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Two

Freeway miles flew past.

In just a few hours, they were out of the Los Angeles area’s crush of cars and speeding along a highway edged on either side by acres of farm country. Orange and apple groves blended into small, tidy vineyards and those into pistachio orchards. The sky seemed bluer, the sun warmer and the wind cleaner.

Tracy stared out the window at the passing scenery, noting the ancient California oaks—now protected by the state—dotting the rolling hillsides. Occasional farm houses added touches of color to the rainfreshened greenery. The farther they traveled from home and the work that awaited her return, the more Tracy relaxed into the plush seat cushion.

This wasn’t so bad, she told herself. Actually, it had been a pretty nice trip so far. She hadn’t stumbled over a conversation once, and she was almost used to Rick being in such close proximity to her.

Of course, she’d be in way better shape if he weren’t.

She slid a sidelong glance in his direction. Both hands on the wheel, he kept his gaze locked on the road in front of him. But, even in profile, his good looks were enough to fuel a dozen or more very interesting fantasies in far less susceptible women than she.

His light brown hair was cut militarily short, yet retained just enough length to let her see traces of what used to be soft waves. He wore a pair of silverframed aviator-style sunglasses that hid his deep emerald-green eyes. At six foot one, he was much taller than she, even sitting down, and his dark blue polo shirt, open at the collar, stretched across a broad chest that proved he had more than a passing acquaintance with weight lifting.

Her gaze slid down briefly, noting his faded blue jeans and the slip-on deck shoes he wore. Yep. Gorgeous. She bit back a groan and deliberately turned her gaze back to the road ahead of them.

“Inspection over?” he inquired politely.

“Excuse me?” she glanced at him, feigning confusion.

“Did I pass?” He spared her a quick, amused look.

Obviously, he wasn’t going to buy her innocent act.

“Saw that, huh?” No point in denying what he’d clearly noticed.

“Subtlety was never your strong suit, Tracy,” he said and one corner of his mouth quirked into a half smile.

“Still not,” she admitted. Shifting in her seat, she gave him her full attention. “Though I rarely hide behind trees these days.”

His smile deepened.

“Anyway, I was just noticing that you really haven’t changed much over the years.” An understatement somewhere along the lines of “Gee, the Empire State Building’s a little tall.”

“You sure have,” he countered and shot another half glance her way. “You look great.”

“Thanks,” she said. “I think.”

He laughed shortly. “Okay, that didn’t quite sound the way I meant it to.”

“It’s all right. I know what you meant.” A gust of air rushed through her open window, pushing her hair into her eyes. She swept it back with an impatient gesture.

She should be pleased, she thought. Wasn’t he seeing her exactly the way she wanted all of the people back home to see her? Changed? Grown up? Beautiful? So why did it irritate her that Rick Bennet was noticing the very image she’d worked so hard to portray?

Maybe because there was a part of her that wanted a man to be attracted to the real Tracy? She couldn’t help wondering what it might have felt like to have Rick look at her as she usually was, in jeans and T-shirt, and still think she was beautiful.

“So,” he asked, turning down the volume on the car radio, “how come you’re making the trip home?”

“Probably for the same reasons as you,” she said. “To see the family. Visit. Stroll through the school and see if it’s as hideous as I remember it.”

“Hideous?” he repeated. “I always thought you liked school.”

“Why?” she asked. “Because I studied all the time, got good grades?”

“Well,” he said with a shrug. “Yeah.”

A natural assumption, she supposed. It would never have occurred to him that she’d spent all of her time studying because she was too shy to make friends and too awkward to attract boys. School was the one and only place where Tracy shone, which had pleased her proud parents no end, but had also contributed to her nerd reputation. Of course, her doom was sealed when she skipped a grade. Not only was she younger than everyone else, but a geek, as well. Every time some teacher had held her up to the class as an example of what could be accomplished through actual study, the resentment level at Juneport High had escalated.

Her one real friend had been her sister, Meg, which had only made Tracy’s lusting after Rick even more awful.

“Talked to my mom last week,” he was saying, and Tracy steered her attention back to the here and now. “She tells me Meg’s pregnant again.”

“Yep.” Swiftly, stirrings of both excitement and envy rippled through Tracy. Deliberately, she pushed the latter into a dark corner of her heart, hoping it would stay there.

But oh, how she would have loved to be somebody’s mother.

“How many does that make?”

“This is her fifth,” Tracy said, smiling at the idea of another new baby to cuddle. The warm, solid weight of a tiny human being cradled against her was the sweetest feeling she could imagine. She’d have to take a couple of weeks vacation when the newest niece or nephew arrived, just so she could indulge her status of favored aunt—and, work out some of her own frustrated baby fever pangs.

“Five kids!” Rick shook his head and whistled to himself, low and long.

“What’s wrong with that?” she demanded, instantly on the defensive.

“Whoa, Aunt Tracy,” he said, taking one hand from the wheel long enough to hold it up in mock surrender. “I only meant it’s hard to imagine Meg—or John, for that matter—having five kids.”

“Oh.” Her protective instincts subsiding just a bit, Tracy said, “Okay. It’s just that a lot of people make a big deal out of how many kids she has. And I don’t figure it’s anybody’s business but Meg and John’s. Besides, who says the nuclear family has to be limited to 2.5 children?”

He chuckled and shook his head. “Not me. I don’t see the appeal in having kids, but like you said, that’s their business.”

“Good, because she’ll probably make sure you get to meet the whole brood.”

Rick’s eyes widened at the thought until he looked like a deer caught in headlights. Apparently, the very idea of being surrounded by kids was enough to turn the big bad Marine pale as a ghost. Still the confirmed bachelor then, she thought with a wistful sigh.

Not that she would ever have had a chance with him anyway. But she wanted a man who wanted the same things she did. Home. Family. A big, sloppy dog.

“You’re excited about seeing the kids, aren’t you?”

“Is it that obvious?”

“Oh, yeah,” he said and grinned at her. “Your face lit up and there was a distinct gleam in your eyes.”

“I’m a very good aunt,” she said.

He looked at her again, this time thoughtfully. “I’ll bet you are.”

Rick had the feeling that Tracy was pretty damn good at whatever she did. She’d always had a soft heart. And, he might remember her as being an annoyance, but he also remembered just how smart she was. With perfect clarity, he recalled how humiliated he’d been to have a fourteen-year-old girl tutor him in geometry. Of course, without her help, he might still be sitting in Mr. Mofino’s classroom, staring blankly at the chalkboard as though trying to decipher ancient hieroglyphs.

Back then, all he’d wanted to do was play football and spend every other spare minute with Meg. She had been his first real love and he’d been sure that they would be together for the rest of their lives.

He pulled in a deep breath and let himself remember the night that particular dream had died.

It was the night after high school graduation. They were supposed to meet at the gym, then drive to Reno and get married. Stupid, he told himself now. But at the time, it had all seemed so romantic. So adult. Suitcase packed, graduation money in his pocket, he’d driven to the gym and parked in the shadow-filled lot to wait for her. Hours passed, and at first he’d assumed she was having trouble getting away. Then later, he’d found other, more complex excuses for her. At last, he fell asleep only to wake up as dawn filtered through the darkness. He was still alone.

Naturally, he’d driven straight to Meg’s. Convinced that only illness or a broken bone could have kept her from their rendezvous, he’d been surprised when she’d hustled out of the quiet house in her bathrobe to meet him on the lawn.

All these years later, he could still hear her voice, tinged with regret.

“I’m sorry, Rick. But I just couldn’t go through with it.”

“But why?” he’d demanded, and made a grab for her, which she quickly sidestepped.

“I can’t explain it, really,” she said as a single tear sneaked from the corner of her eye. “But it just doesn’t feel right.”

“Right? Of course it’s right,” he argued. “We love each other.”

Meg shook her head. “I can’t marry you. Not now. Not like this.”

“When, then?” he asked, following her as she backed up toward her house.

“Rick, please understand,” she said in a strained whisper. “I don’t...I can’t...” She shook her head, turned around and bolted for the safety of her house.

Left alone in the dawn silence, Rick had taken what was left of his eighteen-year-old heart, wrapped it up in his battered pride and gone home himself. The next day, he’d left early for college, spending the summer working as far away from Juneport, Oregon, as possible.

Meg wrote to him, months later, apologizing again before informing him that she was now engaged to marry his best friend, John Bingham.

By then though, he’d already come to believe that Meg had done them both a favor by backing out of their plans. Love’s wounds are deep, but when you’re young, they heal fairly quickly.

Once out of college, Rick had entered the Marines as an officer. He liked his job. His life. And every once in a while, he silently thanked Meg for having been smarter than he was so long ago.

Besides. Five kids? No matter what dear Aunt Tracy thought, the idea of five kids was enough to give him cold chills. Of course, since he was in no hurry to get married, that wasn’t something he bad to worry about.

He’d managed to avoid any permanent entanglements for thirty-two years. Not that he had anything against marriage as a general rule. Rick squirmed uncomfortably in his seat. He came from a long line of Happily Ever After marriages. Not one couple on either side of his family had ever been divorced, and he had no intention of being the first.

God knew, he’d seen first hand just how tough military life was on spouses. Relationships crumbled with sad regularity. Rick wasn’t about to get married when he knew damn well that he couldn’t give a wife the kind of attention and devotion she had a right to expect.

He was a Marine, first and foremost. And not many women could understand, let alone accept that.

“So,” Tracy asked, and her voice brought him out of his reveries, “what are your brothers up to? Have they made you an uncle yet?”

Rick laughed at the idea. “Heck, no. There’s not a woman alive who’d be willing to put up with either one of them.”

“Oh, very nice,” she said, a soft smile on her face.

Had she always had that tiny dimple? he wondered.

“They’re in the Marines too, aren’t they?” she asked.

He nodded. “Andy’s a lieutenant and Jeff is a gunnery sergeant. They’ll both be home for the reunion.”

“And you’re looking forward to seeing them.”

“Oh, yeah.” The Bennet family hadn’t all been together in one place in years. “It’s been way too long.”

“Imagine. All three of you becoming Marines.”

“Not so hard to figure with a retired sergeant major for a father.”

“No, I guess not.” She laughed, and Rick smiled at the soft, almost musical sound of it. Something inside him tightened as he realized he was really enjoying himself.

With Tracy.

Scowling, he told himself to keep his mind on his driving and off the idle fantasies beginning to swirl through his brain.

“Do you remember,” she asked next, “when Andy swiped your bike, left it on the beach and it went out on the tide?”

Grateful for the distraction, he asked, “Remember it?” Shaking his head, he said, “The guy still owes me thirty-five dollars for that bike. I delivered newspapers for months to earn the money to buy it.”

“Poor baby,” she cooed.

“No sympathy from you, apparently.”

“Of course not,” she said on a laugh. “That’s one of my best memories. Andy gave me a ride on the handlebars that day. I was with him when the bike went for its long last swim.”

“You’re kidding!” He glanced at her, then looked back at the road.

“Would I kid about a thing like that?” She shook her head and laughed at the memory. “We swam out into the ocean, chasing that darn bike, but apparently King Neptune needed some transportation, because it disappeared real quick.”

He tried to imagine the young, hopelessly awkward Tracy, swimming out to sea after a bike, but looking at the woman beside him made it darn near impossible. “He never said anything to me about that.”

She lifted her chin, crossed her heart with her fingertips, then held up the regulation three-fingered salute. “Partners in crime do not squeal on each other.”

“Until now?” he asked.

Tracy nodded. “I think the statute of limitations has about run out.”

“That’s what you think, Spot,” he said, unconsciously using the nickname he’d christened her with one long ago summer. “I’ll be settling up with each of you now. Your share comes to seventeen fifty.”

Tracy didn’t say anything for a long minute.

“What’s wrong?” he asked. “Going to refuse to pay up?”

She still didn’t speak. He glanced at her and noted the wide, surprised look in her eyes. “You called me Spot.”

“So I did,” he said on a chuckle. Strange. Where had that come from? He hadn’t thought of that nickname in years. But he certainly remembered the reason behind it. Every summer, Tracy’s freckles had dotted her cheeks and nose as if someone had splattered her with soft peach paint. And, as he recalled, she wasn’t very fond of his making fun of that fact. “Huh.” He changed lanes and spared her another look. “Sorry, don’t know why that popped out.”

“Oh, don’t be sorry,” she said and reached out to place one hand on his arm.

Rick’s gaze dropped briefly to her long, slender fingers against his tanned forearm. Hot, jagged bolts of electricity seemed to hum from her touch, reverberating deep inside him. Mouth dry, he told himself it was simply a normal male reaction to a pretty woman. But it was more than that and he knew it. She pulled her hand away too quickly for his tastes. But even after their connection had been broken, the echo of that surprising sizzle of heat lingered.

He rolled his window down, hoping the cool outside air would work on the sexual heat barbecuing him from the inside out.

“God, it’s been years since I’ve even thought of that name,” she whispered, half to herself.

“I don’t know what made me think of it,” he admitted. But being with her like this...memories filled the car like the scent of childhood summers.

He shifted in his seat again. What he was feeling at the moment had nothing whatever to do with the Tracy he remembered from years ago.

“I never told you,” she said, her voice low and thoughtful, “how much that nickname meant to me.”

“What?” He steered the car into the far right lane. Less traffic meant he could shoot her another look. Her blue eyes looked misty, shimmering. And entirely too beautiful. “As I remember it, you were less than happy with me at the time.”

“Oh, sure, I acted all insulted,” Tracy said. “It was awful the way I used to freckle up after a couple of hours in the sun. Meg always got such a great tan and I looked, well, dreadful.”

“Apparently, you’ve grown out of that,” he pointed out, noticing again her pale golden tan.

“Not completely,” she admitted. “It’s just that the freckles don’t pop out on my face anymore.”

Instantly, Rick imagined seeing those mysteriously hidden freckles for himself. His body quickened and he bit back a groan of discomfort. Hell, who would have guessed that little Tracy Hall could set his hormones in an uproar?

“But when you called me Spot...”

“Not very nice,” he said in his own defense, “but I was a kid.”

“I loved it.”

He slowed down to match the pace of the produce truck ahead of them. “You did?”

“Oh, yes.” She shoved her fingers through her hair, raking the curls back from her face and exposing the long elegant line of her throat. Those silver earrings twinkled in the sunlight. “Don’t you see?” she asked. “For me, it was the first time you ever really noticed me.”

He was noticing her plenty right now, but she appeared to be unaware of it.

“Oh,” he said, “I noticed. Hard not to when you were walking your dog back and forth in front of the house every half hour.”

She dipped her head and looked up at him, a smile curving lips that looked full and ripe and totally delicious.

“Again with the not subtle,” she said, chuckling. “When your mother made you stop calling me Spot, I thought my heart would break. My misery took up three whole pages in my diary.”

He forced a rueful laugh from a too tight throat. “I wish you’d told me that. Could have saved me a week’s grounding.”

“Hey,” she said, echoing his earlier excuse, “I was a kid.”

Not anymore, he wanted to say, but somehow managed not to. Good God, he hadn’t felt like this since he was a kid himself. His palms were sweating, his heartbeat thundered in his ears and he had to wonder if there was some sort of celestial irony in all of this.

Ten, fifteen years ago, he’d been the unwilling object of Tracy’s desire—at least for a little while. Now, it seemed the tables had been neatly turned.

“Where are we going?” she asked as he steered the car into the exit lane.

“We need gas,” he explained. “Might as well get something to eat while we’re at it.” Plus, he needed to get out of the car and move around. Try to walk while he still could.

It was only late afternoon, and they could drive several more hours before stopping for the night. At that thought, he gave a heartfelt, though silent, groan. A motel. With Tracy.

Man. He hoped somebody somewhere was getting a good laugh out of this.

“Okay,” she said, “and for our first night on the road, dinner’s my treat.”

He stopped at the end of the exit and gave her a smile he hoped didn’t look forced. “At least seventeen fifty’s worth.”

“Deal.”