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September 9, 1985

Jack McCarthy’s crooked foot scuffed along in the gravel as he walked slowly down the hill from the mine site. Strands of black hair, fuzzy from the yellow hard hat, hung over his arctic-blue eyes. His sweaty knuckles were seared with black and grey muck after a long shift underground. A crumpled piece of pink paper, curled like dried shrimp, was held tight in his slender hand.

This morning he’d lost his job.

He hadn’t told his wife.

I could go have a drink at the Hall before supper, he thought. Or have a game of darts or cards. I should go straight home and tell Angela. He would go straight home and tell his wife — but after the way Mooney’s wife had reacted, he didn’t know how to tell his.

“Mooney, my god, what’s wrong,” Jack had asked him this morning as he passed him on the hill. Mooney had just finished a night shift and stood wilting under the weight of the news — his whole body brittle against the shadow of the large, indomitable shaft behind him: black paint peeling, rusted iron girders garish and bold. He was a mucker like his father — and his father before him — and he was constantly dirty. He’d wiped his nose on his tattered red plaid shirt.

“It’s happened, Jack, to a whole bunch of us, me, Tom, and Gary. We were laid off this morning. I gotta get home to me wife, let her know what’s happened.” Panic pinched Mooney’s tired, dirty skin. His first baby was due next month.

Jack knew at once it would happen to him, too, and tried not to let his fear show. He stood facing the mine and squared his shoulders, all the while knowing that the land was dry and not one of them was skilled at working the sea. They’d all have to go to the mainland or America, perhaps Alberta, or Manitoba and even northwestern Ontario, where gold and nickel mining companies were just starting up.

He’d heard about a family that had gone to Alberta — Ron Evilly and his wife and three children — to work in a rural northern gold-mining town. The homesickness, the isolation, and the low wages had gotten to him. He’d wanted to come home, even if it meant coming home to nothing. But he hadn’t — couldn’t — come home, and was stuck, miserable, lonely, and weary, far from everyone and everything he’d ever known.

“Get in there and check your mailbox, Jack,” Mooney had said. He held his hard hat in his shaking hands and pressed his thumbs on the rim, spinning it nervously. Mooney loved to bake; at every softball tournament or figure skating carnival, Mooney would have his pies set out, some still bubbling blueberry juice through the hole in the middle. He looked like he was kneading dough right now, needing money, reverting to his hobby out of habit. Jack glumly watched him pressing, shaking, and spinning his hard hat, his way of earning dough ripped from his hands this morning, leaving him with only a battered grey and dirty hard hat to fumble with nervously.

“There’s nothing we can do when the ore dries up, not a blessed thing, you and I both know that.” Mooney put on his battered hard hat and marched away from the mine site toward the little yellow clapboard house fifty feet away from where they stood.

His pretty young wife opened the door. Her belly emerged first, her arms cradled — muscles tight from lugging home big bags of flour and sugar for Mooney’s baking — around her swollen abdomen. Everyone teased her about her unfailing support and hours spent shopping for her husband’s baking, but she shrugged it off. She would haul lumber for her husband if she had to.

He had handed her the separation slip. She pulled her woolly cardigan tighter around her, brushed wisps of brown hair from her sharp cheekbones, and then looked up at the mineshaft with hard black eyes. Fat tears fell and her chest heaved spasmodically. Mooney gently put his hand on her belly. She brushed his hand away and with paper clenched fiercely raised a shaking fist at the mineshaft. Quiet and obdurate it stood, as if the people who gave it life were condemned or had fallen out of its favour.

“For the love of God, what will we do?” she screamed.

“I’ll find work,” Mooney said.

Jack had turned away quickly and continued to walk up the small hill to the mine site, his head hanging glumly. He could only imagine how Angela, his wife of five years, would react. She’d do more than shake a fist. She’d grow cold, hover in silence, and then charge. Take charge, as if her will and her will alone could — and would — be the only outcome. Jack knew he’d have no say in the matter. His will would be crippled under the weight of her fiery temperament. It bothered him, this inability to make any sort of claim in influencing even the most minor of decisions. He often wanted her to concede to him so he could show her that he was a competent man, a man worth trusting, a man like his neighbour and best friend since childhood, a mining mucker himself, Peter Fifield.

Peter and Jack had met in kindergarten. Peter started school two weeks late. He was wilful and wily, and his mother couldn’t get him out the door. He’d wanted to stay home and play with his trucks, guard them from his younger brothers, who would destroy everything he had once his back was turned. When Peter finally came to class in mid-September, the teacher presented him at the front.

“Now children, we have a new student.”

The children were told to lower their heads and pray to welcome the newest class member. Jack looked up, and Peter was pulling faces at the chubby nun with the prune face — purplish skin, bloated and wrinkled — perched over fingers glazed with remnants of the soda biscuits and butter she snacked on throughout the day. When Peter caught Jack’s eye, the ginger-haired, bucked-toothed, freckle-faced scallywag stuck out his cleft tongue. Jack flushed with surprise at the dent. He thought Peter was part snake. He wanted to befriend this reptilian boy.

Later that day Jack made a paper airplane and threw it at Peter’s head. Peter stopped ordering the other kids around in the dollhouse, where the play kitchen, nursery, and living room were, and ran after the perpetrator of the paper plane assault. They became tangled in a wrestling match so snarled, it took two nuns to pry them apart. They’d been inseparable after that.

Jack, walking slower than ever to work, had approached the security gate and said good morning to the guard, Brian Gulliford, who nodded slowly, his eyes heavy, forcing a smile. The man had sensed Jack’s weariness and averted his eyes. Gulliford had been there for almost twenty-five years, a rebellious teen who stayed out all night, drinking at the swimming hole, drag racing on the road to the lake. His parents and the mine foreman thought it would be wise to give him some authority; if he couldn’t follow it, they might use the force of his will for some benefit. He looked as if even his strong will had buckled under the pressure of company layoffs as he’d sat in his glass box, head sagging on a weary neck, back doubled over and strewn limply on his desk.

Jack had passed through the security gate and climbed the steps to the men’s dry. Within its steamy walls, a group of men, finishing or starting a shift, were either showering or changing.

“I won’t go, I won’t. There’s six more years of work to go at least, and I won’t go without a fight,” said Johnny Moriarty, a driller, shaking his fists as coils of black hair bounced heavily over his flat forehead.

“You can’t fight them,” Bernie stated dully. “When money for exploration stops, so do we.”

“All the shareholder money in the world don’t know this rock like we do. We know what’s left in the mine and we know how many people they need to work it. And let me tell you, they’re making a big mistake letting too many go at once,” Jack said and slammed his fist into his palm.

“They’re not making a mistake,” Bernie said dully.

“But some of us will get five more years at least,” Jack said tightly.

“And some of us won’t,” Bernie added flatly, “and we’ll have to accept it, like men.”

“Well, I won’t accept it; I’ll fight this all the way. They won’t get rid of me and my family without a fight. Our grandfathers started this town, and my youngsters are going to enjoy it, that’s for sure,” Jack said.

“There won’t be anything left for the children. They’ll start with the pool, then the bowling alley, then the stadium and cinema. You gotta think about your children’s future,” Bernie said.

“We’ll stay in Newfoundland,” Jack said desperately. “There’s no way we’re going to the mainland. What’s losing a pool when you could lose the whole ocean?”

Several high-pitched whistles signalled the start of the shift. The men cleared out of the dry quickly. Jack stood alone in the change room, unbuttoning his jeans, slowly putting on his work boots, afraid to check his mailbox at the end of the hall, more worried now about the other men. What would they do? Some of them were single and would be fine to roam, but what about the men with children? Peter himself had been laid off five months ago and still hadn’t found work. Jack could only imagine what Pete’s wife Wanda was feeling. She must feel so alone, he thought. She looked so vacant lately, like she wasn’t even inside her own skin, missing Peter as he hunted for jobs in St. John’s. Jack was surprised at how easily she’d changed. She’d gotten so big after the baby was born. She was the prettiest girl in Brighton Catholic School and had married the captain of the hockey team, but now she looked like someone’s nanny in old housedresses and slippers as she carried her pudgy baby over her shoulder, all the while wiping drool and grainy white spit-up from her chest. What will come to pass, Jack thought, for us all, and he sighed heavily.

The mine site will be here longer than any of us. He cursed the loud, dangerous, rough mine, with its cantankerous moods and accidental rock slides that snuffed out human life in seconds, explosions gone awry, and toxic gases that scratched and tore at a man’s lungs. Jack never stopped worrying about making it home to his children. He rarely took risks at work, exhibited great care around heavy machinery, and settled disputes between the miners on shift calmly and fairly, but that didn’t stop the worry. The worry that someday this place, full of rock that loomed above his head like a thick, sharp guillotine, would snap him in half.

After dropping Katie off at school, Angela walked the hundred yards across town and opened the door to Moira Moriarty’s hair salon. The sharp smell of ammonia singed her nose. Dusty mirrors encased in gold filigree adorned the walls. Moira looked up and smiled vacantly at Angela. She was trimming Bernie’s wife Wavey’s mushroom cut. Nanny Harnum sat under the hair dryer, rollers squeezed tight against her plastic cap, a dark plastic cape draped over her rotund frame. She looked like a clay doll.

Moira’s wispy strawberry-blonde hair hung limply. Her face was grey and withdrawn. “Johnny came home from his shift this morning with a layoff notice,” she said.

“Bern, too,” Wavey said.

Angela’s face fell, and she shifted Lily to her other hip. “I’m so sorry.”

Nanny Harnum reached out to ruffle Maggie’s hair, and over the din of the hair dryer she yelled, “Your time will come, no use feeling sorry for anyone.”

Angela nodded glumly.

Moira brushed Wavey’s small face with a thick white brush. Her eyes were squeezed shut. “Bern figures Jack got his notice today.”

“He hasn’t called,” Angela said.

“Angela —” Wavey began to say as Moira wiped the brush forcefully over her mouth.

“Leave it between the two of them, Wave,” she whispered.

Wavey picked bits of hair from her lips and remained silent.

“He would tell me straight away,” Angela said to a room suddenly gone silent, save for the weak roar of the hair dryer and the crackle of Nanny Harnum’s newspaper. “Wouldn’t he?”

Later that evening, his crumpled lay-off slip lay tucked underneath the front door mat, the only place he could think to put it so Angela wouldn’t find it. He couldn’t tell her what had happened, not just yet. He couldn’t tell her about what made him feel so powerless, this situation that rendered him incapable of providing for his family. That was the worst, he thought, not being able to give his wife and children what they wanted.

After Angela had bathed and dressed the children for bed, Jack knelt beside his two daughters, Katherine and Maggie — Lily, the baby, was asleep in the crib beside them — wrapped in wool blankets and snug in bed, and told them a ghost story. “There’s a bright-light spirit, way deep down in the black rock, that lives underground. He keeps dark places full of light so men can find their way home.”

They shivered nervously under the brittle wool blankets as Jack rose to turn out the light. He whispered good night as Katherine, the eldest daughter, asked if the spirit would light up their room after their father turned out the light. Jack laughed and ruffled her hair.

Jack went to run a bath. As he sat in the tub, his knees bent to his waist, coils of brown and red chest hair were matted with suds. He ran a bar of cracked soap, streaked with grey dirt, over the curled slugs of dirt under his fingernails. His blue eyes were red-rimmed and glassy. What would he say to Angela? How could he tell her what had happened today? She would know exactly what she wanted to do — whether or not Jack agreed. As he sat in the tub, he had a strong sense of what she would do. He wanted to ignore it, this sense. He tried to stifle his instincts but the thoughts festered, throbbed like a cut covered with a tightly wound bandage — the point when the tear in the skin isn’t the problem anymore but the pressure of the solution is, because it’s worse, far worse than the original problem. He wasn’t ready for her to know yet. For her to have a solution before he had a chance to decipher what the problem meant for him. He knew he wouldn’t want to do what she said, but it didn’t matter what Jack wanted.

He emptied the tub, stood with one foot on the cracked toilet, and dried himself with a torn towel.

“Hello, my love,” Angela whispered and sidled up beside him. Her blue eyes sparkled as she slipped her arms around his long waist. Her black hair, tied in a loose chignon at the nape of her slender neck, gathered in tiny coils at her moist temples. Her milky white skin, with light pink splotches on plump cheeks, stretched easily as she smiled. Her mouth, offered to him to kiss, was as shapely and pretty as a coiled rosebud.

She was a Harrington before they married, and they weren’t much different in ancestry; both of their families had come to the tiny town of Brighton, tucked amongst Newfoundland’s green and granite Appalachians, from Southern Ireland and Northern England. They were miners and farmers, immigrants to Newfoundland in the nineteenth century in search of work. They’d run from generations of poverty in nations ruled by the prosperous. They had starved or gotten the typhoid fever from lice while travelling over the ocean, some of them landing and remaining in Boston, St. John’s, and New York. The majority of the Harrington and McCarthy families chose St. John’s, working their way inland in search of what little livestock they could farm, most of them finding their way underground and remaining there.

Both Jack and Angela’s grandparents were in the first families to settle in the rural mining town of Brighton, in the 1930s, before it became a part of Canada. That was an exciting time for Newfoundland, Nanny Harrington would say; they were on the cusp of becoming Americans, Canadians, or remaining British citizens.

The McCarthys were those luckless Irish, descendants still sitting in the Irish pubs of contemporary Boston, men and women with pug noses, scarlet cheeks, flyaway fair hair, drunk and screeching on barstools in the mid-afternoon. They weren’t the Kennedy type of Irish, filled with luck and brainpower and a certain cruel edge that forced others to work at a fraction of their worth. These were the Irish that came with nothing, worked for nothing, and generations later still felt like nothing.

Nanny Harrington, however, still considered herself a citizen of Britain, easily befriending the wealthy professors from England who came to spend summers hunting in and around Brighton, a kinship born purely of perception of shared heritage. She would make Northern English food for them: Yorkshire puddings, roast beef broiled with garlic cloves, and mashed potatoes with whipped butter.

Nanny Harrington despised Jack. She didn’t think he was good enough for her daughter. She frowned upon him constantly, pointed out his faults, and second-guessed everything he said and did. He could have been a teacher, she thought, but instead he let his friends influence him; they told him teaching was for women and that he should become a miner like the rest of them, because mining was for men. They could have moved to St. John’s, she thought, and gotten out of the rough business of mining altogether.

“I heard there were a bunch of layoffs today. Any news for us?” Angela asked gently.

“Nothing yet.”

Jack put down his towel and led Angela to the bedroom. He nuzzled her nose and stroked her hair. Despite his worries, he loved her, more than anyone else in the world. He’d been in love with her since she found him in the school library, putting a copy of the banned book Beautiful Losers between the pages of an old encyclopedia. He’d bought a copy on a school trip to St. John’s and had to hide it before anyone saw that he liked to read books by a poet — a poet from Montreal at that.

“What?” she asked as he held her tightly, his mouth opening slowly as if he had something to say. She put her small hand on his face and asked him again. He shook his head, murmured and pulled her on the bed, kicking the door shut behind them.

The next morning Angela called out to Jack to come to the breakfast table.

“I’ve made your favourites,” she said cheerfully and held out his chair. Yellow foam hung out from the torn powder-blue plastic seam. A large loaf of steaming homemade bread, a square slab of creamy butter, a bottle of crisp red partridgeberry jam, bacon and fried eggs, and a pot of hot sugared tea covered the blue Formica table. She placed a steaming mug of milky tea in front of him. He sipped it slowly and blew cool air over the lip, the steam rolling away like early morning fog lifting at noon.

“Do you think you’ll hear anything today?” Angela asked tersely and twisted a napkin over her delicate fingers so tightly, her veins looked as thick as purple velvet ropes.

Jack looked at her sharply through the wisps of steam. “No,” he said, his face flushed from lying.

“But we know it’s only a matter of time.”

“We’ll be safe and sound, my love, one way or the other; I won’t let anything happen to any of ye —”

“But what about when exploration stops?”

“I told you I’ll take care of you. All of you.”

Angela sighed and got up to get a napkin. She dutifully placed it beside him then watched him as he ate, kept her eye on him as he walked to work. Stood up by the window and looked at him as he disappeared into the folds of the mineshaft. She could hear it as it cranked and creaked ceaselessly through their half-open window. The weather-beaten iron shaft jutted out of the dirt, triple the size of the bunkhouses, little square shacks covered in aluminum siding surrounding the sloppy triangular tower. A classic “company town,” all housing meant to serve the purpose of work, with access to and from easy and uncomplicated. No excuses, rain or shine, for not making it to work on time or lasting throughout your shift. If you were hungry, you simply called your wife, and she walked the fifty feet to the mine site and gave you the packed lunch forgotten on the dining room table. If you were drunk or hungover, you simply rolled out of bed and trudged up the little hill to the mine site. If you were sick, other men carried you.

She couldn’t imagine how they worked all day and all night, in dented hard hats, the flashlight a third eye prowling for minerals. Cold and damp in their torn yellow rubber suits and oversized mucking boots, riding on clanging trucks — they used to carry pick-axes but now explosives were slung over shoulders by the boxful — as layers of soot dried on their faces until the shift change whistle blew and they came home to their wives, patiently waiting by the windows.

After lunch Angela turned on the news. After only a few minutes she turned it off again. Goodbye Mulroney, Reagan, and Thatcher and your mine strikes, she thought as she sat back down again, somewhat defeated as she crossed and uncrossed her thin legs, the beige corduroy rubbing together softly. The situation in northern Manitoba’s nickel belt looked no better than in Newfoundland — or across the Atlantic, for that matter. The miners’ strike in England had been brutal, corporations making money and getting tax cuts, with devastating results for families living on a shoestring. Angela pondered her fate and that of her children. Could we really stay here if the mine closed? Would it be at all possible? The thought filled her with dread. No, better to head someplace where new development was taking place, better to take their chances with something new. A mine has a good long lifespan if it’s rich. She pulled up the sleeves of her green turtleneck and peeled an orange. Bursts of juice exploded as she inched her thumb through the skin. She sucked on a segment. Katie, Maggie, and Lily were playing at her feet. Katie, the eldest, ashen blonde and frail, like her English grandmother Harrington, was tall for her five years. Her two younger siblings were dark Irish like Jack’s family. Katie was quiet, colouring dutifully, worn out from a morning at school, while Maggie, three, and Lily, almost a year old, petite with big blue eyes and fiery tempers, were engaged in a tug of war with a rag doll.

“Maggie,” Angela said warningly and peered at them over the thick rims of her eyeglasses.

Lily cried loudly. Angela reached down from her chair, snatched the doll, and gave it to her. Maggie frowned, crossed her arms, and stamped her little feet.

“Maggie, Mommy’s got a surprise for you behind her back,” Angela said coaxingly. Maggie stopped pouting and walked eagerly to her mother. “Guess which hand?”

“This one?” Maggie said and pointed to the right.

“Yes!”

Maggie clapped and took the orange in her delicate but animated hands.

As the children settled, Angela rose to make dinner. She stood in the kitchen rocking back and forth on her heels, humming along with a folk song on the radio, peeling potatoes, carrots, and turnips, dropping them in a scratched orange plastic bowl filled with cold water before she salted more water in a large yellow pot for boiling.

At five o’ clock the pale blue sky turned a deep navy, looking like a smattering of squashed wild blackberries. Fat grey dustball clouds spilled in and clung to the dark sky. Angela fussed with the white kitchen curtains and peered out the window, looking for Jack. Her boiled dinner was finished: moist salt beef, potatoes, soft and steaming cabbage and turnips in brown sugar were ready to be served. Across the gravel lane she saw straight into Wanda Fifield’s kitchen.

She was swathed in a baggy polka dot housedress, her hair in tight curls. She opened her fridge door, empty but for a carton of milk. She spooned sugar into her baby’s milk bottle and then put a spoonful in her own mouth.

Angela put her hand over her mouth quickly. Is that all she’s been eating?

“Momma, I’m hungry,” Katie said and hovered around the kitchen table.

“Supper will be ready soon.”

A bolt of bone-white lightning, crooked as a crab leg, singed the sky. Angela glanced at her clothesline. Out the front door Angela called to Wanda, “Will you give me a hand with these clothes?”

Wanda opened her door. “Oh yes, sure my dear, no problem at all,” she said and waddled out with her baby on her hip. Circles of dappled flesh were bunched around the child’s bucking wrists and ankles. Sculpted hair in a little finger wave crested on the peak of her small round forehead. Wanda pulled the wooden pins from the electric blue line. Angela asked about Pete.

“He’s still out looking for work. He’s been in town for most of the month.”

“Anything on the go in St. John’s?”

“Not a thing. As soon as we get something — anything — we’re gone. No use staying here out of sentimentality,” Wanda said resolutely.

Dense rain pelted their legs and pooled at the bottom of the clothesbasket.

“Help me get these inside,” Angela said.

Wanda hoisted a handful of facecloths and a bucket of pins on her other hip.

The girls were on the wooden storage box in the front porch, peering out the window. Inside the house, steam from the hot homemade food surrounded them like a shroud.

“I won’t take no for an answer. Join us for supper. I got enough food here to feed an army. Katie, go back in the porch and get that extra chair for Mommy. Maggie, come sit down for dinner,” Angela said and buckled Lily into her plastic highchair, the cushion sagging from years of use, bits of dried cereal clumped in the crevices.

Wanda’s brown eyes, transparent and light as almond skin, brightened as she sat down and lunged toward the big plate of food placed before her.

“Where’s Daddy?” Maggie asked.

“He’ll be home soon.”

Wanda spooned mounds of cabbage, thick carrots, and fluffy white mashed potatoes in her mouth. She tore at the salt beef and spooned bits of potato and carrot into Susie’s mouth. After her third plateful she rose to put her plate in the sink.

“That was some good. Do you need help with the dishes?”

“No, go on home, your man might call.”

“It hasn’t stopped raining,” Wanda said and pulled back the kitchen curtain. She flushed and lowered her head. “You can see right into my kitchen.”

Angela’s fork stopped in midair. “Can you? I hadn’t even noticed.”

“Well, I better go, thanks again for supper,” Wanda said and hurried out of the kitchen, head held high.

As Wanda crossed the yard, she cried for the shame of it, the shame of having nothing. Pete had been out of work for so long, she could no longer bear it. They once had everything, when the mine was prosperous. They were the envy of the province, the town to live in, and she was the happiest girl around with a man like Pete on her arm. “And now, look at the lot of us, in some state,” she whispered. The nerve of Angela, pitying me like that, like this family is in some sort of habit of collecting the pogey, she thought and hurried through her front door, avoiding the downpour. “We’ll get a job, won’t we love?” she said and hoisted Susie from her hip, held her in front of her face, cooed and kissed her cheeks. “We’ll move far from here, far from anyone who knows what we’ve been through the last few months, yes, my love, guaranteed, all will be lovely grand.”

Long past supper, Angela’s children were in the backyard playing contentedly in the rain: little yellow jackets, hats, and boots their sunlit armour protecting them from the spit of the wrenching clouds. Angela sat in the easy chair sipping tea, fingernails drumming nervously on the edge of her porcelain cup. The clock ticked loudly in the kitchen. Jack’s limp supper was on the table, sealed with steam-filled aluminum foil. Angela went to the back door to check on the children. She tripped over the doormat, damp with the rain Maggie carried in on her ceaseless quest for cookies. A corner of a piece of paper caught her eye. She knelt down to retrieve it, certain it was merely a corner from a colouring book. She crumpled it and brought it to the trashcan. At the last second she saw the Azco Mining Company logo. Her heart constricted and her hands flew to her open mouth. In that second she knew it had happened. The girls at the hairdresser’s were right. Her temples throbbed and a blaze of silver fired across the nerve in her eye. It pulsed and jumped, blurring her vision. A migraine. She was having a migraine. She cautiously opened the letter. Two weeks, it said, Record of Employment forthcoming, recommendation letter available if required.

Why didn’t he tell me? How long has he known?

The anger in her heart rose and settled just as quickly. She knew she’d have to take charge. She went to the window. Outside her two daughters stomped in puddles the colour of milky tea. She thought of Susie across the lane, drinking sugar in her milk bottle.

Susie won’t have a tooth in her head if she drinks any more sugar in her milk. I won’t let that happen to my children. How could a father let his children starve if there are jobs on the mainland? How hard can it be to leave home? I won’t let Jack do that to me, no matter how earnestly he clings to this old rock. He’s as soft as a snail inside that barnacle of a battered hard. But the strength of the grip he’s got on home, I never heard tell of a man so sentimental before. But I’ll crack him. I’ve got to. Someone’s got to speak sense in this family. She sighed heavily.

The front door opened and a biting gust of cool air rushed in like the smack of a wave from the ocean.

Jack entered the living room, his hair awry, muck on the cuffs of his jeans, a smear of dirt on his collar, his mouth tight. He lowered his head and walked straight to the window.

“There’s nothing like rain. Sometimes that’s all you need, a bit of fresh air and clean water, nothing fancy, just the simple things.”

“I know what’s going on.”

“Look at those clouds, moving so quickly across the sky, heading west.”

“What are we going to do now?”

He stared out the window and slowly turned to her. “We’re going to stay here, of course. I’ll find another job in one of the communities nearby, close to home —”

“We can’t do that.”

“Why not?”

“Because there’s nothing left here anymore.”

“There’s got to be something somewhere —”

“We’re not staying here. Pete is in town right now looking, and Wanda —”

“I won’t let that happen to you.”

“Then take us to the mainland.”

“I won’t. I can’t. Don’t ask me to do that.”

“We have children to think about.”

A second of silence hovered. The children.

They hurried to the back door. The yard was empty. Jack put on his shoes and followed a few little footprints in the mud heading toward Main Street. He foraged his way through the mud puddles in the back lane and made his way to Pebble Drive, which bisected the clapboard homes from the school, church, and library on top of the hill. Jack waited for a few cars to pass. All of the drivers waved and honked at him, slowed down and teased him by pretending not to let him pass. Jack smiled and played along, waved and gestured as he thumbed his nose at his co-workers. When the few cars had gone by, he ran nervously up the incline just as two little yellow coats with flapping arms and faces obscured by big floppy hats disappeared down the slope of the small ravine.

He ran after them and yelled at them to come back right now. They turned in unison, small mouths agape with pleasure, wide eyes framed by moist eyelashes. They ran the few feet over to him and grabbed his legs, their yellow raincoats and hats dribbling water on his blue jeans. He knelt down and encircled them.

“Where were you going?”

“To find the gold the end of the rainbow,” Katie answered and pointed at the arc in the sky.

“Can we go get the gold?” Maggie asked.

“Oh my darlings, there’s no —” Jack said, sighed, and lowered his head. He lifted his gaze to meet their innocent yet expectant eyes. “Of course there’s gold at the end of the rainbow, plenty of it, especially for little girls just like you, but the rainbow chooses who gets the gold, and when the rainbow falls over your house, it’s all yours.”

“Really, Daddy?” Maggie asked and watched him with tear-filled, accusatory eyes, her tiny lips pouting doubtfully.

“Yes, of course.”

Refusing to be soothed, Maggie continued to cry. She wanted the gold right now. Jack picked her up and held her tightly in one arm. He grabbed Katherine’s hand.

“Someday the gold will be all yours, I promise. But right now, Mommy is worried about you, and it’s time for your bath.”

Maggie curled into his chest like a water-drenched weed. He crossed the street, and his stomach grumbled. He hadn’t had anything to eat since breakfast. Weary with the knowledge that he was about to be unemployed with four mouths to feed, a wife insistent on leaving home, a mortgage, overdraft, and credit at the bank to pay, and no savings whatsoever, his stomach contracted. I can go without supper tonight so the girls can have leftovers tomorrow. I’ll find work in Newfoundland somehow or another. There’ll be something for me to do. Like it or not, we may be one of the families that have to leave Brighton. If we do, we’ll manage. I won’t want to go, but Angela does. I know that now. I knew that yesterday. I’ve known it since the first layoffs began.

Jack whistled and the children skipped home. His mind raced with worry, fatigue, and that awful sense of dread as the knowledge of what he’d have to do, pull himself away from this town and uproot himself, became clear. Jack’s heart sank, the sky darkened, and more heavy rain fell, as if they were already aboard a sinking ship.

At the top of the hill Jack’s mouth dropped in surprise and widened into a grin at the man who stood on his front step waving wildly.