. His lips touched the exact same place—the delicate, exposed skin of her wrist. Joy felt his breath hover there, warm and sweet.
“Can you?” he said. “Feel this?”
“Oh yes,” she murmured and slipped her lips along the edge of his palm. She felt him do likewise. Her breath hitched in her throat. She closed her eyes even though she knew Ink still stared, watching her with impish eyes, learning, hungry, eager for more.
She kissed his skin, her tongue barely touching the barest spot on his wrist. He tasted of water. He tasted like rain.
Joy thought she might melt when she felt him do the same.
Warmth slid down her arm and her elbow twitched, a rippling she felt along the edge of her limbs. Her fingers threaded between his, tightening, drawing him closer, moving his entire arm by the wrist. Sliding her bottom lip over the slick spot of her kiss, she felt Ink’s arm stretch, tighten, pull her closer, heard him shudder on the exhale. Joy scraped her bottom teeth over the dip in his palm.
He grabbed her fingers tightly, a groan slipping from his lips. She felt an answering sound somewhere deep in her throat. Joy rolled her head back as she felt his teeth graze her palm. A nip. A bite.
“Ow!”
Ink dropped her hand instantly. He looked worried, flushed.
“Are you hurt?” he asked.
Joy rubbed her wrist. “No,” she said with a chuckle. “You bit me.”
“And that was wrong.”
Joy tried not to laugh too hard. “It was...more than I expected.”
Ink cocked his head to one side. “You bit me first.”
He sat on the edge of her bed, and Joy sat next to him. He took her hand back tenderly and traced his thumb over the spot, soothing it with circular strokes. Joy felt the tensions—both good and bad—pass. Glancing at each other, they both started laughing, transforming two awkward, separate people into “us, together.”
“I am sorry,” he said.
“Don’t be,” she said. “I’m not.”
“I am learning.”
“You are learning.”
A dimple reappeared. “Some things are eagerly taught.”
Joy felt the heat of the blush on her cheeks. Was she supposed to feel wrong for wanting? For showing? Asking? Knowing? Well...she didn’t. So there.
Ink drew his thumb along the “7” in her palm. “I like what I have learned,” he said. “I like learning with you.”
Joy grinned. “I’ll bet.” She caught his fingers, giving his knuckles a quick kiss. His eyes crinkled in the corners. A second dimple appeared. Joy couldn’t help laughing as her heart skipped a beat. His moods were so honest and wondrous and new. He didn’t make her feel bad for feeling the same.
He rested their hands on his knee, a tangible tangle of Joy and Ink.
“I wanted to see you before I confront the Council,” he said. “I am requesting proof of the Edict and an investigation of the elemental blade. Graus Claude has arranged an audience using his ‘considerable pull,’ which I can only imagine means that he will be asking me for some sort of favor later on that will undoubtedly be steeped in mystery and intrigue as the Bailiwick has a finger in every pie.” Ink rubbed their joined hands against his knee, making his wallet chain jingle. He stared at their fingers. Joy squeezed. He squeezed back. “But I do not want to go. I do not want to leave you.”
“I know.”
“You are safe in your home. The wards...”
Joy smiled again. “I know.”
His eyes lifted, his voice, sincere. “I will be back soon.”
Joy nodded, unblinking. “I’m sure it will only take a moment.”
Ink smiled. “If that.”
He stood, the wallet chain slithering off his hip. Joy untangled her fingers and tugged the edge of his sleeve. She slid her palm over his chest and placed a kiss on his cheek that made him turn and look deeply into her eyes. He kissed her, not quite gently, not quite shyly, a moment that stretched and yielded under their lips. Their mouths lingered, his breath and hers mixed.
“Be well, Joy Malone,” he whispered.
His hand slipped into his back pocket and removed the razor, drawing it swiftly sideways and down. Slicing a hole in the universe, Ink peeled away a flap of nothing at all. He stepped back and disappeared, leaving the tingle of his words still sparking on her lips.
* * *
Antoine’s. Lunch shift.
Joy sniffed her sleeve as she folded napkins around flatware, thankful that Monica had promised to help wash the car that afternoon, something to keep her mind off Ink. Stef had agreed to help, too, on the condition that Joy help him lug Dad’s storage boxes out of his room and into the basement and they’d reward themselves with pizza and gelato all around. It promised to be quite the party once she could get out of here.
“Specials list will be up in five!” someone called from the back.
Joy hurried through her last five sets, knowing she needed enough time to write down the new menu items before they threw open the doors. She dropped the last napkin onto her pile and crowded next to the other servers, furiously scribbling the details of the salade Niçoise and the ingredients in the soup of the day. Food allergies were a server’s worst nightmare.
“Good morning,” Neil said over Joy’s shoulder.
“Good afternoon,” Joy said with a quick smile. “Dine here often?”
Neil laughed. “Listen, about yesterday...”
“No big.” Joy shrugged. “I have a boyfriend.”
“As well as a lovely Bic pen,” Neil said, smoothing away the ripples of an awkward conversation before it started. “Pens are so twentieth century, don’t you think? Observe.” He snapped a photo of the specials board and waggled his smartphone. “Come! Join us in the modern age—half the time at twice the price.”
“That’s brilliant!” Joy said and ran to her purse. Grabbing her phone, she swiped the screen only to feel a large hairline crack under her thumb. A triangular piece of the casing was missing. She could see the silver and green of microchips. “No...” she moaned. “No no no no!” She pressed buttons, tried resetting, nothing. The face stayed blank. It must have broken when she and Ink... Joy blushed at the memory of knocking everything off her bed stand. She remembered hearing something break...
“Argh,” she muttered. Dad and Shelley were leaving in a few hours! No way Dad was going to get her a new phone, and the idea of going two weeks without one was too horrible a fate. Dad might welcome a vacation from technology, but that would be more like a nightmare for Joy. She briefly wondered if she’d bought extra insurance. She’d have to stop by the store later and ask. Joy shuddered at the idea of having to buy a replacement—one more thing she’d have to save up for, not including a glamour for Ink.
Tossing the useless hunk of plastic back into her purse, Joy hurried back to the specials board, whipping out her pen.
“Forgot your phone?” Neil asked.
“I wish,” Joy said, scribbling words like ahi tuna and anchovies and smearing the blue ink. “It’s broken.”
Neil whistled through his teeth. “Sorry. That sucks.”
Joy grumbled and scribbled down the last details as Neil tucked away his cell. He lingered by the board.
“Can I ask you something?” he said.
Joy double-checked the prices. It was a mistake she’d like to make only once this summer. “Yeah, sure.”
“That friend of yours, the one who stopped by the other day? Miss Ice-water-hold-the-glass?”
Suspicion prickled up Joy’s arms. “Yeah?”
“Is she seeing someone?”
Joy laughed. “Um...no. I mean, yes. She’s seeing someone...” Joy thought about the Cabana Boys—Luiz, Tuan, Antony, Enrique, Ilhami and Nikolai, as well as the indomitable Kurt—all hard bodies and exotic faces. Joy was afraid Neil didn’t quite fit the bill. “Um...several someones, in fact.”
Neil raised his eyebrows. “Really?” he said, patting his stiff spikes of hair. He went back to texting and shook his head. “Man,” he whispered under his breath. “That is so hot.”
* * *
Goodbye, Shelley! Goodbye, Dad! Hello title transfer! And now for a hot date with a sponge...
Joy scrubbed the last crusty bits from the windshield. She wasn’t sure if it had been bird poop or squashed bugs from the road, but she planned on throwing the rag in the garbage and soaking her hands in bleach.
“I’m washing it right now,” Joy said into the house phone tucked by her ear. “There are Cheeto stains on the ceiling, Mom. The ceiling!” She sighed in disgust. “Your son is the messiest driver who ever lived.”
“Is he there?” her mom said. “I told him to call as soon as he got there.”
“He went out to get Turtle Wax,” Joy said and wiped her bangs out of her eyes. “Why does anyone need to wax turtles? Their shells are already so shiny.”
“I’m sure I don’t know,” her mom said. “You never had any interest in pets.”
“Does an iPad count as a pet?”
“Har-har. Just tell him to call me later, okay?” she said. “I have to go meet Doug at the gallery. I love you, I’m glad you have a car, I’m proud of you, please remember to eat something that does not have a foil wrapper and—oh, by the way—I love you. Did I mention that already?”
Joy squeezed the rag in her hand. “I love you, too, Mom.”
“Bye, Joy. Hugs to Stef.”
Joy hung up and slipped the phone into the glove compartment to keep it dry. Soapy water ran by her feet and into the gutters, trickling over her toes. She still felt damp after using the hose—Monica and Gordon’s offer to help was much appreciated but also far soggier than she’d anticipated—but they’d agreed that the outside of the car had been a lot easier to clean than the inside. Stef’s car was a free gift in a very smelly wrapper.
They’d attacked the Kia with sharp-smelling fluids and thick, bubbly suds, using rags and old toothbrushes and toothpicks along the seams. They’d played “spray tag” across the backyard, yelling and ducking, before Stef bequeathed the hose to Gordon and ran to the C&P to get more wax. Monica was scrubbing the rear bumper, soaped to the elbows. Gordon aimed a tight spray near the back wheels.
“Hey!” Monica’s voice spiked from behind the trunk. “If you spray my feet one more time, I swear I’m going to come over there and force-feed you this sponge!”
Gordon fixed Joy with comically wide eyes, then sprayed again. Monica shrieked.
Gordon winked as Joy laughed. “Oops.”
Monica less-than-gracefully stumbled to her feet, her orange tank top soaked over a flower-patterned bra. She threw the sudsy sponge at her boyfriend, which Gordon dodged easily. He sprayed her again in self-defense, laughing and backing up, but not fast enough to avoid getting tackled into the yard. Bits of freshly mowed grass clung to their bodies as they rolled over the hose, fighting for the nozzle and getting drenched. They yelled and squealed as Joy wiped down the side mirrors. She ignored them until she got a cold splash across her back.
“Hey!” she shouted and whipped around. Monica waved a sorry and went back to wrestling her beau.
“Ah, young love,” Stef said, approaching with fresh rags and a plastic bag. “Or, in this case, a mating ritual courting massive allergies.”
Joy picked at her pruney fingers. “Mom called while you were gone. Call her back. There! My deed is done.” She pointed at the bag. “Found the car wax?”
“Yep. Stored cleverly between the rat poison and boxes of cornflakes. Don’t confuse the two.” Stef held up the small red tin. “Okay, so—first we have to rinse all this off, towel it dry and do an even coat of this stuff. Wait an hour—then wipe it off. Not too hard.”
“Says you,” Joy quipped. “My arms are killing me.”
“Oh, please. I’ve seen you flip twenty times in succession to the operetta from The Fifth Element,” Stef said. “Your wimpy arms can take it.”
“Yeah, well, it’s been a while.” She sniffed. “I’m out of practice.”
Stef crossed his arms in his I’m-coaching-you way. It was so familiar, it made Joy’s stomach lurch with performance butterflies; her body psyched up for a Level Nine routine. For a split second, she was back on the mats with a panel of judges, a crowd in the backdrop and her family near the bench. She could feel the air-conditioning, smell the chalk dust and sweat. It was as if she’d been plunged back years at a glance: her brother’s coaching from the sideline.
“Is that an excuse?” he barked.
“No,” she said. It was her line. “No excuses!”
“That’s right,” Stef said, wagging a finger at her. “You can do this.”
Joy dropped her dirty rag and toed off her flip-flops. Tossing her ponytail, she rolled her shoulders and bounced on her toes. The backyard was open and empty and as green as Abbott’s Field. She whispered words to no one.
“I know I can.”
Dipping her chin, Joy ran for the yard, bare feet clearing the parking barrier and touching wet grass. She felt it tingle up her spine, sending electric pops through her toes. Joy sprang in the dirt into a quick roundoff and slammed a series of back handsprings, fast and tight, in a snapping cycle that felt like flying. She landed in a corner. Everyone had stopped, stunned.
Joy was still moving. She pivoted left, right, and took off again, her mind’s eye imagining the triple twist, double back before it could happen, both knowing that the ground wasn’t a spring floor and that she could do it, anyway. She could feel it. Warmth pulsed up her legs like golden wine, warming her hip joints and filling her lungs, pouring liquid light out her palms.
She ran forward and dived, her fingers squelching in mud and wet grass, slippery and dangerous, but the rush was upon her—she wouldn’t stop, couldn’t stop!—and tucked herself through the spin, landing with an impossible stick. Present left, present right, a split leap and a long, stretched pose, reaching for the sky and straightening her knees, rolling the energy from her heels to her toes, pointing in crisp formation.
Final measure. She lifted her chin: finis!
There was a scatter of applause from other windows in the complex. A couple of whistles and a hooting shout. Joy blinked. She’d collected quite an audience. She stood up shyly as she lifted out of her performance trance, doing a little bow and a wave for the kids in the corner condo.
Monica and Gordon clapped wildly from their spot in the grass.
“WOO!” Monica hollered, spinning fists over her head.
“Wow!” said Gordon. “That was incredible.”
Stef ran over, eyes wide, mouth open, caught somewhere between awe and concern.
“What was that?” he said and patted her arms as if checking to be sure she was all still there. She breathed deeply, bright and beaming, and wiped at the grass sticking on her palms.
“That was awesome!” she said.
“That was insane,” Stef snapped. “Are you kidding me? You could have broken your neck! This is soft ground with loose grass and way too small...” He shook his head and helped wipe off green bits with a rag. “Seriously, Joy, what were you thinking?”
She picked bits of weeds off her tank top. “I wasn’t thinking,” she admitted.
“Yeah, got that.” Now that the shock was over, her brother sounded angry. “I thought you said you haven’t hit the mats in over a year,” he said, turning her around to wipe her back. “I’ve never seen you that crisp. Not in ten years—maybe ever. You looked Elite. I have no idea how you got that air...” He stopped as she shook out the end of her ponytail. She turned around curiously. His eyes had gone flat, his mouth a tight, thin line. She hadn’t realized she’d made him so upset.
“Sorry,” she said.
His eyes flicked up to her eyes. He held her shoulder hard, either steadying her or ready to shake some sense into her. “Are you okay, Joy?” he asked suddenly. “Do you feel okay?”
“Yeah,” Joy said, confused and suddenly every inch his little sister. “Just winded. Adrenaline crash imminent, but otherwise, I’m fine.”
Stef’s face was pale. The rag fell from his hand. He bent to pick it up and his voice was strained and strangely subdued. “You should go inside and eat something.”
At the mention of food, her whole body tingled. “Good idea,” she said and examined his face. “Are you okay?”
Stef looked alarmed by the question.
Monica slammed into her back, throwing her dark arms around Joy’s neck.
“You were amazing!” she gushed. “A one-woman show!”
“That was seriously awesome,” Gordon said. “I never knew you could trick.”
“Eleven years of gymnastics,” Joy murmured, still looking at Stef, who was busying himself with the wax. She felt like she was seven years old, the day after the talent show, ashamed and self-conscious for showing off at school. “I’m going inside to grab an apple,” she said. “Anyone want anything?”
“How about another towel?” Gordon suggested as he sprayed Monica’s toes. With a squeal and a shout, they were at it again. Stef shook his head.
Feeling oddly chastened, Joy nodded and left.
She rubbed her hands together as she took the stairs, the tight tingling in her fingers and a slight woozy sensation telling her she’d burned too much too fast and needed to refuel. Of course, she should have expected the glucose drop after her wild little stunt in the yard—no warm-up, no practice and on inadequate turf—Stef was right, she’d been stupid. And her and Monica’s motto was No Stupid. She could have easily slid into the pavement or hit the fence or landed on her head. She still nursed the injury of two broken toes from that time she’d blown an aerial, and that was back when she was in top form, with her coach in the gym and all the safeties in place. Today, she had just been...reckless. Maybe she could blame it on summer? Ever since she’d been barefoot outside, she’d been itching to really move. She’d barely enjoyed any sun since she’d started working at Antoine’s. The long days had become all about earning money, which sucked, but now there was a promise of obtaining a glamour: the carrot at the end of a very long stick.
She hopped onto the landing and let herself into the condo, entering the security code and thinking maybe she’d invite Monica and Gordon to go out dancing and blow off some steam. Neil had said that there was some party going on at the beach. She hadn’t considered going because she didn’t want him to think that he was asking her out.
That was the trouble with having an invisible boyfriend; it was hard to appear to be a couple when the guy in question never appeared.
Joy grabbed one of the oranges out of the bowl on the counter, but it was gushy to the touch. She put it back, opting for a couple of bananas and a stack of whole wheat crackers. She checked the fridge for some cheese, making a mental note to add sharp cheddar to Stef’s growing grocery list. As she shut the fridge, Joy caught a glimmer on the very edge of her Sight.
It wasn’t the flash of splintered light that she’d experienced when Ink first cut her eye, but it brought the same chilly wariness that she could feel in her lungs, edgy and tight.
She kept her hand on the fridge, replaying her footsteps in her head: Had she accidentally stepped over a ward? Dialed a combination? Triggered a key? She swore at herself for being lazy; she couldn’t forget how easy it was to become someone else’s plaything, someone else’s prey. In the Twixt, Folk were cats and humans were mice.
But she was no mouse.
Joy cautiously let go of the handle and tried to locate the source of the spark. It had the same sort of shimmer that she associated with the Twixt. If she could catch sight of it again, she’d probably know for certain—she, like Ink and Inq, could see signaturae, unlike the rest of humans and Folk—but there shouldn’t be anything here inside Ink’s wards. He’d checked them so carefully. No one could be inside the house!
She retraced her steps, drifting past the counter, opening the fridge, carefully peeking around the corner while keeping her eye on the kitchen window to catch any reflections. Joy wondered how she’d ever felt safe with her head stuck in the fridge. She closed the door and saw it again.
It was reflected in the stainless steel, milky and indistinct.
Joy looked behind her—nothing. Even with the Sight, there was only her ordinary kitchen with her ordinary snacks on the ordinary countertop. She edged closer to the refrigerator; the sunlight from the kitchen window was bright on her shoulder, warming her skin through the air and glass. Maybe that was it? A flash of sunlight on skin?
Not likely.
As she turned, she saw it again: a flash reflection. Her whole body tingled. It was something on her.
Joy remembered when she’d been first marked by Ink, when he’d attempted to obey the law of the Twixt and blind a human with the Sight, but he had missed, accidentally scratching her cornea instead. The wink of light that had speared her eye hadn’t been the wound; it had been his signatura drawn directly on her eye. She remembered the sort of Flash! Flash! she’d had when seeing things in the Twixt for the first time: horrible monsters and fabulous creatures and the glowing shapes of signaturae on skin. This was the same sort of flickery brightness, the same sort of echo of light.
Her stomach dropped with an odd twist of shame and nervous dread. She ran to the bathroom and switched on the light. Removing her shirt, she sat on the sink with her back to the mirror and, twisting awkwardly, tried to see what it was.
There was a ghostly smear stuck to her skin.
Joy reached her hand over her shoulder and tried to touch it, but it was too far down her spine. She tried reaching behind her back, but it was too high, out of reach, like an impossible itch. She pulled the skin at her shoulder and saw it move. There was definitely something there. Joy squinted, but it was cloudy and vague, unlike the clear designs of True Names. It wasn’t the black of Ink’s marks or the pale watermarks of Inq’s reverse-henna tattoos, but Joy recognized what it was just the same.
A chilly sort of horror crept up her arms. She knew.
She’d been marked with someone’s signatura.
* * *
Joy sank to the floor, her legs weak with fear. She’d been marked—not by Ink or Inq or anyone that she knew. The knowledge squirmed inside her, setting off sparks in her brain. How was that possible? She hadn’t seen anyone! She hadn’t seen it happen, and for some crazy reason Joy thought, after everything she’d been through, she ought to have felt something happen, at least.
She crumpled against the wall. After all Ink’s efforts to keep her safe, to keep her unclaimed and free, she’d been marked, tied to some stranger in the Twixt. Her mind spun with the implications: Who? How? When? Why? With someone already out to kill her, the mark on her flesh felt like a beacon. Joy felt inexplicably violated, exposed. I can’t believe this! What happened? What could she do? What would she tell Ink?
Oh my God. Ink!
Joy remembered his rage when Briarhook had branded her. He’d been livid, a sharp, deadly quiet, and when he’d returned to Graus Claude’s, his arms had been soaked to the elbows in blood. She’d thought for certain he’d killed the gruesome hedgehog and his sneering accomplice, Hasp. She’d been horrified at his violence and herself for feeling avenged, but she had felt it all through a woozy thickness that had been her healing trance that night. Whatever Kurt had given her had left her memories both foggy and bright, but she could still see the vivid streaks of blood against the sink’s porcelain knobs and what it was like to see Ink’s signatura for the first time: an ouroboros, a living tattoo winding over his back.
Yet Briarhook lived because Ink valued life, instead cursing him to earn back his heart, now kept in an iron box. Ink said that he had never killed another living being...until now. What would he do if he found out that she’d been claimed by some stranger? Would he hunt down whoever was responsible, only to later be crushed with self-loathing and remorse? She pictured him hugging his arms over his head in misery. Joy never wanted to see him like that again.
Grabbing her purse from the hallway, she took out the scalpel. She returned to the bathroom, turned her back toward the mirror and tried catching the edge of the blade under the newfound mark. The blade head slipped, snagging nothing. She tried again. Either she couldn’t get the right angle or she was doing something wrong. Maybe it wasn’t a real signatura? Maybe it was too fresh? Maybe it was something else? Joy wasn’t completely clear how signatura worked, and since she didn’t know whose it was or where it had come from, perhaps that made it impossible for her to erase? She’d only ever removed four signaturae from her skin: Ink’s, Inq’s, Briarhook’s and Aniseed’s. Of course, that was four more than anyone else had ever managed, and the reason that the Council was interested in her still. She felt stupid for having assumed that removing anyone’s signatura would be just as easy and then furious to be proven wrong now.
Why NOW?
She kicked the linen door in frustration and stretched her arm farther, straining her shoulder and wrist. She felt the blade skip against her skin and realized that she’d probably cut herself before she’d do any good. She tried to remember what it felt like to slice Briarhook’s brand off her arm, erase Aniseed’s mark in the air or slowly fuse Inq’s belly closed—that oily, slick, reverse-spark of undoing.
Whatever it had been like, this wasn’t it.
She dropped her arms and examined the shape: it was a roughly circular blob, runny and blurred. She blinked and tried another angle. Squinted. No use. She couldn’t make it out and she couldn’t risk asking Ink. Joy knew she had to get rid of it before he found out and did something...horrible. She didn’t want to be responsible for hurting him again.
Dropping the scalpel back into its pocket, Joy picked up her brand new phone—replaced thankfully under warranty—and prayed that all her data was retrievable from the cloud once her transfer was confirmed, but she couldn’t access her contacts list until then. She ran to her room and opened her desk drawer, rifling through old papers, library cards, business cards, magnets and Post-it notes, excavating the one she’d hoped to find: a crisp piece of card stock with exquisite penmanship. Graus Claude’s voice mailbox was a convenient 800 number.
She dialed quickly, waiting for the automatic voice stating its standard instruction that she could please record her message after the beep.
“Hi, this is Joy,” she said, feeling foolish. “I have something I have to show you.” She added, “Alone. My cell phone’s reestablishing voice mail, so please call or email. I’ll check for messages until I hear from you. It’s kind of urgent. Thanks.” She recited her phone number and spelled out her email address and hung up, wondering if she was making things worse.
Ink trusted the noble toad absolutely, but Inq was suspicious. The Bailiwick already suspects something, Inq had said when they’d been passing off Joy as Ink’s chosen, his lehman. But that was before Joy had proven herself, undoing Aniseed’s pandemic curse, potentially saving both worlds, and falling in love with Ink. Graus Claude knew that she was on their side, didn’t he? He counted her as a friend. A niggling voice chased that thought through her mind. Well, he didn’t actually SAY that he considered her a loyal friend—he’d implied it—but the Folk twist the meanings to suit their own ends. The Bailiwick is no different.
Joy trembled with more than apprehension; she still hadn’t eaten.
