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The dressing room smelled of cologne and hair spray, of freesia and lily of the valley from the bridal bouquets. Silk and tulle rustled below the chatter and buzz of a half-dozen women getting primped simultaneously.

“Lisa Sanders, have I told you how much I love and admire you?” Ariel turned to allow Jillian to zip up the back of her bridesmaid dress.

Lisa glanced over from where she sat at the vanity in the bride’s dressing area. “Any particular reason now?”

“These dresses. They’re gorgeous.”

“I’ll say,” Jillian chimed in fervently. She’d been in more weddings than she could count on one hand and had the closet full of poufy floral dresses to prove it. Lisa had rejected those horrors in favor of slim, tea-length dresses the color of the periwinkles in their bouquets.

Jillian glanced in the mirror at her own dress, admiring the way the bias-cut silk draped. “They really are lovely.”

“And wait until your boy gets a load of you in that,” Ariel said.

Jillian frowned. “My boy?”

“Gil,” Ariel clarified. “I mean, the two of you were flirting like mad last night. Very hot.”

It was crazy to get butterflies in her stomach at the thought of him, Jillian told herself. But every time she remembered the feel of his lips brushing over her knuckles, her stomach lurched as if she was in an elevator that was dropping too fast. She’d tried to tell herself it hadn’t been a big deal. Sure he’d paid attention to her, walked her to her car, kissed her hand, but who knew what that meant? It could just be one of those things people did at rehearsal dinners.

But apparently she wasn’t the only one who had noticed.

Maybe, Jillian thought, just maybe it hadn’t been her imagination. Maybe there really had been that little buzz there, that little something that felt like, oh…

Chemistry.

It happened, she knew. Couples met, clicked and wound up dating. It wasn’t just in movies and books; she heard about it from her patients, her girlfriends, even her siblings. People got involved, they had relationships.

Why not her?

“If I were you,” Ariel continued, “I’d be looking forward to the reception. What do you think, Lisa?”

“I don’t know.” Lisa was focused intently on trying to get her pearl necklace out of its case but her hands were shaking too much to do it. She cleared her throat. “He’s not really your type, Jillian, is he?”

Her type? How did she even know what her type was? He wasn’t a standard pretty boy but she liked that. She liked the humor that was never far away, the way he made her laugh. And she really, really liked that buzz that went through her whenever they made eye contact.

But who was she fooling? What she liked most, what she hadn’t been able to stop thinking of once since it had happened was the way it had felt when he’d brought her hand to his lips. Anticipation fluttered through her.

“He seems nice enough,” she allowed.

Ariel snorted. “Nice enough?”

“Is he seeing anyone?” Jillian asked.

Lisa fumbled and dropped the necklace.

“Uh-oh, looks like prewedding jitters to me,” Ariel said. “Anyone got a shot of vodka?”

“She doesn’t need a drink.” Jillian came over to help. “She just needs us to stop going on about everything else.”

“I should have listened to Alan and gone to Vegas,” Lisa moaned. “Everything would have been better.”

“It’s going to be beautiful,” Jillian soothed, fastening the necklace in place and putting a reassuring hand on Lisa’s shoulder. “You’ll see. You’re going to walk out there and see Alan and everything will be perfect.”

Carrie came back into the room. “All right, everyone, it’s time. Lisa, honey, you ready?”

“I think so.” Lisa rose, touching her hair nervously. “How do I look?”

“Gorgeous,” Jillian said, leaning in to kiss her cheek. “Be happy,” she whispered.

Lisa gave her a tremulous smile. “I already am.”

Gil stood in the dressing area watching Alan tie his tie. “So what do you say, are you ready to do this?”

“Of course. Why shouldn’t I be?”

“Just checking. After all, it’s my job as groomsman to prop you up in the bar and feed you a few drinks to get your courage up.”

Alan patted Gil’s shoulder. “I think you were supposed to do all that at the bachelor party.”

Gil snapped his fingers. “Bachelor party. Damn. I knew there was something I forgot to do.”

“I’ll let it go,” Alan said.

Gil studied his friend. “You’re going to be happy, Alan,” he said. “The two of you have a good vibe.”

“Yeah?” For a minute, Alan forgot about the tie and met Gil’s gaze in the mirror. “I keep wondering if I’m out of my mind, marrying a woman seventeen years younger than me. But I don’t know, when I’m with her, it just works.”

“I don’t think you’re out of your mind. She’s smart, ambitious, gorgeous. And more grown-up than her age.” Gil picked a bit of lint off his sleeve. “What she sees in you, of course, God only knows. If I were you, I’d marry her quick before she comes to her senses.”

“Thanks for the vote of confidence.”

“Anytime,” Gil said cheerfully. “It’s a good match. She can introduce you to the Raconteurs and you can introduce her to Tony Bennett and shuffleboard.”

“I’ll shuffle your board if you don’t watch it,” Alan growled.

“Hey, no roughing up the ushers.”

Alan put on his jacket and buttoned it up. “I’ll let you off the hook this time, but only because I have to go get married.”

“Lucky me,” Gil said.

“No,” Alan said, “Lucky me.”

White satin. Ribbons and lace. The church echoed with the liquid tones of the harp. Freesia from the bouquets scented the air. And everywhere faces glowed with that luminous joy unique to weddings.

Jillian stood quietly at the back of the church with the other bridesmaids. Behind them, hidden in an alcove, Lisa shifted nervously. Then the music started and Alan led the ushers out into place at the front of the church. There was a rustling as everybody turned to the back.

At Carrie’s nod, Jillian began the measured walk down the aisle, the same one she’d made so many times before. Before her lay the pews, the ends adorned with bouquets and ribbons. Beyond that, she saw the organ, the altar, Alan and his ushers.

And Gil.

He wore a tuxedo, no different than the men beside him. But, oh, it looked different. Maybe it was his long, lean build, those shoulders, that way he had of standing as though he was totally at ease and at the same time ready for anything. His skin appeared very tanned, almost swarthy against the snowy-white of his shirt.

And he was staring right at her.

A whole squadron of butterflies took off to flutter madly about her stomach. He had that gleam in his eyes, that look that promised something special, she could see it from there. Quickly, she trained her gaze before her, on the altar. Having a bridesmaid going down the aisle staring at one of the ushers didn’t exactly give a dignified look to the procession.

Focusing on the front of the church didn’t help.

The fact that she kept her eyes turned from Gil was irrelevant—she was aware of him with every fiber of her being. She saw the white gleam of his smile, knew when he shifted a bit and clasped his hands together before him. Just taking each step took all her concentration, which was silly. It was only a look from across a room.

So why did it feel almost like a physical touch, one that strengthened with each inch she moved toward him?

The walk seemed endless, and yet Jillian was surprised to suddenly find herself at the end of the aisle. She took her place with relief and a sneaky little whiff of disappointment, as though a beam of sunlight had gone away. She was there for the wedding, she reminded herself, not a flirtation. Turning back to the aisle, she held her bouquet before her.

One by one, the other bridesmaids walked toward her and stepped into line. Including Ariel.

Who gave her a broad wink.

Jillian found herself stifling a giggle. Ariel just glided calmly and serenely into place. Only someone who was looking for it would have known that she was trying hard not to laugh, too.

And then the music swelled and there was a shuffle of feet as everyone stood for the bride.

She was, quite simply, lovely. As Lisa had chosen stylish simplicity for the bridesmaids’ dresses, so she’d gone with simple elegance in her own attire: an ivory satin sheath, a garland of freesia and periwinkle for her hair. She was shaking visibly when she drew nearer, Jillian saw, her face pale, eyes huge. Then she reached the head of the aisle, and Brian Summers passed her hand to Alan.

And the moment their hands joined, the shakes were gone. Alan bent his head to kiss Lisa’s fingers. Her smile bloomed, brilliant and beautiful as a sunrise.

Jillian found herself blinking back the sudden sting of tears.

Love. Honor. Cherish. Till death do us part. The words flowed, the phrases that had always been a part of the lexicon of love, but suddenly they were real. She’d never believed in auras and all that mumbo jumbo, but when Alan and Lisa looked into each other’s eyes, Jillian swore she could almost see their love for each other like a glowing nimbus that enveloped them both. It was real, this feeling, it existed. Blinking, she glanced beyond them.

Only to find her gaze pinned to Gil’s.

His eyes were hot and dark and unwavering. And suddenly it was as if all the oxygen had been sucked out of the room. She couldn’t breathe. She felt light-headed, suddenly dizzy as though the floor had tilted and his gaze were the only thing holding her in place. Everything around her receded. There was only Gil, looking at her and through her and into her.

The sound of applause broke the spell. Alan and Lisa were kissing, Jillian realized. The ceremony was finished and they were turning to march back up the aisle, hand in hand.

She glanced back to Gil to see his lips quirk in amusement. The recessional had begun, the bridesmaids and ushers walking forward to pair up, two by two, first Neal and Ariel, then the next pair and the next.

And then Gil was standing before her, offering his arm.

“Let the record show that here you are at the altar and here I am, right on time and ready to escort,” he said.

Jillian laughed and the tension broke. “I appreciate that. I was worried about getting lost.”

“And me, with no GPS.”

She laid her hand on his sleeve. “I have faith in your sense of direction.”

“Outstanding wedding,” he said as they began to walk back up the aisle.

“It was.” Particularly this part, with his arm strong and steady under her fingers, their steps falling in sync.

“Outstanding bridesmaids, too,” Gil added. “Especially the first one that came down the aisle. The color of that dress does very nice things for you.”

“Is that a compliment?”

“And you do even nicer things for the dress.”

“Are you trying to make me blush?” Jillian asked as they passed the rows of people.

He grinned. “Is it working?”

“You’re dangerous,” she told him.

“Me? I’m harmless.”

“Oh, no. I don’t think you can be trusted for a minute.”

“I can be trusted for lots of things,” he countered as they reached the top of the aisle.

“Like what?”

His lips twitched as they reached the top of the aisle. “Let’s get somewhere a little more private and I’d be happy to demonstrate.”

“Oh, too bad we’ve got to go to the reception,” Jillian said lightly. “I guess it’ll have to wait.” She was flirting, she realized in giddy wonder.

“I can be a pretty patient guy when I need to be,” Gil returned.

And they walked through the front doors of the church into blazing sunlight and the pealing of the church’s carillon.

The reception was at a lovely courtyard restaurant on the river. The June afternoon was mild enough to make it enjoyable, and if there was any flaw to it, it was that Jillian had been seated on the opposite side of the head table from Gil. That simmering sense of expectation still bubbled, even as she worked her way through appetizer and salad, soup and main course, making polite conversation with her companions, waiting for the moment she’d be free to talk with him again.

Because she had to admit it, she wanted to. She wanted to talk with him, to laugh with him, to hear his voice, to feel that little shiver in her stomach when she looked into his eyes.

When Lisa and Alan took the floor for their first dance, Jillian applauded with the rest, but mostly she was trying to manage the rush of anticipation and excitement and nerves. Because something had been set in motion. She had no better way to think about it than that. Something had changed from the night before—or maybe she had changed—and she had no idea what came next.

Except that she wanted more.

“All right, let’s have the wedding party out on the floor for their dance,” the band’s lead singer said.

Jillian stood at the edge of the dance floor. For once in her life, she wasn’t feeling tentative or uneasy or at loose ends. He’d come find her, she knew he would.

And then she turned and he was there.

“I think this is my dance,” he said, offering her his hand.

Jillian stepped forward into his arms. The black fabric of his tux felt soft under her fingertips. She concentrated on that because it was safer than thinking about the way heat bloomed through her from his open hand pressed against her back, because that had her wondering just how that hand would feel smoothing over her skin. She shivered.

“Cold?” Gil murmured.

Jillian shook her head. How could she be, when she could feel the heat of his body just inches from hers? And even without that, there was the unsettling slide of his palm over hers, the disconcerting intimacy of having his mouth right at eye level, that delectable mouth that she found herself staring at even as she watched the corners of it turn up.

She raised her chin and found herself looking into his amused eyes.

“How am I doing?” he asked.

“Arthur Murray would be proud.”

“Wait until I trot out my really smooth moves,” he said.

“Is the world ready for that?”

“Come on, live life on the edge.”

“How do you know I don’t already?” she challenged. “I might be a daredevil.”

“Running with scissors? Mixing whites with colors?”

“Skydiving,” she countered. “Hang gliding. Bungee jumping.”

“Bungee jumping?”

“Bungee jumping,” she said triumphantly.

“Then this ought to feel familiar.”

And before she knew what he was about, he’d tightened his hand at her waist and bent her backward into a deep dip.

A chorus of whoops erupted from the crowd around the dance floor. Jillian’s heart hammered madly. He was bent over her, against her, pressing her tightly to him. And for a breathless, whirling instant, his mouth was almost touching hers.

Then he was standing her up again and bowing to the sounds of applause.

The edge, Jillian thought breathlessly, was getting closer by the moment.

The reception was over and the evening sky darkened to velvet black as Jillian and Gil walked out to the parking lot together. It was the first time she could remember that she’d danced until her feet ached. Now, she dangled her shoes from one hand and walked barefoot over the smooth pavement.

“So let me know if you want to go on tour with our dance-and-dip act,” Gil told her.

“I’ll have to take a look at my bungee jumping schedule,” she said, stopping beside her car.

“You do that.”

“Keep your smooth moves dusted off.”

“Always do. You never know when you might need them.” He studied her mouth. “You know, just because the wedding’s over doesn’t mean we have to go home. You want to go somewhere, get a drink?”

The idea appealed and alarmed. Taking a chance on him suddenly seemed like a far greater risk than merely jumping off a high platform. Yet the sense of anticipation that she’d felt all day suddenly intensified. “I’d like to but I’m meeting my brother and his family for breakfast early tomorrow.”

“Lucky brother. Maybe some other time, then.”

She swallowed. “I’d like that.”

“Yeah?” His eyes locked on hers. “So would I. Why don’t you give me your number and I’ll call you?”

She patted her small, beaded evening bag. “I don’t have a pen or anything. Do you have something to write on?”

He shook his head. “Say it. I’ll remember.”

“You have a photographic memory?”

“For the important things.” He reached out to trace his fingertips along her jaw.

Adrenaline surged through her. Her entire body, every nerve, every sense was immediately focused on that one place that his fingers touched. Warm, as they traced over her skin, just rough enough to give her gooseflesh. Her lips parted, seeking air.

“So tell me.” Gil leaned in closer.

“Tell you?” she said blankly.

“Your number. You tell me and I’ll repeat it.”

Jillian moistened her lips. “Two, two, five.”

“Two, two, five.” His gaze was hypnotic, overwhelming.

“Nine, three,” she managed. Her heart thudded in her chest.

“Nine, three,” he echoed.

Jillian hardly noticed when his arms slipped around her. “Two, one,” she whispered. She could feel herself trembling. She caught a breath and found herself inhaling his air.

“Two, one,” he murmured, his lips almost touching hers.

And then he kissed her.

Jillian had been kissed before. She knew what it was like to have a man’s mouth on hers. It had never been anything like this. It had never set her entire body humming with pleasure. It had never made her forget everything around her, exist only for the mindless wonder of mouth on mouth.

Warm and wonderful and wicked, the kiss flowed through her with the delicious decadence of the most sinful dessert she could imagine. His mouth was softer than she’d expected, and clever, so clever, touching, tasting, tempting her lips to part. Her head fell back, her eyes fluttered shut and she clutched at his shoulders to keep her balance as his taste overwhelmed her.

She’d imagined how it would be with him, how his mouth would feel on hers. But nothing had prepared her for the overwhelming immediacy, for the tempting slide of tongue that had her knees weakening as desire flowed through her like some intoxicating drug that only had her wanting more. When she made a small, involuntary noise, she felt Gil’s mouth curve against hers. His arms tightened around her, she could feel his body harden.

It exhilarated.

And it terrified. Without warning, her throat began to tighten up. Suddenly, she felt the old familiar panic, the one that had always dogged her, beginning to stir. Before she could protest, though, Gil released her. And then he was just smiling down at her and the panic was receding.

“Two, two, five, nine, three, two, one,” he repeated and leaned in to kiss the tip of her nose. “I’ll call you.”

“If you get any more pregnant, Eric’s going to have to rent a moving van to get you to the hospital,” Jillian said to her sister-in-law, Jenny Logan, as they sat out on the back deck of the couple’s house.

“Don’t I know it. These Logan men are healthy individuals.” Jenny leaned back on her chaise and rubbed one hand over her belly. “Why wasn’t I smart enough to be attracted to a short man?”

“She keeps staring at me like it’s my fault,” Eric complained.

“Well, you were a part of the proceedings,” Jenny pointed out.

“I had cooperation,” he said. “Some very enthusiastic cooperation, as I recall.”

“Too much information, guys,” Jillian put in.

“Cole, you come away from that fence,” Jenny directed her six-year-old adopted son.

Eric took two quick steps and hoisted the boy into the air before the rottweiler on the other side of the fence bounded up, barking. “Living life on the edge, my man.”

“I can walk,” Cole argued, squirming.

“No way,” Eric said, tucking the boy under his arm as if he was a newspaper and tickling him until Cole giggled delightedly.

“So how was your wedding last night?” Jenny asked, a contented smile on her face. “Another dress for the horror museum?”

“No. Beautiful dress. Beautiful wedding. And…”

And a stupefyingly wonderful, all-time champion kiss.

Jenny gave her an interested look. “And?” she prompted.

“Nothing.” Jillian flushed.

Eric was moving Cole through the air like Superman. “Look at Auntie Jillian turn tomato-red,” he said.

“Tomato-red,” Cole echoed gleefully.

“Nothing, eh?” Jenny observed. “I don’t suppose this nothing happened to be a wedding guest, did he?”

“I think I hear the timer going off on the pastries,” Jillian interrupted, hopping up.

“I’ll help.” Eric followed her into the house.

“You’re going to have to answer my question sooner or later,” Jenny called through the kitchen window.

Jillian pulled out the tray of bakery brioche and muffins she’d set to warm in the oven. “I can’t hear you.”

“You might as well give in,” Eric advised as he poured coffee from the press pot into three mugs. “She’s an expert at cross-examination.”

That was the problem with a large family, Jillian thought. Nothing could ever remain a secret for long—sooner or later everything got out.

“He’s just a man I met,” she said offhandedly as she carried out the platter along with plates and napkins, Eric following.

“Not just a man,” Jenny observed. “You like him.”

“Okay, I like him. But it was just bridal-party stuff at the wedding. Who knows what’ll come of it?”

“Do you want something to?” Jenny reached for the coffee mug Eric had set down before her.

“I want—”

“Cake!” Cole demanded, running up.

“Compromise,” Eric said, handing him a mug of hot cocoa and a blueberry muffin.

“Hot chocolate!” Happily, Cole settled in with his muffin and drink.

“Gee, I didn’t get any chocolate,” Jenny said.

“Don’t be so sure.” Eric settled back with the paper.

Jenny took a sip. “Mocha!” she exclaimed. “Do you know how much I adore you?”

“Feel free to remind me,” Eric said as he flipped open the paper.

Jillian shook her head at the Gazette. “You know, I’m torn every time I see that rag,” she pronounced, breaking the little ball off the top of her brioche. “Half of me wants to burn it and the other half is desperately curious to pick it up to see if they’ve printed any new trash about Robbie.” As if driving him away hadn’t been enough.

“Don’t give yourself ulcers over it,” Eric said. “That first story was a little strong but they’ve been better since.”

“Sure. Now they want a comment from him. Now that he’s gone. Or maybe they’re just sniffing around for a new story.”

“They don’t really have to. The tabloids have kind of taken it over.”

And it drove Jillian nuts. One day Robbie had been there, the next he’d been gone without a word. One letter, no phone calls. Five weeks. She shook her head. “It’s driving Nancy to distraction, especially since he’s supposed to be checking in with his parole officer.”

“I don’t know how she’s managing. I can’t imagine how I’d feel if Eric just disappeared like that,” Jenny said. “I’d be worried out of my mind.”

“She is. I just keep hoping it’ll all die down, but fat chance.” Jillian leaned back in her chair, staring at the paper that hid Eric. “It’s just one story after another after anoth—” Suddenly, she froze, staring at the banner. The Portland Gazette, it read. And on the line below, in fancy script, A Blazon Media Company.

A Blazon Media company.

“What’s wrong?” Jenny asked, frowning. “You look like you’d seen a ghost.”

“Eric, can I have the front page for a minute?”

“Hmm?”

“The front page. Just for a minute. Here, you can have the sports section.” She took the opening section with shaking hands. “Come on, come on, come on,” she muttered.

“You mind telling me what’s going on?” Eric asked.

“Nothing.” It didn’t mean anything, she told herself as she turned back to the editorial page, the part that carried the masthead. Just because Blazon owned the paper didn’t mean Gil worked for the Gazette. He could do any one of a number of things. Maybe he was in corporate, maybe he was in radio. Maybe he handled their Internet properties.

Or maybe, just maybe, he was the managing editor for the metro section of the Gazette.

“I’m going to strangle him,” Jillian said.