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Chapter 5

It takes nearly an hour to drive from Grantham to Brighton, where the Boston Archdiocese was then headquartered. Art traveled west on Commonwealth Avenue, the road climbing and dipping through the suburbs of Brookline and Allston. What was he thinking as he drove? He told me later that he’d had no idea why he’d been summoned, which seems incredible. For months the entire city had been reading about the scandal, priests from all over the Archdiocese accused, reprimanded, exposed.

“Okay, I had an idea,” he admitted when I pressed him. “But my idea was completely wrong.”

To make sense of this, I’ve had to think about what it was like to be a priest in Boston that spring, when anyone in a collar was suspect. “Maybe we were paranoid,” Father Fleury told me later, “but it seemed that the whole world suddenly looked at us sideways.” One after another reputations were destroyed, careers ended, lives ruined. Among the first to fall was the Street Priest who’d walked the Combat Zone: at his apartment on Beacon Street, he’d apparently offered more than a weekly Mass. Amazingly, no one suspected it at the time. No one gave a thought to those lost children sitting cross-legged on his floor, the Street Priest looking down on them from a great height as they received the Eucharist from his hands.

To Art, one allegation was even more shocking. Ray Cousins, his old cellmate, had been accused of molesting a boy. Ray was a gentle soul—“the last guy you’d ever suspect”—but the Archdiocese was making an example of him. The Cardinal had been widely vilified for covering up such allegations, so now he made a great show—just for appearances, Art insisted, pro forma tantum—of taking every accusation seriously. Anyone who’d ever known Ray was being interrogated. Naturally Art’s name would be on the list.

So as my brother drove the final hill into Brighton, it was Ray Cousins he considered: could it possibly be true?

At the bottom of the hill he slammed on the brakes. Comm Ave. was clogged with traffic, vans and trucks parked on both sides of the road, some with engines idling, satellite dishes attached to their roofs. Well, of course: nearly every night the local news featured a dispatch from Lake Street, the Cardinal’s response—or usually, his silence—at each new allegation of abuse. For these segments the Chancery was always the backdrop, a reporter standing before the building as though at any minute His Eminence might emerge.

Art drove past the news vans and took the long way around, through the back entrance. He parked behind the Chancery, where Church business was conducted. After the death of the great O’Connell, his successor—my mother’s hero, Cardinal Cushing—had made this addition to the campus. The Chancery is a square brick bunker, of a utilitarian ugliness so incongruous that it seems intentional, as though Cushing—a local boy, a famous populist—had been making a point.

As promised, Art’s official escort was waiting at the rear door. Gary Moriconi stood with his back to the building—coatless, smoking, his cassock flapping in the wind. “Of all people,” Art fumed to me later. I have since met Father Gary, a short, stocky man with a barrel chest and a memorable voice, nasal and high-pitched, that doesn’t match his body. He was Art’s age, fifty-one, yet his dark hair was suspiciously free of gray.

The two greeted each other with a wariness that went back many years. At seminary they’d been classmates, but not friends. Art saw at a glance that Gary knew exactly why he’d been summoned, which was not surprising. He had always been privy to secrets.

“They’re waiting for you,” Gary said archly. He took a final drag and butted his cigarette—a large ash can had been placed at the door for this purpose. But instead of leading Art into the Chancery, he turned and started up the hill.

“I didn’t understand, at first, where we were going,” Art explained to me later. But as he followed Gary up the wet footpath, the grass soaking his wingtips, it dawned on him that he would be seeing the Cardinal at home—in the mansion referred to, with audible capitals, as The Residence.

He was alarmed then, but only for a moment—because as they climbed the hill, he saw that the change of venue had nothing to do with him. The Cardinal couldn’t take any meeting in the Chancery. On the sidewalk below, a crowd had gathered: men and women milling about, drinking coffee, talking on cell phones. His Eminence wanted to avoid the long unprotected walk across the lawn, in full view of the TV cameras. “The perp walk,” Art told me later, with a wincing smile.

Vigor in Arduis.

“Vultures,” said Gary. “They’re here every day.”

They entered The Residence through a porte cochere and headed down a long passageway, their wet shoes squeaking on the marble floors.

“I’ve never been inside before,” Art admitted.

“Never?” Gary sounded incredulous. “It’s a pity you couldn’t see it in nicer weather. In summer the gardens are spectacular.”

“So I’ve heard.” Art knew—everyone did—about the Cardinal’s annual Garden Party, where his favorite priests mingled with politicians and millionaires, the benefactors of Catholic Boston. Of course Gary Moriconi would be invited. It was just the sort of gathering he’d enjoy.

“Down the hall is the chapel, where they film the TV Mass on Sundays. Upstairs are meeting rooms and the Cardinal’s quarters.” Gary seemed to enjoy playing tour guide. Certainly he knew his subject. He’d spent twenty-five years, his entire career, crisscrossing these grassy lawns. After ordination he’d stayed on at St. John’s, in an administrative post created especially for him. He’d remained an amanuensis to the powerful, an eager mouthpiece.

“Have a seat.” Upholstered settees had been placed here and there against the walls. “I’ll let them know you’re here.”

He continued down the corridor and knocked lightly at a closed door. Alone, Art paced the long hallway. On both walls, hung at ten-foot intervals, were portraits of the current Cardinal. Some were skillful; others might have been made by children. One in particular caught Art’s eye: His Eminence as a young priest, rendered in oils. It reminded him of an old colorized photograph, the young man with a high flush in his cheeks, as though they’d been smeared with rouge.

A moment later Gary reappeared. “This way.” He led Art into a large anteroom with more couches, backed against the walls as if to clear the floor for dancing. The thin gray carpeting could have used a cleaning. The walls were bare. The Residence, impressive as it was, lacked a single piece of art that did not depict the Cardinal. There was not even a nice reproduction of a Giotto. Art sat, watching a set of double doors.

In a moment the doors opened. “Arthur.” Bishop John Gilman, the Vicar General, crossed the floor briskly, a small, spry man in a black suit. He gave Art’s hand a cursory shake. The gold pectoral cross was hidden in his jacket pocket. Only its chain was visible, looped across his black rabat.

“Come in, come in. His Eminence has another appointment at noon.”

Art followed him into an inner office, a high, shadowy room crowded with furniture. The Cardinal sat at a hulking wooden desk, his back to a window. His face was familiar as a relative’s: the shock of silver hair, the meaty jowls. His hooded eyes were furtive and intelligent, his heavy brows like eaves covered with snow.

He rose—a big man, hunched and imposing in his black cassock—and took Art’s hand in both of his. It was a trademark of sorts, like the cassock’s red piping and matching buttons: the Cardinal’s famous two-handed shake.

“Arthur, thank you for coming,” he said, as though they were old friends. As though, in the Cardinal’s eighteen years in Boston, they had ever exchanged a word.

Art followed him to a round table at the other end of the room. The Cardinal sat heavily. On the table was a single sheet of paper. He laid his hand upon it, as if to show off his massive gold ring.

“This arrived in yesterday’s mail.”

From across the table Art peered at the document, a letter on law firm stationery. The text was brief, nearly covered by the Cardinal’s hand.

The whole ordeal lasted fifteen minutes. After the initial revelation Bishop Gilman took over. His cheeks, Art noticed, were flushed; a patch of psoriasis bloomed beneath one ear. This made him look agitated, in the throes of some high anguish, yet his tone was matter-of-fact. Calmly he explained the particulars: Art would be placed on leave but would continue to receive his salary; would be covered, as always, by the Archdiocese’s health insurance. He was to vacate Church premises immediately, Gilman said with emphasis. That was the most important thing.

“Where do I go?” Art asked.

The bishop took a business card from his chest pocket. On the back of it he wrote an address. “We took the liberty of renting you an apartment. Temporarily, of course. Until we get this straightened out.”

In the end they told him nothing: not the name of the accuser; not even what he was supposed to have done. Art had asked both questions immediately; both times Gilman looked expectantly at the Cardinal, who silently bowed his head.

“You’ll be served with papers,” Gilman said briskly. “I imagine they’ll go to the rectory. Take care of that today, if you can. Have your mail forwarded to the new address.”

Art stared across the room at the man’s empty desk, behind it an idyllic view of trees and lilac bushes and rolling lawn. How strange that His Eminence worked with his back to the window, as if he had no interest in the world beyond him. It was more than strange—it was somehow not quite human—that he preferred looking in.

“What about the parishioners?” Art asked. “It’s Easter, for God’s sake. What on earth do I say to them?”

“Nothing,” said Gilman. “I’m serious, Arthur: you don’t say a word to anybody. You leave that to us.”

“And this afternoon? I’m supposed to do the Passion at two.”

“No worries. We’ll send a substitute,” Gilman said.

At that moment His Eminence got to his feet. Bishop Gilman did the same, and Art understood that the interview had ended. He took a final look around the room, the walls hung with more portraits of the Cardinal.

Again His Eminence clasped Art’s hand.

ART DROVE away from Lake Street, past the news vans on Commonwealth Avenue. His dusty gray Honda attracted no attention. For the moment anyway, he was alone with his shame.

Mindlessly, mechanically, he drove to Dover Court, a bank of brick buildings opposite the highway—the sort of apartment complex that, if you live in a North American city or suburb, you pass every day without noticing. The grounds were landscaped, the curving driveway studded with speed bumps. The property was larger than it appeared from the road—four identical structures, each three stories high, wide and deep enough to house dozens of apartments. The one closest to the road was hung with a bright green banner: NOW RENTING, SHORT OR LONG-TERM LEASE.

He parked behind a small outbuilding marked OFFICE. Inside, a young Indian woman sat behind a desk. Her hair was long enough to sit on. She wore thick glasses and a colorful blouse.

“Hello,” said Art. “I think you have some keys for me.”

“Oh, yes. Mr. Breen.”

He blinked, startled by the Mister. The Roman collar was a symbol everyone recognized: Sikh cab drivers, Muslim women in headscarves. But the morning was cold and damp; he wore a trench coat over his clericals, a plaid muffler at his throat.

She reached into the desk drawer and handed him a bright green envelope, labeled Welcome. “You’re in the A building, the first on your left. The smaller key is for the mailbox. I left a copy of your lease there.” Her voice was low and soothing, with a musical lilt.

Art took the envelope. Outside a brisk wind had started. Rain blew across the parking lot in sheets. He crossed to the A building. The front door was propped open, the lobby piled with cardboard boxes marked BEDROOM, STUDY, KITCHEN. He spotted a hive of mailboxes and turned his key in the one marked 310. Inside was another green envelope.

As he stood waiting for the elevator, a man came through the door carrying another box. A young guy, big and red-haired, in a Boston College sweatshirt.

“Jesus,” he breathed, setting down the box. “I picked a great day to move.” He eyed the green envelope in Art’s hand. “You too?”

Art nodded.

The man offered his hand. “I guess we’re neighbors. Chuck Farrell.”

“Art Breen. Let me give you a hand.”

The elevator doors opened. Together they piled the boxes inside.

“That’s it, I guess,” said Chuck. “I don’t have much. I got kicked out of my house,” he said out the side of his mouth, like a comedian telling a secret.

“Me too,” said Art.

Chuck grinned sheepishly. “Lot of that going on. They call this place Divorce Court.” Again he offered his hand. “Thanks, man. I’ll see you around.”

“Good luck to you,” said Art, heading for the stairs.

Apartment 310 was on the third floor, halfway down a long hallway. The corridor was very dark, the carpet and wallpaper navy blue. Art turned his key in the lock.

He stepped into a large, empty living room. The blinds were closed, the carpet and walls an identical shade of beige.

He tore open the envelope in his hands. A sheaf of stapled papers, legal sized. Stuck to the top sheet was a yellow Post-it note, inscribed with feminine cursive, the sort of round, buoyant letters the nuns had deplored.

Rent paid through Oct. 1.

Six months? Art thought.

It was the first clue he’d been given about his future.

THAT AFTERNOON, desperate to escape the empty apartment, he drove around aimlessly. By habit or instinct he found himself in Grantham. To his relief, Ma’s Escort was gone from the carport. Well, of course: on Good Friday she’d be in church. Her parish, St. Dymphna’s, had a Passion service at three o’clock. Home alone, Ted McGann rarely answered the door.

He waited until dark before driving to the rectory. Upstairs in his bedroom, he unplugged the portable television, its screen the size of an index card. He filled a duffel bag with shaving gear, socks and underwear and a random selection of secular clothes: a few odd shirts, a single pair of blue jeans, a windbreaker emblazoned SACRED HEART BASKETBALL. He left behind a garish Hawaiian shirt and a closetful of black clericals, unsure when—or if—he’d wear them again.