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The Headquarters was a place apart.

It was not like a home. It was not like the street. It was not like any other place where men drew breath and lived their lives.

The Headquarters was a place without windows.

Caldwell thought of this often during the long, graveyard shifts when time stretched out slow and thick as clover honey. He wondered: Why are there no windows here? The official manual offered a cold, logical answer: security. Windows were a frailty. Through them, light could leak, sound could spill, a blast wave could shatter the peace. Through them, the enemy could peer in.

But Caldwell knew the deeper truth.

There were no windows because the men who labored here were not meant to see the world. They were meant only to see the screens. Only the dots and the lines. Only the cold geometry of numbers and coordinates.

They had to forget that outside, there was a sky. That beneath that sky, there were cities. That in those cities, there were houses. And in those houses, people lived.

For if you remembered these things every hour of every day, you could not do this work.

You could not sit and wait for the signal that might spell the end of everything.

Caldwell rose from his desk and paced the room. His legs felt heavy – he had sat motionless for too long. He approached the great screen that swallowed half the wall. On it, the map of North America glowed – from ocean to shining ocean, from the white wastes of Canada to the heat of Mexico. Green sparks marked their own birds. White sparks were the civilian flights. Everything else was a void – dark, silent, and deep.

«Anything of interest, Corporal?» he asked Miller, who sat hunched over the radar.

«No, sir,» Miller said, his eyes locked onto the electronic pulse. «An ordinary evening. Three commercials on the West Coast. One military transport over Montana. Everything is within the margins.»

«Good.»

Caldwell returned to his desk. He sat. He watched the clock.

10:38 p.m.

The night was only beginning to breathe.

He pulled a folder of reports toward him and began to read. Technical maintenance for Radar Station Seven. Equipment replacement at Outpost Fourteen. A request for more men at the Colorado base. Papers. Endless, drifting snows of paper. An army is not made merely of men and steel – it is made of papers that never cease to fall.

He signed one report. A second. A third.

Somewhere in the corner, a radio crackled like a small, dying fire. A voice recited coordinates. Another voice confirmed. A routine exchange of information. Mechanical. Stripped of all heat and emotion.

Caldwell listened to those voices and thought how they – he, Sergeant Thomas, Corporal Miller, all of them – lived in two worlds at once.

There was the world outside. The world where it was Christmas. Where lights burned in windows. Where children lay awake, ears strained for the ghost-sound of bells. Where the air smelled of cinnamon and pine needles. Where people laughed and held one another, believing – if only for this one night – that the world was a kind place.

And then there was this world. The room without windows. The thrum of the dynamos. The flicker of the cathode tubes. The waiting that never ended. Because danger does not take a holiday. It is always here. It simply keeps its peace, hiding, waiting for its moment to strike.

And the men in the Headquarters stood between these two worlds. They guarded the one from the other. They watched so that the shadows would not break into the places where the lights burned and the children laughed.

But the price of that vigil was to forget that the other world even existed.

To lock oneself in a room without windows and look only at the glass eyes of the machines.

Caldwell set the folder aside. He rubbed his eyes. The weariness wasn’t in his muscles – it was deeper, in a place his hands couldn’t reach.

«Coffee, sir?» Sergeant Thomas asked.

Caldwell looked up. Thomas stood there, a thermos in his grip. He was a sturdy, block-shaped man with a face that remained solemn even when he smiled. A good soldier. Solid. The kind of man who could hold up a collapsing wall.

«Thank you, Sergeant,» Caldwell said.

Thomas poured the coffee. It was hot and black. The scent was wonderful – the only living smell in a room that smelled of scorched metal, ozone, and recycled air.

«That was a strange call,» Thomas said softly. «The one about Santa.»

«Yes,» Caldwell agreed. «Strange.»

«A misprint in the paper?»

«It seems so.»

Thomas nodded. He was silent for a moment. Then he asked, «You did the right thing, sir. Not telling him the truth.»

Caldwell looked at him. «Do you think so?»

«I’m sure of it.» Thomas offered a thin smile. «I’ve got two of my own. A girl, five, and a boy, seven. They’re waiting for Santa, too. And if someone told them he wasn’t…» He shook his head. «I don’t know. It’s like taking something vital away from them. Something they still need.»

«Childhood,» Caldwell said.

«Yes.» Thomas looked away, into the gray distance of the room. «Childhood. It’s a short season. And then you spend the rest of your life remembering it, wondering if it ever really happened at all.»

He caught himself and straightened his posture. «Sorry, sir. I’m rambling.»

«It’s alright, Sergeant. I understand.»

Thomas nodded and retreated to his station.

Caldwell sipped the coffee in small, thoughtful measures. He thought of Thomas’s words. Of childhood. Of how swiftly the light fades from it. How one morning you wake up and realize you no longer believe. Not in Santa, not in fairies, not in the impossible. Now you know how the world is geared and bolted together. And that knowledge – heavy, cold, and gray – settles on your shoulders and never leaves.

His own son, Michael, no longer believed. He was twelve, and at twelve, the magic has usually leaked out. But Caldwell remembered the exact moment the belief vanished. It was two years ago. They were sitting on the porch in the autumn dusk, and Michael had suddenly asked:

«Dad, is Santa Claus really just you and Mom?»

And Caldwell hadn’t been able to lie. He looked into his son’s eyes and nodded.

«Yes, son. It’s us.»

Michael didn’t cry. He didn’t shout. He just nodded, as if he’d known all along and simply wanted the final confirmation.

«I see,» he’d said.

They never spoke of it again.

But something had shifted after that talk. Something Caldwell couldn’t quite put a name to. Michael became graver. More grown-up. He looked at the world with different eyes – not the wide, wondering eyes of a child, but the tired eyes of someone who had already learned to be disappointed.

And Caldwell sometimes wondered: Did I hurry him? Could I have given him one more year? One more Christmas to hold onto the dream?

But time does not flow backward. Words cannot be swallowed once spoken.

Childhood ends, and no man can bar the door against its departure.

Caldwell finished his coffee and looked at the telephone.

The telephone was silent.

The child was likely asleep by now. Tucked into bed, eyes shut tight, dreaming of sleighs and reindeer and a beard as white as a mountain peak. Dreaming of the miracle that would descend in the night.

And Caldwell thought: What if he calls again?

The thought was irrational. Why would he call again? It was a stray call. An error. One of a thousand tiny glitches that happen every day – a wrong number, a slipped digit, a coincidence.

But something inside Caldwell whispered: This is not the end.

This is only the beginning.

He stood and walked back to the great screen. The map of the world glowed in the gloom. Continents, oceans, borders. All of it was there, compressed into the size of a wall. You could reach out and touch Europe. Asia. The North Pole.

The North Pole.

Caldwell gave a short, dry laugh. He had told the child that Santa was over the North Pole. It was the first thing that had come to his mind. Where else would Santa be but the North Pole?

But now he looked at that point on the map and thought: What if I plotted a route?

What if I imagined that Santa were truly in flight? Where does he start? Where does he go? At what speed does he travel?

«Nonsense,» he told himself. «You have real work to do. Real objects to track. Real threats.»

But the idea would not let go.

It hummed in his mind like a song you can’t stop whistling.

A route.

The North Route.

«Sir?» Corporal Miller called out.

Caldwell turned. «Yes?»

«Is everything alright, sir? You’ve been standing there a long time.»

«Everything’s fine, Corporal. I was just… thinking.»

«About what, if it’s no secret?»

Caldwell paused. Then he said, «About trajectories.»

Miller nodded, though he clearly didn’t follow the meaning.

Caldwell went back to his desk. He sat. He took a pen and a sheet of paper. He began to draw. At first, they were just lines – meaningless, chaotic. But then the lines began to knit themselves into a path. North Pole. Greenland. Iceland. Europe. Asia. The Pacific. America.

A great circle around the Earth.

He looked at his drawing and thought: If Santa truly existed, if he truly flew, if he had to circle the world in a single night – what would his flight plan look like?

And suddenly he realized: it wasn’t that difficult.

It was just mathematics. Time. Distance. Velocity.

If you start at the North Pole at midnight and move west, chasing the time zones, using the Earth’s own rotation…

He began to calculate. The numbers clicked into place in his mind, easy and fluid. He had worked with trajectories his entire life. He calculated speeds, angles, coordinates. This was his language. This was how he understood the universe.

And Santa Claus, if he existed, would simply be another object in the sky. Another dot on the screen. Another trajectory to be tracked.

Caldwell smiled at his own thoughts.

I’m losing my mind, he thought. I’m sitting here calculating a flight plan for Santa Claus.

But he couldn’t stop.

He wrote, he drew, he calculated. The paper became a map of numbers and lines. Time, distance, speed. It all fit. It all made sense.

«Colonel,» Sergeant Thomas said.

Caldwell looked up. For a second, he didn’t realize where he was. He had been so deep in the calculations that the room had faded away.

«Yes, Sergeant?»

«The telephone, sir.»

Caldwell looked at the telephone.

It was ringing.

Again.

Ring-ring.

Caldwell checked the clock. 11:15 p.m. Less than an hour had passed since the first call.

He reached out and lifted the receiver.

«Continental Air Defense Command, Colonel Caldwell speaking.»

A pause. A breath. Then – a voice. A different voice. Another child.

«Hello,» the voice said. «Is it true that you can see Santa on your radars?»

Caldwell closed his eyes.

Of course, he thought. Of course there won’t be just one.

The newspaper had hit the doorsteps this morning. How many children had seen that ad? How many parents had given their children this wrong number?

How many would call tonight?

He opened his eyes and looked at the paper before him. At the numbers. The lines. The route he had just drawn.

And he suddenly understood: this wasn’t an accident.

This was an opportunity.

An opportunity to do something… different. Something he had never done before. Something that had nothing to do with war, or fear, or danger.

Something simple.

Something kind.

«Yes,» he said into the telephone. «Yes, we are tracking Santa on our radars.»

«Really?» The hope in the child’s voice was so sharp it made Caldwell’s chest ache.

«Really.» He looked at his drawing. «Right now, he is over Greenland. Heading east. His speed is…» He hesitated, then continued, "…very great. The reindeer are flying fast tonight.»

«Wow!» the child breathed. «When will he be here?»

«Where do you live?»

«Colorado Springs.»

«Then…» Caldwell did a quick mental calculation, "…in about five hours. But remember – he only comes to those who are sleeping.»

«I’m going to bed right now! Thank you!»

«Goodnight.»

Click.

Caldwell set the telephone down.

He sat perfectly still and looked at the telephone. Then at the screens. Then at the men in the Headquarters.

Every eye was on him.

«Colonel,» Sergeant Thomas said slowly, «what is going on?»

Caldwell picked up the sheet of paper with his calculations. He looked at it. Then he looked at Thomas.

«Sergeant,» he said, and his voice was calm, the voice he used when giving orders, «I need you to do something for me.»

«Sir?»

«Take the map. Mark a point over the North Pole. Time – midnight GMT. The object is moving west at a speed of…» He checked his notes. «…approximately three thousand miles per hour. Plot a course through the major time zones. Europe, Asia, Pacific, America.»

Thomas blinked. «Sir?»

«Do it, Sergeant.»

«But… sir, what object? We don’t have – »

«There is an object,» Caldwell said firmly. «A non-standard object. It requires tracking.»

He looked Thomas in the eye.

Thomas looked back. A long moment passed. Then, slowly, he nodded.

«Understood, sir. A non-standard object.»

He took his tablet and began to work.

Corporal Miller turned to Caldwell. «Colonel, what kind of object is it?»

Caldwell looked at him. Then at the others. They were all waiting.

He could have told the truth. He could have explained it was just a game. That he had decided to humor the children who would be calling tonight.

But instead, he said:

«Classified object, Corporal. Details are not for discussion. Carry on with your work.»

Miller nodded and turned back to his station.

Caldwell leaned back in his chair.

He had done it.

He didn’t know why. He didn’t know where it would lead. He didn’t know if he was being a fool.

But he had done it.

And now, on the map of the Headquarters, a new line appeared. A new route. A route that didn’t exist.

Santa’s route.

The North Route.

The telephone rang again.

Caldwell picked it up.

And the night went on.