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His words shut me up for about five full seconds. My hand drops from his elbow.

“I think your situation is a little more important than mine right now,” I say.

“Really?” he says. “And you wanting to ride around alone on a bus, not knowing where the hell you’re going and putting yourself in danger; that doesn’t seem imminently as important to you?”

He seems angry. I can tell that he is, but most of it, if not every bit of it, is because his father is upstairs dying, and Andrew doesn’t know how to let him go. I feel sorry for him, for being raised to believe that he can’t show the kind of emotion needed in a situation like this, or else it will make him less of a man.

I can’t show the emotion, either, but I wasn’t raised that way, I was forced into it.

“Do you cry at all?” I ask. “About other things? Have you ever cried?”

He scoffs. “Of course. Everybody cries, even big tough guys like me.”

“OK, name one time.”

He answers easily: “A … movie made me cry once,” but he suddenly appears embarrassed and might be regretting his answer.

“What movie?”

He can’t look me in the eyes. I feel the mood lightening between us, despite what created it.

“What does it matter?” he says.

I smile and step up closer to him. “Oh come on, just tell me—what, you think I’m going to laugh at you and call you a pussy?”

He breaks a small grin underneath the embarrassed flush of his face.

“The Notebook,” he says so low that I didn’t quite catch it.

“Did you say The Notebook?”

“Yes! I cried watching The Notebook, alright?”

He turns his back on me and I’m using every shred of strength I have to hold back the laughter. I don’t think it’s at all funny that he cried watching The Notebook; what’s funny is his humiliated reaction admitting it.

I laugh. I can’t help it, it just comes out.

Andrew whirls around with eyes wider than plates and he glares at me for a second. I yelp when he grabs me and throws me over his shoulder, carrying me right out of the hospital.

I’m laughing so hard I have tears in my eyes. Fun tears, not the ones I stopped shedding after Ian died.

“Put me down!” I beat my fists against his back.

“You said you wouldn’t laugh!”

Him saying that only makes me laugh harder. I cackle and let out weird noises I never knew I could make.

“Please, Andrew! Put me down!” My fingers are digging into his back through the fabric of his shirt.

Finally, I feel my shoes touch the concrete. I look at him and I do stop laughing because I want him to talk to me. I can’t let him leave his father.

But he speaks up first:

“I just can’t cry around or for him, like I told you before.”

I touch his arm gently. “Well then don’t cry, but at least stay.”

“I’m not going to stay, Camryn.” He stares deeply into my eyes and I know just by the way he’s looking at me that I’m not going to be able to change his mind. “I appreciate you trying to help, but this isn’t something I can give in to.”

Reluctantly, I nod.

“Maybe sometime during this road trip you agreed to, we’ll be able to tell each other the things we don’t want to tell,” he says and my heart, for some reason, reacts to his voice.

There’s a flutter inside my chest, just between my breasts behind my ribcage.

Andrew smiles brightly, his perfectly-shaped green eyes like the centerpiece of his sculpted face.

He really is gorgeous …

“So, what have you decided?” he asks, crossing his arms and looking all inquisitive. “Am I buying you a plane ticket home, or are you really set on the road to Nowhere, Texas?”

“You really want to go with me?” I just can’t believe it and at the same time, I want more than anything for it to be true.

I hold my breath waiting for him to answer.

He smiles. “Yes, I really do.”

The fluttering turns into hot mush and my face smiles so hugely that for a long moment, I can’t seem to soften it.

“I just have one complaint about tagging along though,” he says, holding up a finger.

“What?”

“Riding on that bus,” he says. “I really fucking hate it.”

I chuckle quietly and have to agree with him on that one.

“So how else are we supposed to go?”

One side of his mouth lifts into a knowing smile. “We can take the car,” he says. “I’ll drive.”

I don’t hesitate.

“OK.”

“OK?” he says, pausing. “That’s it? You’re just going to hop in the car with a guy you barely know and trust him not to rape you on a deserted highway somewhere—I thought we already went over this?”

I tilt my head to one side, crossing my arms. “Is it any different than meeting you at the library and going out with you a night or two later, alone in your car?” I tilt my head to the other side. “Everybody starts out as strangers, Andrew, but not everybody meets a stranger who saves her from a rapist and takes her to meet his dying father practically in the same night—I’d say you passed the trustworthy test a little ways back.”

The left side of his mouth lifts into a grin, disrupting the seriousness of my heartfelt words. “So this road trip is a date then?”

“What?” I laugh. “No! It was just an analogy.”

I know he’s aware of that, but I need to say something to help distract him from my reddening cheeks. “You know what I mean.”

He smiles. “Yeah, I know, but you do owe me a ‘friendly’ dinner in the company of a steak.” He quotes with his fingers when he says ‘friendly’. The smile never leaves his face.

“I do, I admit it.”

“Then it’s settled,” he says, looping his arm through mine and walking me toward the cab waiting near the parking lot. “We’ll pick up my dad’s car from the bus station, stop by his house and grab a few things and then we’re on the road.”

He opens the back door on the cab to let me get in first, shutting it behind him once he slides in next to me.

The cab pulls out of the lot.

“Oh, I should probably set a few ground rules before we do this.”

“Oh?” I turn at the waist and look at him curiously. “What kind of ground rules?”

He smiles.

“Well, number one: my car, my stereo; I’m sure I don’t need to elaborate on that.”

I roll my eyes. “So, basically you’re telling me I’m stuck with you in a car on a road trip and can only listen to classic rock?”

“Ah, it’ll grow on ya’.”

“It never grew on me when I was growing up and had to endure my parents listening to it.”

“Number two,” he says holding up two fingers and dismissing my argument altogether. “You have to do whatever I say.”

My head snaps back and my brows draw together harshly. “Huh? What the hell’s that supposed to mean?”

His smile gets bigger, crafty even.

“You said you trusted me, so trust me on this.”

“Well, you’re going to have to give me more than that. Really, no joke.”

He leans back against the seat and folds his hands between his long, splayed legs.

“I promise you I won’t ask you to do anything harmful, degrading, dangerous or unacceptable.”

“So basically, you won’t be asking me to suck your dick for five hundred dollars, or anything like that?”

Andrew throws his head back and laughs out loud. The cab driver shifts in the front seat. I notice his eyes veer away from the rearview mirror when I look up.

“No, definitely nothing like that—I swear.” He’s still sort of laughing.

“OK, but what would you ask me to do then?”

I’m totally leery of this whole idea. I still trust him, I admit, but I’m also a little terrified now in a worried-I’ll-wake-up-with-a-Sharpie-moustache sort of way.

He pats my thigh with his hand. “If it makes you feel better, you can tell me to screw off if you want to refuse anything, but I hope you won’t because I really want to show you how to live.”

Wow, that totally catches me off-guard. He’s serious; nothing humorous about those words and once again I find myself fascinated by him.

“How to live?”

“You ask too many damn questions.” He pats my thigh one more time and moves his hand back into his lap.

“Well, if you were on this side of the car, you’d be asking a lot of questions, too.”

“Maybe.”

My lips part halfway. “You are a very strange person, Andrew Parrish, but alright, I trust you.”

His smile becomes more warming as he lays his head against the seat looking over at me.

“Any more ground rules?” I ask.

He looks up in thought and chews on the inside of his mouth for a moment.

“Nope.” His head falls back to the side. “That’s about it.”

It’s my turn.

“Well I have a few ground rules of my own.”

He lifts his head with curiosity, but leaves his hands flat over his stomach with his strong fingers interlocked.

“Alright, shoot,” he says, grinning, prepared for anything I can throw at him, surely.

“Number one: under no circumstances will you be getting in my panties. Just because I’m friendly to you and am agreeing to—well, the craziest thing I’ve ever done—I’m giving you advance warning that I’m not going to be your next lay, or fall in love with you.” He’s grinning from ear to ear right now and it’s very distracting. “Or anything like that. Is that understood?” I’m trying to be very serious about this. I really am. And I do mean what I said. But that stupid grin of his is sort of forcing me to smile and I hate him for it.

He crinkles his lips in thought. “Completely understood,” he agrees, though I feel there is a hidden meaning behind his words.

I nod. “Good.” I feel better that I made myself clear.

“What else?” he asks.

For a second I forgot about the other ground rule.

“Yeah so number two is: no Bad Company.”

He looks mildly mortified.

“What the hell kind of rule is that?”

“It’s just my rule,” I say, smirking. “You have a problem with it? You have all the other classic rock you can listen to and I’m not allowed to listen to anything I want, so I see nothing wrong with my tiny stipulation.” I hold my thumb and index finger a half inch apart to show how tiny.

“Well I don’t like that rule,” he grumbles. “Bad Company is a great band—why such a hater?”

He looks wounded. I find it cute.

I purse my lips. “Honestly?” I’m probably going to regret this.

“Well yeah, honestly,” he says, crossing his arms. “Out with it.”

“They sing too much about love. It’s cheesy.”

Andrew laughs out loud again and I’m starting to think the cab driver is really getting an earful with us in his car.

“Sounds like someone is bit-ter,” Andrew says and a deep grin warms his lips.

Yep, I regret it.

I look away from him because I can’t let him see anything in my face to confirm that he’s right on target with his assessment of me. At least where my cheating ex, Christian, is concerned. With him, it’s bitterness. With Ian, it’s cruel, unadulterated pain.

“Well, we’ll fix that, too,” he says nonchalantly.

I look back over.

“Ummm, well thanks Dr. Phil, but I don’t need help with that sort of thing.”

Wait a damn minute! Who ever said I needed to be ‘fixed’ at all?

“Oh?” He tilts his chin, looking curious.

“Yeah,” I say. “Besides, that would sort of break my ground rule number one.”

He blinks and smiles. “Oh, you automatically assume I was going to offer myself up as the guinea pig?” His shoulders bounce with gentle laughter.

Ouch!

I try not to look offended. Not sure if it’s working all that well, so I use a different tactic:

“Well, I would hope not,” I say, batting my eyes. “You’re not my type.”

Oh yeah, ball’s in my court again; I think he actually flinched!

“And just what’s wrong with me?” he asks, but I’m totally not buying anymore that my comment really hurt him. People don’t normally smile after they’ve been offended.

I turn around the whole way, pressing my back against the cab door and look him up and down. I’d be lying my ass off if I said I don’t like what I see. I haven’t found anything yet that doesn’t make him my type. In fact, if it weren’t for me not being into sex or dating or relationships or love, Andrew Parrish is the kind of guy that I would totally go for and who Natalie would openly drool over.

She would wear him across her boobs.

“There’s nothing ‘wrong’ with you,” I say. “I just tend to end up with the … tame types.”

For the third time, Andrew’s head falls back into laughter.

“Tame?” he says, still laughing. He nods a few times and adds, “Yeah, I guess you’re right in saying I’m not exactly the tame type.” He holds up his finger as if to make a point. “But what interests me more about what you said is that you ‘end up’ with them—what do you think that means?”

How did the ball even get back in his court? I never saw him coming.

I look to him for the answer, even though he’s the one who asked the question. He’s still smiling, but there’s something much softer and perceptive in it this time, rather than the usual jest.

He doesn’t say anything.

“I-I don’t know,” I say distantly and then look right at him. “Why does that have to mean anything anyway?”

He shakes his head subtly, but just looks out in front of him as the cab pulls into the parking lot near the bus station. Andrew’s dad’s 1969 Chevy Chevelle is the only car left in the lot. They must really be into that whole vintage car thing.

Andrew pays the driver and we get out.

“Have a good night, man,” he says, waving as the driver pulls away.

I end up riding to Andrew’s dad’s house mostly in a contemplative quiet, thinking about what he said, but then I let it go when we pull into the driveway of his dad’s immaculate house.

“Whoa,” I say with parted lips as I step out of the car. “That’s a lot of house.”

His door shuts. “Yeah, my dad owns a successful construction and design company,” he says nonchalantly. “Come on, I don’t want to spend too much time here in case Aidan shows up.”

I walk alongside him down the curved, landscaped walkway leading to the front door of the three-story house. It’s such a rich, immaculate place I just can’t see his particular father living in it. His father just seems more of a simple kind of man and not one to be as materialistic as my mother.

Mom would faint in something like this.

Andrew thumbs through his keys and pushes the right one into the door lock.

It clicks open.

“Not to be nosey, but why would your dad want to live in a house this big?”

The foyer smells like cinnamon potpourri.

“Nah, this was his ex-wife’s doing, not his.” I follow him straight to the white-carpeted staircase. “She was a nice woman—Linda, the woman he mentioned at the hospital—but she couldn’t deal with Dad and I can’t blame her.”

“I thought you were going to tell me she married him for his money.”

Andrew shakes his head as he leads me up the stairs.

“No, it was nothing like that—my dad is just a difficult man to live with.” He slips his keys down into his front right jeans pocket.

I steal a quick glance of his butt in those jeans as he pads up the stairs in front of me. I bite my bottom lip and then mentally kick myself.

“This is my room.” We enter the first bedroom on the left. It’s fairly empty; looks more like a storage room with a few boxes piled neatly against one taupe-colored wall, some exercise equipment and a weird-looking Native American statue pushed into the far corner and partially wrapped in plastic. Andrew moves across the space to the walk-in closet and flips a light switch inside. I stay near the center of the room, arms crossed, looking around and trying not to look like I’m snooping.

“You say ‘is’ your room?”

“Yeah,” he says from inside the closet, “for when I visit, or if I ever want to live here.”

I walk closer to the closet to see him sifting through clothes hanging much how I hang mine.

“You’re OCD, too, I see.”

He looks at me questioningly.

I point to the clothes hung by color and on matching black plastic hangers.

“Oh, no, definitely not,” he clarifies. “Dad’s housekeeper comes in here and does this shit. I could care less that my clothes are hung up at all, much less by color—that’s too … wait—” He pulls away from the shirts and looks at me in a sidelong glance. “You do this to your clothes?” He points his finger horizontally at the shirts and moves it back and forth.

“Yeah,” I say, but I feel weird admitting it to him, “I like my stuff neat and everything has to have a place.”

Andrew laughs and goes back to sifting through the shirts. Without really looking at them much, he yanks a few shirts and pairs of jeans from the hangers and throws them over his arm.

“Isn’t that stressful?” he asks.

“What? Hanging my clothes up neatly?”

He smiles and shoves the small mound of clothes into my arms.

I look down at them awkwardly and back up at him.

“Never mind,” he says and points behind me in the room. “Can you put those in that duffle bag hanging from the workout bench?”

“Sure,” I say and carry them over.

First I set them down on the black vinyl bench and then grab the duffle bag hanging from the weights.

“So, where are we going to go first?” I ask, folding the shirt on top of the pile.

He’s still rummaging through the closet.

“No, no,” he says from inside; his voice is kind of muffled, “no outlines, Camryn. We’re just going to get into the car and drive. No maps or plans or—” He’s popped his head out of the closet and his voice is clearer. “What are you doing?”

I look up, the second shirt from the pile already in a half-fold.

“I’m folding them for you.”

I hear a thump-thump as he drops a pair of black running shoes on the floor and emerges from the closet towards me. When he makes it over, he looks at me like I’ve done something wrong and takes the half-folded shirt from my hands.

“Don’t be so perfect, babe; just shove them in the bag.”

He does it for me as if to show me how easy it is.

I don’t know which has my attention more: his lesson in disorganization, or why my stomach flip-flopped when he called me ‘babe’.

I shrug and let him have his way with his clothes.

“What you wear really doesn’t matter much,” he says, walking back to the closet. “All that matters is where you’re going and what you’re doing while you’re wearing it.”

He tosses the black running shoes to me, one at a time, and I catch them. “Shove those in there, too, if you don’t mind.”

I do exactly what he says, literally shoving them inside the bag and I cringe while doing it. Good thing the bottoms of the shoes look like they’ve never been worn, otherwise I would’ve had to protest.

“You know what I find sexy in a girl?”

He’s standing with one muscular arm raised high above his head as he searches through some boxes on the top shelf of the closet. I can see the very end of that tattoo he has down his left side, peeking just at the edge of his shirt.

“Ummm, I’m not sure,” I say. “Girls who wear wrinkled clothes?” I scrunch up my nose.

“Girls who just get up and throw something on,” he answers and takes down a shoe box.

He walks back out with it perched on the palm of his hand.

“That just-got-up-and-don’t-give-a-shit look is sexy.”

“I get it,” I say. “You’re one of those guys who despise makeup and perfume and all that stuff that makes girls, girls.”

He hands me the shoebox and just like with the clothes, I look down at it with vague question.

Andrew smiles. “Nah, I don’t hate it, I just think simple is sexy, is all.”

“What do you want me to do with this?”

I pat the top of the shoe box with my finger.

“Open it.”

I glance down at it, uncertain, and back up at him. He nods once to urge me.

I lift the red top off the box and stare down at a bunch of CDs in their original jewel cases.

“My dad was too lazy to put an MP3 player in his car,” he begins, “and when traveling you can’t always get the best radio reception—sometimes you can’t find a decent station at all.”

He takes the shoebox top from my hand.

“That’ll be our official playlist.” He smiles hugely, revealing all of his straight, white teeth.

Me, not so much. I grimace and scrunch up one side of my mouth sourly.

Everything is here, all of the bands he mentioned when I met him on the bus and several others I’ve never heard of. I’m pretty confident that I’ve heard ninety percent of the music I’m staring at at one time or another being around my parents. But if anyone were to ask me the name of this or that song, or what album it’s from, or what band sings it, I probably wouldn’t know.

“Great,” I say sarcastically, frown-smiling at him with a wrinkled nose.

His smile just gets bigger. I think he loves torturing me.