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SKETCH of THE

DUC DE ROCHEFOUCAULD

By Himself

I am of medium stature: I am well proportioned and my gestures are easy. My coloring is dark but harmonious. My forehead is high and rather broad, my eyes black, small and deep set; my eyebrows are dark and bushy, but well shaped. I am at a loss what to say of the shape of my nose, for it is neither hooked nor aquiline, heavy nor yet, to my knowledge, sharp; all that I can say of it is that it is large rather than small, and that it is a. trifle too long. My mouth is large and my lips are usually fairly red and neither well nor ill shaped. My teeth are white and moderately regular. People have told me that my chin is too pronounced. I have just examined myself in the mirror to ascertain the truth of the matter, and I do not quite know what judgment to pronounce. My face is certainly square or oval—I hardly know which. My hair is black, curls naturally and is sufficiently abundant to sustain my pre- tension to a Fine head.

My expression is both haughty and sad, which leads most persons to deem me supercilious, although in reality quite the reverse. My gestures are easy, perhaps too easy, for I gesticulate freely when speaking. Such, quite frankly, do I consider my exterior, and I fancy one will find that my opinion is not far from the truth. I shall be as candid in drawing the rest of my portrait, for I have sufficiently studied myself to know myself accurately; nor shall I be reticent in enumerating my good qualities nor in confessing such faults as are mine.

In the first place, as far as my disposition is concerned, I am melancholy, and that to such & degree that m three or (our years I have hardly been seen to laugh the same number of times. Nevertheless my melancholy would be bearable and even pleasant enough were I so only by temperament. Unfortunately I am the prey of many other kinds of melancholy which so strongly affect my imagination and so occupy my thoughts that for the most part I dream in silence, or when I speak, my words are scarce coherent. I am reticent with persons -whom I do not know, and I am not very communicative even to such B! I know intimately. I am well aware that this is a failing, and I will spare no pains to cure me of it. Nevertheless, inasmuch as the somber expression of my features tends to make me appear even more reserved than I am, and since it lies not within our power to rid ourselves of an unpleasant expression with which Nature has burdened us, I tear that, though I be inwardly cured, externally I shall still wear the same unfortunate address.

I love my friends, and I love them to the extent of never allowing my interests to militate against theirs. I treat them considerately, I bear patiently their disagreeable moods, but I am not effusive nor am I distressed by their absence,

Nature has made me but little curious in regard to those things which arouse the greatest curiosity in most people. Very secretive, I have no difficulty in keeping to myself what has been said to me confidentially. I lay great store by a promise, and never break one, regardless of the subject involved. This I have made an unalterable law of my existence. I am punctiliously polite with ladies, and to my knowledge have never said anything to a woman which could distress her. When they are intelligent, I prefer their conversation to that of men, for one is aware of a certain delicacy which is not to be found among 115 men. Further- more, I think they express themselves with a greater nicety and in a more agreeable manner. Gallantry I indulged in to a slight degree in former years, but now, young as I am, I have abandoned it. I have given up flirtations, and am surprised to see how many upright men are addicted to them.

I have wit, nor am I backward in asserting the fact. For why quibble over this point? To be over-reticent or to under-rate such natural advantages as we possess strikes me as concealing somewhat of vanity beneath a modest mien, and as making use of a clever ruse to lead others to believe more good of us than -we actually claim. I am satisfied that people should think me no handsomer than I paint myself, of no better disposition than I myself pretend to, no more witty nor more intelligent than I am. I repeat, then. that I have wit; but a wit spoiled by melancholy, for although I have a good command of language, a useful memory and a ready grasp of subjects, yet my melancholy has such control over my thoughts that frequently I ex press very badly what I wish to say.

To converse with respectable folk is one of my greatest delights. The conversation should be serious and should deal with serious matters. On the other hand, I can enjoy the lighter vein and, although I do not often indulge in small-talk, it is not that I am unappreciative of trifles well put, or that I am not amused by banter wherein certain quick and pleasant forms of wit are made to shine. I write good prose; my verses are not bad, and I think that if I aspired to the glory of authorship I could without difficulty acquire some reputation as a writer.

I am fond of reading, but more especially of those forms from which one derives mental stimulation or guidance. My greatest pleasure is to read with an intelligent person, for then one is constantly thinking of what one reads and the remarks one makes form the most useful and agreeable of conversations.

I am a very fair critic of prose and of verse submitted to me, but: I am inclined to speak my opinion too frankly. I am further inclined to err from an overdeveloped sense of delicacy and from criticizing too harshly. I am far from disliking an argument, and not infrequently take a part, although I am inclined to maintain my contentions with too great vehemence. Hence, when my opponent sustains an incorrect theory, in my eagerness to defend the right, I, in turn, become quite illogical.

My sentiments are upright; my impulses are fine, and so eagerly do I desire to be honest that my friends can do me no greater service than to point out my faults. Those who have known me intimately and have been good enough to give me advice on this point can bear witness that I have always accepted their suggestions with the greatest alacrity and submission.

My passions are not violent and are well controlled. Rarely has any one seen me in a rage, nor have I ever hated any person. Nevertheless, I am not above revenge if I have been offended in such manner that honor demands that I resent the insult. Indeed I am convinced that my sense of duty would so well play the part of hate that I should pursue my vengeance even more tenaciously than the next man.

I am not a victim of ambition; I am not a coward and in nowise fearful of death. I am not easily moved to pity, and I would prefer to be entirely insensible to it. Yet there is nothing I would not do to console an afflicted person, and I verily believe that one should do all in one’s power, even to the extent of expressing great sympathy for their grief, for people in affliction are sufficiently stupid to derive great consolation from such expressions. On the other hand, I maintain that while one should express sympathy, one should scrupulously avoid feeling it. It is a profitless sentiment which does little but weaken the heart, and one which should be left to the common people, who, since they do nothing logically, must look to passion to stimulate action.

I am an ardent admirer of noble passions; they are the hall-marks of great intellects, and although the anxieties dependent thereupon are somewhat opposed to austerity of mind, they nevertheless conform so well with the severest virtue that I deem it wrong to condemn them. I, who know so well all the delicacy and strength which are a part of a great love, am certain that if ever I love, it will assuredly be after this fashion, and yet, made as I am, I doubt whether this perception will ever pass from my mind to my heart.