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Emma grasped Colin’s elbow and allowed him to lead her to his aunt’s porch. On the last step, Emma’s foot caught and she stumbled forward. Colin caught her before she fell flat on her face. She gritted her teeth, feeling the heat of embarrassment scorching her cheeks. The simple act of walking was even difficult now. Ever since she’d left her hospital room twenty minutes ago, she felt as though she were Alice in Wonderland, nothing as it seemed and everything different.

“Okay?”

His concern brought her anger to the foreground. “I’m just great. I love being led around like a child.” The second she said that last sentence, she sensed Colin stiffen beside her.

He proceeded forward, his arm still wrapped about her. She stepped away. For a few seconds she stood alone, not sure what lay in front or to the side. Her vulnerability increased, making a mockery of her sense of independence, something she had always been proud of and had desperately needed. No more. She had to depend on others—virtual strangers—and she wasn’t sure how she would cope. But staying with her mother or father had not been an option.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said that. You’ve done more than enough for me. Any person who can avoid the press as you did at the hospital has my debt of gratitude.”

“I know all the ways into the hospital. They don’t. It was a piece of cake.”

“It won’t be long before they figure out where I am. Are you ready for them?”

“They haven’t met my aunt. She’ll take care of them.”

The chimes of the bell announced their arrival and caused Emma to wonder again at the decision she’d made in the hospital. Having no one really to turn to was a sad statement on her life. Until now, she hadn’t even realized how isolated she was from others.

A good minute later the door opened. The scents of apples and cinnamon wafted to Emma, causing her mouth to water. She inhaled a deep breath of the delicious smells, her appetite aroused for the first time in days.

“You must be Emma St. James,” a woman said in a voice that was loud and commanding with a thick Southern drawl.

A hand larger than hers took hold of Emma’s and pumped her arm in a vigorous handshake.

“I’m Colin’s aunt, Grace. Come in. Come in.”

The woman clasped her and pulled her into the house. Emma thought of a steamroller barreling over her. Her mind spun, her senses assaulted with so much unfamiliarity. The unknown, in more ways than one, lay before her and a panicky feeling grew.

“I’m finishing up in the kitchen. Colin, bring her on in while I take the pies out of the oven.”

His aunt released her grip on Emma. Grace’s footsteps sounded on the hardwood floor as she hurried away.

He shifted toward her. “Here, take my arm.”

Emma froze. Her mind continued to reel with sensations, smells and sounds coming at her from all sides, overloading her. A clock ticked to the right of her while gospel music played in the background. Infused in the scents of cinnamon and apples was a lemony odor with a faint hint of bleach. Chimes noting the hour of two blared through the din.

“Emma?” Colin’s gentle voice added to all the other noises bombarding her.

“Stop.” She shook her head, backing up a pace. “I can’t do this.” Her impulse was to turn around and flee, then the reality of her situation gripped her and she knew she wouldn’t be going anywhere. She didn’t even know where the door was!

“I’m sorry. I can show you to your room, instead. Grace will understand.”

Will she? I don’t. “Please. I’m tired.” She winced at the weak thread to her words, but feelings of hopelessness and helplessness assailed her, pressing her down into a black void she was afraid she would never emerge from.

He gave her his arm again, then began plodding forward, one slow step at a time. “Grace has fixed up a bedroom in the back on the first floor. That way you don’t—”

“Have to break my neck on the stairs,” she said, thinking of the near accident on the porch.

“Well, maybe that, too. But what I was going to say is that you don’t have to learn the layout of the second story.”

Learn the layout? The realization she would have to fumble her way around the house or have someone lead her made her want to escape to her room, pull the covers over her head and never come out.

They stopped. She heard the sound of a door creaking open.

“I’ll oil the hinges,” Colin said, going ahead of her into the bedroom, then guiding her through the entrance.

“Don’t.”

He chuckled. “I guess it’s a pretty effective way of telling if someone comes into your room.”

His laugh was infectious, the sound almost shoving her melancholy mood to the background. “I’m going to need all the help I can get.”

“Let me start by describing this room. I’ll help you pace it off, too.”

“You sound like you’ve had experience with this.”

Even though she couldn’t see his expression, she knew he was frowning. Tension emanated off him in waves. Silence electrified the air, and his touch tightened for a few seconds before his fingers relaxed about hers. Her natural curiosity arose, and she wondered about the man who had taken her into his family. All she knew was his kindness and his gentle, deep voice. And the warmth of his touch, she added as he moved forward.

“We’ll count off from the door to the bed. Ready?”

She nodded, following his lead and listening to him as he counted the steps to the bed.

“Seven. There’s a bathroom off this room. Do you want to see how far that is?”

She liked that he was giving her a choice, giving her a tiny bit of power in her life, which at the moment seemed so out of her control. Ever since the one time she’d lost control, it had been important she maintained it. She didn’t want to relive those feelings of a few years ago. “Yes, please.”

Again she walked across the room with Colin plastered next to her. He was a large man and from the brief time he had taken hold of her to keep her from falling she could tell that he was muscularly built if his arms and chest were any indication of the rest of him.

“Five.” Standing in the doorway to the bathroom, he said, “The counter is to the left. You can slide your hand along it and the toilet is right next to it with the tub on the other side. You want to try it?”

Emma felt the smoothness of the door frame then the cool tile of the counter. Slipping her fingers along it, she encountered the sink then the end. She inched one foot forward until she discovered the toilet. Then sidling in front of it, she found the tub. After exploring the bathroom for a few minutes, she fumbled her way back to its entrance.

Colin offered her his arm.

“No. I want to do it on my own. Five steps to the bed.”

She started forward, counting to herself. Her shins tingled with anticipation of running into an obstacle. When she reached three, she held her arms out in front of her to search for the bed. At five she bumped into it. She groped along until she came to the left-side corner, then turned and walked toward what she hoped was the doorway into the bedroom, counting off seven paces. Again she expected to run into something with every step she took, making her movements stiff and awkward, conjuring up an image of Dr. Frankenstein’s monster from an old movie she’d seen once. She didn’t care what she must look like because she was determined to master this room, today.

When she grasped the wooden door frame, she sank against it, dragging in deep breaths. Exhaustion wrapped about her like a heavy wet blanket, pulling her down.

“Do you want to rest for a while before I show you the rest of the downstairs?”

His gentle voice coming at her from a few feet away startled her. She hadn’t been listening for his approach, which was muffled by the thick carpet. Her vulnerability mushroomed, constricting her chest until it hurt. Again, that panicky feeling clawed at her composure.