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Chapter 3

After his last at bat, Marco glanced over at the empty seat behind home plate. Even without her sitting there, he still felt the overpowering presence of Hunter Collins. He wanted her. Wanted her more than was good for him. Or the team.

The Goliaths had a six game road trip coming up. He was already packed, ready to head straight for the airport after the game. He hoped getting away for a few days would give him the space he needed to get his head on right. To work out the flaw in his swing. Yeah, sure, the flaw was in his swing. In the swing of his head toward Hunter’s seat. Then up toward the booth, where he imagined the owner’s box was located.

A road trip was just what he needed to clear his head. To get back in the game. And every other cliché guys like him used to excuse their poor performance.

Hunter believed in him. Or she had until he got one look at her, and he’d somehow forgotten everything he’d ever known about hitting a baseball. It couldn’t come at a worse time, either. Not when his contract was up at the end of the year.

This was supposed to be his chance to sign the big deal. He hoped it would be here, in San Francisco. In the short time he’d been in the Goliaths clubhouse, he’d noticed the guys had something special. A camaraderie that he hadn’t found anywhere else. Instead of a collection of players, all doing their own thing, they were a TEAM. They backed each other up. And not just when the spotlight was on them. It was like they were more than teammates. More than friends, even. It was like they were a family.

But he was still the outsider. The new guy who wasn’t quite cutting it. Wasn’t pulling his weight. And that was one more reason he needed to stay as far away as possible from Hunter. He didn’t need to sleep his way onto the roster. That wouldn’t do either of them any good.

He needed to forget about her. Starting now. He’d board the plane for Atlanta, and when he returned, he wouldn’t be bothered by her presence behind home plate. Wouldn’t even think about unbuttoning her stuffy shirts or unpinning her uptight hairdo. He wouldn’t wonder if she was as soft underneath as she pretended to be hard on the outside.

And he damn sure wouldn’t worry about her partner, married or not, sliding up next to her in the luxury suite, laughing at what a mistake she’d made in bringing Marco Santiago to San Francisco.

No. He couldn’t let that happen. Couldn’t let him put her down. Couldn’t give him the satisfaction of saying I told you so.

Marco would just have to work harder. Smarter. And better than anyone else on the team.

* * * *

Six days later, Marco was the last one to board the plane back to San Francisco. He’d improved his batting average, gotten his first extra-base hit, and two more RBIs. But he still wasn’t in his groove. Most of those hits were just plain lucky. Weak ground balls that squirted through the infield. Bloopers that fell just short of the outfielders. He wasn’t making real good contact, and he had far too many strikeouts.

His concentration was still shot.

It helped a little that Hunter wasn’t sitting behind home plate. But she was sitting there in his head. Tormenting him. Tempting him. Torturing him.

He’d never let a woman come between him and his game. Not in high school, college, or the minor leagues. Especially not when he’d made it to the majors. He’d always kept his personal life separate. Any time a woman even got close to coming between him and baseball, it was always easier to let her go than try to juggle her needs with the needs of his team.

Ever since he stepped into that limo with Hunter, he couldn’t get her out of his system. Must be pheromones or something. How else could he explain an intense sexual attraction to a woman who was not only his boss, but was sending seriously non-sexual signals?

The way she dressed, for example. He couldn’t think of one thing he liked about her wardrobe. She dressed like she was going for a job interview at a funeral home in a black-and-white movie. He’d only seen her in black and gray. Conservative. Boring. Like she was trying to hide something. Her femininity. Her passion. But he saw right through her. Or rather, he felt something, an underlying sensuality that she couldn’t quite keep hidden. Not from him.

And he wanted to uncover that sensuality in the worst way.

But despite their mutual attraction, she’d made it very clear she wasn’t interested in him.

Time to let it go. To take the advice of the master of control. The man. The myth. The Monk.

“Hey Johnny, I’ll bet you’re looking forward to getting home.” Marco sat down with an empty seat between him and his teammate.

“Yeah. It wasn’t a bad road trip.” They’d won four out of six games in Atlanta and Milwaukee. “But I’m definitely ready to sleep in my own bed.”

“For me, one hotel is the same as the next.” He wasn’t complaining, just stating a fact.

“You’re still at the hotel?” Johnny shook his head. “Man, you need a place of your own.”

“I haven’t had time to look.” He was too busy trying to get Hunter out of his head. Trying to get his swing back. “Besides, at this point I don’t even know how long I’m going to be here. Kind of hard to find a decent place willing to rent for only two or three months.”

“You could sublet my apartment,” Johnny offered. “It’s right across the street from the ballpark. Now that Alice is over her morning sickness, we never stay over. It’s just sitting there. Vacant. It would be perfect for you, if you’re interested.”

“That might help me feel a little more settled.” Anything was better than staring up at the ceiling in his hotel room that was so like any other hotel room in any other city. A bed. A shower. A minibar. He hadn’t even bothered to unpack his suitcase. He’d given up a long time ago trying to ever make himself at home.

“Why don’t you come by tomorrow morning and take a look. If you want it, it’s yours. Through October. This team has come too far to go home at the end of September.”

“Sounds like a good deal.” Marco leaned back in the seat. Having a place to live was only part of his problem.

“Anything else I can do to help you settle in?” Johnny asked. The man must have noticed Marco’s lack of concentration.

Marco leaned forward, resting his forearms on his knees. “So how do you keep your head clear? Your concentration is legendary.”

“Well, to tell the truth, a lot of it was not having anything else to think about. I didn’t have anything else to care about.”

No woman getting under his skin.

“Well, you’ve got a lot now. A new wife, a teenager, and a baby on the way.” Marco was surprised by the little stab of envy. “You still manage to keep your head in the game.”

“Now I’ve got even more reason to keep my focus.” Johnny’s face lit up with the mention of his family.

Again, Marco felt like he was missing out on something. Not that he was looking to get married any time soon. But he thought he’d want a wife. A couple of kids. Someday. When he had a long term contract. When he could offer security. Stability.

He knew he wouldn’t want to uproot a family every couple of years. He’d done enough of that growing up. He’d always hated being the new kid. Having the teacher assume he didn’t speak English because he was one of those migrant worker’s kids. Sometimes they wouldn’t even bother to check his birth certificate to see that he was, in fact, here legally. He was born in Texas, just like two former presidents.

“I need to find my focus,” Marco stretched his legs out in front of him. “Otherwise, I won’t need to bother unpacking my bags. My contract is up at the end of the year. Then I’m a free agent.”

“So you want to make sure you finish strong.” Johnny knew the game. The whole game, both on and off the field.

“I want to help the team finish strong.” What he really wanted was a long-term contract. “The postseason bonus would be nice, too.”

“Not to mention make you more marketable.”

“Hey, maybe if I get my act together, they might want to keep me around.” Marco threw it out there as a joke, but yeah, he’d like that. He’d like that a lot. “It seems like a good organization. A team that’s only going to move forward.”

“Yeah. I’ve loved playing with these guys this year. More than being a collection of all-stars, it really feels like a team, you know?”

“I haven’t quite felt like one of the guys yet.” Marco had never had trouble fitting in with his teammates. But not this time. Mostly because he felt like he was letting everybody down. He didn’t want to be the reason they didn’t make it to the postseason.

“You will. You’ve been with the team, what, a week?”

“Ten days.” Ten days and he hadn’t done shit. Other than hit on his new owner, struggle at the plate and keep to himself. Yeah, that was a good way to fit into the clubhouse.

“You’ll feel like one of us by the end of this home stand. They traded for you for a reason. I’m sure you’ll be a key member of this team by the end of October.”

“Easy for you to say. You’re The Monk. You’re sure of everything.”

The other man just laughed.

“What looked like confidence on the outside”—Johnny turned and gave him a serious stare—“was just a way of covering up my fear. For most of my career, I was too scared to get rattled. Afraid if I let up for one game, one pitch, the whole world would find out I was a fraud.”

“You’re hardly a fraud.” Marco had a hard time picturing future Hall of Famer Johnny Scottsdale as having any doubts. “You’re practically perfect.”

“I was perfect. Once. For nine innings. I got over it.” Johnny also had two Cy Young Awards. “Besides, I still had to come out to the ballpark week after week. Play my game, even though I knew I wasn’t going to be perfect. I knew I’d make mistakes. And it wasn’t until I realized that I didn’t have to be perfect that I was able to relax again. I just have to go out there and be the best I can be on that day.”

“You know, that’s probably the best advice anyone’s ever given me.”

“Anytime.” Johnny stretched out his legs, leaned back in his seat, and tried to relax a little.

“How’d you do it all those years?” Marco needed to know about the non-baseball stuff. “How did you stay a monk off the field?”

Johnny chuckled. Shook his head and pulled his legs up so he could rest his elbows on his knees.

“It was actually a lot easier than you’d think.” He gave Marco a sideways glance. “For me, anyway. I could resist temptation because there was really only one woman for me.”

“Your wife.” Envy shook Marco like a blast of turbulence. “How did you know she was the one?”

“I just did. It’s hard to explain, especially since she married my best friend right after I left for the minor leagues.” Johnny leaned back, stretching out again. “But it was already too late. She had me the first time we met.”

“And you never even looked at another woman?” Marco was starting to understand what that felt like. There had been women on the road trip who normally would have caught his eye, but he wasn’t interested. Not now. He could tell himself it was because of the slump, but he’d busted out of slumps before with the help of a little female companionship.

“You ever play any other sports?” Johnny asked. “As a kid?”

“Sure. I played soccer a couple of years.” Marco wasn’t sure what this had to do with his question. Maybe Johnny was just tired of the whole monk thing. “But after a while, I gave it up.”

“Were you any good at it?”

“Sure. I was fast. Aggressive. Could kick the ball pretty hard.”

“So why did you quit?” There was something in Johnny’s voice that made Marco think he was leading him somewhere.

“I didn’t love it.” Marco shrugged, still not sure what soccer had to do with his problem with Hunter. “I knew baseball was it for me.”

“But you could have kept playing soccer, right? You might have been really good.”

“True. But why take a spot away from someone who really wanted it?”

“Why be with a woman if she’s not the one you really want?” Johnny asked.

Okay, he got the picture now. Mostly.

“I don’t know, man. If I got cut from the baseball team, I might have taken up another sport. How’d you do it knowing you couldn’t have her? It would be like if you’d quit after throwing your perfect game, knowing you’d give up a hit again.”

Johnny folded his hands behind his head. “I guess you could say I gave up on women, but I never really gave up on Alice. My secret, or whatever, was to channel it all into my game. The night I threw the perfect game? It would have been her tenth wedding anniversary.”

“Really?” Marco was even more impressed now.

“Yeah. So I did the only thing I knew how to do, I pitched my heart out.” Johnny chuckled. “Good thing I had some of it left when I found out she was no longer married.”

“I think I will take a look at your apartment tomorrow.” Marco felt a little like he’d walked in on a private moment. Johnny’s very public perfect game had a personal meaning behind it. “But call me when you’re ready. You need to spend time with your wife.”

“Don’t worry. We’re pretty good at making up for lost time.” He grinned, obviously looking forward to reuniting with Mrs. Scottsdale. “So tell me, is there someone back in St. Louis? Someone you’re trying to figure out if she’s more like baseball or soccer?”

“No. Not in St. Louis. Or Florida or Texas.” Marco couldn’t admit that he was hung up on a woman he couldn’t have. He knew she wasn’t like soccer, just a way to get his kicks. But he didn’t know if Hunter could be it for him. Could she be more to him than the game itself?

* * * *

The road trip hadn’t been a total disaster. They hadn’t lost any ground. But they hadn’t gained any. Every time the Goliaths won, so did their rivals. Every time L.A. lost a game, San Francisco dropped one, too.

Hunter was getting anxious as the remaining games became fewer and fewer in number. It was still too early for either team to start thinking about the magic number—that mathematical combination of wins by the leading team, losses by the second place team, and games left to play—but the tension was mounting.

She’d feel a lot better when the team was back on home soil. More in control of things. The players each had their own pregame rituals, and she had hers. Intellectually, she knew it didn’t change the outcome of the game if she didn’t line up the bobbleheads in her office just so, or forget to pat the large foam finger proclaiming We’re #1! as she left the office for the day. She knew turning her broom bristle side up after winning the first two games of a series wouldn’t guarantee a sweep, but she did it anyway. It couldn’t hurt.

And maybe, just maybe, a little pregame warm-up might be necessary to get Marco Santiago out of his slump.

She’d known the man ten days. And after tossing and turning in her bed for ten nights, she realized she couldn’t deny the attraction that sizzled between them. He’d made it very clear that he was game for a little outside the park action. She’d shut him down. And he’d admitted that her denial was at least contributing to his lack of production at the plate.

She decided she couldn’t deny him any longer. She couldn’t deny herself any longer either. It had been more than two years since she’d last gone out on a date. Since her father’s cancer had returned. She didn’t want to think about how long it had been since she’d last had sex.

She wasn’t a prude or anything, it was just that most of the men she’d gone out with didn’t really do it for her. They were nice, decent men. On paper, just what she was looking for. But she hadn’t felt that spark. That sizzle. That something extra that went beyond stats.

Until she looked into Marco Santiago’s eyes. She felt it then, the hyper-awareness, that same nervous anticipation she felt when the Goliaths held the lead in the bottom of the ninth and they were down to the last strike.

She felt it so much that she’d filled a prescription for birth control pills, picked up an extra-large sized package of condoms, and put fresh sheets on her bed.

Now all she had to do was figure out how to seduce the sexiest man in baseball.

She drove to the ballpark to meet the team bus. Most of the players left their cars in the secure players’ lot, rather than the airport’s long-term parking. Many of the wives and families who lived in the area would meet the team bus. There were always a few fans who stood just outside, hoping to catch a glimpse of their heroes and let them know they’d been missed while on the road. There were usually large crowds after a long road trip or an important series.

Hunter stood off to the side. She didn’t feel like she belonged with the players’ wives and girlfriends. Even if they knew who she was, it didn’t mean they would accept her into their circle. She was just their husband’s or boyfriend’s boss.

Besides, this was their time. Time to welcome home the men they loved. The men with whom they shared a life outside of baseball.

As she watched couple after couple reunite, Hunter felt a pang of loneliness that went deeper than just not having a man in her life. She missed her father. The thought of going back to her empty house was almost unbearable.

He’d died not long after opening day. She’d known it was coming, but it still hit her pretty hard. She was grateful he’d hung in there until after the season started. So she’d have something to focus on other than her grief. She could surround herself with her team. Her family. The only family she had left.

Alice Scottsdale approached her as they waited for the bus to unload.

“I don’t know if you remember me, we met a few times through my work with the Harrison Foundation.”

“Of course, I remember you. And congratulations.” Hunter hoped her smile hid her feelings of envy. “On your marriage. The baby. Everything.”

“Thank you.” The other woman actually glowed with happiness. “I wanted to extend my condolences. Your father was a good man. I enjoyed working with him through the foundation.”

Hunter couldn’t speak past the familiar lump in her throat. Grief was something that would sometimes hit her all of a sudden. She tried to push the feelings aside. To save them for the offseason. She didn’t have time to deal with it now, she had a team to run. Too many people were counting on her. Not just the players, but also coaches and support staff. Even the people who worked at the ballpark—the concessioners, ushers, and parking lot attendants—all needed the Goliaths to be successful.

She had nightmares of losing control of her team. Of someone like Clayton Barry running the franchise into the ground or deciding it would be more profitable to try and move the team. She couldn’t let that happen.

“I’ve always been impressed with the way you’ve run things from the top down. The Goliaths have always been a first class organization.” Alice was talking to her, but her focus was on the bus. “And I know that this team means more to you than just a business.”

“This team is all I have left.” Hunter didn’t mean to say that out loud. Even if it was true. “What I mean is, this team is like my family. I grew up around these guys. Well, not these guys. But the men who came before them. It was like having twenty-five brothers who all looked out for me. Only now, I’m the one looking out for them.”

“And you are doing a great job.” Alice put her hand on Hunter’s shoulder, but then her attention was drawn to the last two players to emerge from the team bus, Scottsdale and Santiago.