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T he music stopped, then started again with a pulse-pounding, foot-stomping beat.

And still Garrett couldn’t let Kyra go. She felt good in his arms. Too good. It wasn’t something he’d expected, but now that he’d found it, damned if he didn’t want to hold on to the feeling.

She stared up at him, ignoring the other dancers, as he was. Her eyes looked more green than blue in the dim light of the club, and he felt, as well as saw, the flicker of something warm and intriguing in their depths.

All around them, dancers moved to the beat while the two of them stood, gazes locked, oblivious to everyone else. His chest tight, Garrett fought for breath and told himself to let her go. To step back before he did something that neither of them would be happy about.

But Kyra moved first.

“Thanks,” she said, sliding her hand from his and stepping out of his embrace. “For the dance, I mean,” she added quickly.

His hands felt empty, and he rubbed the tips of his fingers together as if trying to find the warmth that had slipped away so suddenly.

“Right.” Nodding, he stepped off the dance floor and waited for her to follow. Once clear of the dozens of couples dancing the Cotton-eyed Joe, Garret scrubbed one hand across his face and tried to find a way out of this now uncomfortable situation.

What the hell had he been thinking?

Dancing with Kyra Fortune?

Letting himself imagine doing a hell of a lot more with her?

Where was this coming from? He’d never known a woman who irritated him more than Kyra. She was opinionated, pushy, arrogant and an all-around thorn in his side.

So why did he suddenly want to grab her and kiss her blind?

“Look,” she said, pulling Garrett from the wild thoughts racing through his mind, “I’m going to go back and join my friend—”

“Yeah,” he said, grabbing at the excuse she’d offered. “And I’ve got to go—”

“—so how about we just pretend this never happened?”

“Huh?” Surprised, he stared at her. Her gaze flicked to each side of her, as if making sure no one was listening. When she looked back at him, her eyes were clear and cool, with no hint of the spark he’d seen earlier.

She blew out a breath. “It was a nice dance, but seriously, it was just a fluke, right? I mean, I was here, you were here….”

He nodded. “Coincidence.”

“Exactly.” She beamed at him as if he were an especially slow student who’d finally caught on to the day’s lesson. “So all I’m saying is that there’s no point in making a big deal out of this.”

Made perfect sense, he told himself. It was the out he should have been looking for. So why, he wondered, was he feeling the first stirrings of anger inside him? He was already regretting dancing with her. Why in the hell should he be pissed because she was asking him to forget about the whole thing? That ripple of anger spread and bubbled throughout his body, and he almost welcomed it. Heaven knew it was a far more familiar feeling around Kyra than anything else he’d been experiencing that night. “So we just ignore it.”

“How hard can it be?”

“Getting easier every second.”

She frowned. “No reason to get cranky. I’m doing this for both of us.”

He folded both arms across his chest and braced his feet far apart in an unconscious fighting stance. “Thanks so much.”

“You know,” she said, giving in to a bit of anger herself, “I think I’m being reasonable about all of this. I’m just saying what you’re thinking.”

“Wow. A mind reader, too. I had no idea you were a part-time mystic.”

Her jaw worked as if she were biting her tongue. Hard. She leaned in toward him, captured his gaze with hers. “I don’t know why you get to act all huffy. This is all your fault.”

“What?”

“Hey, I didn’t ask you to dance.”

Good point. She hadn’t even known he was in the building. If he’d just slipped out the front door instead of following her to the dance floor, none of this would be happening. Disgusted with himself, he felt his battle stance dissolve, and he shoved both hands into his jeans pockets. “If I could kick my own ass right now, believe me, I’d do it.”

Her lips twitched and he found himself staring at her mouth and wondering how it would taste.

Damn it.

“So you agree?” she asked.

Though it cost him dearly to agree with Kyra Fortune about anything, he had to admit she had the right idea here. To just forget about this little blip in their relationship. To put them both back on an even footing. Even if that meant making them armed adversaries again. They were much safer that way.

“Yes.” He gritted his teeth, determined now to just get away from her as fast as he could.

“Good.” She nodded abruptly, but didn’t move to leave.

“Something else?” he asked, pitching his voice to be heard above the music.

She looked as though she wanted to say something, then thought better of it. “No. I mean… No.”

“Okay.” He glanced at his watch, more for effect than anything else. “I’ve got an appointment so—”

“Oh.” A flash of something that might have been disappointment streaked across her features and was gone again in an instant. Then she lifted her chin, looked him in the eye and said, “All right. Then, goodbye.”

“Yeah.” Why wasn’t he moving?

“See you at work.”

“Right.” He still didn’t budge. For God’s sake, he told himself, move.

Before he could, though, she turned and walked away, weaving through the crowd with a lazy grace that held Garrett captivated. Even after the mob of people swallowed her, he stared after her, like some lovesick schoolboy hoping for another smile from the head cheerleader.

He shook his head as if trying to shake Kyra out of his mind. But as he turned and stalked toward the front door, storming through the crowd like a man possessed, he already knew it wouldn’t be that easy.

He’d held her now.

He knew what she felt like in his arms.

And he wondered why in the hell the first woman to stir his senses in years had to be the one woman who made a habit out of making his life miserable.

It appeared that Fate really did have a sense of humor.

A twisted one.

“What the heck was that about?” Isa demanded as soon as Kyra made it back to their table.

She dropped into a chair, slapped one hand to her spinning stomach and reached for her margarita before she tried to answer her best friend. While the icy slush slid down her throat, Kyra tried to get a grip on the different feelings racing through her.

But she just couldn’t do it.

Finally, she lifted her gaze to her friend’s. “I have absolutely no idea.”

Isa shook her head. “Not buying it, girlfriend,” she said flatly. “There is something going on between you two.”

“He’s my boss.” Oh God, she’d danced with her boss. She’d gotten all hot and squishy while pressed up against Garrett Wolff. Kyra propped her elbows on the table and cupped her face in her hands. “This is so not good.”

Isabella laughed, clearly enjoying herself. “Yes it is. God, Kyra, you’ve been so tightly wrapped the last few years, you might as well have been vacuum packed. It’s more than time that you cut loose a little.”

Kyra lifted her head and glared at her friend. “Not with him.”

“That wasn’t how it looked to me.”

“Don’t you get it, Isa? The man holds my career in his tight fist. One word from him and I’m finished.”

“Looked to me like he was thinking more about starting than finishing,” Isa said.

“Yeah, but starting what? An affair?” Kyra groaned again. “God, that sounds so cheesy.”

“But interesting, right?” Isa leaned on the table, crossing her arms on the glossy surface. “I mean, there was definitely some sparkage, right?”

“Boy howdy.”

“Excellent.”

“Not excellent,” Kyra protested, though not quite as strongly as she should have.

An affair with Garrett Wolff would be disastrous—and fabulous. Terrifying—and exciting.

“It doesn’t have to be the end of the world, Kyra.”

“Yeah, but it could be,” she said, then added, “and I can’t risk it. Can’t take the chance of putting my career on the line. I can’t fail, Isa. I owe my family that.”

Isa had heard this before, so she leaned back in her chair and shook her head slowly. “You’re always thinking you owe something to somebody. So my question is, what do you owe yourself, Kyra? When do you get to do something just for you?”

Good question.

Kyra only wished she had an answer.

Ryan Fortune drew in a long, shuddering breath and wondered how much longer he’d be able to accomplish that simple task.

His body was shutting down. He felt it. The invader in his brain was winning the battle. He knew with a bone-deep certainty that there were only a handful of days left to him. If that.

Lying against a stack of plump pillows, he shifted slightly in his bed, pleased to feel muscles respond to thought. Such a simple thing, really. To stretch. To feel the play of muscle and bone.

To live.

He stared up at the ceiling and watched the dance of sunlight and shadow across the pale surface. He felt the soft breeze slipping through the partially opened window, and he could smell spring on the wind. Through the open curtains, he saw the trees outside his bedroom, budding now after a cold, hard winter.

He wished to hell he could be around to enjoy another spring. To curse another summer heat wave. Enjoy another Christmas. Hell, to do something as simple as walk the land, Lily’s hand firmly clasped in his.

Frustration bubbled inside. His whole damn life he’d been a doer. He’d never been one to sit when he could stand, walk when he could run. He liked being in the thick of things. Holding out a hand to help those behind, while always reaching forward.

He’d built a proud family. He’d increased the legacy left by his own father, and knew that his children would do the same.

And still it wasn’t enough.

He wasn’t ready to go. At sixty, he should have lots of years left. He should be able to sit on a damn rocking chair on the front porch of the Double Crown and watch his great-grandchildren playing in the sun.

Hell, only a year ago he’d had grand dreams and plans, and now…he only wished he and Lily could stop and watch a sunset together again. He wished he had the strength to run his fingers through her hair, to kiss her, to make love to her one more time.

Ryan’s eyes closed and a soft smile crossed his face as he remembered what his daddy used to say. If wishes were horses, beggars would ride.

“You’re right, Dad,” he whispered, as if Kingston Fortune were there in the room with him. Who knew, maybe his spirit was there, getting ready to escort Ryan’s soul on its trip to…wherever.

Funny. His mind kept drifting. Never used to be like that. Used to be able to concentrate. Focus. Now… “No more wishing,” he whispered into the silence of his room. “Instead, I’ll just remember what I’ve had.” More than most, that was for damn certain, he assured himself.

He’d loved and been loved by two women in his life. He’d raised children and known the love of family, which when you came right down to it, was all that meant anything.

He frowned and gave a short sigh—all he could spare. He’d made mistakes; all men did. He regretted some, but others had caused good things to happen in the end, so it was hard to be sorry about them. Still, he’d tried to do his best. Tried to make a difference—not only for his family, but for the world. He’d tried. Damn, he’d tried.

He only wished he knew if he’d succeeded.

“Ryan, honey?”

He opened his eyes and turned his head on the pillow, following the voice that he knew would be with him through eternity.

“Still beautiful,” he whispered, and watched his wife’s luscious mouth curve into a smile.

“Silly man,” she said, and unnecessarily straightened the sheet and light blanket covering him. Smoothing, running her fingertips across the fine linen, she avoided looking at him.

She did that so often these last few days.

Ryan knew why. There would be tears in her amazing dark eyes. There were always tears now, and oh, how he wanted to be able to stop those tears for her. He wanted to grab her up, tumble her onto this wide, now lonely bed and bury his body deep within hers.

Strange how the hunger for life didn’t ebb as death drew near.

In his mind, he was still the strong young man who’d seen a teenage Lily Redgrove and lost his heart. It didn’t matter who or what had come between that time and this. There’d always been that slender thread connecting their two hearts. It had taken a lifetime for them to finally come together—and when they had it had been well worth the wait. But oh God, they were being cheated out of all the years to come.

“Stop,” he whispered. “Sit.”

She did, perching on the edge of the mattress as if she were a bird gingerly landing on a live electrical wire. “Do you want anything, honey? Can I get you something?”

“Time,” he said, finding a smile for her. “Give me more time, Lily.”

“We’ll have time, honey. We will.” She picked up his hand and held it gently between her own, as if she could somehow transfer her health, her vitality, to him.

Sunlight splashed across the big room and backlit Lily until her dark hair looked gilded. A strong woman, Lily. She’d been through a lot in her life and she’d never been broken. She’d faced up to tough situations and stood her ground. Yet now she was deliberately trying to pretend that the end wasn’t staring them in the face.

And he’d gone along for the most part. He was tempted to continue to play the game they’d somehow slipped into. To keep pretending that this was nothing more than a bad case of flu. That he’d be back walking the land in a week or two.

God knew, pretense was more comforting than truth. But there were a few things he needed to say to her, while he still could.

“Lily, honey…”

As if she could read his mind, she shook her head. “No, don’t you start telling me goodbye, Ryan Fortune. Because I don’t want to hear it. You’re not going anywhere. You’re not going to leave me. I won’t allow it. You’ll stay right here until I say different. You understand me?”

He chuckled, and the sensation rippled through his aching body like a fever. “You always were a bossy woman.”

She sniffed, surreptitiously wiped her eyes with her fingertips, then smiled. “And you always were a smooth talker.”

God, he’d loved her most of his life. Those dark, exotic eyes of hers. That smooth, caramel-colored skin, the thick, heavy black hair. The smile that lit up something inside him as if it were New Year’s Eve in Times Square.

How hard it was to let her go.

“I want you to remember, always,” he said, keeping his gaze locked with hers, “how much I love you.”

She sucked in a gulp of air. “I know.”

He nodded briefly. “Emmett’s going to keep an eye on Linda, so don’t you worry there.”

“Yes, Ryan.”

He smiled again. “I must really be sick for you to agree with me so easily.”

“Damn you, Ryan, you’re making me cry again.”

He paid no attention. “And you make sure you get the children to help you out around here when I’m gone.”

“You’re not going any—”

“Lily, it’s time to stop lying.”

“I like the lies better,” she admitted.

He gave her a half smile. “Hell, girl, so do I. But even I can’t hold off death.”

“You could if you tried. Damn it, Ryan, you’re the most stubborn, hardheaded, just plain cussedly determined man I’ve ever known,” she said, leaning down until her mouth was just a breath away from his. “Fight this. For me. For us.”

He gave her hand a squeeze, no more than a touch of his flesh to hers. “I’m tired, Lily. I don’t want to leave you, but I’m tired.”