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You must take the first step alone.

I move tentatively toward the lip of the world.

North America stretches out before me like a split bag of sick.

The nine daughter-Muses sweeten their encouraging breath.

And the nine unfolding angels prepare to bear me away.

Bear me away on their white wings to Louisville, Kentucky,

Where I walk across the Big Four Pedestrian and Bicycle Bridge,

Eating fried chicken, right across the mighty Ohio. Right on!

And leaning against the railing, staring down at the water below,

I see a black girl in a tiny stars-and-stripes mini-skirt.

I open up my sick bag and say, Right on! Jump in! By the way, This is exactly the sort of thing that will end up getting me hurt.

The girl in the stars-and-stripes mini-skirt leans out.

She elicits the sympathy of the entire world by revealing

The touching forethought of a sudden matching thong.

I am going to put that in my sick bag song!

I don’t care about the flak!

I’ve got a flak jacket with the stars and stripes on!

The jacket is actually a sick bag,

And the sick bag is a long, slow-motion love song,

That has something to do with the ballad of ‘The Butcher Boy’,

Which ends with the line – That the world may know I died of love.

The girl places a single, shoeless foot on the railing of the bridge.

And then stands up on the barrier.

Take care, I say, and the girl turns to me and smiles and salutes.

My wife once heard ‘The Butcher Boy’ sung so beautifully she cried.

She folded up her flak jacket, closed her eyes and basically died.

I am a small god made of terracotta, trembling on a pedestal,

Interred in a maelstrom of sound.

Look what the little clay god has found, neatly folded!

A jumbled bundle of young black bones,

Secured by a teeny half-digested thong.

I read somewhere that my best work was behind me.

But where? When I turn around, the flying girl is gone.

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The next morning, I stand in the lobby of the 21c Museum Hotel in Louisville, awed by four terracotta sculptures of naked children, by the artist Judy Fox, arranged in a row behind the reception desk. They are really something to see as you check out of your hotel. The little child-heroes are small, scorched gods. They press their young faces against the windows of the iconic roles they are set to play. Look at them on their shuddering pedestals! Look at them standing on the precipice of their child-selves, with their baked and bletting bodies, preparing to leap! Look at them!

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Later still, we file onto the bus and our tour manager counts heads and we cling to our paper coffee cups, and as the bus turns into Main Street down comes a sudden summer shower and someone puts on ‘Kentucky Rain’ by Elvis Presley and I see, through the window, for an instant, along one of the adjacent streets that leads to the Ohio River, under the Big Four Pedestrian and Bicycle Bridge, a group of representatives from the emergency services, dressed in black jackets and peaked caps, dragging something from the rain-pocked river.