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Twelve

Mama had given her marching orders—cook for the man. A homemade, South Carolina low country, George family dinner. Shrimp and grits—the kind of dinner her mother would have made when there was money for groceries. For dessert, a coconut layer cake, six layers, the way her grandmother had made it. Ashley knew every step by heart.

But first, clothes. The black pencil skirt she’d worn to work yesterday was fine, but the smell of smoke had permeated her silk blouse just from twenty minutes out in the hall. She hoped Marcus would feel okay if she borrowed one of his dress shirts for a little while. She’d take it to the cleaners when she was done with it. Plus she wanted to see his bedroom.

When she rounded the corner into his room, she was greeted with masculine splendor, much like the rest of the house. A tufted brown leather headboard crowned the head of his bed. A white duvet and pillows topped it with a gray wool blanket cast aside. The bed was still unmade, a rumple of sheets. Of course—the housekeeper would be by soon.

Ashley couldn’t help it—she crept over to the side of the bed and turned, perching precariously on the edge of the mattress. Her hand smoothed over the silky sheets. Damn him. He would have to buy bedding with a high thread count. Probably the finest Egyptian cotton. She knew she shouldn’t have been doing it, but there was something so comforting and cozy about sitting where he’d been sleeping mere hours ago. More than comforting—it was a bit titillating. His naked chest and back had touched these sheets. The morning after he’d rejected her, she’d forced herself to wash the memory of him from the bedding.

Atop a gorgeous wood chest next to the bed sat a white-shaded reading lamp, an alarm clock and a silver-framed photograph of him and Lila. She was probably only a few months old in the picture, the two of them nose to nose, her tiny, dimpled hands touching his face, the two of them grinning. Their mutual adoration was so evident it made Ashley’s heart ache. They’d been through so much. Together. There had to be days when Marcus felt as though it was just he and Lila against the world. After these many months, would he even be able to make room for a woman in their lives? Would he trust another woman with not only his heart but also the heart of his sweet little girl? Marcus’s protective tactics made one thing clear—he’d risk his own heart far before he’d risk Lila’s.

She ventured into his closet, a shrine to meticulous organization. The man would probably pass out if he ever saw the condition of her closet, bursting at the seams with dresses and shoes—good God, the shoes. She thumbed through his shirts, admiring a few, finding a French-blue one that didn’t look like it was too horribly expensive. Except that it was probably incredibly expensive. She slipped into it, buttoned it and rolled up the sleeves. With some creative tucking to make it look less like she was swimming in a shirt, she headed back down the hall.

Noises came from the kitchen—the housekeeper.

Ashley marched over and held out her hand. “Hi there. I’m Ashley. You must be Martha.”

The woman’s bright blue eyes were wide with surprise. “You’re the matchmaker. I watch your show all the time.” She dropped the towel she was using to wipe the counters, her hand flying to her face. “You had a fire. I saw the firemen in the hall just now. I’m so sorry.”

Ashley nodded. “Yes. Thank goodness it wasn’t a total loss. I’m headed over there right now. I need to get a few of my things and try to see about getting everything fixed up.”

“You aren’t going to have the same builder come back, are you? They were horrible.”

Ashley sighed. Why had she been so stupid? “I know that now. I’m so sorry if they were an inconvenience for you.”

Martha picked up her towel and ran some water in the sink. “I just don’t like to see Mr. Chambers get so upset. He works very hard and he’s a great boss. He gave me two weeks off with full pay when my husband had back surgery. He even had meals sent to our apartment.”

Now that she knew Marcus, she shouldn’t have been even the slightest bit surprised that he would do something like that. “That was very generous of him.”

“He’s a good man. A very good man. And his daughter is an angel. Of course, he protects her like he’s a bear, but that’s what a father does. Especially when she doesn’t have a mother.”

Ashley wasn’t sure whether she should feel better that Martha’s information confirmed that her feelings for Marcus were warranted, or if she should feel like she might never match up to his epic goodness. He clearly had a generous heart. He just hid it from a lot of people.

“Well, you don’t need to worry about preparing dinner for tonight,” Ashley said. “I’m taking care of that. I want to thank Marcus for all he has done for me.”

Martha’s face lit up. “How nice. I’m sure he’ll love it.”

Ashley retrieved clothes, toiletries and several pairs of shoes from her apartment, rushing through the whole thing as quickly as possible. She had to escape the smoke smell—it was everywhere. She didn’t even go into the kitchen. The pictures had been enough. She had her talks with Lieutenant Williams and the insurance adjuster out in the hall, then returned to Marcus’s apartment and threw everything in the wash. She left a message for the new contractor she hoped she’d be able to hire this time around, then embarked on her shopping trip, managing to remain under the radar for most of it, having to stop only once to take a quick photo and give an autograph.

When she returned to Marcus’s apartment, she changed into jeans and a tank top, getting right to work by first putting the cake layers in the oven. Memories hit her the minute the sweet fragrance of that golden sponge cake began to fill the kitchen. Every breath took her closer to home...the sticky South Carolina summer, magnolias and honeysuckle, and crisp air in the fall. It seemed so far off. Too far off. Part of her longed to be back there, to be plain old Ashley George, no cameras or billboards or publicity photos. It was nice no longer to struggle the way she had back at home, but those struggles had been replaced by new ones, the most profound of which was the nagging sense that she had money and a beautiful, charred apartment, but her life had become empty. She had no one to share this life she had built. And she had to wonder if she was sabotaging herself by still holding on to romantic thoughts of Marcus when so much pointed to the idea that they didn’t quite fit together—different personalities, divergent situations. If she were giving herself love advice, if she’d been the woman crying in a restaurant about a broken heart, she’d say that it might be the smart thing to move on. The problem was, she’d tried, and the only thing she’d learned in the process was that she had no talent for giving up on Marcus.

After carefully slicing the cake layers, she assembled the cake and gave it the finishing touches, pressing coconut to fluffy white cream cheese frosting—her mother’s twist on her grandmother’s traditional seven-minute icing. She stood back and admired her handiwork. The grits were cooking away on the stove, the shrimp and other ingredients prepped and waiting for Marcus to arrive home so she could throw it all together at the last minute.

He walked through the door and for a moment, she felt as self-conscious as could be. Was he going to think all of this was silly? Unnecessary? And why did he have to look so incredible after being at work all day? She usually looked as if she’d been run over by a train.

“What’s all this?” he asked, surveying the kitchen and loosening his tie.

She gave the grits a stir and turned back to him. “I gave Martha the night off. I’m making you dinner.”

“And there’s cake?” He swiped icing from the base of the plate.

“Hey. That’s for later.”

He flashed his green eyes at her. Every time he did that she suffered a bout of amnesia. It was impossible to remember a single bad thing that had ever happened between them. “Do I have a minute to change clothes?” He pointed at her. “From the look of things, I’d say I’m overdressed. Plus, I can’t wait to get out of this suit.”

Out of this suit. That mental image was going to stick with her for a while. “Of course.”

* * *

She’s making me dinner. And how lovely the sight of her in his kitchen was after a hectic day at the office. He knew better than to think that this would be a normal occurrence if he and Ashley were a couple. She’d be busy with work. He’d be similarly occupied. But it was a nice fantasy.

He quickly changed into jeans and a Cambridge Rowing Club T-shirt. Much better. Wearing a suit to the office was one of the worst parts of his day. “It really smells incredible.” He approached Ashley from behind as she worked at the cooktop.

“Almost ready to eat. I just need to finish up the shrimp.”

“Is it okay if I open a bottle of wine? I trust a white will work with the meal?”

She nodded, wiping her forehead with the back of her hand. “Yes. Perfect.”

He fetched the wine and two glasses, filling them just as she was spooning the meal into shallow bowls.

“Ready?” he asked, nodding toward the dining area.

“I’ll meet you in there.”

The table was set perfectly with placemats and linen napkins, and she’d thankfully had the sense to put them at one end, next to each other. She’d even dimmed the chandelier overhead. He couldn’t escape the romance of it. Was she being kind? Or did she see the opportunity he was so eager to take? He really wanted the chance to redeem himself, or at least to know for certain whether they had any business being together.

“No candles?” he asked.

“Considering what happened yesterday, I thought it best we avoid fire.” She set down his plate before him and took the seat next to his.

“Smart.” He laughed quietly, holding up his wine glass. “A toast to everyone being safe and sound.”

She gently clinked her glass against his. “Thank goodness.”

He took a bite of the meal she’d prepared—succulent sautéed shrimp with bacon and scallions atop a cheesy, creamy substance that closely resembled porridge. “This is delicious. What is this mixture at the bottom of the dish?”

“They’re grits. I’m guessing you’ve never had them.”

He shook his head “Not once. They’re good.”

“It’s dried, ground corn. Put in enough butter and cheese and you’ll think you died and went to heaven. I practically grew up on them. They are, as my mother would say, dirt cheap.”

He studied her, considering what she’d said. “Is she a real bargain shopper?”

“She is, but it was a necessity, too. We never had much money and things got a bit dire after we had a fire.”

Now he was even more confounded. “No. A fire?”

She nodded and looked at him with an expression much like the one he’d seen her wear last night—vulnerable, but strong-willed. “Yes. We lost our house to one when I was ten.”

His heart seized up in his chest as she told him the story. Her family lost everything. It led to years of struggle. He couldn’t fathom that particular loss. She’d had such a potent reminder of it last night. Reaching across the table, he grasped her hand. The gesture was forward and intimate, but it was his only inclination. “I’m so sorry, Ash. I can only imagine what was going through your mind last night.”

“Last night is still a blur, but yes, it brought back a lot of bad memories. I don’t like to think about it too much or it’ll just make me sad. Nobody wants a sad houseguest.”

“You can be sad if you want to. You should allow yourself to process it.”

“I’ll process it a lot better once I meet with my new contractor on Monday.”

“Ready to jump back in already?”

“I have to move forward.” She shrugged. “I called the builder that I couldn’t get the first time around. Turns out their new office manager is a fan of the show. They’ve made room for me in their schedule. I made a bank transfer of ten grand for the deposit this afternoon. I guess that much is good.”

“If they treat you well and do a good job, then yes.” It hit him then—the reason she’d been so stubborn about her renovation. “No wonder you’re so attached to your apartment. You lost your home when you were a girl.”

She pushed the food around on her plate with her fork. “That’s a big part of it. When you grow up with nothing, especially not growing up in one place, you attach a lot of meaning to the idea of home.” She stopped speaking, seeming deep in reflection, then looked at him. “The apartment also means a lot because it’s the only tangible part of my success. Everything else about what I do is like air. It’s not like what you do. You make gin. You can hold on to a bottle of gin. Most of the time what I do doesn’t even seem real to me.”

That’s what she’d been doing all that time he was waging war against her. She hadn’t been wrapped up in material goods. She’d been defending her big-city, eleventh-floor homestead because it was the only thing she had. “I had no idea. You really should have said something. I knew you were from South Carolina, but the way you carry yourself, I had visions of money and a grand Southern home.”

A quiet snicker left her lips. “You watch too many movies. Scarlett O’Hara is a fictional character. And besides, she lived in Georgia.”

“What about your parents now? Has life gotten any better?”

“It has. With my job, I can finally help them financially. My dad had a stroke about five years ago, and my mother takes care of him full-time, so they need it.”

“No siblings to help?”

“I have two older brothers, and they help when they can, but they both work construction and have families. I just happened to be lucky enough to get a job that pays me more money than is probably reasonable.”

He was glad he wasn’t keeping track of the many ways in which he’d misjudged Ashley. He’d be losing, big time. “You’re an industry, Ashley George. I’ve witnessed it. Don’t diminish the appeal of you.” All he could think about was how great her appeal was to him. He wanted to kiss her so badly it was as if the devil was on his shoulder berating him to just do it.

Warmth colored her cheeks in a breathtaking rush of peach. “It’s very sweet of you to say that. I don’t understand the idea of me as an industry or appealing, but I’ll take it.”

“The thing that amazes me is how you manage to do everything you do. How do you fit it all into one day? You spend an awful lot of time taking care of everyone else.” A lump caught in his throat, one he found hard to get past. “I have to wonder who takes care of you.”

“I could ask you the very same thing.”

“I suppose you could.”

She took another sip of wine. “Now that I told you my whole life story, I feel like you have to tell me a little more about yours. Let me guess. You grew up in a castle.”

He laughed quietly. “Talk about watching too many movies. It was more of a Victorian townhouse in London. But it was a comfortable upbringing. I can’t think of a major trial in my life until, well, you know. Lila’s mother leaving us.” To his surprise, uttering the words didn’t bring the normal stabbing sensation in his chest. It was liberating to say it out loud and not feel crippled by it.

“No wonder it hit you so hard. The first time you encounter a big trauma in your life and it ends up being a doozy.”

He couldn’t help but notice how healing it felt to talk to Ashley, to have someone who knew his sad story really listen to him. She didn’t have an agenda outside trying to understand him better. “Indeed it did.”

She gathered her napkin in her hand and placed it next to her plate. “I should probably get to the dishes or it’ll be an hour until we can have cake.”

He got up from the table and took her dish. “I’ll help. We do not want to delay the arrival of cake.”

Ashley began collecting pots and pans while he loaded plates and cutlery into the dishwasher. He hadn’t done dishes in quite a long time, but he would’ve dug a ditch if it meant the chance to watch Ashley bend over and put a pot back into the cabinet. Eventually he ended up with his hands in hot, soapy water, scrubbing the cooking vessel for the grits while Ashley ran to the bathroom. He couldn’t stop thinking about the moment when he’d taken her hand at the table and she hadn’t flinched at all. He couldn’t stop thinking about the ways in which he’d read her wrong. He definitely couldn’t stop thinking about the urge to kiss her.

“Almost done?” Ashley asked, returning to the kitchen.

He pulled the drain plug from the sink and rinsed that final pot, leaving it to air-dry. “Last one. And it’s a good thing. I was beginning to prune.”

“Let me see,” she said with a comedic air of concern. She took his hand and turned it over in hers. “Oh, you don’t look too bad to me. I think you’ll live.” She peered down at his hand, not letting go. She dragged her finger along the head line. “Is this the heart line?

He smiled, especially when she stepped closer and he could inhale that beguiling summer rain scent of hers. “That’s actually the head line. Mine says that I’m a quick thinker. It also means I draw conclusions quickly. It’s not a good thing.”

“Hmm. I think I’m familiar with that aspect of your personality.” She inched her finger across his palm. “What about this one?”

“Life. Mine says that I need to learn to relax.”

“Either you’re making it up, or this is ridiculously accurate.” She moved her finger to the final line to be read.

“That one’s the heart line.” He leaned back against the kitchen counter, not about to relinquish his hand, unsubtly pulling her closer. Her touch was driving him crazy in the best possible way, bringing every inch of him alive.

“And what does your heart line say?” she asked.

He didn’t want to tell her the truth about his heart line. It said he’d experienced a deep, personal betrayal. It wasn’t that he was over it—he didn’t want to dwell on it with Ashley anymore. They both had their scars. “Why don’t you tell me what you think it says?”

She looked up at him and bit her lower lip, leaving his poor heart to jackhammer in his chest. Her impossibly warm and welcoming eyes scanned his face, back and forth, taking in everything. “I’d guess that it says you have a big heart. A generous one.”

He placed his other hand on her waist, tugging her closer, stepping to the edge of a precipice he’d visited many times. He couldn’t walk away from her if he started something. It wouldn’t just hurt her. It would mark him for life. “It actually says that I’m a bloody idiot if I don’t kiss the incredible woman standing in my kitchen.”

She smiled and rolled her eyes. “That’s the oldest trick in the book, Chambers.”

He threaded his hand into her hair, anticipating the kiss he was about to plant on her sweet, pink lips. “It’s not a bad one, either.”