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A later call on President Roosevelt and Prime Minister Churchill, a guest at the White House, was no more than an informal chat.... Tobruk, in the African desert, had just fallen to the Germans and the whole Allied world was thrown into gloom.... General Clark and I, with a few assistants, left Washington in late June 1942. This time the parting from my family seemed particularly difficult although it was, in a sense, a mere repetition of previous instances covering many years. Our son came down from West Point; he, my wife, and I had two days together, and then I left.

—Crusade in Europe, by Dwight D. Eisenhower.

SO MANY were leaving, so many and mostly so young. They poured out of their homes and moved urgently to the last barricades, for the war was nearly three years old and the lesser barricades had already been overrun. They were all sorts and sizes and shapes, these men who were to be twisted into a solid mold of olive drab and khaki; the eager, the laggard, the brave, the sensitive, the frightened, the kind, the cruel, and the noble, in such myriad variety and combination that the important personages who pondered global charts and issued global orders must have felt a trifling of what it means to be God. So many paths were to be crossed, so many were to die, so many to live and perhaps learn.

From where Lieutenant Brad Parker stood, on the railway platform at Malton, Connecticut, his global view was somewhat constricted by a group of thirty relations and friends.

His handsome wife, Jane, stood beside him neither snugly nor coldly but with a sure sense of possession, and the first semicircle that faced him was composed of his father-in-law, Damien Lakelock, who was publisher of the Malton Daily Star, his mother-in-law, Grace Lakelock, and his own mother, Delilah Parker. The other people, as though sensitive of the occasion’s protocol, had arranged themselves in distinct waves. Behind Brad’s immediate family stood his distant relations, then close associates from the business and editorial offices of the Daily Star, and in the rear, intimate friends. Standing on the edge of the group were two men who didn’t quite fit into any of these categories. They were Sanford Jaques, the congressman for Malton and district, and old Abe Maxted, a typesetter who was president of the newspaper’s Quarter Century Club of which Brad, as prince consort, was an honorary member.

The two fifty-one for New York was already ten minutes late. Everything that needed to be said had long since been said. The midafternoon sun, slanting beneath the platform’s roof, set the men to perspiring and the women to fanning themselves with their handkerchiefs. Since no one dared, for fear of betraying boredom, to peer down the track in search of the train, they all looked at Brad in a solemn and respectful way that might have thrust upon a stranger the impression that the personable young lieutenant was unique among Malton’s 215,000 population in leaving “to take his place of duty on a far and lonely rampart.”

The phrase had appeared that morning in the Daily Star’s leading editorial and had been composed more or less in honor of Brad’s departure for Britain although it was circumspectly used to cover all of Malton’s young men who had gone or were preparing to go to war. Its eloquence was only part of the tribute arranged for the occasion.

There had been a luncheon in a salon of the Pentland Hotel, across the square from the station, and this, like the editorial, was privately savored by Brad’s family and a few friends. Congressman Jaques was present and also Ben Carver, the Daily Star’s venerable editor. Damien Lakelock had gone so far as to instruct the city desk that no mention of the event was to appear in the paper, not even in the society notes, thus breaking, though not seriously, the distinguished journal’s sixty-year tradition that the executive tower does not meddle with the content of the news columns.

The luncheon had gone off well. By and large, its bittersweet atmosphere could hardly have been improved upon. It had progressed with a murmur of conversation sparked now and again by polite laughter as if all present were conscious of a duty to be normal and cheerful. There had been a hush when Ben Carver raised his voice slightly to deliver his opinion that the choice of an unknown general to command in Europe was another of Roosevelt’s gambles with the nation’s destiny, but Congressman Jaques promptly responded that under the American system a leader was only as effective as the effort behind him, and when Washington assigned young men of Brad Parker’s caliber to the headquarters staff in London, nothing much could go wrong with the effort there. Ben Carver grumbled “Hear, hear” to this, and the proper atmosphere had been restored. Brad’s mother held her handkerchief significantly high, but not too high, on her cheek as she whispered something to Mrs. Lakelock. She managed, however, to smile when she turned around to glance at her son. Then a waiter served brandy along with the coffee and an expectant silence fell on the gathering. Damien Lakelock turned quite informally to Brad. He said, “Well Brad, the publisher is going to miss the assistant to the publisher, and so, I’m sure, will all the rest of us. Godspeed, good luck, good hunting, and come back safe and sound when the job is done.”

That was all. Brad nodded his thanks, his mother jabbed hurriedly at her eyes, Ben Carver managed to catch the waiter’s eye for another quick brandy, and then it was time to walk across the square to the station where a group not invited to the luncheon awaited the final act of farewell.

Now, as they stood on the platform, the bittersweet flair was being undone by a blazing sun and a laggard train.

Brad scanned the faces that looked upon him with such well-behaved glumness. He felt a curious elation, soaring but secret, and he had to withhold himself not to parade it openly. Being a sensitive man, he knew that elation was a wrong, even a sinful way to approach war. But he was also an honest man. The war had come at the right time for him, exactly at the right time. Five years ago would have been too soon; at twenty-one he was too young, too ambitious, and there was gamble enough in reaching out blindly for a career. Five years hence might well be too late; a mature marriage, perhaps children, and the tentacles of the Lakelock dynasty might have smothered any urge for a fling with adventure. At twenty-six, for reasons he dared not admit to himself, the time and the war fitted perfectly.

His Aunt Ellen, of the Parker side of his family, had unwittingly put it into words at the luncheon when she whispered, “Don’t you feel grand, Brad? You must. First Lieutenant Bradford Gamaliel Parker, United States Army—it just sounds so wonderful!”

It was wonderful to a man who hadn’t enjoyed a real chance to flex his muscles and was already weighted down as assistant to the publisher, heir apparent to the executive tower, president of the Junior Chamber of Commerce, and a director of the Country Club. The thought that he might be killed in the war occasionally entered his mind and he dreaded it, but there was also comfort in it for the greater the risk the less guilty he felt for being elated.

His gaze fell on his father-in-law’s gray, distinguished face. He thought he detected a wry smile. Their eyes locked for a moment and he knew that Damien was sharing his secret, that the wry smile was a smile of envy, of chagrin for a long ago chance that was lost. Damien had been in the same position in the first war, married to Grace, the only child of Everett Bolding, founder of the Malton Daily Star. But Everett had been a tough old puritan, a power in New England politics in a time when power could be nakedly wielded, and he saw to it that Damien’s uniform carried him no farther than a desk job at the Boston port of embarkation.

He too had felt something of that frustration when they called him up as a reserve officer just after Pearl Harbor. He had volunteered for the Special Service Force, training in Helena, Montana, in parachute and winter warfare, but Jane had gone along to live with him in married officers’ quarters and there were monthly leaves home and constant telephone conversations with Malton, and at least the suspicion that he might remain stateside as an instructor. Now, inexplicably, the War Department had given him a fortnight’s embarkation leave and had reassigned him to London. He was going to have his war at last.

He could almost hear Damien murmuring, “You’re lucky, Brad. You’re lucky I’m not old Everett. I didn’t fix it. There’ll be time enough when you come back, a whole lifetime, to be chained to the women who surround you, and to the paper and to the community.”

A crusty voice called out, “Careful, folks!” and they all moved aside to make passage for a mail cart moving to the head of the platform. Then a train whistle sounded. The faces peering at Brad became animated.

Jane whispered, “Thank heaven. I thought it would never come.” She lifted herself closer to his ear. “Don’t forget to fuss over your mother. I think she’s furious about not coming on to New York.”

They had broken ranks now and were all around Brad, slapping him on the back and making brisk, jocular remarks, but most of what they said was drowned in the roar of the engine as it rumbled past them.

Brad kissed his mother on the mouth and then on the cheek. She said, “Brad—Brad—it’s not the war or the danger. I know you’ll come through all right. It’s your health. You give yourself so much to anything you undertake——”

He kissed her again. “Just take care of yourself, Mother, and don’t worry about me.”

Then he kissed his mother-in-law. He thought he detected a furtive note as she said simply, “You’ll write Jane often, won’t you?”

Damien didn’t say anything. He shook hands with Brad and smiled the same soft envious smile.

The Lakelock chauffeur was already handing up Brad’s baggage and Jane’s overnight case to a Pullman porter.

“Good-by, everybody,” Brad called out. “Write you from Berlin around next Thursday. Might be a day or two late.” They all laughed. He took Jane’s arm. “Come on, dear. Up you go.”

Standing on the platform of their Pullman as the train moved slowly out of the station, they appeared to the farewell party as fine and decorative as the American dream itself.

Brad wore a tan summer uniform, exceedingly well cut by his own tailor, and his blouse already bore a metal parachute insignia above two efficiency decorations. Moreover he looked the part. His lean, well-shaped face was virile rather than handsome; he was attractive (as Grace Lakelock described him to her friends when he was courting Jane) “in a wholesome way—no airy-fairy foreign good looks but solid New England.” His nose was certainly New England, straight but neither thin nor small, and his blue eyes, when they looked straight at you, were inclined to hardness. He had healthy black hair, a determined mouth, and a distinct cleft in his chin. He carried his six feet so well it was hardly noticeable that his shoulders were disposed to roundness in the manner of a man hurrying toward success.

Jane was big for a young woman, something over five feet seven and inclined to be fleshy at the hips and bosom. The features of her face too were generously large but she carried herself with style and no little verve. From the time she was a child, her parents had taken an honest view of her developing ungainliness, and they pushed her through years of planned exercise and ballet and dancing classes until she had attained an unusual degree of gracefulness. This, in addition to her finely shaped legs and a lavish budget for clothes and coiffeur, had made her into an extremely desirable woman. Now, at twenty-four, she was at her best. On this day she wore a silk print dress expertly tailored to amend her less attractive lines, and her thick brown shoulder-length hair swept daringly to one side, her right, setting off her better profile which was her left. Altogether she looked a magnificent companion piece to the officer who was her husband.

They waved and waved, and when the train had passed the head of the platform she said, “I’m sorry, darling. It was all too precious. I need a drink—a real big fat drink.”

The parlor car was a madhouse of activity and high spirits. Businessmen, tourists, and soldiers and sailors of all ranks up to brigadier general filled every seat and overflowed into the passageway. On a writing desk in a corner two WACs had set up a portable gramophone. A cluster of GIs joined them around it and all gestured to the music with their hips and their hands. Every ash stand was equipped with a serving rim and these were covered with drinks and dollar bills. Two Negro waiters, grinning and perspiring, ran a marathon between the pantry and their demanding clients. Like every other corner of America at war, the car was shot through with a sense of animation and well-being.

Brad congratulated himself on having had the foresight to reserve a drawing room. When he and Jane had seated themselves in the quiet, air-cooled room, he rang for a waiter.

“I want service,” he said to the breathless Negro, handing him two dollar bills.

“Service you’ll get,” the man replied. “Jes’ give the order, General.”

By the time the train reached New Haven, Jane was on her third whisky. Brad, still toying with his first, watched her quizzically. She didn’t like liquor. At parties she usually sipped at a single drink the whole evening and then only because the young married crowd in Malton drank freely and she wouldn’t have them think she was better or more respectable even though she was the Lakelock heiress.

Now she had taken a gulp out of her third drink and her eyes, still clear, stared out of the window. The pose was handsome, decorative, and full of hurt.

Brad reached across the table, took the glass out of her hand, and played with her cold finger tips.

“What is it, Janie? Come on, dear. Out with it.”

She gave a little shake of her head. He waited. Then, still staring out the window, she said, “Our three years together have been good years, Brad. I’ve been happy.”

He smiled. “Don’t try to jinx me, honey,” he said deprecatingly. “They’ve been wonderful years and there’ll be a lot more—so many more you’ll be damned good and tired of me. I can just see you about thirty years from now, saying, ‘What did I see in this goat when I could have married Cary Grant or somebody like that?’ ”

She turned and looked at him squarely. It was an honest and affectionate look. There was a nakedness in it she rarely brought herself to expose even in the act of love.

“I’m not unhappy about your going, not desperately unhappy, not the way I suppose a wife should feel when her husband is off to war—and I’m not trying to jinx anything, Brad. You’ll come through all right. I was never surer of anything in my life. But—oh I wish I hadn’t had these drinks. I’d explain myself better——” She snatched her glass and took another gulp and pushed the glass away distastefully. “It’s just that I’m losing you. I’m losing you, Brad. I’ve had the feeling during the whole two weeks of this leave that you can’t wait to get away, to get away from everything, from Malton and from the paper—and from me.”

He was shocked by her perception. In their three years of marriage they had been honest enough with each other, although the true depth of their honesty had never been tested. There had never been need for it. They had been happy in the glare of attention that played on the early years of a brilliant match, and this happiness carried over adequately into their private lives together. She had been a proper, even a delightful wife, possessive in a way that complimented rather than imprisoned him, proud of his achievement though it had been mostly the gift of the dynasty he had wedded, and charmingly boastful, in the subtle ways young matrons have of communicating these matters among themselves, of his virility.

Now, in their first emotional crisis, she was showing a depth of feeling he had never suspected in her.

He said, “You’re my whole life, Janie, and so in a way is the paper. You know me well enough. I don’t run out on anything. I never have. I’ll be honest with you——”

She squeezed his hand impulsively. “I don’t want to hear it, darling. Whatever it is you’re going to say, I don’t want to hear it.”

He knew he hadn’t struck the right note. He had hurt her. He said quickly, “I love you, Janie, and I also want to get off to the war. You’ve got to be a man to understand it. Look, darling, war happens to an American once in a lifetime. I don’t want to read about it in the papers, even if I’m wearing a uniform. I’ve got to see it and be a part of it, and be lucky enough to come out of it. That’s why I fidgeted when they were trying to make me out some kind of martyr. I’m no hero. I’m just curious.”

She pulled her hand away gently and took another sip of her drink.

She said, “I’m glad they’re sending you by plane. It’ll be nice and symbolic seeing you off flying tomorrow. Then I’ll come back to Malton and wonder how it will be years from now when you come back. I’m getting good and tipsy now, darling.”

“Years from now?”

“Yes, years. The Germans have got everything from Leningrad to Spain and the Japs are sprawling all over the Pacific. We’ll win it—but years, darling.”

The train rattled across the Connecticut countryside. Brad finished his drink and ordered another for himself. They didn’t speak for a time.

Then he said boyishly, “How did you know I wanted to go so badly?”

“I knew it”—she smiled a sad, wise smile—“because I know you.”

“Come on, Janie. You can’t know me that well. Not in three years.”

“Think you know me?”

“Not completely.”

“But I know you. That’s because I love you. Shhhh! Don’t argue. I haven’t been this gay in my life so let me talk. It’s your going-away present to me. Let me talk. You didn’t marry me, Brad. I married you. It couldn’t happen any other way. I couldn’t marry Cary Grant or some band leader. I had to marry a man who would someday be publisher of the Star. And then you came along and I fell in love with you and it was too good to be true because I wanted you and you fitted. You fitted perfectly and on top of it I loved you. What came first, the chicken or the egg? Did I love you first or did I know you fitted and then fell in love with you? I knew. So I blitzed you. You didn’t know I blitzed you, did you? I never intended you to know, and you never would have known because the years were going to be so full and fast you wouldn’t have time to realize what had happened to you, and when we were old it wouldn’t matter any more because by that time you’d really be in love with me. Oh, I had it planned, beautifully planned. And then the war has to come along and the Parkers have always gone to war, always, back to ’76 I suppose, and Janie’s fifty-year plan goes bang after three little years. I feel silly and wonderful and I’m making a ridiculous spectacle of myself. Forgive me, darling. Don’t say anything. Please don’t say anything.”

She pushed her glass toward him. Her eyes were shining. She smiled and said, “Don’t look so shocked. You drink it, darling. I hate the stuff. I really do. You see what it’s gone and done to me.”

He took her drink and smiled at her, and like embarrassed children, their smiles became too abundantly gay. He leaned across the table and puckered her lips with his fingers and kissed her lightly.

She said, “Don’t let me drink any more. And no more weepy conversation—oh, I almost forgot. I’m supposed to tell you that you’re to sign the bill at the Waldorf. It’s Daddy’s gift. And the dinner at “21” is mother’s, and your mother got us the tickets for the Gertrude Lawrence show. Wasn’t it sweet of them?”

“Terrific. I suppose though I’ll have to shell out for the checkroom.”

“And Brad——” She looked away quickly. “I’ve got a gift for you too but let’s wait till later. I’m almost afraid to give it to you now.”

The train was rolling through Greenwich and her eyes found refuge in a row of billboards advertising the Broadway shows. It was coming up to four o’clock as the train passed Greenwich Station.