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CHAPTER THIRTEEN

ANGIE DID THE worst possible thing. Even though she had instigated this, even though she knew Jefferson had asked her to dance because he felt sorry for her that Harry had been such a boob on the subject, even though she knew it was moving them toward uncharted territory, she put her hand in Jefferson’s.

She let him lead her into the house. With the doors of the living room folded open to the night, they swayed together to the hopelessly romantic music. She gazed upon the face she had become so fond of and contemplated what she had revealed, not just to Jefferson, but to herself, about the nature of her and Harry’s relationship.

She hadn’t loved Harry. She had picked him as the most likely to give her the life she had wanted ever since her father had walked out the door with hardly a glance back.

She knew that now. She had not known it then.

She thought about why she knew it now when she had not known it then. Because now she had eaten ice cream during a storm. Now she had chased a man with a spider, the air ringing with their laughter. Now, she had stood under a waterfall. And squealed as a slippery fish had landed in their boat. Now she had watched Wreck and Me under the stars.

Now, she was dancing in an empty room with no one watching.

She stared up at Jefferson and drank in the face that had become so familiar to her. She felt the heat of his body and the strength of it where it was pressed into her.

It occurred to Angie exactly why she knew now that she had not fallen in love with Harry when she had not known it before, even when he left her.

She stopped dancing.

Jefferson stopped dancing.

“Would you like to come to a real dance with me?” he asked. “The town is having a fund-raiser in Hailey’s memory.”

She knew it would be craziness to say yes.

“It’s going to be very hard for me to go alone.”

Which made it impossible to say no.

“It’s called A Black Tie Affair.”

There was her excuse. She did not have a single thing to wear to a function called A Black Tie Affair.

She started to say it and then snapped her mouth shut.

That was the Angie she had been, before. Before she had driven down that long and winding road and knocked on the door that had led her to this man. To Jefferson.

That was the Angie who had been afraid of everything. Even before she had been stalked she had played it safe, tried to arrange a life that would make her feel comfortable and secure.

Playing it safe, she realized, had not gotten her one single thing that she wanted. The exact opposite was probably true.

“I’d love to go to the dance with you,” she said.

“It’s on Saturday.”

“What day is it today?”

“I have to think about it,” he said wryly. “I’ve lost track of time. Tuesday. Today’s Tuesday.”

She broke away from him. “That’s only four days away. And the photographer from the magazine is coming on Monday. I have a great deal to do.”

Not being swayed by the bemusement in his eyes, she fled from Jefferson and went up the stairs to her room.

She knew she should say no to going to the dance, but she could not. She sat down and did a sketch, and stared at it.

It was even more beautiful than the wedding dress she had designed. It had a strap over one shoulder, the other shoulder bare. The upper portion of the dress, bodice to waist, was fitted. And then it flared out in a cloud of whimsy. She had only a few days.

It occurred to her she really did only have a few days. It had been their agreement that she would leave after the photographer came. Her job here would be done. Her time here.

But she felt as she had lying on the sun-warmed stone by the waterfall.

I want to stay here forever.

She reminded herself that Jefferson had broken that spell. That Jefferson broke all the spells. She wanted things to deepen between them. He did not.

And that was good. It was a good thing that one of them could be pragmatic when the storm was building all around them, threatening to pull them right into its vortex of power.

She looked at the dress again. If ever a dress could challenge a man’s best intentions, it would be this one. Is that what she wanted to do?

It was what she wanted to do. She did not want to be safe anymore. She wanted to fling herself into the storm, to put herself at the mercy of love.

Love.

She looked at her drawing again and let that word wash over her, felt the power of the feeling that accompanied it. Could she really pull this off?

She thought with longing of the woman she had been, ever so briefly, when that storm was over.

Fearless.

She wanted that again. She wanted to be fearless.

What about getting his house ready for the photographers? She was going to have to do both. She was going to have to be fearless and pragmatic.

Well, anyone who could coax cookies and a sewing project out of thirty reluctant teenagers could most certainly handle the pragmatic aspects of the assignment she had given herself.

She got up from her desk. She went over to those cubbies filled with fabric and sorted through them. They were swatches. It was almost as if they had been put here for show—to add splashes of bright color to the room—rather than to be of use. Angie had managed to scavenge her bathing suit cover from these, but the dress in the sketch was another matter.

She went to the window and stared out at the darkened lake. The breeze lifted a curtain and it caught her eye.

Angie laughed out loud. It was pure white silk. She caressed it with her fingers. She couldn’t use his curtains for a dress, could she?

The old Angie might not have been able to. The new Angie got on a chair and tugged the draperies down off their hooks.

* * *

Jefferson would not admit how much he missed Angie. Since that night they had danced in the living room, and in a moment of weakness when he had wanted to give her everything she wanted, and had invited her to a real dance, he had barely seen her.

She was a flurry of motion—racing through the house, cleaning crazily, organizing for the photo shoot and then disappearing up the stairs to her room.

She was making meals—in the middle of the night?—and leaving him notes on how to cook them, but he missed her. He was glad they were going to have a whole evening together to just enjoy each other.

On Saturday evening, he came out of his room. He and Hailey had often gone to events that required this kind of garb—the opera, plays, fund-raising balls. He had not dressed like this for a long time. He had never felt like this about it, either. Strangely awkward, almost shy. Standing in the hall, he put a finger between his collar and his neck, trying for a bit of breathing space.

He heard a sound on the stairs that led to Angie’s room.

He turned slowly. He dropped his finger from his collar. It was hopeless. He was never going to be able to breathe. Every thought of the impression he was going to make on her fled him as the sight of her—the impression she was making on him—filled his every sense and stole his breath away.

Could this woman be Angie?

Even in that ultra-sexy bathing suit, he had never seen her look like this.

She floated down the staircase toward him on a cloud of white. The dress hugged her upper body, showed the sensuous curve of her recently sun kissed shoulders, then flared out, sweeping around her. She looked like a princess in a fairy tale.

“What?” she asked, pausing on the stairs.

Could she not know what a vision she was?

“Where on earth did that dress come from?” he managed to choke out when that was not what he wanted to say at all. “I’m pretty sure the Emporium does not stock anything like that.”

“Have you ever seen The Sound of Music?”

“Uh, yeah.”

“Curtains,” she said. “I’m afraid I owe you a set of curtains.”

He vaguely recalled a scene in that movie where curtains had been transformed into play clothes. It was a movie. They would have had a team of tailors and seamstresses working on that.

“How did you do this?” he asked. Another movie came to mind. Cinderella, where the cleaning girl was transformed.

As if drawn to her by an invisible cord, he went and stood before her, looking up the stairs at her, at the sweep of the dress, the delicacy of her naked shoulder, the formfitting bodice.

“This is what I always wanted to do,” she said. “I wanted to design clothes.”

“And you didn’t, why?” He could hear the astonishment in his own voice.

“Because I was told to pick a practical career, and that’s what I did. Instead of following my own heart.”

She was looking at him with an unnerving intensity, as if that was all changed now. As if she fully intended to follow her own heart from now on.

He realized it was not the dress, alone, that made her beautiful. He realized it was her radiance. He had invited her to go to the dance as a gift to her, to give her something she had always wanted.

Jefferson contemplated the nature of gifts.

For this one had come back to him. It felt as if what he had given her since she arrived, the gift of sanctuary, had unveiled her bit by bit.

Now she stood before him, confident and radiant, the woman she really was, the woman she had always been meant to be.

And so the gift was returned to him. In leading her back to herself, it was he who had come fully alive. This gift of awareness did not fall gently against him. No, it smashed into him with all the force that was needed to take what was left of the severely compromised armor he had put around his heart and leave it in shards.

It felt as though he was stepping over that shattered armor as he reached for her, as her hand came into his, as he placed his kiss of recognition and welcome first on the top of her hand and then on her cheek.

He could fight no more.

They went by boat to Anslow. That journey, through inky waters, the spray from the boat white against blackness of the sky and the lake was the beginning of the magic. When they arrived he had to squeeze in to find a place to tie up, there were so many boats at the dock. A horse and carriage were at the end of it, waiting to take guests who had arrived by water to the community hall.

The interior of the hall had been transformed with thousands of bright fairy lights. They illuminated the line of the roof, climbing the walls like vines, tracing the outlines of linen-covered tables.

The place was packed. The people of Anslow loved an occasion—weddings, graduations, fund-raisers—they kept finery that would not have been out of place in New York City for these community events.

There were no speeches, just a dinner followed by a clearing of the tables, a bar being set up, a band taking their places on the raised stage at one end of the room.

He introduced Angie to people who had been his family and his friends and his neighbors since he was six years old.

They welcomed him into the fold of their lives as if he was a soldier who had been away from home for too long. They extended their acceptance of him to Angie. But almost too much so! He could not get near the woman he had escorted to the dance.

She quickly became the belle of the ball. For the first set, every old geezer in Anslow had to claim a dance with her. By the second set, the young men who had been fortifying their courage at the bar were jostling to have a turn around the hall with her.

Angie, amazing in that dress, was an astonishing dancer. Her movements were fluid and natural and unconsciously sensual. Her laughter carried through the hall. Her face was flushed. Her eyes were radiant. She was a princess, casting an enchantment.

Watching her, dance, watching her shine, Jefferson had a sense of having done the right thing. This is what she had led him to again and again since she had arrived at his door.

She required him to do the right thing. She forced him to be a better man.

And then, for the third set, he wearied of all the attention being paid to her and went and claimed her for his own. When Gerry Mack tried to cut in, he told him no. By the time the fourth and final set of the evening arrived, no one was trying to cut in anymore.

They danced until their feet ached. They danced until they could hardly breathe. They danced until the last dance, when he held her tight, rested his chin on the top of her head and realized something had happened that he thought would never happen again.

He was happy.

The evening broke up, and the poor old horse and carriage could not keep up with people flocking down to the dock, so he and Angie walked along the boardwalk, hand in hand. The night was filled with the laughter and chatter of the crowds. They were not the only ones walking.

As they turned at the entrance of the dock, a flurry of farewells filled the air.

“So good to see you, Jefferson. Angie, nice to meet you.”

“Safe journey over the water, Jeff. Angie, thank you for coming.”

Finally, he helped her into the boat and settled her in her seat. He went and got the blanket from below and tucked it over her shoulders.

“They love you,” Angie said, tugging the blanket around herself. She was glowing.

He contemplated her words. How right it seemed for the word love to have floated into the enchantment that was tonight.

He started the engine, put on the running lights, backed away from the dock and pointed the nose of his boat toward the dark main body of water of Kootenay Lake. Driving at night was extraordinarily beautiful, but it held some extra challenges.

“Jefferson?”

He turned his focus from the water, looked at her.

“They love you. And so do I.”

For the second time that night, it felt as if his breath had quit and his heart had stopped. What was he doing? Hadn’t he known all along this is where it was going?

“They only think they love me,” he told her. “And so do you.”

“No,” she said stubbornly.

Rather than respond, he checked for other boats leaving the harbor and, seeing none, opened up the throttle. Everybody only thought they loved him. If only they knew how unworthy he was.

He realized he could give the boat all the gas he wanted, but he could not go fast enough to outrun what had to be done.

He had to tell her. He had to put this to a stop right now, before he undid every bit of good the past two weeks had done for her.

He didn’t respond to her at first. He drove them over the quiet lake—so much of it now held memories of their times together—and pulled into the cove where they had taken refuge from the storm. He stopped the boat and put out the anchor.

The boat rocked gently. The night air was as warm as an embrace. He could still hear voices and laughter drifting over the lake. Angie sat looking at him, the dress a dream around her, so beautiful it made him ache.

“It is a perfect night,” she said. “Or would be if I had ice cream.”

It had been. It had been a perfect night. But it wasn’t going to be anymore. Because every good memory he had of this night would be overridden by what was going to happen next. This was the night it was all going to end.

“I have to tell you something,” Jefferson said quietly.