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Twenty-Eight Cures

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They’d been too late. Aconite has no known antidote, and chances were non-existent that anyone could have survived such a massive dose. Thom’s arrest for the murder of his mother was almost secondary to the shock that a twelve-year-old boy had poisoned his father and then got away with it for twenty years. He might find sympathy with a jury on the plea that his mother had encouraged him to kill his father, turning his young mind against him, but he would have a hard time getting out of the charge of murdering Lucille Killingworth two decades later. The fate of Daniella Ballancourt remained undecided, though Thom stuck to the story that he was innocent of any wrongdoing in connection with her death, and Dr. Bill McFarland, more than a good friend, stood firmly by his man in vouching for him. Dan was quietly surprised by Bill’s steadfastness.

He wondered briefly about Lucille Killingworth’s request for his help back in the fall. Had it merely been a ploy to find out about Daniella’s pregnancy, so she could truthfully say that he, Dan, had told them, if asked? A woman knows these things. She’d probably just wanted to be sure, in case the investigation turned up anything. Thom probably hadn’t known till Dan came by that afternoon. In a way, Dan felt sorry for him. What chance had he had with a mother like that? Then again, he’d had a good father. A very good father, who had loved him beyond all knowing. On some level, even the boy Thom must have known that. Shaken by what he’d done, the twelve-year-old had tried to destroy all remnants of his father’s memory, beginning with his horses, before retreating into a life of showy but mostly superficial physical accomplishments.

The pre-trial publicity kept the presses raging for a few weeks before other matters began to turn the tide of interest. All in all, the length of his sentence wouldn’t matter much to Dan one way or another.

Dan was backing out of his driveway when he heard the tear of metal against metal. He jammed on the brakes, got out of his car and looked back to see a ten-inch gouge running across his rear door. His neighbour’s car, unapologetically parked with a foot of overhang on his drive, hidden by the drifts, stood in the thin wintry sunlight.

Glenda came out of her house wearing an annoyed look. “That’s gonna cost you!” She ran over and saw that her own vehicle had sustained no damage. She turned meekly to Dan who stood glaring. She seemed to wilt.

“Sorry — I guess I was careless.…”

“How many times have I asked you to park your car so it doesn’t block my driveway?”

“Don’t worry, these things happen.” Suddenly, she was all charm. “I’m having a party tonight. You wanna drop by?”

“You’re trying to buy me off with a party invitation?” Dan demanded, more amused than insulted by her colossal lack of respect and consideration.

“There are going to be a couple of gay guys from my work. I’m sure they’d love to meet you.”

I’m not falling for this girly-girl routine, Dan thought. It may have worked on Steve and probably every other straight man you’ve ever flirted with, but it doesn’t work on me. That’s at least one advantage gay men still hold over straight men.

“It’s a theme party,” Glenda went on, ignoring his glare. “It’s a come-as-someone-you-hate party. It’ll be fun.”

“Sounds like a riot,” Dan snapped, stepping back in his car. “Can I come as you?”

He left his damaged vehicle on the street and buzzed himself up to Donny’s condo. Donny stood just inside the door, grinning from ear to ear. He looked, Dan thought, suspiciously like a proud parent.

“Guess what Lester said when I asked what he wanted to be when he grew up.”

“No idea. I hope he didn’t say a machine or a porn star.”

“Neither of the above. Cut the kid some slack.” Donny gave Dan a withering look he saved for those few times when he wanted to annihilate with a glance.

“So, are you going to tell me or what?”

“He said — and I quote — ‘When I grow up I want to be Miles Fucking Davis.’” Donny was grinning. “Is that unbelievable or what?”

“That he wants to be Miles Davis?”

Donny nodded.

“Well, I guess a jazz superstar crackhead is better than just a crackhead.”

“Oh, fuck you, Snow White.”

Dan grinned. “So, is he good?”

“What — on the horn? I don’t know.”

“What do you mean you don’t know? Did you let him play a few licks?”

“Of course. I let him lean on my horn — after I dusted it off a bit.”

“And?”

Donny was evasive. “I don’t know.”

“What do you mean you don’t know? You know what good horn playing is. Either he was good or he wasn’t.”

“Well … I guess he wasn’t too good. But! Even Miles must have wondered what he was going to make of that piece of metal the first time he pressed it to his lips. I mean, can you imagine what Miles Davis was thinking as he raised a horn to his lips for the very first time?”

“An historic moment.” Dan waited a beat. “So, dare we hope that Angela Davis will inspire you to become a surrogate father to a needy boy with musical talent just waiting to be developed?”

Donny toed the edge of a counter. “That’s the question, isn’t it? I mean, we can’t just send him back to his parents. That would be … like a life sentence. Wouldn’t it?”

Dan nodded, waiting.

“And I guess I’ve kind of gotten used to having him around.”

“So…?”

Donny shrugged. “So, I guess … whatever.”

“Whatever? Just like that?” Dan said.

“Do you want me to say I’ll think about it?”

“Definitely not.”

Ked had been home a week. He was still on edge over Ephraim’s death, though the last few days had seen him returning to his old self. But he was changed, Dan knew. Older, sadder. Death had whispered in his ear then driven the knife blade in a little, under the skin. The experience would leave him marked, but not, Dan hoped, permanently damaged. Maybe it was too soon to be doing this. He went upstairs and knocked on his son’s door.

“Come in, Dad!”

Dan pushed the door open with his foot, avoiding the maze of clothes and school reports sliding over the carpet. Ked removed his earphones, his head still swaying to whatever unheard pulse he’d just been connected to.

“I need to speak with you about something,” Dan said, hoping his timing wasn’t completely off. “I’m thinking about going away for a while.”

Ked just sat there. This wasn’t going to be easy. “I’m thinking of going back to B.C. For a couple of weeks — maybe a little longer.”

“Uh-huh.”

“I know it’s been a difficult time for you, and I don’t want to do anything to upset you.” Memories of promising Ked never to desert him clouded his mind; was that what he was doing? He retreated. This was all wrong. “But anyway, it can probably wait.…”

Ked’s voice intruded. “What’s in B.C.?”

“Oh. Well. I was … I mean, there’s someone I met there I like a lot. I want to get to know him better. But of course my home is here — with you.” Dan watched closely, trying to read that inscrutable teenage face that seemed to follow him with X-ray vision, as though his son knew his deepest secrets.

“That’s cool.”

“What’s cool?”

“That you want to go to B.C. Especially if there’s someone you like.” Ked cocked his head. “Is he nice?”

Dan nodded. “Yes. He is. Thanks for asking.”

“Just checking up on you.”

“And anyway, it’s just a thought. I mean, I might not go —”

Ked fixed him with a stare. “Dad, I just want you to be happy. Have you ever been happy in your entire life?”

“What?” Dan looked intently at his son. “Of course I’ve been happy.” He stopped and thought about it. “Maybe not for a while, but I will be again.”

Ked sat watching him. “What makes you happy?”

“Did your Uncle Donny tell you to ask me this?” Dan said, suspicion clouding his mind.

“No.”

“Okay. Well, you make me happy, for one.”

“What else?”

Dan thought it over. Not much came to mind. Could he add Trevor to the list? What was he expecting of Trevor anyway? Salvation? Love everlasting? Supernatural sex? What happened when the sex slowed and the boredom quickened? When the perfect life became perfectly boring? The picture clouded. What would he do about the weight gain from not dancing or working out every other day and one too many hot chocolates before the fire? Or just from not having enough to get up and get done in the morning. These were precisely the kinds of things that destroyed relationships. And would Trevor still respect him no matter what tricks Dan came up with to booby-trap their rose-strewn path ahead? He was only now becoming aware of all the ways he sabotaged his own best intentions. Did he, Dan, even have what it took to make a go of things without fucking up, throwing up his hands, and moving on?

He smiled. Listen to me, he thought. I’ve already moved in with him in my mind and we’re having our first fight, all without him even being there. Who says I’m not complex?

“I don’t know what else at this moment. It’s hard to say right now. It’s been a rough year for me too.” He shrugged and tried to cover his seriousness.

Ked watched him. “So just me? One thing?”

Dan nodded.

“Is that enough?”

“What do you mean?”

Ked looked around. “I mean … well, I’m happy living here with you, but Ralph makes me happy and I like playing basketball, and Mom makes me happy, and Uncle Donny too. There’s lots of things that make me happy —”

“And you think I need to have lots of things too?”

“Maybe you just need a few more.”

Dan watched his son watching him.

“I know you hate Toronto.…”

“It doesn’t mean I want to leave.”

“I’ll be fine if you do.”

Dan stared at him.

“Dad — I’m almost done high school. I just have a few years left, and then I’ll be going to university somewhere.”

Dan was shocked to realize it was as close in time as that. He tried not to let the surprise sound in his voice. “Where will you go?”

Ked made a face. “I don’t know. Geez! I haven’t even started to apply. The one I want to go to most is in B.C., though, so if you moved there —”

“Who said anything about moving?”

“No one.” Ked shrugged.

“Good, because I’m just going for a trip.” And to try to talk someone into coming back with me, Dan thought. Maybe his son was right. Didn’t he deserve a happy ending? Still, he couldn’t abandon Ked. Couldn’t, wouldn’t — it was all the same. For some things, there were no second chances. “I’m going, but I’ll be back. Don’t even think of trying to get out of doing the housework.”

He would not leave for now, though Ked was right — one day, he would. That didn’t mean Dan was stuck here till he died, however. Vancouver was only five hours away, and Air Canada had non-stop flights every day of the week. What more could you ask?

“Anyway,” Ked continued, “if I go to school in B.C., I might see you hanging out there.”

Dan snorted. “Hanging out? Is that what you think you’ll be doing in university?”

“Dad! Relax, would you?”

“I’m relaxed!”

“Yeah?” Ked eyed his father. “Okay, then. Let’s see you.”

Dan knew this would be hard to do without a drink, but he was only two months into his promise to Ked and he wasn’t going to break it. Six months wasn’t that long — not when you really thought about it. He felt himself dialling the number before he’d consciously made the decision.

Trevor answered. “Don’t tell me — you’re on a ferry that’s just pulling into harbour.”

“No, not this time.”

“Good. Because the place is a mess and I’d hate to think you were coming out here just to cheer me up. You don’t have some scheme to come and save me from loneliness or something, do you? I don’t need to be saved.”

“Not at all,” Dan said. “But I’ve been thinking a lot about how that gong sounded in the Japanese garden and how dark it gets there at night.”

“Does that mean you’re coming for another visit?”

“I’d like to.” Dan faltered. Words were failing him. “I’ve been thinking that my mind needs a break … before I start to hate everything here again. And it so happens there’s a seat sale on right now.”

“Fantastic!” Trevor jumped on it. “But I’m not pressuring you. I’d love to see you. Any time — I told you that. I’ve got the cure for whatever ails you.”

“Just so you know, I haven’t had a drink in two months, so I’m a total basket case, but a committed one.”

He was wrapping a box with a miniature Pride flag rolled up inside and a note that said, “I hope that’s enough colour for you.” Before he left, he’d drop it off at the office with a thank you note for Sally.

“I’m not selling the house or committing myself to anything … well, apart from spending the night with a cup of hot chocolate in front of your fireplace now and again. Preferably with lots of marshmallows.”

“You’re travelling 4,300 kilometres to have a cup of hot chocolate?”

“With you. A cup of hot chocolate with you. Any problem with that?”

Trevor laughed. “None whatsoever.”

“Fine. Then wish me luck —”

“Good luck.”

“— and I’ll see you soon. Can I bring you anything?”

“Yeah. Bring your tool belt. You can read into that whatever you like.”

Downstairs Ralph sat looking at him. “What do you want?” Dan asked, opening his arms wide. The dog leapt to the door and waited while Dan put the leash on him. Outside he trotted briskly along without pulling. He seemed to know where he wanted to go, as though he’d sniffed the wind, and it had told him something.

How do you gauge what lies ahead? How do you choose?

Sometimes, Craig Killingworth had written in his diary, I think the only things that matter are the choices we make, for better or worse, for right or wrong. He had chosen the love of his sons and walked into the open arms of death. As sad and unfair as it was, nothing could change that. Craig Killingworth had let duty — an all-consuming duty of fatherhood coupled with a love for his sons — kill him. He’d tried to escape his fate and walked right into it. And here, twenty years later, Dan Sharp walked his dog across a bridge in one of the world’s largest metropolises, contemplating his future. His own choices. He, at least, could still make them. And they would be as wrong or as right as could be. There was no telling until he made them.

The man and dog passed over the Don Valley Bridge. Snow fell lightly. Below, a flow of red taillights winked and twitched its way up the constipated fracture that divided the city. A river of flame that would be cold as ash tomorrow. A river of escapees. Those who couldn’t take the city any more — this place that was supposed to be friendly and safe, a haven for like-minded souls who wanted to live together in peace and harmony — were slowly making their way to a new land, leaving behind the tyranny of mob rule. Somehow in the course of the last century, as the city became a garbage bin for the tortured and angst-ridden, the uncaring and soulless, the promise had all gone wrong.

Dan heard voices and turned to watch three kids cutting across to his left, sharing some childhood joke. There were two boys, one black and one white, running alongside an Asian girl, laughing as they went. Citizens of the new century. The very essence of diversity.

Well, maybe not all wrong, then. Somewhere there was hope.

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