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Оглавление8 pm Saturday night. South Kensington tube station. And my night hasn’t started well.
‘Abigail!’ exclaims Plum. ‘Finally!’
‘Cocksmoker!’ I reply.
‘Do I have something in my teeth?’
‘Adam The Cocksmoking Tick Boxer just dumped me,’ I whisper furiously, taking her arm. ‘Let’s walk. I need to smoke.’
‘No,’ she gasps.
‘I really do, I need to smoke.’
‘I mean – he dumped you? And you don’t smoke.’
‘I do tonight,’ Plum hands me her lit cigarette so I can in expertly drag on it. ‘I was meant to meet him at the Grand Union in Camden, for a drink, you know, as I was coming down here and he has a thing somewhere else, and then he didn’t show, so I rang him, and he didn’t answer, and I texted him, and he replied “I’m back with my ex-girlfriend. I’m sorry.”’
‘Oh, that’s fucked,’ says Plum sympathetically. ‘I hate it when that happens. What a fucknuckle.’
‘Does that happen a lot?! I just can’t believe it. I don’t understand what I did wrong,’ I say, exhaling quickly. Why isn’t Plum more shocked by this? I feel like having a tantrum. Keep your cool, Abigail . . . ah, fuck it, I can’t. ‘This is not fair! I have never felt this confused and helplessly single before!’
‘Wait till it happens eighteen times in a row,’ says Plum. ‘Westbourne guy,’ she pauses, and spits over her shoulder, ‘didn’t call. I texted him, and he didn’t reply.’
‘Oh God, I’m sorry,’ I say. Poor Plum. I wish I could erase all the shit things that have happened to her so she could start again. How would I feel if I’d met someone I liked and had it in explicably go bad time after time after time, for years and years? I can’t imagine.
Plum shrugs, and puts on her best I’m-in-a-great-mood smile. ‘Don’t worry about it. Here. Vodka?’
Plum always has a small water bottle of vodka in her bag on nights out. It’s a necessary strategy she explained once, to combat London bar prices. I have a quick swig and, coughing, take out my phone to check (just in case) if Adam The Tick Boxer has texted again (he hasn’t). And the only thing that stops me from bursting into tears is the determination that I am not going to be the kind of girl who gets stood up on a Saturday night and cries about it.
Instead I will just rant for a while.
‘I don’t get it,’ I splutter, puffing violently on my fag. ‘I just don’t get it. Who does that? Who pursues someone and goes out of their way to spend time with them and then discards them?’
Plum and I lock eyes. ‘Robert,’ we say simultaneously.
‘I’m going to call him,’ I say. ‘He’ll know what we should do.’
‘How may I assist you,’ he says, instead of hello.
‘Adam The Cocksmoking Tick Boxer’ – I pause and spit, as Plum looks at me supportively – ‘fucking dumped me, and you need to fucking tell me why.’
‘Whoa, psychogail,’ he says, laughing. ‘What?’
‘Adam. The Cocksmoking. Tick Boxer. Dumped. Me.’ I take another dramatic drag. ‘I don’t understand, I thought it was going well—’
‘Abby, you weren’t going out with him. You’ve only known him a week,’ says Robert bluntly.
‘Well, I felt like I was going out with him,’ I falter. ‘Not dumped, then. Rejected. Is that better?’
‘I thought you said you were cool and detached.’
‘I acted cool and detached,’ I say. ‘Mostly.’ Though I did suggest the last two dates, now that I think about it. And I suggested staying at his house last night. And I did text him first every day since Tuesday. Shit, that’s not cool or detached. ‘Ah, fuck it.’
Plum hands me the vodka-water-bottle again, and I take another swig.
Robert’s grinning, I can tell. ‘OK. Well, don’t worry about that. He’s clearly stupid, blind and probably gay. So shrug it off. Being tough is absolutely key to surviving single life, Abby. You can’t compete in blood sports if you faint at the first shot.’
‘Tough,’ I say tentatively. ‘I am tough. I am a bastard, just like you.’
‘Uh, sure, whatever . . . Now. Delete his number.’
‘Seriously? But what if I need to—’
‘Abby, darling, for your own good, delete his number,’ instructs Robert.
The sound of Robert calling me darling makes me feel even more like crying. I don’t know why.
‘I’m sorry I’m interrupting your date,’ I say, with a choking sound.
‘I’m not on a date,’ he says. ‘I’m with your sister and Luke, actually. We’re heading out to another fucking 30th in a bit. Sure you’ll be alright?’
‘Yep,’ I say, snuffling into the phone as we walk. Plum looks over sympathetically and squeezes my arm. ‘I’m with Plum. I’m good.’
‘Good,’ he says. I can hear that he’s smiling. ‘Remember, this is experience.’
‘Experience,’ I repeat, proudly. ‘Experience equals confidence. Tough.’
‘Exactly. You’re in control. You’re tough. You’re bulletproof. Now go out there and batter up: make this party your bitch.’
I hang up, delete Adam The Cocksmoking Tick Boxer’s number, square my shoulders, and look Plum in the eye.
‘Batter up!’
‘What does that mean?’ whispers Plum.
‘It means: bring on the next man! We are bulletproof! Say it with me.’
‘Batter up! We are bulletproof,’ she snarls. ‘Fuck, yeah.’
We bump fists in a semi-and-therefore-not-really-ironic way, I stub out my cigarette, and we resume marching towards the Hollywood Arms and the party.
With every step, I imagine myself shaking off the rejection and becoming stronger and tougher. Everything is perfect. I will not end up bitter or miserable or angry or desperate. I will make this party my bitch, in fact, I will make being single my bitch. Experience. Confidence. Bulletproof. Yes.
‘Abigay!’ shouts Henry from the other end of room when we finally get to the Hollywood Arms, a glossily posh pub with a private upstairs room for parties. ‘Pruneface! Finally!’
‘I wish he wouldn’t call me Abigay. It’s really inappropriate,’ I mutter to Plum.
‘You want to complain about Abigay when he calls me Pruneface?’
‘Your real name is Prunella,’ I remind her.
‘Shut it, Abigay,’ she retorts with a dazzling smile.
‘My girls!’ he shouts, enveloping us in a boozy hug. He’s three weets to the shind, as per usual on a match day.
‘Beetchez! Are you two ready for a big night?’ he bellows. ‘I had a nice little Saturday: house hunting all morning and got the shit beaten out of me at rugby. So I’m going to raise the roof.’ He does a little ‘raise the roof’ motion with his hands, causing a few of the boys around him to join in.
The party is well underway. I vaguely recognise some of Henry’s rugby friends. I wish I’d mingled more in the past. I wonder if everyone in relationships becomes socially lazy, or if it was just me.
Come on, social butterfly, unfurl your wings.
‘How was house hunting? Where are you looking?’ says Plum.
‘A ballache. The underbelly of Chiswick,’ he answers.
‘No!’ I gasp. ‘Seriously. Don’t. We would never see you again. Hammersmith is the Hadrian’s wall of West London.’
‘You talk nice,’ grins one of Henry’s drunker rugby friends, Gaz, as Henry orders drinks. Gaz came to a Christmas party that Peter and I had in our second year in London, and threw up in the kitchen at 10 pm. I arch an eyebrow instead of replying.
‘I’ve snogged at least three men in this room and screwed two others,’ says Plum in a low voice. ‘Ah well. Live and learn.’
Henry hands us our drinks.
‘What’s that you’re drinking?’ asks Gaz. He is seriously invading my personal space.
‘Uh, vodka and cranberry,’ I say.
‘Cranberry juice,’ he says, nodding. ‘That’s good for your vagina.’
Plum splutters into her drink, unable to control her laughter. I flash Gaz a please-fuck-off grimace-smile. I am in control. One more drink and I’ll start butterflying.
‘I’ve invited a friend along later,’ he says, swaying slightly. ‘She’s fit. And gagging for it. Once women hit 30, there’s only one thing they want.’
Plum’s smile freezes and I narrow my eyes at him. Fucknuckle. ‘Really?’
‘Marriage. Babies. Ring on the ol’ finger . . . She’s desperate for it.’
Gaz is saved from my heel in his jugular by the arrival of Henry’s brother Rich.
‘Late to your own party!’ shouts Henry, tucking Plum under his arm like a teddy bear. She pushes him off with pretend irritation and tries to fix her hair.
‘Punctuality is an overrated virtue,’ Rich says, accepting a beer from one of the guys. He looks a bit like Henry, only without the puppyness. More of a grown-up dog. And rather attractive, I’ve always thought. ‘Good evening, Plum, Abigail. Looking lovely, as ever.’
‘We thought we’d make an effort,’ I say. ‘Since you’re heading off to deepest darkest China, after all.’
‘Hong Kong isn’t exactly deepest darkest China,’ he says. ‘But I appreciate the thought. How’s single life?’
I think for a second. ‘Surprising.’
Rich grins. ‘I’ve been looking forward to you coming back on the market for years. Never thought Peter was in your league. What a shame I’m leaving.’
‘Tragedy.’ Hell yeah, I am a flirting machine tonight. The phone chat with Robert was a life-saver. Bulletproof. I am bulletproof.
Rich’s attention is taken by one of his ex-work colleagues trying to give him a very unwelcome Jägerbomb, and I look over and see Plum’s now standing at the bar, being ignored by the bartender. She suddenly looks a little bit lost and, to be honest, not bulletproof at all.
I walk over to her. ‘You OK?’
She shrugs. ‘I just got an encouraging text from Thomasina saying: if he wasn’t quite right, he wasn’t Mr Right.’ She sighs, her I’m-in-a-great-mood mask dropping again. ‘Can you believe that shit? I love my work friends, but seriously. I am so glad I have you. Especially now . . .’
‘Now that I’m single and going through the same thing?’ I say, laughing.
‘Well, now that we’re in this together. My mother has even stopped telling me to come home to Yorkshire so she can find me a nice local man. She thinks you’re a good influence . . . I just don’t feel as alone as I used to.’
I’m shocked. I didn’t know Plum ever felt alone.
‘I think we should date more than one guy at once,’ I say flippantly. ‘Spread the risk. Mix the good guys with the bad guys. Like an investment bank.’
‘Isn’t it that kind of thinking that started the global financial meltdown?’ asks Plum.
I shrug. ‘Yeah, you know, churn and burn them . . .’ I pause, and look at her. ‘That’s exactly what we should do!’
‘You’re turning into a bastard commitment-phobe, now?’
‘It seems better than the alternative.’
‘Alright, girls,’ says Henry. ‘I’m going to introduce myself to some chicks.’
‘Don’t call us chicks,’ say Plum and I in unison.
‘Ladies, then,’ he says.
A few hours later, I’m having a brilliant time. Farewell parties can be risky: the mix of school, work and university friends results in either a seriously segregated party, or a free-for-all social orgy where everyone talks to everyone else. This is the latter.
Henry’s in the corner with a girl Plum and I helped him meet, and Plum’s over the other side of the room talking to a couple of guys I don’t know. And I’m talking to Rich again. He’s been discussing the ideal time to send out group emails. His invitation to the farewell party – 2 pm last Thursday – was apparently very carefully thought out.
‘Friday is the best day for group banter,’ he nods. ‘I’m at my funniest on Fridays. Wednesdays you’d have to email me something pretty damn good to get me to respond. And on Mondays and Tuesdays, I don’t want to hear from anyone unless I skipped out on a bar bill or trashed your gaff on the weekend.’
‘Maybe you should write up these guidelines and send them to all your friends,’ I suggest.
‘I know,’ he sighs. ‘But they’d label me, you know. “Pushy”. “Bossy”.’ He holds his hands up in an exaggerated ‘quote mark’ mime.
‘“Anti-social”. “Surly”. “High Maintenance”,’ I continue glibly, then look at his pretend-hurt face with mock surprise. ‘Too far? Did I go too far?’
‘Fuck it, Abigail, why are you single now, when I’m leaving?’ says Rich, leaning back and looking at me.
‘You’ll get over it,’ I say tartly. Bonjour confidence. Churn et burn.
‘Dreadful timing. Dreadful.’
‘By the way,’ I say. ‘Who’s Plum talking to?’ This flirting is good, but Plum’s admission about feeling alone has made me feel protective of her.
‘Dan and Pete. I work with them.’
I look over and see Plum laughing and shaking her head at something one of them is saying. She looks her happy, pretty self. High five, Plum, I think. Bulletproof.
A second later, my sister Sophie and Luke walk in to the party, followed by Robert. Sophie and Luke look worried, and Robert is squinting and tripping over something at the door.
Sophie searches the room and we meet eyes. Something is wrong. Weren’t they supposed to be at someone’s 30th tonight?
‘Excuse me, Rich,’ I say, and hurry over to Sophie. Before I can get there, I’m almost knocked over by a bear hug from Robert.
‘Abbbyyy,’ Robert croons into my ear, and leans back to beam at me. I realise that he’s absolutely hammered. He’s actually cross-eyed. I look at Sophie and Luke in alarm.
‘What the fuck?’
‘He said he had to talk to you about being bulletproof,’ says Luke, sighing. ‘We were just up at The Anglesea Arms, so we thought the walk might sober him up.’
‘It’s been an eventful night,’ adds Sophie quietly. ‘We’ll tell you more later.’
I turn to Robert. He’s staring into space. ‘Are you OK?’
He focuses on me. ‘Oh Abby . . . I want you to know . . . I am so full of shit. You should not listen to me. I know nothing.’ He can barely talk, he’s slurring so badly.
‘Do you want a glass of water?’
‘I’d like a pint of WINE!’ he shouts excitedly. People around us start looking over. It’s only 10.30 pm. ‘What are you looking at, googly?’ Robert points at a guy with glasses. ‘Do you google in your googlies? HA!’ He turns back to us and puts up his hand for a high five.
‘Shut. Up!’ I hiss at him through clenched teeth. I turn to Sophie and Luke. ‘Let’s get him downstairs.’
‘I’m going to talk to Rich,’ nods Sophie. ‘We can’t turn up to his party with a gibbering drunk he doesn’t know and not even say hi.’
‘You’re a hi,’ says Robert, and starts laughing helplessly.
‘OK,’ I say. ‘I’ll get him out of here.’
I turn to Robert. ‘Robert. Robert.’ He turns to me and closes one eye to focus. The other is bloodshot. ‘Let’s go downstairs.’
‘Abby-gail,’ he singsongs, obediently following me out the door. I turn as we leave and see Plum looking over. She’s just talking to the tall guy now, who looks completely besotted by her. I give her a questioning thumbs up and she nods.
‘I’m not ash drunk ash I’m pretending,’ whispers Robert, extremely loudly, stumbling down the stairs to the main bar.
‘Really,’ I say, scanning the room for a spare table. Spying one, I grab Robert, sit him down, and then get a pint of water for him and a glass of wine for me. When I get back, he’s slumped in his chair, blinking groggily.
‘What happened, Robert?’ I say.
‘You never call me Rob,’ he replies, making a valiant attempt to sit up straight. ‘Everyone elsh does. Why?’
‘I don’t think of you as a Rob,’ I say. ‘You’re a Robert.’
‘I am. I am Robert.’ He sighs. ‘Was at another fucking 30th. For Dave. Another fucking groomsman.’
‘Dave, Luke’s groomsman, yes,’ I nod. I’ve never met him.
‘And his sister is the . . . the one I told you about.’
‘Which one?’ I say, confused. Robert never talks about his ladyfriends in any kind of detail.
‘The one. The one from the party. With the train and no shoes.’
‘Dave’s sister is the girl you proposed to?’ I ask. ‘Like, 10 years ago?’
‘Yes. Her. Stupid. Stupid Robert.’
‘Did something happen?’
He sighs, and swings his head to the side and gazes at me. ‘You’re so pretty.’
‘Robert!’ I snap. I’m intrigued. ‘Tell me what happened.’
‘She was there. Louisa.’ He rolls out the name slowly. Looooeeeeeeessaaaaa.
‘Oh, shit,’ I say. ‘But, surely . . .’
‘Surely it was years ago. Surely you’re over it, Robert. Don’t call me Shirley. HA!’ Robert laughs and slaps his knee.
‘How’s it going?’ says a voice, and I look up. It’s Luke.
I stand up and, with my back to Robert, ask quietly: ‘What happened with Louisa?’
‘He told you about her?’ says Luke in surprise. ‘God, she’s an evil bitch. We saw her, she’s with her husband, everyone was very civil, then Rob drank straight whisky for two hours.’
‘That’s such a bad idea,’ I shudder at the thought.
Luke nods. ‘So was Louisa.’
‘He told me about proposing to her,’ I say as quietly as I can, so Robert won’t hear.
‘Which time?’ replies Luke with a wry smile.
‘It happened more than once?’
Luke nods.
‘What are we whishpering about?’ says Robert, who has hopped up out of his chair and is propping his chin over my shoulder unsteadily.
‘Whisky,’ I say. ‘You are one messy drunk.’
‘I’m not,’ he says indignantly, and belches pungently. ‘Oops. Damn wine.’
I look down and see that he’s just drunk my entire glass of white wine.
‘Nice move, hotshot. That was mine. The water is yours.’
Robert sighs, hiccups and assumes a hangdog expression. ‘I’m sawry . . .’
Luke and I exchange glances as Sophie comes up.
‘How’s it going down here?’
‘Disastrous,’ I say.
‘Soph-AY!’ exclaims Robert delightedly. He pushes past Luke and I to hug her, but loses his balance and tackles her to the floor, knocking over a table and chair on the way. The noise is almighty. Everyone in the pub immediately falls silent and looks over.
‘Ow,’ says Sophie, blushing scarlet as she gets up, trying to look extremely sober and disapproving so everyone knows she’s not the drunk idiot in this situation.
Robert is lying groggily on the floor, looking mildly confused. He is clearly the drunk idiot in this situation.
‘We have to get him out of here,’ I say to Luke and Sophie, looking over at the bartenders who are talking amongst themselves. ‘We are two seconds away from being kicked out.’
‘Agreed,’ says Luke, and leans over to hoist Robert up. The three of us drag/support him out of the bar and into the cool night air. God, he’s heavy. I immediately light a stressed cigarette.
‘Oh! Yes. Cigarette for Robert,’ says Robert, pushing us off him and trying to walk alone.
‘No,’ I say. God, drunk people are annoying. ‘We’re taking you home and putting you to bed.’
‘Naughty!’ exclaims Robert, and promptly falls over again.
By the time we find a black cab willing to take us home, it’s past 11 pm. I text Plum on the way, saying an emergency came up and I had to leave. We carry a nearly-asleep Robert to bed (‘On his side!’ I say. ‘He might choke on his own vomit.’ ‘He’s not Jim Morrison,’ replies Sophie. ‘I thought it was the lead singer from AC/DC?’ I say. ‘It was Jimi Hendrix, but is this important right now?’ says Luke) and then we retire to the living room.
‘What a car crash,’ I comment, opening a bottle of wine and getting out three glasses. I haven’t heard from Plum yet, but I think I should probably go back to the party.
‘You should have seen him when it happened,’ says Luke. ‘Poor bastard. She annihilated him.’
‘I can’t imagine it,’ say Sophie and I in unison.
‘Tell me the whole story,’ I say.
‘Ah, look, Robert will tell you himself one day,’ says Luke uneasily.
‘God! I hate the way you won’t gossip,’ says Sophie despairingly.
‘Sorry, darling,’ says Luke, grinning at her. She smiles hopefully back, and he relents. ‘The short version is: Rob and Dave and I were friends at school. Our dads all went to university together, and we all used to go on holiday in the same village in France and have BBQs together every night, that sort of thing. And Rob always had a thing for Louisa, who is Dave’s big sister . . . With me so far?’
Sophie and I nod.
‘Then they finally got together when we were about 22. It was pretty serious, he proposed when he was hammered, then came down the following weekend and proposed properly. With a ring and everything. She said no and broke up with him,’ – Sophie and I gasp – ‘and he ploughed his study and came down to work in the City instead – I think just to be closer to her . . . and then she continued to string him along. For years, she turned to him whenever she broke up with someone. He moved to Boston to study, to get away from her, but still, he’d fly back whenever she asked.’
‘Bitch,’ say Sophie and I in unison.
‘I know,’ says Luke. Like most men, Luke’s very good at gossiping, despite pretending to hate it. ‘And when he was 26, they began seeing each other properly again, and after six months, he proposed. Again.’
‘No!’ hiss Sophie and I in unison again.
‘Yep. And she said no. Turned out she’d been cheating on him the whole time. With the guy who is now her husband. It wasn’t a car crash. Rob was roadkill.’
‘NO!’ we shout.
‘Poor darling Rob . . .’ says Sophie sadly. ‘No wonder he’s so allergic to commitment now.’
‘Wowsers,’ I say. ‘That’s so awful.’
‘Oh, God, pity is the last thing he wants,’ says Luke, groaning. ‘I should never have said anything. He’s a very private guy.’
‘I’ll never say a thing,’ I say.
‘Me either,’ says Sophie. ‘Cross my heart.’
She makes a very serious cross-my-heart sign, and then a zipping-her-mouth-and-throwing-away-the-key gesture.
My phone beeps. It’s a text from Plum.
Where are you??? We’re going to Chloe . . . I need you! Get the fuck back here x
‘Can I be bothered to go all the way back down to South Ken?’ I ask.
‘No way,’ says Sophie.
A second text. From Henry.
Abigay. Please come back. I need you to help me be bulletproof too.
They’re in league. I sigh and look up at the guys. ‘My public needs me. I must venture forth once more. It’s only 20 minutes. Will you come?’
‘I’ll call a cab,’ says Luke. ‘We’ll drop you on the way home.’
