Читать книгу The Hero's Redemption - Janice Johnson Kay - Страница 13
ОглавлениеALREADY SEATED AT the small table, Cole realized that standing up and walking out wasn’t an option.
A huge, crockery bowl held the pot roast with potatoes, carrots and other vegetables. Now, Erin set butter and the basket of fresh-baked biscuits on the table, sighed and sank down in her chair. “This does smell good.”
“Will you actually eat any of it?” His question was probably rude, but also genuine. She nibbled. She didn’t eat.
Erin made a rueful face. “Yes. It just...doesn’t always seem to be worth the effort. You know?” She took a biscuit and handed him the basket. “Help yourself.”
She’d set out generous-sized bowls as well as small plates for the biscuits. He dished up a hefty serving for himself and watched as she took less. It seemed to be a reasonable amount, considering she must weigh half of what he did.
“This is nice of you,” he said finally, long-ago lessons taught by his mother rising from the depths.
Erin seemed to concentrate on the food in front of her. “It’s okay if you don’t want to eat here. I kind of put you on the spot today. I just...” She shrugged. “I get lonely, I guess. I thought you might, too. Sometimes I look out the window and see the light above the garage and think it’s silly that we’re making separate meals.”
Get lonely? She had no idea. Having her right in front of him made things worse, increasing his sense of aloneness. It would be hell, being conscious of her every shifting expression, every breath she drew, the tinge of color in her cheeks and the fragility of her too-slender body—when his history felt like an invisible force field that would scald his hand if he tried to reach across it.
After a pause, he said, “Most people are afraid of me. Even when they don’t know I’m an ex-con, they watch me when I go by as if they expect me to attack.”
Exasperation flashed in her eyes when they met his. “That’s ridiculous. I’ve never been afraid of you.”
He wasn’t sure he wanted to hear the answer, but he had to ask. “Why?”
She blinked a couple of times, as if he’d taken her aback. “I don’t know,” she said finally. Her forehead puckered. “I’m not afraid of much. Or maybe anything.” She talked slowly. “I think...that instinct has been burned out of me. But I wouldn’t have been afraid of you, anyway. Somebody with bad intentions wouldn’t have reminded me that he’d just gotten out of prison. Besides, you don’t have that look.”
He ignored the last bit. She didn’t know what she was talking about. The only way to survive in the pen was to respond to challenges with quick, vicious strikes. That “do unto others” saying? In there, you did unto others what you feared they’d do unto you.
What really caught his attention was the middle part of her speech.
“Burned out of you?”
She shook her head, as if shedding water. “It doesn’t matter. We all have quirks.”
True, but an unwillingness to protect yourself? That had to be unnatural.
“What you did for Mr. Zatloka was nice,” she said.
“Mr....? Oh. The neighbor.” He filed away the name. “He looked like he’d have a heart attack by the time he was done, or just topple over.”
Erin laughed. “I had the same thought. But I knew if I offered to help, his male ego would be bruised.”
Cole smiled. “Probably.”
Damn, this meal was good. The meat all but melted in his mouth, as did the biscuits. He reached for another one.
Erin hadn’t put a lot away, but she was eating at least. “Have some more,” she said, nudging the bowl toward him.
“Did you grow up here?” he asked.
“No, but my dad did. It’s funny thinking of him living here as a little boy.”
“Where are your parents?” Apparently, he hadn’t entirely forgotten how to make conversation.
“Dead. Breast cancer for Mom six years ago, small-plane crash for Dad a couple of years later. He was taking lessons, and there was a mechanical failure.” Clearly, she didn’t want to expand. But she did raise her eyebrows. “What about your parents?”
“My mother died when I was ten.” One of his worst memories, despite everything that came after. “Sudden, splitting headache. Aneurysm, as it turned out.”
“Can’t those be familial?” She sounded worried.
“That’s what the doctor said. My sister and I were tested, but we didn’t have whatever weakness they were looking for.”
Erin nodded. “Your dad?”
“He’s alive.”
He split and buttered a biscuit, hoping she got the message. No more questions.
“And...your sister?”
“Dani. We stay in touch.” He hesitated. “Her husband isn’t so sure about me.”
“Oh.” She squished a potato with her fork. “I’m sorry.”
Cole searched for something to say. “The house looks good.”
Appearing grateful for the rescue, Erin said, “I wish Nanna could see it.” Another crinkle of her nose. “Except I don’t think it’s ever been painted any color but white. Maybe she’s rolling over in her grave.”
“I doubt it. She wouldn’t have left it to you if she didn’t love you. And the trim color reminds me of your hair.”
“My hair?” She gaped at him.
A little panicked, he said what he was thinking, anyway. “It’s sort of...peach-colored. With gold and a red that’s more of a russet.”
She kept gaping. Feeling heat in his cheeks, Cole couldn’t meet her eyes. Way to let her know how much time he’d spent studying her to come up with a description like that!
Yeah, and so poetic.
“I... Um, thank you?” When he failed to respond, she said, “So the house and I are coordinated?”
“Yeah.” Hoarse again. “Something like that.”
Both ate in silence for a few minutes.
“Where’d you grow up?” she asked at length.
“Seattle. You?”
“Salem, Oregon. Dad taught at Willamette University. Physics, of all things. I never liked any of the science classes I had to take. Mom illustrated children’s books.” She smiled, her eyes momentarily losing focus. “I have copies of the books she illustrated in a box somewhere.” With a one-shoulder shrug, she returned to the here and now. “I didn’t inherit any artistic ability whatsoever. Or musical. Dad played the piano. I took lessons for six very long years before Mom and Dad gave up.”
“I played the guitar.” He didn’t know why he was telling her this, but his dreams of rock stardom were another good memory, along with playing football. “Had a band. A friend’s mother let us practice in their basement. We played at some parties, got a few gigs at small clubs around Seattle, but I don’t think we’d have made it even locally in the music scene. After we graduated from high school, two of us stuck with it for another year, bringing in replacement band members, but it wasn’t as much fun.”
Amusement lit her face. “Did you sing?”
“Howled, more like.”
She had a rich, full laugh. “Did you prance around the stage?”
“God forbid. I sulked and brooded and let my hair hang over my face.”
“You do brooding well.”
“What?”
“You do.” Studying him, she said, “That wasn’t an insult.”
“I’m quiet. I don’t brood.” Yeah, he did.
“Okay, you just look like you’re thinking deep, dark, dangerous thoughts.”
Exasperated, he gave up.
He both wanted and didn’t want to ask what else she had for him to do once they’d finished painting the house. Originally, she’d talked about having him take care of the overgrown yard, but he could level it in a day with a weed whacker. Then what?
Apprehension sat heavy in him, as if he’d eaten too much. He stared down at what was left in his bowl.
“I could start working on the apartment in the evenings,” he said.
She frowned. “You shouldn’t have to work twelve-hour days.”
“I can get a lot done in an hour or two.”
“Well...” Erin set down her fork. “I don’t know. What should come first?”
“The outside stairs. Although once I start, I’ll have to work straight through.”
“I should’ve realized they were rotten, too.”
He nodded. “Not sure I’d want to haul something heavy like a new shower stall or bathroom cabinet up those stairs right now.”
“Okay. When we’re done with the paint job, I’ll buy the lumber for you to do that next. And I’ll pay you.” She narrowed her eyes at him until he closed his mouth, ending his protest. “That’s not the apartment. It’s part of the garage, and a safety issue.”
