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Chapter Three

As the melodic sounds of the orchestra filled the crowded ballroom of Devonshire House, Olivia stepped through the movements of the quadrille without hearing a single note. Since her conversation with Gabriel, she wondered if she had made the right decision in approaching him about having another child. Oh, she still desperately wanted another child, but after his reaction to her request, she wasn’t certain she could bear to be in his company long enough to conceive one.

He had been horrid—and his comments continued to pierce her heart.

I expect it to be an exasperating task, but it must be done.

The sooner we attend to this, the better.

If she had any hope of having another child, she needed to lock away her contempt for him. Maybe then the thought of Gabriel touching her wouldn’t make her want to injure his manhood—permanently. She would never conceive a child if she did that.

‘I hope it is not my company that has caused that expression to darken your lovely face,’ commented Comte Antoine Janvier.

Pulling her attention back to her dance partner, Olivia smiled apologetically. ‘Of course not, I fear I am not very good company this evening.’

With a few final steps the quadrille ended.

‘Perhaps a glass of champagne shall lift your spirits,’ he said, escorting her off the crowded dance floor towards one of the many drawing rooms.

As they crossed the threshold, he took two glasses from a passing footman and handed one to Olivia. She took a long drink and he arched a dark brow.

‘Shall I fetch another, or would you care for mine?’ he asked, tilting his glass towards her.

The warmth of a blush rose up Olivia’s neck and she turned away. Her gaze settled on the portrait of the previous Duchess of Devonshire. ‘Forgive me,’ she said, returning her attention to her friend. ‘You are being very kind, considering I have not been an ideal companion.’

He gave a careless wave of his hand. ‘It would be tiresome if you were always plein de vie.’

Olivia grinned. ‘I wasn’t aware you thought I was full of life.’

‘There is a sense you find enjoyment in your surroundings, but I suppose you can be as selective as you wish with the entertainments you attend since you are the Duchess of Winterbourne.’

‘Yes, there are advantages to the title.’ Being married to her husband was not one of them.

‘I notice you and His Grace rarely accept the same invitations.’

Their friendship was still new. If he wanted to know how wide the rift was between her and Gabriel, Olivia was certain any of the gossips in attendance would be happy to recount the tale of what had driven them apart. It was something she never discussed with anyone, except Victoria. ‘His Parliamentary affairs keep him busy into the evening. Oh, look, more champagne.’ Olivia didn’t wait for Janvier to procure her another glass. She took one off the tray of a passing footman and replaced it with her empty one.

A low chuckle escaped Janvier’s lips before he took a sip from his glass. ‘Not something you wish to discuss. I understand. Let us change the subject. Tell me, have you heard Mrs Siddons may return to the stage soon?’

‘I have.’

‘Do you suppose you will attend one of her performances?’

‘It would be a shame to leave my box at the theatre empty for such an anticipated return. I don’t suppose you are an admirer of hers?’ she asked with an amused smile.

‘What kind of man would I be if I were not?’

‘Would you care to join me on opening night?’

Janvier leaned forward, placing his lips close to her ear. ‘I would like nothing better.’

His warm breath fanned her neck and an uncomfortable shiver travelled down her spine. Pretending she had an itch, Olivia stepped back and scratched her left shoulder.

He studied her over the rim of his glass. ‘But the royal box would probably be occupied opening night. That would mean there would be such a crush. You would not mind?’

She gave a slight shrug. ‘A crush is no bother, if the entertainment is worthy.’

Janvier’s dark eyes twinkled mischievously. ‘Then I would be honoured to join you.’ He scanned the salmon-coloured room. ‘I am surprised your Regent is not here this evening.’

‘Georgiana told me the poor man is suffering from the gout again. If it is as severe as last time, it would not surprise me if he missed Mrs Siddons’s performances altogether.’

* * *

By the time she arrived home, Olivia was certain she had drunk enough champagne that she could endure Gabriel’s presence in order to have another child. He said he would come to her tonight. Now, she was ready for him.

After sending Colette away, she stretched out on her bed in an excessively large, white-linen nightrail. Her bare feet were cold on top of the blankets, but she reasoned it would be over quickly, and there would be no chance of Gabriel’s scent remaining on her sheets.

What was taking him so long? He was home. She’d heard his muffled voice along with that of Hodges through the door that connected their rooms over an hour ago. His strong knock made Olivia jump. Bringing her hands to her chest to steady the pounding of her heart, she called for him to enter.

The door opened slowly and it was difficult to see his expression in the shadows of the room. ‘Why is it so dark in here?’

‘I thought you would prefer it this way,’ she replied, relieved her voice did not give away her nervousness.

Gabriel closed the door behind him and walked further into the room. He was still dressed impeccably for an evening out. Turning this way, then that, he spun in a circle. Finally, he spotted her. ‘Are you well?’

‘Of course.’

‘Are you not cold?’

‘No,’ she lied.

There was a hesitation, then he cleared his throat. ‘It’s late. Perhaps we should discuss this in the morning.’

He was leaving? After all this time agonising and waiting for him, he was leaving? How much was she expected to endure? She jumped off the bed and ran to the door, blocking his way. ‘I thought we had an agreement.’

‘We do...I mean we did.’

‘You’ve changed your mind?’

Gabriel held up his hands, appearing as if he couldn’t bear to touch her. ‘I simply thought we could do this tomorrow.’

‘Oh, no, we will do this now or not at all.’ Olivia closed her eyes and prayed he would agree to stay.

‘Very well,’ he said, sounding as if he was trying to calm a skittish colt.

Olivia nodded and walked back to the bed. When she laid back down, she noticed he hadn’t moved from where he stood by the door.

‘It will not work with you all the way over there,’ she bit out sarcastically.

‘I am fine over here,’ he said with a raspy voice. ‘I can hear you just fine.’

‘Well, I do not expect to do any talking so that really should not matter.’

Gabriel cleared his throat. ‘You are certain you would like me come closer?’

If he made her explain exactly how this would work, she was bound to strangle him with her sheets. ‘I believe that is how this is done—if memory serves me correctly.’

He approached the side of her bed. She waited for him to do something, but all he seemed capable of doing was staring at the landscape by Constable that hung behind her.

Now it was her turn to clear her throat, but this was to get his attention. Once she had it, she motioned to his tailcoat with her finger.

He nodded and plucked a string off his sleeve. ‘Yes, it’s new. Mr Weston continues to prove himself the finest tailor in London.’

Resisting the urge to smother him with one of her pillows, Olivia took a deep breath and looked at the idiot she married. ‘Fine, leave it on. Just open your trousers.’

An odd sound emerged from Gabriel. ‘My what?’

‘Trousers.’ Olivia began to slide the hem of her nightrail up her legs. ‘Fear not, I will not look.’

With her eyes squeezed firmly shut, Olivia missed her husband’s shocked expression that quickly turned to a heated gaze. Abruptly he grabbed her wrist, preventing her from raising the material any higher than the middle of her thighs.

Refusing to open her eyes, she let out a sigh. ‘Very well, you take the lead.’

‘Olivia, what exactly are you doing?’ he asked in a husky voice.

She threw her forearm over her eyes. ‘I thought you said you wanted to get this over with quickly?’

He let out a soft laugh and she peered out from behind her arm.

His face was cast in the shadow of the crackling fire behind him. ‘I thought we were discussing Andrew this afternoon. However, I now believe you were talking about something else entirely.’

‘Andrew? Why would you think I was talking about having a child with Andrew?’ She yanked the yards of material over her knees and sat up, tucking her legs under her. Reaching over for one of her numerous pillows, she hit him with it.

He grabbed it. ‘I thought you wanted me to speak with Andrew regarding his behaviour around Nicholas. What did you think we were discussing?’ He tossed the pillow next to her on the bed.

Relieved that the room was cast in such low light, Olivia was certain her face was crimson. ‘How could you possibly mistake me wanting to have another child with me wanting you to reprimand your brother?’ she asked with annoyance.

‘A child?’ he choked out. ‘Is that what you wanted to discuss? Why didn’t you simply say so?’

‘I did!’

She hit him with another pillow and he caught this one as well.

‘No, you did not,’ he said as if he were speaking to someone Nicholas’s age. He tossed this pillow next to the other one. ‘Not once did the word “child” leave your lips.’ He cleared his throat again. ‘You want another one?’

Olivia was too emotionally spent to say another word, so she simply nodded and closed her eyes.

‘You are certain?’

Again she nodded and this time she met his shadowed gaze.

He tossed his head back and closed his eyes. She waited. Any dealings they had with one another from now on hinged on this very moment. Her palms began to sweat.

‘Slide over,’ he commanded softly.

She shifted towards the centre of the bed and closed her eyes when he began undressing. Was he as smooth and muscular as he had been years ago? Opening one eye, she peeked. He stood there shirtless, tugging off his trousers. She closed her eye quickly before he caught her. Blast it! He looked as good as he had the day she’d married him.

The bed dipped next to her and she felt a tug on the ribbon at the neckline of her nightrail. ‘You have too many clothes on.’

She swatted his hand away. ‘We can do it like this. I’ll just raise my hem.’

He steadied her hand as she began to move the fabric up her legs. ‘Is that what you were planning to do? Lay here with your eyes closed and lift your voluminous skirt for me?’

‘I won’t complain. Just do what needs to be done.’

Gabriel’s body jerked back as if she slapped him and he combed his hand through his hair, making the ends stand up in all directions. ‘Bloody hell, Olivia, what kind of man do you think I am?’

‘Oh, I know very well what kind of man you are,’ she spat.

‘What does that mean?’

‘It means I know you are only interested in your own needs.’

He glared down at her. ‘Like hell I am. And how am I to attend to your needs, when you are trussed up like a Christmas goose? It’s a wonder you aren’t suffocating.’

‘I’ll have you know this fabric is the finest French linen,’ she said through her teeth.

‘Then you should have had three gowns made from it instead of one.’

She hit him with another pillow. This time he threw it on the floor.

‘Just take me!’ she shouted, surprising herself, as well as Gabriel.

They didn’t move. They simply stared at one another as their chests rose and fell in unison. The only sound was the occasional pop from the logs in the fireplace.

Abruptly he jumped out of bed and began tugging on his trousers. ‘I cannot do this,’ he repeated.

‘Wait! Where are you going?’ she asked, rising to her knees, stunned by his rejection.

He jerked his shirt over his head and began gathering the rest of his discarded clothing. When he had them all in his arms, he stalked over to the bed. ‘Regardless of what you think, Duchess, this is not going to work,’ he ground out.

‘All the world thinks you are a man of honour, but it’s a lie. You only ever think of yourself.’

Gabriel gathered up his boots and stormed to the door leading to his room. When his hand clutched the handle, he paused. ‘You are lucky you are not a man,’ he said through his teeth before he slammed the door behind him.

A pillow, book and hairbrush hit the door in rapid succession. Just when she thought she was finished crying over him, Gabriel pushed her to the emotional edge—again. The tears were falling and she couldn’t make them stop. She would not give him the satisfaction of hearing her cry, so she pressed her lips firmly together as her body lurched with her silent sobs.

He didn’t want her. He couldn’t even bring himself to bed her to get a spare. What was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she hold the attention of the one man who had once meant the world to her?

Olivia still wanted that child, now more than ever, but now she would never conceive one.

She hated him for that!

She hated him for what he had done to her five years ago!

And she hated him for reducing her to tears by taking away her only chance at experiencing unconditional love again.