Читать книгу Beauty for Ashes - Dorothy Clark - Страница 13

D awn was beginning to lighten the sky. Justin stared at the dull gray outside the window for a moment, then sat up and yanked on his boots. He was tired and ill-humored. He had spent most of the night wrestling with emotions and dreams he had thought dead and buried, and, in the end, was forced to acknowledge he had made a grave mistake. The longings were still there. They had simply been buried under the debris of his disastrous marriage to Margaret. He still wanted someone to love, to share his life with, to love him. Now, through his own machinations, he had a sterile relationship with a greedy little liar. How much of a fool could one man be! He gave a snort of disgust and brushed viciously at his clothes.

Elizabeth awoke at the sound of Justin’s movement. Immediately, the events of yesterday flooded her mind—especially last night’s angry scene. The memory made her feel ill. She took a deep, quiet breath and lay perfectly still watching him from under lowered lashes. Her conscience pricked her when he stooped and began to roll the carriage rugs spread on the floor at his feet. So that was where he had slept. She winced inwardly and drew breath to speak, but before she could begin her apology he made a sound of disgust and straightened. Her shoes were in his hand. He was scowling. Suddenly, he lifted his head and looked her way.

Elizabeth closed her already slitted eyes. The apology could wait! She held her breath and strained her ears to detect his slightest movement over the pounding of her heart. Fabric rustled…footsteps crossed the floor…the door opened and closed.

Elizabeth popped her eyes open, threw off the covers, and ran to slide the bolt into place. Justin Randolph was still angry. And he had every right to be—she had treated him dreadfully. She sagged against the door and let her breath out in a long sigh. Yesterday had been a disaster and—And that was yesterday! This was today.

Elizabeth straightened her shoulders and pushed away from the door. She would make a new beginning starting right now. She picked up her bag and reached inside for her soap and towel as she hurried to the washstand. There would be no foolish incidents today!

The weather had turned bitterly cold. Justin lowered his head into the wind and hurried from the “necessary” toward the inn to wake Elizabeth. It was a miserable day to travel, but he had no desire to spend an entire day with her in that tiny room. At least at home he would not be forced to spend every moment in her company. He blew on his hands, rubbed them together and glanced over at the sudden activity in the barn. Daniel was leading the horses out to be harnessed. Good! Now, if Little Fawn had finished altering those moccasins they could be on their way before full light.

Justin blew on his hands again, tucked his chin into his collar and sprinted the remaining distance to the inn. Miserable weather! It was cold enough to freeze a hog’s squeal! With a last disgusted look at the leaden sky, he stomped the snow from his boots and went inside.

She was finished. Elizabeth pushed the ivory comb deep into the pile of curls on her head, dropped her hairbrush into her bag, then ran to the door and slid the bolt free. Now, she had only to don her cloak and shoes. When Mr. Justin Randolph returned he would find her calmly seated in a chair, ready and waiting. Oh, it was good to feel in control again!

Elizabeth smiled, dropped her bag on the floor beside the door and walked briskly to the end of the bed to get her shoes. They were not there. She checked the floor on first one side of the bed, and then the other—her shoes were nowhere in sight. How odd! She had seen Justin Randolph with them in his hands at this very spot. She stood for a moment nibbling thoughtfully at her soft lower lip, then bent and lifted one end of the neatly rolled bundle of carriage rugs at her feet. No shoes. She straightened and gave the rugs a vigorous shake. Nothing. Where were her shoes?

Elizabeth’s shoulders sagged. Justin Randolph was already annoyed with her, and if she delayed their departure again…well…she didn’t even want to contemplate that! She shook her head and quickly rolled the rugs, then turned to the chair and snatched up her cloak to search beneath it. Nothing. Where could her shoes be?

Elizabeth curled her hands into fists and rested them on her hips while she scanned the little room. There was simply no place else to look unless— “Aha!” With the cry of triumph, she dropped to her hands and knees and bent her elbows to peer into the area under the bed. It was too dark to see. She wrinkled her nose in disgust, ducked her head under the side rail and slid forward to grope around in the inky blackness for her shoes.

The latch clicked.

Elizabeth froze as the door opened, then shoved quickly backward as someone stepped inside. She couldn’t be caught under— Her head knocked sharply against the side rail. “Ouch!”

“Elizabeth!” Justin rushed forward.

She gave a nervous little gasp as he grasped her elbow and hauled her to her feet. “You startled me.”

“You surprised me, also. I hardly expected to find you crawling around under the bed.”

Elizabeth pulled her elbow out of his hold. “I was not crawling around.” Her cheeks turned warm as she realized the picture she must have presented to him. “I was only—” She stopped, stared up at him for a moment, then quickly looked down and brushed at the dust on her long skirt.

“Yes? You were only…?”

“Nothing. It’s unimportant.” Elizabeth turned on her heel and walked over to the chair. Determination stiffened her spine as she picked up her cloak and swirled it about her shoulders. She would not delay their departure. She absolutely refused to give Justin Randolph any more fuel with which to feed his flaming dislike of her! She would leave without her shoes.

“What are you doing?”

Elizabeth pulled her hood into place and gave him a cool smile. Here was her opportunity to salvage something of her pride—to repair her tattered dignity and make amends at the same time. “I should think my actions clear enough, sir. I’m preparing to leave.” She fastened the braided loops over the buttons on her cloak, adjusted the hood, then swept grandly toward the door.

“Elizabeth?”

“Yes?” Oh, how satisfyingly cool and aristocratic her voice sounded. That should favorably impress the arrogant Mr. Randolph!

“Have you forgotten something?”

“I don’t believe so.” She reached for the latch. “I assume your groom will fetch my bag.”

“Indeed. But what of these?”

Elizabeth’s heart sank into the pit of her stomach with a sickening thud at his tone of voice. He knew. Somehow, he knew. Her assumed dignity crumpled into a useless pile at her stocking-clad feet. Slowly—reluctantly—she turned to face Justin. Her shoes dangled from the first two fingers of his right hand.

“You had them!” Hot blood surged into Elizabeth’s cheeks. “You had them all the time, while I—I—” She clamped her lips together and glared at him. She would say no more.

“While you were leaving in your stocking feet?”

The scorn in Justin’s voice and eyes brought forth a surge of indignation. Elizabeth bit down on her bottom lip and remained silent.

“Have you no sense?”

She bit down harder.

In three quick steps Justin crossed the room to stand in front of her. The look in his eyes made her shiver. She squeezed back against the door to put as much space as possible between them.

“Why, Elizabeth?” He stepped closer. “Why would you do such a foolish thing?”

Fear knotted her stomach—her heart thundered in her ears.

“Answer me!”

“I didn’t want to displease you.” The words came out in a whisper.

“Displease me?”

Elizabeth flinched. “Yes. By delaying our departure.” She lifted her chin and looked him square in the eyes. She would not give in to the fear, not this time. “You told your groom you wanted to leave at first light. That you wanted no delays. I heard you.”

“Well, I certainly didn’t mean stocking footed!” His hand lifted.

Elizabeth gasped.

Justin froze with his long fingers buried in his hair. “What is it?” His eyes narrowed as he stared down at her. “You’ve gone white as a ghost. Are you ill? By heaven! Are you going to swoon again?”

Elizabeth rolled her head from side to side against the door.

Justin’s mouth tightened. He gave an angry snort and turned away.

Elizabeth closed her eyes and sagged against the door. She drew great drafts of air into her lungs until the trembling that had manifested itself throughout her body began to abate. She opened her eyes. Justin was standing by the washstand watching her. His face was as cold and still as a stone.

“Would you like some water?”

She shook her head.

He stared hard at her for a moment, then released his grip on the water pitcher and walked over to lean against the mantel. “Come away from the door, Elizabeth. We are not leaving this room until you tell me why you were going out in the snow without shoes.”

His voice made her shiver—and that made her angry. In spite of the weakness in her limbs, Elizabeth pushed away from the door and straightened to her full height. “I have told you. I did not want to displease you. I was unjust in my accusations last evening and I wanted to make amends.”

“By leaving without shoes.”

The cynicism in his voice brought the blood surging back into her face. “Yes, Mr. Randolph, by leaving without my shoes! I have caused you a great deal of trouble and embarrassment, and I am determined that I shall not do so again.” She sighed. “I knew you wanted to leave this morning without delay, so, when my shoes came up missing, I decided to leave without them.” She looked at the cold, disbelieving look in his eyes and wondered why she was bothering to explain. “You were already angry with me!”

His left eyebrow shot up.

Elizabeth swallowed her own irritation along with the little pride she had left. “Rightfully angry. And, as you said, the shoes were of little use in the snow.” She looked down at the satin slippers he still held in his hand. How could she blame him for not believing her? It did sound foolish when she put it into words.

Justin snorted. He threw her shoes to the floor, scooped something up off the bed and stalked back to her. “Put these on, Elizabeth. You should find them a comfortable fit—Little Fawn used your shoes to alter the size.”

He thrust a pair of moccasins into her trembling hands. His gaze dropped to the stocking-clad toes peeking out from under her long skirts, then lifted back to her face. “I don’t know what sort of game you’re playing, Elizabeth, but be warned—it’ll not work with me!”

He reached for the door latch. She jumped aside. He frowned, and yanked open the door. “Be ready when Daniel comes for the bags.”

The door slammed shut behind him. Elizabeth cringed. So much for a day without foolish incidents! She stared hard at the closed door and compressed her lips into a thin line. She would never apologize to Justin Randolph again. Never!

Elizabeth clenched her hands—the moccasins squashed. Her tirade stopped short as she looked down at them. Justin Randolph was a most unpleasant man, yet he was surprisingly thoughtful. Suddenly, she giggled. Would that be unpleasantly thoughtful…or thoughtfully unpleasant? Her amusement died. Either way it was incongruous. The two simply didn’t go together—except in her new husband.

Elizabeth sighed, pushed the hood off her head and walked over to sit down in one of the two, crudely made slat-back chairs at the table. What could cause a person to have such divergent characteristics? She glanced down at the leather moccasins and shook her head. What did it matter? Whatever the reason, Justin Randolph was both—she would simply have to make the best of it.

She glanced over at her shoes on the floor in front of the fireplace where Justin had thrown them, gave another sigh, and went to retrieve them. She put them in her bag, then resumed her seat. Her lips twitched, then twitched again. What a picture she must have made crawling out from under the bed and striding haughtily toward the door in her stocking feet!

Elizabeth convulsed with laughter, then, suddenly, began to cry. He hated her. He hated her! She straightened and swiped at the tears on her cheeks. Serves you right for trying to play the grande dame! You looked like a big fool. Let that be a lesson to you!

She blinked rapidly, picked up the moccasins and ran the long, leather thongs that trailed from them through her fingers. What did Justin Randolph’s opinion of her matter? She didn’t want him to like her. Still, it would be nice if they could at least be pleasant to one another. She shook her head at the improbability of that ever occurring and leaned forward to pull the fur-lined moccasins onto her cold feet.