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Summer

Ginny’s awake. Thank God.

“Mama?” Skye hurries to Ginny’s bedside and grabs her hand. “Oh my goodness, we were all so worried. Look, Summer even flew down.”

Skye gestures toward me, but Ginny’s gaze skips over me, as if searching for someone else.

“Where’s Jane?” she asks. “Is Jane here?”

A burning, metallic taste similar to the antiseptic smell of the hospital room creeps up the back of my throat. Suddenly, I’m eleven years old again. Small. Insignificant. A disappointment to my mother.

Skye darts a panicked glance at me, then at Dr. Travis, standing there as if he’s watching a soap opera unfold. This irks me. Dammit, shouldn’t he be doing something, especially given the cost of health care these days?

I move beside my sister. “Sorry, Ginny, Jane’s not here. You’re stuck with Skye and me.” I can’t keep the bitterness from my tone.

Skye nudges me and hisses. “Summer. Shh.”

Thank God, the doctor finally comes to life. “Welcome back. Do you know where you are?”

Ginny squints at him as if she’s trying to place him.

“I’m Dr. Travis and you’re in Dahlia Springs Memorial Hospital. You were in a car accident. Do you remember anything?”

“Jane?”

“No, Mama, it’s Skye and Summer.”

She looks confused, gazing at us as if she can’t quite place us. “I don’t want you. I want my baby. I want my Jane.”

I flinch. Her words are a punch to my gut. I’m a sucker, a fool for coming all the way down here against my better judgment. I hate myself for letting her get to me, letting her rejection matter.

God, I need a cigarette.

Skye clears her throat. I can actually see her regroup, straightening and plastering on that I’m-in-charge-and-everything’s-just-wonderful smile before she looks at Dr. Travis.

“Why don’t you give us a few minutes?” He smiles. “In fact, go relax and have a cup of coffee while I examine her. By the time you finish, we should be ready for you.”

For a moment I fear I’m slipping, that I might succumb to a dizzying spiral of emotion.

Skye touches my arm, and for some odd reason, that yanks me back from the brink. Oh, God. Not another panic attack.

“Mama, you just rest,” she says. “We’ll be back in a few minutes.”

Ginny closes her eyes.

Dr. Travis walks us to the door. Despite my sister’s all-is-well smile, I know Skye’s just as flummoxed as I am because she’s quiet. My sister is rarely quiet.

“Just give us fifteen minutes,” he says before calling in his students so they can watch and listen. It reminds me of a carnival sideshow freakapalooza.

Step right up. See the woman who ate her young and hear the amazing story of how the children lived to tell about it.

Out in the hall, the air feels lighter. Free of the essence of Jane that was crowding Ginny’s room, edging us out. But I still have an annoying ringing in my ears.

Finally, Skye breaks the silence. “Well, how about that?” Her voice is low and conspiratorial.

“Yeah, how ’bout that. We’re here, and only Jane will do. Some things never change.”

She pushes the button on the elevator and crosses her arms. Her lips are pressed into a thin line and she’s eyeing me with that disapproving-mother look.

“Actually, I was talking about our mother regaining consciousness.”

Oh, get over yourself. This act might work on her kids, but I’ll be dammed if she’s going to make me feel like a schmuck. “Look, I’m glad Ginny is awake, but don’t you get tired of the same old sorry song and dance? She wants Jane. You know where Jane is, so call her or go get her or something. Whatever it takes to make that woman happy. I certainly don’t have it in me.”

Skye sighs as if she’s so exasperated she can’t contain her disgust.

Fine. Whatever.

I turn my back on her and, with a shaky hand, pull out my cell phone and dial information. “Connect me to American Airlines, please.”

“What are you doing?” Skye says the words to my back.

“Calling to change my flight.”

She grabs my arm.

I pull out of her grasp.

The airline’s automated attendant directs me to push the number two for reservations. As I do that, Skye walks around in front of me and stands there with her hands on her ample hips. “You can’t leave. You just got here.”

Oh, yeah? Watch me. I long to say the words, but my throat is closing up.

“How can you do this without even talking to the doctor? Summer, Mama may be awake, but we don’t know for certain she’s okay.”

I turn away from her, tempted to stick my finger in my free ear, but the elevator dings and the doors open. I glance over my shoulder at the empty lift. “Go on,” I manage to choke out. “I’ll catch up with you in a minute.”

No such luck. The doors slide shut without her.

“Reservations, how may I help you?” says a male voice on the other end of the line.

I draw in a deep breath, but it doesn’t fill my lungs. “I need to change my return flight to the first available flight from Dahlia Springs Municipal to La-Guardia.”

I give him my ticket information and feel a little steadier, since I was able to get the words out.

“Please hold and I’ll check for you.” I hear him typing on the other end of the line.

Skye glares at me, her chin jutting forward. “I cannot believe you’re leaving….”

“I have a flight out of Dahlia Springs Municipal connecting in Atlanta—” Skye, with her ability to drown out the world when she wants to be heard, starts talking at the same time as the airline rep. I stick my finger in my ear and close my eyes to block her out.

“Would you repeat that?” I say. “It’s noisy here.”

“I can get you on a flight to LaGuardia by way of Atlanta at two p.m. Monday.”

My eyes fly open. “I beg your pardon? This is Thursday.” Skye lifts an eyebrow and smirks. I turn away from her. “I need to fly out sooner.” Or I’ll die. I don’t want to die in Dahlia Springs. “Why not today or tomorrow?” Tomorrow at the very latest. Please.

“The last American Airlines flight for this week left Dahlia Springs twenty-three minutes ago.”

“So you’re telling me there are no flights out of this place for four days?”

“Not on American. There’s not a big demand for flights to Dahlia Springs so we only provide service Monday through Thursday.”

Not a big demand. Surprise, surprise.

My heart pounds. I put my hand on my chest and take a deep breath to calm myself. “Oh, God. I’m stuck.”

“Excuse me?” he says.

I rack my brain for a solution. “Can’t you route me through a different city?”

More typing. My heart feels like it’s keeping time with his keyboard cadence.

Skye’s in my face again. “I really can’t believe you.” She puts her hands on her temples, like the drama queen she is. “No, wait, yes I can. It’s just like you to hightail it when things are tough.”

Oh. I’m tempted to slug her. My mouth is dry, but I manage to choke out, “Now you wait just a minute.”

The airline rep says, “Certainly, I can hold.”

“No, not you.” My voice shakes. “You keep looking for a flight.”

Typing resumes, and an orderly walks by pushing a medicine cart. He’s the first person I’ve seen outside of the ICU. I’m tempted to ask him if he has a spare Xanax in his rolling pharmacy.

Skye throws up her hands. “Go your merry way and leave it all to me. You are undoubtedly the most selfish woman I’ve ever known.”

All I can think of as I watch her walk back to the elevator and push the call button is, No one knows you like a sister. Unless your sister doesn’t know you at all.

Mine’s obviously never known me if she thinks this is easy for me.

I put my hand over the mouthpiece. “No one’s asking you to stay, Skye.”

She turns and blinks at me. “I will not leave Mama like this.”

“Yeah, well what about all those times Mama left us?”

“That was different. You know it was.”

I press my fingers to my forehead because my head feels as if it’s about to explode. “What the hell do you expect me to do? Stay here forever?”

The rep says, “I apologize, I’m working as fast as I can.”

Oh, God. “And you’re doing a great job,” I say. “I was talking to my sister.”

The elevator dings and Skye gets in. A wave of relief washes over me as the doors slide closed like a firewall between us.

“I have some alternatives for you,” he says. “There’s an eight-o’clock flight out of Orlando this evening or a seven-o’clock flight out of Tallahassee tomorrow morning.”

Those are my choices? I take a deep breath and try to conjure some charm, but it can’t cut through the mire of the panic attack that’s been building since Ginny awakened. “Nothing else? Isn’t there a smaller airport that’s closer?”

“No ma’am, these are the closest cities.”

“Considering it’ll take me four hours to drive to either Tallahassee or Orlando and only five hours to drive to Atlanta where I could hop on a direct flight, those don’t sound like very good options, do they? Besides, I’d have to rent a car—”

I clench my moist hand into a fist. My nails dig into my palm. Why am I telling him this?

“I do apologize, but that’s the best I can do.”

Well, it’s not good enough. God, a typical man.

“I can book you on the Monday flight or perhaps you’d like to try another airline?”

I take a deep breath and try to quell the panic that’s cresting inside me.

I lean against the wall. It isn’t his fault I’m stuck. He can’t manufacture a flight. I squeeze my eyes closed and let the anxiety flow, feeling I’m stuck in a tiny box with my mother and sister and Nick. I want to claw my way out. But I can’t. After spending six hundred dollars on my ticket to fly here, I’m not prepared to fork out more money on a rental car, much less buy a new ticket if another airline has a flight out of here. At almost three hundred dollars, the train isn’t an option either. I checked on it before I bought my plane ticket.

Yep, I’m stuck.

“Okay, switch me to Monday.”

Grasping for a coping mechanism one of the dozen or so shrinks I’ve seen over the past two decades equipped me with, I rationalize that it’s only four days, and I go outside for a smoke.

Four days.

And I’ll have the consolation of knocking Skye off her self-righteous pedestal. After all, I’m staying through Monday. She doesn’t need to know I can’t afford any other escape route.

Four days.

How much mental torture can Skye and Ginny inflict on me in that short amount of time?

Oh dear God, help me.