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Firstly, I would like to thank you for having bought this book. I speak to you all because I believe that every reader can find a ray of light or something to reflect upon; but the book is mainly aimed at those who have been, or are in, a deep well that seems full of nothing but darkness and suffering. I would humbly like to transmit the idea that, if you want to, you can find the light and the excitement of living life again.

You will find a lot of pain in this book. I don’t want to make you cry or go into a world that, while we all know it exists, we avoid talking about since it terrifies us. To some extent, it is also a way of becoming aware of who we really are.

It is very hard for me to relive the suffering that the death of Adrià, my son, caused, but I have to do it to be able to show my transformation, my change to ‘I want to feel good again’, which is what has brought me to this new life in which I feel complete and happy. I won’t deny that the path is long, but the only way to take it is walking and having your goal clear. Mine was to see the light, laugh, and leave the darkness in which I was trapped behind me.

What I would like to transmit is that my achievement has been to turn the deepest pain into love, I realised that there are only two ways to live life; one is through love, the other through fear. I chose to live it through the energy of love and gratitude. I had to stop asking myself why I’d had to go through the experience of Adrià’s death, why my son had had such a short life. I changed those questions into ‘How can I get through this?’ and ‘How can I learn to move through this new life?’

I can’t change a fact. It has happened, and has been terrible, and of course there’s a pain that goes with it. However, I can choose to say ‘That’s enough feeling bad! I want to feel good again!’ I have all the right in the world to laugh, dance, jump, feel great and, above all, to feel joy in my heart once more.

As soon as I accepted everything that happened to me, I began to build a new reality with new thoughts and beliefs and everything changed. The ‘miracles’ began to happen; wonderful people came into my life, all unique and fantastic, and they gave me their hands so we could evolve together. I began to take personal growth courses and discovered a new world. I was no longer the same person. My little world began to get bigger and my heart expanded at the same time. I can remember a thousand hugs, conversations full of love and laughter, emotions, tears, trips (short but intense), retreats that I’ve shared with incredible people, and unforgettable experiences.

Adrià is in my heart and we laugh together, and I can assure you we do this well. The louder my laughter, the closer I feel him. He wants to see his mother overflowing with new goals and joy; a mother who wants to live intensely and enjoy every moment the Universe offers her. This is me now, a Kimi who has learnt that everything starts with a thought and an emotion. Someone who wants this emotion to be packed with all the colours of the rainbow, of all the wonders that come day after day through those people who vibrate like her.

I can, you can, we all can!