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One Sunday evening the aunt said she was going to bed early, she was tired. The uncle sat on the long sofa. Efrossini was sitting opposite the small black and white television set across the room where two living rooms chairs were, side by side. After the aunt left the room and went to bed, Efrossini noticed her uncle pulled his penis outside of his pants and started to stroke it. She was shocked and terrified. He signaled her to come and he said: come and sit next to me.

She jumped up and almost ran to her bedroom locking the door behind her. Shivering with fear with her heart pounding in her chest, scared her heart would explode, she climbed into her bed and pulled the covers over her head. She could not believe what she saw. Her mind went into circles. She thought she saw the devil in person. She thought she was going to die. It was nearly impossible for her to calm down.

From that night on, she slept with her door locked. Every night she cried herself to sleep, terrified of what might happen next, never letting her guard down. She walked around feeling her poor little heart trembling and crying in her chest too. She thought she just might have a nervous breakdown. How is it possible to live in such fear, she would ask herself. How was she expected to grow and do well in school and all her house chores when her heart was just aching?

She was also furious that she could not tell her aunt or someone, what had happened to her. She thought of the consequences. She always thought of the consequences. Her aunt would not believe her, she thought. She was much older mentally than her years.

If she wrote to her family her father may come to America and kill the terrible uncle. Her father would end up in prison. Her family would suffer, back in Greece. She was only thirteen years old and burdened with terror. Her safe, beautiful life in a loving home was so far behind her and she was without hope now. What could she do?

Struggling to keep it together she remembered what her mother taught her, the difficult Greek religious prayers.

She also told her no matter where she is, she can always turn to God for guidance. God would give her strength no matter what the situation. God would bring her calm. No, she was not alone, she had God with her. Her mother told her so.