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JEN WAS COMBING HER WET HAIR back from her face, clad only in a short, ivory silk robe, when she heard the three sharp knocks. The sounds made her jump. She came up off the bed with her heart beating, her hands once again shaking so much, she dropped the blue wide-toothed comb.

She moved to the door, peered through the peephole. And saw the man who had saved her life. Not even hesitating, she moved the chair back, then opened the door a crack, the chain still in place.

“Hello,” he said.

“Hi.” She didn’t know why, but she was ridiculously glad to see him.

“You okay?” He got straight to the point, and she had a feeling that this was his way.

She started to say yes—that automatic yes, that Everything’s fine so often said to the question How are things going? But her lips couldn’t form the words. She felt incapable of lying, of presenting that facade. Instead she felt her mouth tremble. She trembled. Her body felt as if it didn’t belong to her.

She couldn’t lie to this man. Though she hadn’t even known he existed a few hours ago, they had been through too much together.

Life and death had a way of bonding people.

“No.” The single word felt raw in her tight throat. She didn’t offer any protest as he stepped closer.

“Take the chain off the door.” That voice. So low and gentle, so soothing.

She did as he said, then seemed to watch from outside her own body as he opened the motel door further, stepped inside, closed it. He draped his jean jacket over one of the chairs, then he put his arm around her shoulders and steered her toward the bed. He sat her down on it and took her into his arms.

“Go ahead and cry,” he said. “I may just join you.”

His deep voice was all the persuasion she needed. The sobs came up now that she felt safe in the circle of his arms. Something about the way he held her made her feel so protected. No one could get her here, now. She wasn’t alone; she was touching another human being—the only person who could truly understand what she’d been through during those terrible moments looking down the barrel of that shotgun.

She cried harder, remembering how he’d stumbled through the door, drawing the madman’s gun, making sure it wasn’t pointed at her. She cried because her first thought on seeing him had been that he was a useless drunk, another complication. Another problem. Instead he’d saved her life with no regard for his own.

Somehow she had to make him understand.

“I thought—I thought—” her words hiccupped on a sob “—you were drunk.”

He continued to smooth her hair. He simply held her, offering no judgement concerning her crying, simply being there for her. It had been so long since anyone had truly been there for her, and Jen clung tighter. She couldn’t let him go. Not yet. Not now.

“But when—when you came in—” She choked on another sob, and he patted her back as if she were an infant needing to be burped. Then he rubbed her back, his hands soothing, knowing exactly how to release the tightness. His touch both soothed and comforted. This man’s touch was like none she’d ever felt before.

“I thought—I thought we were all going to die,” she gasped out, fresh tears filling her eyes, running down her face.

“I know,” he said. “Me, too.”

Still those strong arms held her as she buried her face against his chest, her cheek smashed flat against his blue denim shirt. He smelled of coffee and sugar—the powdered sugar that had spilled on the front of his shirt. She held on tighter as she cried.

“Honey, honey,” he said softly, his low voice almost crooning. “Tell me where your family is and I’ll get you safely home. You shouldn’t be alone—”

“No!” She clutched at his shirt harder, then, almost as if seeing herself and what she was doing for the first time, Jen felt embarrassment. Shame. She was out of control, in an anonymous motel room with a virtual stranger, dressed in nothing but a thin silk robe.

She pulled away slightly, gazed up at the man’s face.

He doesn’t feel like a stranger.

She couldn’t stop staring at him. Couldn’t tear her gaze away. A dog barked somewhere in the distance. She heard the sound of a car drive by on the highway, then another. A door slammed.

She couldn’t look away from him. The strong line of his jaw. His mouth. Those incredibly blue eyes.

Why had he been put in her path? No, not merely put there. Flung there. She remembered the way he’d stumbled into the convenience store and suddenly realized—

“You knew,” she whispered. “Before you came in that door, you knew there was a robbery going down.”

He tried to look away, as if embarrassed by what he’d done, but she slid her hand up, cupped the side of his face, held his gaze. Her fingers seemed to burn where she touched him, almost vibrate with energy, it felt so intense between them.

“You did.”

He finally, almost reluctantly, nodded his head.

She continued to study him, knowing she would be able to see his face in her mind’s eye for the rest of her life. Those eyes. The dark brown hair with that spark of auburn shot through it. The slight stubble on his chin. His strong, warm, muscular body.

But it was his eyes…Something about them haunted her. More than the slight redness, more than the weariness she saw there. She sensed something inside him had died or had very nearly been extinguished. She studied him, and he let her look until his own eyes filled and he glanced away. Over at the window. Down at the floor.

Anywhere, she knew, but at her.

She didn’t know exactly how she came to the realization, but Jen knew he’d been ready to die for her and Johnny. Because this man who couldn’t look at her felt there wasn’t anything left for him. She’d seen it in his eyes. He was just marking time on this planet. He’d essentially kicked in that convenience store’s door this morning and begun a death mission. He hadn’t cared if he’d lived or died.

He’d saved her life, and now she knew he was suffering. A lost soul. And yet as lost as she sensed he was, he’d still helped her when that help had meant life and death to her. He’d still been a hero, his actions totally unselfish, his only thoughts to help her and Johnny survive that robbery.

She couldn’t stand the fact that he’d done such a heroic thing and was now suffering for it.

“Oh, no,” she whispered, stroking the side of his face with her fingertips. “No, don’t feel that way.”

He blinked, and it might have been as if those tears had never shimmered in his eyes. She watched as he slid the social mask into place. Almost like an actor’s mask. And she wondered if anyone close to him knew how badly this man was hurting.

“No,” she whispered, stroking the side of his face, then gently touching his split lip. Easing him back on the queen-size bed. Sliding beside him, all the while touching him. Her arms around him. Her body pressed against his. Simple human comfort. Simple touching. Letting him know he wasn’t alone, she was with him. She would be with him now and help him through this.

He lay back beside her, his boots still on, fully dressed. She snuggled against him, her cheek on his chest, and felt his hands in her hair. Stroking her, sliding his fingers through the damp strands.

“I don’t think either of us should be alone right now,” she said. How odd that she should recognize this stranger’s despair. Probably because it was so close to her own. She shifted closer, held him. Listened until his breathing became deep and regular and she knew he had finally found solace in sleep.

Just before she drifted off, a thought flitted into consciousness.

How strange. I don’t even know his name….

Then another.

But I do know him…. I do….

CODY CAME AWAKE ALMOST THREE hours later. It took him a few seconds to reorient himself, to remember how he’d come to this hotel room, to this time and place.

And this woman.

All of it came back to him, and he lay in bed, thankful to be alive. And thankful that this woman had been perceptive enough to know he was in no shape to hit the road.

He glanced at the bedside clock. He had just enough time to call Trevor and explain why he wouldn’t be at work today. Trevor would have to shoot around him, but unless Cody made that call, the director would believe he was out there, coming off a bender. The best thing he could do was clean up and be on time tomorrow, ready for work.

But he had to call him.

Cody reached for his jacket, found his cell phone and punched in the number. He waited, hoping to get Trevor directly but getting the director’s voice mail instead. At the beep Cody left a message, swiftly and succinctly explaining why he wouldn’t be on the set today. He told Trevor about the robbery attempt but asked him not to say anything to anyone. Then he made his apologies and hung up.

Perhaps he’d go to his director’s hotel room tonight when he returned and apologize for holding him up. He probably could have really pushed and made it back to the set, but intuition told him not to leave this woman alone today.

He eased himself out of bed, then looked down at the sleeping woman, her hair spread out around her head like a blond halo. She lay curled on her side in the large bed, the silky robe barely covering her. They’d both fallen asleep on top of the coverlet. Now he studied her, that fall of silky blond hair, those slender, perfect legs.

After a moment he eased the bedspread, blanket and top sheet down, then tucked her in. The air-conditioning in the motel room had kicked in as it had gotten hotter outside, and he didn’t want her to catch a chill.

He settled the bedding around her shoulders, up to her chin, and she snuggled deeper into the bed in sleep, then smiled. He watched her face, committing it to memory.

That hair. He’d loved touching it. Comforting her. And he wondered again how a woman so delicate came to be out on the road by herself. There was a piece to this puzzle he didn’t have or understand.

Yet for all that her appearance said she was delicate, she had a spine there, as well. She’d responded to his unspoken command back at the robbery site. She hadn’t gone all hysterical or fallen apart until they’d been alone together in this motel room.

She would get through this. He was just thankful he could help her along.

She was also perceptive as hell, and that scared him a little, if he were honest with himself. She’d looked at him, and within minutes of their being alone, she’d seen far more than all the tabloids and newspapers, than all the reporters and talk-show hosts had ever noticed.

She’d seen him. And she hadn’t been afraid.

Cody closed his eyes and took a deep breath, considering how he felt. His legs felt a whole lot more solid beneath him. Just that short amount of sleep and that human touch, that contact, had grounded him. He remembered reading an article that had said sleep was the brain’s way of organizing and making sense of data, and the short nap he’d taken with—

He didn’t even know her name.

Cody smiled down at the sleeping woman. The short nap he’d taken with this angel had allowed him to make sense of some pretty horrific data. As his mother had always said, things look a whole lot better after a solid meal and a good night’s sleep.

And, in his case, a shower.

Not wanting to disturb her, he moved as quietly as possible, picking up the blue comb at the foot of the bed as he headed toward the small bathroom.

Small wasn’t the right word. Miniscule was. And already crowded with her toiletries. Just enough room for a toilet, a sink and a shower. He was a big man and would barely have room to turn around in the small shower stall.

So as not to crowd it even further, Cody swiftly took off his boots and peeled off his clothing just outside the door. Entering the bathroom, he closed the door gently, then turned on the shower, already anticipating the feel of hot water on his tense shoulders.

The water was good and hot and plentiful. The small sliver of guest soap was lemon-scented, and he used a generous amount, lathering it over his body, feeling as if he were washing away the scent of fear, washing away all that had happened just that morning.

He ducked his head beneath the sharp, hot spray, then used some of the woman’s shampoo. It had an herbal smell, not too bad. Cody rinsed his hair, enjoying the feel of the hot water working the tension out of his body.

Outside the shower, standing by the sink with a white towel around his waist, he risked one more loan. One that was more personal but necessary. He searched through her toiletry bag until he found a plastic razor. Lathering up with the lemon-scented soap, he shaved, swiping away at the weekend stubble covering the lower half of his face.

When he finished, he wiped his face with a hot, wet washcloth, then combed his clean hair with the blue comb he’d found at the foot of the bed.

Feeling pleased with the way he looked and feeling so much better, confident that he could drive back to the set without breaking down, all he needed now was a good meal. Perhaps he could ask this woman—after making sure he finally found out what her name was—if she’d join him.

Opening the bathroom door and letting a rush of cool air into the steam-filled room, he stepped outside. Cody wished for just an instant that he had clean clothing to put on. Then he let the white motel towel that had been draped around his hips fall to the floor.

Just before he reached for his worn jeans, he felt a sudden jolt of awareness and glanced up.

She was awake. And watching him.

HE WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL man she’d ever seen.

Tall, strong and muscular. Powerful shoulders. Perfectly proportioned. She could see defined muscles in his legs and chest, even his abdomen. And his chest was covered with a sprinkling of dark hair.

Her heart in her throat, Jen looked up at his face.

He blushed, the reddish hue suffusing his face and neck.

She couldn’t imagine why—until she glanced down at his body again and saw he was becoming swiftly and gloriously aroused. His sex, as impressive as the rest of his body, was lengthening. Thickening.

Again, he was the most beautiful man she’d ever seen.

She’d awakened at the tail end of his shower, coming to consciousness while hearing the steady, soft fall of water. Then she’d smiled seeing how he’d tucked her in while she’d slept. The tenderness and intimacy of the gesture had touched her deeply.

She’d known he was taking a shower in her motel room, and it hadn’t bothered her a bit. She, a woman who hadn’t let her own fiancé touch her intimately until they’d been together for over a year, felt perfectly comfortable with this almost total stranger taking a shower in her motel room while she lay in a queen-size bed clad only in a whisper-thin silk robe.

She didn’t know why, but there weren’t as many barriers between them. Or maybe she did. Maybe she’d gone through most of her life having perfected the rather distant, cool and collected social face and manner that her father deemed appropriate. And maybe she’d set out on this journey to the West Coast because a part of her—the wisest part—knew her life was slowly killing her.

Maybe she wanted to live. To really feel alive. To know what that felt like after having come so close to dying.

But she couldn’t take her eyes off him. That muscular, masculine body. That large, strong erection. When he bent down and reached for his jeans, she said just one word.

“No.”

Though she’d spoken softly, the word sounded loud in the quiet of the motel room. It stilled his movement for his clothing. He looked at her, disbelieving. Puzzled. But also desiring her. He couldn’t hide it any more than she could.

But Jen knew he wouldn’t join her on her bed unless she let him know that was exactly what she wanted. This man, this stranger, wasn’t the type to take advantage of a woman. But she wouldn’t have wanted him or felt as safe with him if he’d been that sort of man.

He hadn’t seemed to register what she’d said, and Jen realized words were not the answer. Actions were. She’d told him, but now she would show him exactly what she wanted.

Sitting up in bed, she slipped the ivory silk robe off her shoulders, letting it slide to her waist. She felt the cool, air-conditioned air in the motel room against her breasts. As she looked down at them, unable to look at him, she felt her nipples harden into tight little points of sensation.

She wet her lips, trying to find the words to tell him what she wanted. Her throat felt dry, constricted with both a sort of fear and an equal amount of excitement. And somehow she knew this was right, knew this was what she wanted and what he needed.

In the end she merely looked up and held out her hand, knowing he could see exactly what she was trying to tell him in her eyes. It had to be there—emotions this strong had to come out somehow. A part of her couldn’t believe this was really happening, that she was making this happen, but a stronger feeling told her that this was right, it had to happen.

The connection, that strange electric sensation when she’d touched his cheek, remained. Slowly he crossed the room. Then he knelt down on the bed as she slid down on the soft mattress, onto her back. She closed her eyes as she felt his fingers swiftly untie the sash of her short robe, then lifted her hips as he yanked it away.

She opened her eyes, watched him as he studied her for a long moment, looking at her body almost as if he couldn’t believe what was about to happen. What had to happen.

Their eyes met. Held. She knew he was giving her one last chance to back out, to reconsider, even though she could see he was poised and ready, tense with need, his sex swollen and full, painfully aroused.

But this was more than mere sex. She was acting on pure instinct, wanting to reaffirm life in the most primal, instinctual manner possible. After coming so close to death, she wanted to feel again, to know she was alive. She wanted to be close to him, as close as one person could get to another.

She wanted to take him into her body and offer him peace. She wanted to fully experience her own sexuality, which had never happened before. And Jen knew it would happen with this man. She felt more when he simply touched her than when other men had been inside her, moving, the sensation not horrible, simply…pleasant.

Pleasant was not a word she’d ever use in connection with her sexual feelings toward this man. It wouldn’t be pleasant with this man, it would be something far more than that.

I want you, she thought, like I’ve never wanted another man in my life. She reached up, her gaze never leaving his, knowing that with a single touch she would set something in motion. Something that felt as if it had always been meant to be. Destiny. Kismet. Whatever you wanted to call it.

One touch. One leap of faith. She only knew she had to take it, because he was making this her decision, he was giving her complete control.

Her hand came up, and it was steady. She touched the side of his face, now smooth. He’d shaved.

At her touch he seemed to shudder, and she saw he’d been holding himself in check for her. She smiled at him, knowing that smile was reflected in her eyes, and he turned his face and kissed her palm.

Sensation, electric and hot, shot all the way through her body. To her breasts, then lower, pooling between her thighs. Making her ache. She’d never felt this way with any other man and knew she never would.

She wanted this moment as she’d never wanted anything else in her life. She was being given something few women experienced in their lifetime and she wanted to take it. Her hand slipped around the back of his neck as she urged him closer, pulled him down on top of her. Their naked skin touched all along their bodies. She barely had time to cry out at the wonder of it, how it felt, before his lips came down over hers. His body covered hers. He moved between her thighs. And she simply surrendered to something that felt so right.

And for the first time since early this morning, that horrible morning when she’d thought she was going to die, Jen felt alive.