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ОглавлениеCaleb stared at the sea of faces gathered in the meeting room of the Refuge Library. They made him nervous. So much so that he’d twisted the brim of his hat into a knot. He was nervous for Kristen, nervous for Greg, nervous that no one would even care about one old rancher with dead kidneys and no family other than an adopted son whose blood type didn’t even match.
Members of a local service club listened with varying amounts of interest. From his place on the dais, Caleb could see their faces and the few who played on their cell phones while Kristen explained the life-and-death scenarios people like his dad lived with every day.
He wanted to get up and punch the cell phone users, demand they listen and care. Kristen was terrific. Articulate, warm, funny. And the PowerPoint presentation was an attention grabber filled with grim facts as well as the hope and long life that could be realized through a living kidney donation. He was learning from her, too.
When she introduced Caleb, he stood, awkward as a three-legged calf. Here goes nothing, he thought for the sixth time in two weeks. He was the face of the issue, like he’d been years ago on one of those news programs that beg people to adopt older kids. He remembered the humiliation, the feeling that he was a germ under the microscope and lesser somehow because he had no parents to love him.
This was different, though. This wasn’t about him. This was about Greg, the only person to respond to that long-ago news program. As long as he could remember that, he didn’t care if his face was hotter than a brush fire or that his knees wobbled like Jell-O.
He stepped up to the microphone, cleared his throat and read from the paper he’d written and rewritten.
“Pops. That’s my dad,” he started, feeling proud as he always did to be able to claim Greg Girard as his dad. “He’s the best man I know, a hard worker, a real cowboy who loves his neighbor like the Good Book says and goes the extra mile to help others. He used to donate blood every time the mobile came to town, and after fire wiped out the Belgers’ hay barn, he fed their cows all through the winter out of our barn, free of charge. We ran a little short that spring, but he never mentioned the reason, just went to the feed store and bought expensive feed.”
Though his fingers trembled, he peeked at the crowd. Most were listening. He looked back at his notes.
“Even after his kidneys failed and he had to go on dialysis or die, he was thinking about others. At Thanksgiving, he drove around Refuge, distributing beef from our herd to families who were having a hard time. I could tell you lots of stories about him like that, but I’ll just leave you with this thought. If it was your dad, wouldn’t you want someone to step up and save his life?”
Grabbing his hat, he sat down again. Blood pulsed in his head. He had no memory of what he’d said. He hoped he’d made sense. He twisted his hat again, aware he was about to ruin a perfectly good Resistol.
Kristen turned her head, gave him one of her reassuring smiles, the kind that lit him up on the inside, fool that he was. She always said he did great. He doubted it. She was nice like that.
They were, however, making progress. Thanks to her. Every time they did this speaking gig, several attendees took the business cards he’d had printed with the donation center’s information.
Each response, small though it was, gave him hope. Not much, but enough to keep him rushing through chores to meet Kristen at the Lions Club or the arts council or any of number of churches who’d agreed to hear them speak.
When her talk ended, followed by polite applause, the group took a break, and he found himself uncomfortably surrounded with questioners. He looked for Kristen, but as happened every time, she was surrounded, too.
“Why don’t you give your dad a kidney?” The man in a yellow golf shirt seemed almost accusatory.
“I’m not a match. He’s type O. I’m AB. His donor needs to be O.”
A woman with a kind face asked from behind purple glasses, “I know your dad. How’s he doing?”
“Holding his own, thank you. But like Kristen mentioned on the PowerPoint, being on dialysis a long time shortens his life span, even after he gets a new kidney. We need a donor as soon as possible.”
Somehow he got through the rest of the questions and wove his way past clutches of conversations toward Kristen. She was the real power behind this campaign, and every time they were together, he found himself more and more captivated by her.
The wild teenage love he’d suffered in high school had grown up to be every bit as wild. His certainty that he didn’t stand a chance with her was even wilder. Love her from afar, but keep his mouth shut. That was his modus operandi.
He spotted her then, as questioners drifted away, leaving one gray-suited man and Kristen. The man was standing a little too close, Caleb thought. Kristen stepped back two paces and ended up against a wall. The man followed, talking, his hands gesturing. Caleb recognized him.
Danny Bert. Used-car salesman. High school jock and bully.
Something dark moved inside Caleb, a primal sense of protectiveness. He picked up his pace, excusing himself as he brushed past the remaining people.
“You haven’t been around in a while, Kristen,” the suit was saying. “Maybe we should have coffee and talk over old times and this donor thing. I know a great little place that stays open late.”
“Sorry, Danny, I can’t, but I appreciate your interest in donating. Call the number on the card, and they’ll get you started.”
“I’d rather talk to you. Old times and all. Remember the junior prom? You and me. It might be worth that phone call you want me to make. Quid pro quo?”
Caleb didn’t like the sound of those words. Whatever they meant.
Kristen crossed her arms. Conflicting emotions flashed on her face. She didn’t want to turn away a possible donor, but Danny was coming on too strong. That he was a man accustomed to having his way was no secret to anyone in Refuge.
Caleb stepped in next to Kristen, ignoring the car salesman. “Ready to go? I could use that Coke you promised me.”
“Oh, there you are.” Relief smoothed the frown between her eyes. She relaxed her arms. “Yes, I’m ready. Let me grab the laptop first.”
“Sure thing.” He slipped an arm around Kristen’s waist, hoping Danny picked up on the subtle clues. Hoping even more that Kristen wouldn’t slap him silly.
Danny looked from him to Kristen. “You’re with him?”
The way the car salesman said him prickled the hair on the back of Caleb’s neck. He’d heard that tone before. Danny treated him like a speck of manure on the bottom of his shoe. Always had.
Maybe he was, but Kristen wasn’t.
For good measure, he shoulder jostled the former jock and left him standing there.
“I could have handled him,” Kristen said when they reached the dais.
The meeting room emptied, including Danny Bert, who was busy schmoozing someone else by the time he reached the exit. Probably selling the man a car. Or a beachfront property in Arizona.
“I know you could.” He closed the laptop, figuring she was mad now. “Sorry if I overstepped.”
“You didn’t. Thank you. Danny has always been pushy.”
“Yeah.”
She gathered her notes and stuck them in a tote. “I owe you that Coke.”
His head jerked up. “I just said that to—”
She put a hand on his arm. “I know. But a Coke sounds good after all that talking.”
“Pops might need me.”
“Your dad is at Bible study.”
“Oh.” He knew that. He hadn’t expected her to.
He shouldn’t go with her. They already spent so much time together he could barely think straight.
But he was a weak man. Slapping his hat on his head, he asked, “Where to?”
* * *
Kristen was chiding herself as she slid into the booth at the fast-food restaurant. Caleb had been sweet to rescue her from that irritant Danny Bert, but he hadn’t wanted to come here and extend their time together. Why had she insisted?
And what was it about her that found aloof men so intriguing?
Caleb set a lidded fountain drink in front of her and slid in on the other side of the booth. His foot jostled her boot cast.
“Sorry. Did that hurt?” He gripped his soda cup until she thought he’d pop the lid off.
“Not at all.”
His fingers eased their stranglehold. “When do you get free of the boot?”
“Another week, I hope. I’m healing faster than expected.”
She sipped at the Coke, remembering the only other time she and Caleb had shared a soda in this place. Maybe in this exact booth. “Tonight went great, I thought. I gave out ten cards.”
“About the same for me.”
“They won’t all follow through, but maybe some will.”
“Like Danny Bert?”
She rolled her eyes. “Danny’s a wart on the world.”
Caleb laughed, coughed, choked on his drink.
She handed him a napkin, chuckling. “It isn’t very Christian of me, but ever since I was his date to the junior prom, he thinks I owe him something.”
Caleb’s eyes danced. “Corsages are pricey.”
“Why, Mr. Girard, are you making fun of me?”
“Depends on how much you liked the flowers, I guess. I didn’t go to the junior prom.”
“Or the senior one, either.” A blush crept up her neck. Why had she said that? It was ages ago, and that she remembered seemed...pathetic.
“Nope. Neither one.” He pumped his straw up and down in the lid without drinking. “I was never much for dancing.”
“I thought all cowboys could scoot a boot.”
“Nah.” His mouth curved. “That’s only in the movies. All my boot scooting happens when a bull gets after me.”
Kristen laughed. “A regular twinkle toes?”
“Something like that.” He sipped from the straw. “You hungry? I was thinking some fries sound good.”
“I normally don’t eat fast food, but you go ahead.”
He scooted out of the booth, and she watched him walk to the counter. He wasn’t a swaggering cowboy, but he sure looked good in jeans and cowboy boots.
* * *
A dozen emotions flooded through Caleb as he carried his order back to the booth. He should hit the trail, forget the food, forget Kristen Andrews.
He doubted she remembered the only other time they’d been in this restaurant together, but he remembered. She’d been sixteen, a bouncy cheerleader in white shorts and a green shirt, cute and friendly as a pup. He’d fallen so in love with her, he hadn’t slept at all that night.
He slid the tray onto the table and sat again. They were adults now, so why couldn’t his heart behave like one?
He’d barely settled when she pinned him with those green eyes. “Why aren’t you married, Caleb?”
A dozen reasons. He came from bad blood. He didn’t know how to be a husband. He sure didn’t know how to be a father. He’d decided long ago to remain a bachelor like Pops.
“No one will have me,” he joked.
“Oh, come on.” She tapped his fingers like a schoolmarm with a ruler. “Be serious. Haven’t you ever been in love?”
“Once.” And once was all it took. “I decided the whole marriage and family thing wasn’t for me. You?”
“I’ve thought so a couple of times.”
His heart squeezed. “But?”
“Things haven’t worked out. Yet. I’m still praying and asking for God’s direction.” She pulled the straw loose from the lid and studied the drippy end. “I’d like to get married someday and have a family, the way my parents did.”
An all-American, traditional family like hers. He couldn’t begin to fathom what that was like.
“Must have been some smart man in Colorado who caught your eye.”
“There was.”
“But not anymore?” A zing of hope shot up like a July thermometer.
“Not sure. We’re...taking a break. His practice is really busy.”
He didn’t care how busy he was. If Kristen was his woman, he’d find time. “Practice? He a lawyer?”
“James is a doctor. A surgeon.”
Hoped faded, crashed, ached.
James. A doctor. Smart and successful. And probably rich. Exactly the kind of man Kristen deserved.
Another reason Caleb would remain a bachelor.
